I was leaving today and depression set in majorly around the house. Matt was sulking around and Luke was so angry that he wouldn't talk to anyone. Finally I had him alone in the bedroom,

"Luke…" He wouldn't look at me," Luke," I walked over and turned him around to face me. His face was hard but his eyes were pleading. I reached up and kissed his soft lips. He kissed back tenderly, "I need you and Matt to snap out of this deep blue funk that you both are in." He smiled and I knew he would. I was using one of my American phrases again.

"I just …I just don't want to loose you." His voice was pleading and it was breaking my heart, "You are by far the best thing that has ever happened to me, and now…now I'm loosing you."

"Hey, listen to me Luke, you are not loosing me. I will come back, but while I'm gone I expect you to carry on. I also want to here from you regularly." He smiled and gave me a much more fired up passionate kiss,

"I'll call you," He kissed me, "I'll write you," He kissed me again; "I'll come see you on the holidays too." I buried my head into his chest and he held me tight to him." Matt had just walked in and was looking at us with a grin,

"Well don't I get a hug too love?" I laughed and let go of Luke,

"Of course you do, come here Matt." He did with a big grin and I gave him a big bear hug.

"You know I'm going to miss you love? Right?" He was still holding me,

"Of course I do. And I'll miss you. But Luke here has promised to write me, call me, and come see me on holidays, and I expect the same from you too." He grinned at me,

"Of course! I don't want my brother to outdo me now do I?" I laughed and pulled Luke into our hug as well,

"Oh…I'm going to miss you guys…" They agreed and held me tight.

Later that day we were standing at the airport and the boys were seeing me off onto the plane. It was gloomy day and it was getting ready to rain, but the paparazzi was sill there none the less,

"Mrs. Goss…I can't thank you enough for everything you did. You are the mother I never had. I am going to miss you." She gave me a big hug,

"I'm just sorry you couldn't stay. You are always welcome here deary. You have made my boys very happy." Next was Matt,

"Matt," I gave him a big hug, "I want to hear all your new songs and I want to see your face in America soon, got it?" He had tears starting to stir in his eyes and he smiled at me,

"Of course love. I wouldn't dream of not seeing you again."

"Don't forget your promise."

"I won't forget."

"Good." Finally it was Luke. My heart was breaking at the sight of him. I gave him a huge hug and we just stayed that way for a long time,

"April, I love you." I only gripped him tighter,

"I love you too Luke. And I'm going to miss you something awful. I'm going to hold you to your promise."

"God knows you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I don't want to say goodbye,"

"Then don't." I kissed him. He held me tight and put as much passion as he could into this one kiss. I held him there not wanting to let go. But the weather said differently. Rain began to poor down. I let go and took one last look at my family. We were under the cover of the building and I took off for the plane with a man holding an umbrella. I was half way up the plane stairs when I stopped and turned around. Luke was still standing there.

"Will you wait just a moment please?"

"Sure thing miss."

"Thank you." I took off running down the steps. The rain pounding in my face. Luke also was running to meet me. When we reached each other we simply locked in each other's embrace and he placed a kiss more passionate the any other one on my lips. Our lips fought each other and finally we caved, His tongue was locked with mine and we didn't even care if people were taking pictures or of the rain that was hammering us. All we cared about was each other. He took my face in his hands,

"I love you, more than anything. I want you to be the girl that I spend the rest of my life with. I swear we will be together again. I promise." My tears were mixing with the rain now,

"I know you love me. And I know we will be together again. I love you, I just don't… I can't leave I just…" He placed a much softer and sweeter kiss on my lips now and held me close,

"Then I won't say goodbye because goodbye means forever…instead, I'll say April, I love you and the next time that you and I are together, and neither of us is going anywhere, I swear I'm going to marry you." I laughed and smiled at him with tears. He was simply rambling in the heat of the moment, but it was cute,

"I love you too Luke. You will be the only one for me." I kissed him one more time before taking off again. This time I actually got on the plane and sat right by the window. I looked out and just as the plane was taking off I waved and blew a kiss and received the same thing from my boys. When we were finally in the air I began to ball. Tears streamed down my face and I couldn't stop. Life wasn't fair."