Here he was, Edward Cullen. He wasn't a figment of my imagination, this wasn't a memory. This is reality, as much as I wished this, now in the moment I wish it wasn't happening. He's the one, he's the reason to everything. The reason to everything about me, the first person I fell in love with; the first person to break my heart. There are so many things I want to do, so many things I wanted to know; needed to know. I wanted to grab him by the hair of his head and drag him outside, I wanted to hit him. I wanted him to show him how much it hurt me when he left. I wanted to show him what I became because of him. I wanted to tell him about Charlie, about Billy and how much everyone was hurt that I had to fake my own death. I wanted to tell him that I had to run away, leaving everyone behind while taking Jake. Making Jake leave his family behind because Jake actually cared about me. Jake actually loves me! Jake wouldn't have left me like he did! There was just so much that he needed to know. He needed to know how much it hurt me, existing every single day with the horror of what happened to me. Being punished with only memories of him and his damn perfect family. He got it easy, he was able to just up and leave like nothing ever happened while I was damned with this. I never wanted this, I didn't want to become a vampire but because of him I had no choice. I never had choice with him; I couldn't stop him from leaving me, I couldn't talk to him but now I have a choice. I could leave Forks, I could leave him or I could stay here, not giving into him. I looked over at him and he was staring at me, his mouth open. I desperately needed to know what he was thinking, what he thought of this. I wanted to know why it looked like he was feeling pain and what exactly was causing him pain. Was it that I was a vampire? Was it that he wished I had just died? Was it that he missed me? Did he still love me? I took a deep breath and I could smell him, it was so much better than in my memories. My memories did no justice in this, in his scent or even his face. I always thought about it, I always knew that I couldn't forget him so I kept thinking about him, memorizing what I could from my memories. I shook my head lightly, I didn't want to be flooded with any memories right now. I needed to keep my mind as focused as possible or I'll end up slipping up, one slip and I'll become unraveled. Not exactly something that would be easy to cover up.

The teacher came strolling in, a young man. Couldn't be more than twenty-five and was pretty good looking. He looked at me and nodded, smiling lightly. I smiled back, hoping he wasn't going to make me introduce myself in front of everyone. He sat down at the computer and turned off the light, we we're going to watch a movie. I internally thanked him a hundred times in my head, if he only knew.

"Alright everyone! Pay attention because there will be a test on this next week!" He flicked on the movie and I was over aware of Edward. I could feel him breathing, I could smell his amazing scent. Every movement he made felt like an electric current flowing through my body, stopping at my chest. It made my chest hurt more than it ever did before and I instinctively put my hand to my chest as if I could feel the hole. I glanced his way and he was still leaning towards me, his eyes almost droopy, looking like a sad puppy. His face gave away most of his emotions but I didn't understand why he was feeling them. I wanted to scream at him that he's the one that left me! He's the reason that I am the way I am, that I'm a vampire because of him. That he ruined my life, that I stopped living but is now only existing and it's all his fault. If he didn't leave then this wouldn't have happened. Or if he even checked to see if Victoria was around first, or even staying around keeping an eye out. At least not make me follow him into the woods. I glanced around the room and everyone was paying attention to the movie so I ripped out a page off my notebook.

What do you want from me Edward?

I pushed the note towards him and it looked like he struggled to break his gaze from me. He took out a pen and elegantly wrote while slowly giving it it back to me, his eyes locking on my face.

Too much to talk about right now, my Bella.

I gritted my teeth, here he was playing games with me again!

Get one thing straight, Edward Cullen, I am NOT your Bella.

His face relaxed a bit more, he looked almost content! I gritted my teeth while he slipped the paper over to me.

Will you please talk to me after school Bella?

I know I needed this, I needed to talk to him. I wanted it more than anything but I didn't want him to know how badly I wanted to. I tried my best to seem nonchalant.

Fine.

I seen him stare at the word for what felt like forever. He scribbled something, with a pained look on his face.

You will always be my Bella.

I inhaled deeply and went to write but he took the note, ripping it into small pieces as the light came back on. The bell rang and with one last glance at me, he vanished out the door. I sat in my chair, clutching my chest and gathered the strength to get up and walk out of the class room, grabbing my jacket as I left. I had class with Jake next and I had so much to tell him! I needed Jake so badly, I needed him to hold me and tell me everything will be okay. I wanted him to come with me, he's the only thing that is keeping me from running away at the moment. The class was next to his locker and I raced a bit faster than I should have towards it. I needed Jake now more than ever. I seen him leaning against his locker, his back to me talking to someone else. I tapped him on the shoulder and he nodded in my direction, not breaking eye contact with whoever he was talking to. Rage built up in me, I wanted to spin him around and make him see what I was feeling but I restrained. I swear this is going to ruin me!

"Jake, I need to speak to you." I said in a whisper that he would understand. But he didn't even acknowledge me! He put up a hand to me and I swear I almost cracked it off. I put my hand on his arm tightly and seen the goosebumps, finally he turned around. There was a look on his face I couldn't understand... I was confused and I looked at who he was talking to. It was a girl, the same girl that was just in my Biology class. For a second I was worried she was talking to him about me and Edward. I seen Jake take another look at her and it all clicked. He imprinted. It's as simple as that. The way he looked at her, his face lit up like a child's face unwrapping gifts at Christmas. The way he was standing it was like his feet were melting. Me and Jake are over, Jake's not mine anymore. I'm all alone, just as I knew I always would be.

"Hi, please excuse us for just one second." I said glaring at her, doing everything in my power to not kill her right here, right now.

"Bella..." Jake's voice croaked. He knew that I knew and he didn't dare look at me.

"You imprinted." It wasn't a question, it was a statement. I knew it, I knew it all along that he would and here it is, he just did. Perfect timing! He imprinted as I just "reconnected" with Edward Cullen! He nodded, still not looking at me.

"I'm so sorry Bella...I don't know.. I don't know what to say." Jake mumbled, scuffing his feet.

"I'm sure you are Jake. Go have your happily ever after." I said, my voice croaking. I cleared my throat and continued. "By the way, Edward Cullen is here."

Jake's head snapped up, his hands started shaking. "What!?" He hissed. I swear to God I wanted to hit his head in the locker. How could he get upset that Edward is here while a couple of feet away is this girl that he happened to imprint on leaving me by myself to have to deal with this shit show.

"I'm going to talk to him after class." That seemed to hurt him and I was happy. Yes Jake, it's your turn to be hurt.

"Bella, I'm coming with you." Jake said in a matter-of-fact tone, putting his hand on my arm. I grabbed his hand and with as much force as I could without actually breaking his bones I took his hand off me.

"No, you're not. You've got your hands full as it is. I'll see you whenever I get home." I turned towards the direction of the class and walked away, not looking back at him. I couldn't think about that now, there was just too much I needed to do. I sat down in the class next to someone I didn't even bother noticing, looking straight forward. They may have spoke but I didn't care, I wasn't listening to them. I seen Jake come in and look around the class and spot me then spot the seat was taken beside me. His face was crumpled but I could care less! He sat next to the girl he imprinted on and I could tell his mood was back to happy, not worrying about anything else but her. He gets to be happy with the girl he imprinted on, he gets to have the happily ever after ending but I don't! I never did! And I never will. It's not fair! What did I do in my life to deserve this? Seriously!

I kept going over and over what needed to be said when we met and I tried to figure what he would say. I tried playing it in my head, assuming where the conversation was going to go. I knew for a fact that shit was going to hit the fan; it was either shit or Edward, and it sucked because he wouldn't even know it hit him. It would be as if a fly landed on him. I kept thinking, kept trying to picture the conversation. Then I remembered if he was here, his family is too. I had to talk to all of them, I had to be confronted with all of them. Every single Cullen.

The bell ring and this time I did jump, it startled me! How could a bell startle a vampire!? I sighed and brushed past Jake.

"If I were you, I'd get that chick to give you a ride home, or Sam." I left, leaving Jake behind me and went into the parking lot. I tried taking my time going to the car, looking as normal as I could possibly fake. I gave hello's and exchanged smiles with those I passed on the way. Finally I could see my car, and next to my car was them. All of them. It was his family and they all had the same look on their faces. Shock, disbelief, horror. Get over it! It's your fault that I'm like this! I tried to compose myself as best I could and stood next to my car, as far away to them as I could.

"Bella." Edward nodded to me. I didn't say anything, I didn't even move. "I think it would be best to speak at my house." I nodded and got in my car and started it. I herd a tapping at the window and it was Edward.

"Do you remember the way?" He asked me, the pained looked in his face. I shot him the best glare I could, pouring only the hate and anger, not the other emotions that I was feeling.

"How could I forget?" I hissed and pulled out, he was still leaning over, looking in my direction as I sped out of the parking lot. I seen Jake get in the car with that girl and he was smiling and laughing, she was smiling at laughing. I wanted to run into them but I decided I shouldn't. I really like this car. I went down the road towards that house. Truthfully, it was only a vague memory of the house but it was enough to get me where I needed to be. I pulled into the driveway and stopped at the house, shortly behind me the others came. It was time.

So, what do you think so far?

What should the conversation be?

And to one reviewer, the reason the Cullen's couldn't pick up the scent of Bella in the school or town is because she's always with Jake which turns her scent different, which was mentioned when the Cullen's parked next to her car. This actually worked in the book Eclipse when Jake carried Bella through the woods so the newborns wouldn't be able to pick up her scent.

And Bella couldn't pick up their scent because she's never been around a vampire before, if she did pick up the scent she would assume it's from a memory.

Please, any suggestions about what should happen and what should be said or the flow of the conversation would be greatly appreciated!

THANKS SO MUCH :D:D:D:D

Much love,

- Emily.