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This chapter might seem a little depressing. Sorry, lol but I'm trying to let you guys know how depressed Nessie feels.
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Nessie POV
Later that night I took a long shower and ate dinner slowly. I didn't know what to do with myself. I really needed to hear back from my family.
I took my time going up the stairs, going to the loft and flopping down on a big comfy chair next to a huge window looking over the big city of Toronto. I thought about everyone in my life. I thought about when I was born, and when I sat next to my father watching him teach me how to play the piano, and when he would play my lullaby. I thought about my mother, her long brown curls and watching how graceful she was when we would go hunting together, and being able to talk to her about anything, that special mother-daughter bond.
I thought about my grandparents, two of the most caring and compassionate people in the world. Rose and Emmett, Jasper and Alice, the pack……
Everyone.
All of the memories of my family that I cherished suddenly came to mind all at once and it felt like someone knocked the wind out of me. I started sobbing, my chest heaving and tears pouring down my face.
"Nessie? NESSIE!"
Jacob ran up the stairs and took me in his arms, caressing me and wiping the tears from my cheeks. I couldn't say anything. All I wanted to do was cry.
Why did life have to be like this?
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Jacob POV
Renesmee was depressed.
Days passed. No answer from the Cullens. It was working up Nessie's nerves. She never looked happy anymore. She ate less and less, her cheeks had no color, she just looked
Lifeless.
Almost as if someone had sucked the life out of her. I hated it. I tried to do anything I could, but not knowing whether the Cullens and the pack were all alive or not was getting to her.
She had nightmares almost every night. She would wake up screaming at the top of her lungs and sometimes I had to shake her to wake her up. It was terrifying, and I couldn't help but let a tear slip from my eyes at the sight of Nessie in this state of being.
I asked to see her dreams, but she wouldn't show me.
I would of gone to Forks to see what had happened, but when I mentioned the possibility to Nessie she flipped out and started sobbing in my arms.
Kayden tried to help, but Nessie was in a deep depression, and Kayden couldn't push that away with his gift. Nessie's feelings were too strong.
I hated this. Why did life have to take its toll on Nessie like this? I felt so helpless.
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Nessie POV
A month passed. Fall came and showed the colors of the red and gold leaves as they fell from the trees. It rained almost every day now, giving me a small reminder of Forks.
I couldn't help the feeling that I had. The pain. My stomach twisted into knots every time I woke up from a nightmare, sometimes running to the bathroom and throwing up.
I rolled out of bed and walked across to the bathroom. I flipped on the light and looked into the mirror.
I looked……
Lifeless.
Like a zombie. I had no color in my cheeks, there were bags under my eyes, and it looked like I lost some weight.
I tried really hard not to cry then. I closed my eyes, rinsing my face with cold water. I sat down on the floor.
I closed my eyes again, resting my head between my legs. I started rocking myself.
I just wanted an answer! I thought angrily.
I sat there for about an hour, rocking myself back and forth.
I wanted to believe that they were alive, but I just couldn't.
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Jacob POV
"That's it."
I slammed my fist down on the table. Both Nessie and Embry jumped.
I stared at Renesmee. I was not going to take this anymore.
"Embry and I are going back to Forks. We are going to check on things, see where everyone is, and I don't care if you forbid me to go."
Nessie's big brown eyes went huge. I expected her to flip out on me, but….she didn't.
She just looked down at her hands. She closed her eyes.
"Then go. As long as you go with Embry and not by yourself, I think I'll be able to…deal with it."
She jumped up and with her vampire speed, she ran up to our room.
I ran after her, taking her into my arms. Then she kissed me. It felt like an electric current went through my body. I hugged her tight against my chest, her hands cupped my face.
Before I knew it, my shirt was off. I pressed her against the wall, kissing her passionately.
Her hands clenched my hair tightly. I put my hands on her waist.
I never wanted to let go, but when we were out of breath, I carried her to our bed and wrapped my arms around her tightly.
She buried her face into my neck. I could feel her breath. It sent shivers down my spine.
After awhile she spoke.
"Jacob, though I'm not so keen on the idea, you can go… to Forks. Please, find them for me…tell me that they are alive. I need to believe that they are alive."
Her beautiful brown eyes were boring into mine. She put one hand on my cheek. I put my hand on her hand. She then rested her forehead on mine."
"I promise you…that I'll be safe. That you shouldn't worry about a thing when I'm gone, because when I get there, they will be alive. I want you to dream sweet dreams again, Ness. To see you blush again, hear your laugh. I want to see you happy again. The only thing I can do right now is go to Forks, and find everyone. I don't want you to be depressed, Ness. I love you."
For the first time in what felt like forever, she smiled.
"That's my girl." I laughed.
We kissed again, laying there until the sun set and the stars covered the sky, the moon shining brightly.