"Guuuys, how much longer do we have to soundcheck for?" I whined. "Rocket, we've been soundchecking for like ten minutes." Kelan replied.
"But I'm tired."I complained.
Kelan narrowed his eyes at me.
"Don't even go there Rocket. I was only asleep for an hour before we had to leave the hotel. ONE HOUR. I'm sure you've had at least 8 hours of sleep. I don't wanna hear you complaining about being tired today, because you can't talk. In fact, if I hear you complain once today, I will rip your face off, okay?" Kelan said, his voice dripping with anger.
I nodded at him before turning away. I knew he was just cranky because he was tired, but I still didn't wanna be screamed at. "Let's do Through it all." I said quietly.
We played the song, and then played one more before we decided to finish up. We cleared all of our stuff up, before walking out of the venue. Today was the day of the show in Florida, and we had a lot of time to kill.
It was a lovely day out, nice and warm but with a cool breeze. We walked out to the back of the venue, where our van, All time low's van and You me at six's bus were, and I sat down on the ground, leaning my back against our van. I watched as the guys through a football around, not bothered enough to join them. After a little while, the back door of the venue opened, and Jack and Alex walked out, followed by Rian. Rian smiled at me before climbing into his van, and Jack and Alex walked over to me.
"Hey guys." I greeted them.
Jack through himself onto my lap and leaned his head against mine.
"Hey Rocket." Jack replied, stroking my hair.
"Can I help you?" I asked, creeped out by Jacks weirdness.
"Nope. I just wanna cuddle."
"Well It's too warm for that." I said, while trying to push him off me. He locked his arms around my neck and refused to let go.
"Jack, get off me!" I said, trying hard to get the lanky boy off me.
"NEVER!"
"Hey Jack, why don't you go throw the football around with the guys?" Alex suggested. He had been quiet the whole time he was there.
Jack thought for a moment, before climbing off me.
"Okay, but you have to come too Rocket." Jack said.
"Yeah, she will, I've just gotta talk to her for a second." Alex replied, helping Jack off the ground.
"Alright, be quick though!" He said before walking over to the guys.
"He's such a child." I joked, shaking my head at him.
Alex sat down beside me and was silent for a second.
"So you don't wanna be with Zack." Alex stated.
I sighed. I didn't know what to say. I wanted too, of course. But I couldn't. I needed to get it through my head that being with Zack would be a bad idea, and it would hurt us more than it would make us happy.
"That's right." I said, feeling my heart hurt. "I don't wanna be with Zack."
"Bullshit." Alex said. "Complete bullshit."
"No it's not. I know what I want and don't want. And I don't want to be with Zack." I replied, trying hard to make sure it sounded sincere.
"You told me you had feelings for him Rocket!" Alex said. "Why would you say that if you didn't wanna be with him?"
"Just cause I have feelings for him, dosn't mean I want to be in a relationship with him." I said through gritted teeth.
"That makes no sense."
"Alex, I'm doing whats right for Zack and I. When we have to say goodbye at the end of this tour, it's already gonna kill me to have to leave him. If I fall in love with him, then it's gonna be 100 times worse to say goodbye. And I don't wanna put myself through that pain." Alex didn't say anything. He just took in what I said.
"Why are you so afraid of getting hurt?" Alex asked. "Cause I've been hurt before, and I don't wanna go back there."
"You can't be scared of that, Rocket. You have to take that chance if you ever wanna be happy. Not every relationship will end with you being hurt."
"I would get hurt in a relationship with Zack. We'd have to say goodbye to each other." I said. "Rocket, I have a girlfriend. Her name is Lisa, and I love her. She lives back home, in Maryland. Everytime I go on tour, I have to say goodbye to her. I won't see her for a long period of time, and I hate it. I hate not seeing her everyday, and yes it hurts, but you know what makes it easier?"
I shook my head.
"Knowing that I'm gonna see her again. And it being more special, because I hadn't seen her in months. I love Lisa, and I would never leave her just because I have to say goodbye for a few months."
I took in everything Alex said. It made so much sense. He loved his girlfriend, and she obviously loves him too if she's willing to wait around for him while he's on tour. I could really see myself falling for Zack, and I think I could wait for him. Not seeing him would kill me, but we would see each other. It's not liked we'd never see each other again. "Do you get my point?" Alex asked.
"I think I do." I answered.
"So, do you wan't to be with Zack?" I thought for a second before letting a smile creep across my face.
"Yes. I really do wanna be with Zack."
Alex pulled me into a side hug, before smiling at me.
"Thank God you've come to your senses! Go find him and tell him right now!" "Yes, where is he?" I asked, standing up.
"The dressing room I think."
"Okay. Thank you Alex. For everything. You're a great friend."
"No problem Rocket."
I turned and walked into the venue, excited to tell Zack how I felt. I wanted to hug him and kiss him again, feel the tingling on my lips, and that feeling in my heart that I got when I was around him. I walked down the hall to the dressing room, stopping outside the door. I took a deep breathe, before opening the door and walking in "Zack I -" I stopped talking when I saw what was in front of me.
A blonde girl was lying half naked on top of someone, moaning with pleasure.
She looked up when she heard me, and smiled a smug smile.
The person she was lying on popped their head into view, and I almost got sick when I saw who it was.
"Rocket." Zack whispered.
I let out a sob as I took everything in.
"Zack.." I said, my voice barely audible.
Tears escaped my eyes, and I turned around, not wanting to see the horrible scene in front of me.
"Rocket, wait." Zack called, but I didn't listen.
I walked out the door and slammed it behind, wanting to leave this place right now. I was done.
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A/N Sorry for not updating, I had writers block.
So what did you think? I hope you are all interested and will keep reading this. I'll update soon!