"That's awesome, Cody!" I exclaimed, hitting his shoulder roughly, yet playfully. "Whoa!"
"What?" Cody asked.
"It's just I never thought I'd say that…I think the universe is really screwing up…" I replied with mirth.
"Hardy Har Har…but I guess any universe where you're a rock star and girls drool over you would have to be screwed up!" he replied, causing me to push him over. Watching him flip over the arm of the couch dramatically made me erupt a laugh. The first laugh I had had in a long while actually.
"Hey boys." mom called, having just walked in the suite.
"Hey mom." we replied in unison, Cody still on the ground.
"Zack…what'd you do to your brother?" she asked with a slight smile. I could tell she knew how much I had been going through and just liked the fact that I was being more of my old self again. And at that moment, that was all that mattered.
"Nothing…." I replied innocently.
"All joking aside, someone help me up…" Cody groaned.
"Dude, get up yourself." I replied, walking around the couch to see Cody crumpled on the floor. "What? Did you gain fifty pounds or something?" I asked tauntingly, putting my foot on his stomach to make it even harder for him to get up.
What I didn't know, was that he was planning something just like that. Because as soon as my foot touched his stomach, he grabbed it forcefully and pulled me down right beside him.
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It was something; having time for my family. Ever since the entire record deal that was placed upon me, I hadn't had any time for them. Not much anyways. And ever since Maddie's accident, I took some time away from my entire career life to be with them. Maddie….I missed her so much and it took my family and time off to help me cope with the fact that it might be a long time before she awoke.
However, I still had been writing songs. Songs too personal for even Percy. And that was pretty personal, seeing as that every feeling that I felt was written in a song that he turned into something that everyone in the world heard.
I actually started writing on the one that I began writing so many years ago when I was just 13. (a/n: this song is earlier in the story…you'll get to read it later in the story and it will be finished.) But other than that song, I completed one, one that I felt would help me, but ended up making me cry every time I read over it.
A sign
A sign that you'll be alive
Is what I need to get by
Beating and beating and beating along
But every time I seem to doubt
'Cause the truth becomes really stout
And I know that no matter what I have to go
I cant watch you anymore
Beating and beating and beating along
Beating and beating and beating away
I know that I cant stay
So I'm beating and beating and beating myself hard
Trying to find a single shard
Fly away
From the flesh where it stays
So I'll keep beating and beating and beating
Faster and faster and faster
To find this the biggest disaster
Tell me is this the end?
Are we going to descend?
And though I feel a part of me gone
And I want to be all alone
They wont let me
And I don't think it's as bad as it could be
Beating and beating and beating along
Because I could not have them
Flick the tear at the brim
Of the eye that saw you
Lying in a bed with no movements to ensue
Beating and beating and beating along
I cant believe that you arent around
The way that you used to be bound
To be everyday
Even in the same way
A friend
Beating and beating and beating along
Beating and beating and beating away
I know that I cant stay
So I'm beating and beating and beating myself hard
Trying to find a single shard
Fly away
From the flesh where it stays
So I'll keep beating and beating and beating
Faster and faster and faster
To find this the biggest disaster
Tell me is this the end?
Are we going to descend?
Find a way to reach you
Is what I want to do
But how am I suppose to find that truth
When everything I do turns to me going back to you
Beating and beating and beating along
I cant stand this fight anymore
Because I don't see exactly what I'm fighting for
There is no me and you
You've made that clear as waters blue
Beating and beating and beating along
And I don't feel I have long
Without you my only one
Beating and beating and beating away
I know that I cant stay
So I'm beating and beating and beating myself hard
Trying to find a single shard
Fly away
From the flesh where it stays
So I'll keep beating and beating and beating
Faster and faster and faster
To find this the biggest disaster
Tell me is this the end?
Are we going to descend?
But don't worry…..
I'll just keep…..
Beating and beating and beating along……..
Tapping my pencil lightly atop the edge of my desk inside me and Cody's bedroom, the phone rang. Sniffling from the tears about to escape, I picked it up…and it was the call I least expected. At least now.
"Zack?" a voice asked. "Shut up!" the mans voice shouted.
"What?" I asked, confused as to why he would tell me to shut up.
"Not you, Zack." he replied quietly. "I said shut up, I'm on the phone!" he shouted again, obviously pulling the phone away from his mouth as he yelled, trying to drain out his voice a little bit. But then Zack heard another voice even louder.
"Don't tell me to shut up!" it was a female voice, and she sounded angry, and I guessed it had something to do with him telling her to shut up. "Give me the phone." he heard her voice sound again, before hearing a slapping noise.
"Zack?" the female voice asked hurriedly.
"Yeah." I replied, feeling both scared and confused.
"This is Maddie's mother. She's awake and she's asking for you. She wont tell us much about the accident, all she wants is to talk to you right now. She seems a little shaken up, but the doctor said that it was probably just grogginess-" she began to explain but I cut her short and in a panicked breath spoke loudly, "I'll be right there!" before dropping the phone quickly.
I took my strides quickly to the door. Mom and Cody both asking questions I wasn't ready to answer, nor did I want to answer as I was in the hurry of a lifetime. Instead of explaining I simply spoke one word, "Maddie." and that seemed to get them to shut up, at least for the time being.
I was sure that by the tone of my voice they understood somewhat, about what was happening. But I didn't care. They would find out soon enough. All I cared about at that moment was getting to my car and driving as fast as I could to the hospital, hoping that the traffic wouldn't be bad.
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Running through the hall, I finally made it to the room where the fate of my future with Maddie was going to be decided. Skidding to a halt, hearing my feet squeak against the waxed tile of the hospital floor, I turned out of breath to the entrance of her room.
I knocked, figuring the family was with her, and I didn't want to interrupt. And my assessment was correct as her parents came out, still bickering among themselves about something completely unknown. I sighed, knowing I was about to have the biggest talk of a lifetime and walked in.
"Nice to see not much has changed, huh?" I asked immediately seeing her expression crestfallen obviously from her parents' exit. She smiled at the comment, yet only lightly, but at that moment that was good enough. Because God knew how long I had longed to see even the slightest movement from her.
Stepping lightly towards her, I held my breath, and looked to her cautiously. It was as if I was afraid that she would fall back into a deep sleep. And when I approached, I felt something that I had missed for so long. A feeling that she didn't harbor the last time I saw her…..I felt warmth. Maddie's warmth. And I smiled knowing that Cody was right all along. Everything would be fine. And now instead of the feeling that it would be fine, it was a reality. And in truth I always liked good things in reality better than good things in stories, because at the end of the day you are still entrapped in reality. And though you can escape for a little while, reality is the world you must return to….
TBC---lol
Okay...I really wanted to update so I kind of rushed on this chapter. Some people have been telling me to update this story next, so I did. This song was a song that I wrote a long time ago but with a little more added to make it go with the story. Hopefully you like it...it's a lot quicker paced than the other songs. With all seriousness I got the inspiration for this song from Panic! At the Disco one day, so I used a cord or two from one of their songs lol...well hopefully you all liked that chapter...