Well, I'm a bit depressed now... My love is gone for good this time and... I didn't even get to tell him Happy Birthday today. But I'm still going to smile and write like I always do. As long as I stay happy, he won't be let down. Now on to the story.
Disclaimer: BAKA! (for those of you who don't understand Japanese, baka means stupid, idiot, fool, retard and any other word you can think of meaning dumb. The way you say it depends on the meaning... Try and guess which meaning I used)
The fox stared at the ceiling, he couldn't really fall asleep at the moment, despite being emotionally exhausted from having his question answered by Wolf. He wondered if Keith was one of the people that don't like gays. The thought frighten him, he didn't want to lose him. Marcus' thoughts brought his mind to Luke. His cheerful friend (not counting his unclear hatred towards Jacob) always mentioned staying friends with him through thick or thin, he wondered if it was true.
"I shouldn't think of this... I'll keep myself awake trying to figure this out." He whispered to himself. After turning on his side to stare at the clock, he found that he's been awake for a good three hours. "Dammit..." He muttered, soon his stomach growled as well.
The fox got up from his bed and made his way downstairs. Seeing as he the hunger wouldn't help at all getting to bed, Marcus decided to fill up on anything in the fridge. Though it wasn't wise to wander in the household at night, especially given whose home they were in. The fox sighed, accepting to take a stun blast at point blank if Wolf heard him rummaging through the fridge, maybe then he'll get to sleep.
On the way into the kitchen, he noticed the lights were already on and that no one was even in there. He shrugged it off as he searched the cabinets for a quick snack. After a bit of a tough decision, Marcus decided to eat some granola bars. Three would be enough seeing as he doesn't need to eat a lot for his small stature. He ripped the wrapper off the first snack and bit into it while running a hand through his currently messy white hair.
He sat at the table and slowly filled his stomach and noticed an object out of place. A journal left opened and it's contents free to prying eyes. Impulsively, the fox began reaching for it, though the second his fingers traced the edges of the paper. He felt a bit of regret and second thoughts.
"... Only to find out whose it is..." He reassured himself and pulled the entire journal into his grasp. The handwriting was very impressive and sophisticated, so he opted out Luke and Keith. He's seen Luke's penmanship, apparently his OCD doesn't affect his writing. (Try telling that to Death the Kid... Whoops, wrong series)
As he read through the first few pages he quickly realized it was a journal for personal events, those belonging to Jacob Grey. He dwelled deeper into the journal's secrets and suddenly the small rivalry between them became clear.
"Having a good read?" Marcus nearly had a heart attack and fumbled to keep the journal from falling to the ground. He turned around to find that the husky had yet again snuck up on him. He was caught red-handed reading through his personal thoughts and life experiences.
"Um, I-I'm so sorry, I was trying to find out whose it was and... Then I kinda just kept reading..." Marcus blushed in embarrassment and tilted his head down, though in his slumped position he stared up at Jacob. The brown husky kept a slight smile.
"It's fine, you just have the same curious nature I have." He took a seat right next to Marcus and took back the journal. He checked how far the fox read and felt a ting of nostalgic regret hit himself. "I see, you made it that far..."
"Yeah, you saw Luke as a brother when you first met, but after an accident you two now hate each other." The husky scoffed at the last remark.
"The hatred is only one-sided, I could never hate him." Marcus looked back at their little fits, it was usually Luke who started it out and used the foul language, Jacob used more snarky and clever insults, but never really provocative.
"Then why are you pretending to?"
"He won't listen to anything but anger, I find it better to have him yelling obscenities at me rather than never speaking to me again." The fox wondered about his reasons to want to keep the friendship alive.
"You love him, don't you?"
"You won't believe how many people came to that conclusion, I say it's true in a sense, but only in terms of brotherly love." The husky kept a smile while he explained. Marcus wondered about the past for a bit. He was friends with the young lupine for as far back as he could remember up to the age of twelve. From what he read, Luke and Jacob met at fifteen, with the friendship beginning and ending in the matter of a few weeks.
"In such a short time... you two hit it off... Just like me and Keith." Marcus reminisced about how he and the human first started out.
"Both you and him have a nice bond already, a shame he's spending his life with another." The blue fox felt the blood rush to his face immediately.
"Yeah, he and Eleanor are back together... Wait, what are you suggesting?" The husky had a sneaky grin on his face.
"I read emotions and people very easily, I notice the way you act around him." 'Wait, what!?' The tint of red making it's way to his face was currently giving the fox a hard time to breathe and calm down. "You're in love with him, aren't you?"
Jacob reused the same question used against him earlier. Marcus' thoughts were all fuzzy as he thought about Keith. 'He's a great guy... But do I really love him? AGRH, THIS IS SO CONFUSING!'
"I don't know..." The fox responded softly, hanging his head low again. He noticed that today is just full of embarrassment and nerve wracking conversations. "I can't tell, I've never been in love before..."
"Well, I'm not the one fit to give advice on the subject either, well, it's best we turn in, we need to get some rest." Jacob tucked his journal into his arm and left for his room. The fox sighed and quickly followed him up the stairs to his own room.
Marcus stared at the ceiling yet again. He still felt his blush on his cheeks as he drifted off to sleep.
Keith yawned in complete happiness, he didn't know why, but he felt today would be a great day. He put on his work clothes that he wore for working in the shop at the academy. He smiled as he walked out his bedroom door and knocked at Marcus' door.
"Marcus, wake up!" He called out and was immediately faced with the tired looking blue fox. His gaze seemed to be distant and far away from where he actually was. "Yew ok, ya look kinda tired?"
"I didn't get much sleep..." He constantly woke up having strange dreams and quickly waking up before anything could become clear. It got on his nerves to the point that he just tossed all attempts at a peaceful slumber and kept reading through the lyrics of Children Record. He memorized the whole thing but feared he wouldn't be able to use his voice as effectively as Keith's younger brother expected them to.
"I don't think you should go today, better to stay home and sleep than fall asleep in class and get scolded." The human pushed the fox back into his room despite his protests. "Don't worry, I'll have Roy come over to check on ya, he doesn't have school this whole."
The human shut the door and walked over to Wolf's bedroom door and knocked.
"Wolf, Marcus needs rest and mah lil' brother will come over to check on him... Don't shoot him!" Keith felt he needed to stress the last part, seeing as he was almost shot in the head earlier, stun or not, it was still a blaster fire.
"No promises!" The mercenary shouted back at him. The human sighed and made his way downstairs, so far his feeling about the good day were fading. While he ate a quick breakfast of a bowl of cereal, he texted his younger brother his duties for the day and the address to the Manor. He watched as the husky walked down the stairs, senses tingling to duck as to avoid an impatient lupine to soar over his head and roll on the ground. Jacob sighed but smiled at how lively Luke was in the morning. He always had energy to burn, when he was sober of course.
The remaining three left for their classes as Keith explained the reason for Marcus staying home.
The fox yawned as he finally awoke from what he assumed was an adequate amount of sleep. No dreams tried to wake him up this time so he was able to have a full rest. Though he couldn't help but feel lazy that he was staying home only for some sleep.
"Oh good, you're finally awake." Marcus shot up in his bed and looked at the black haired boy in his room.
"How did you get in here, I swear I locked that door!" He was beginning to think that the purpose of that lock was pointless seeing how so many people have gotten into his room with little to no effort.
"You do know there is a famous mercenary just at the end of the hall, right? After a little persuasion he opened it for me."
"What did you do...?"
"I Have a silver tongue." Roy stated as he leaned against the wall. "And I've only been in here for four minutes, not enough to be a stalker."
"That didn't even cross my mind until now..." Awkward silence filled the room until the young human broke the silence.
"So, learned your part yet?"
"Yeah, I got the whole thing memorized." The blue fox stood up and stretched.
"Good, cause I'm changing my song decision, we're doing Lost Time Memory now." Marcus fell over, the night he spent learning the song just went to waste. "Don't worry, I got the lyrics with me, and I'll help you with the vocals. But I'm going to teach you the way I learn."
"And that is...?" Roy walked over and took a seat at the fox's bed, pulling out his phone and pulling up a video while handing Marcus the paper with the new song. Lost Time Memory was the title.
"I want you to look through the words while the song plays, when you feel comfortable, sing along while still reading through the lyrics. Rinse repeat and soon you'll be able to sing the song by heart." He smiled as he hummed to the song, letting Marcus absorbed the original vocals. What confused him was the video, a few strange things happened throughout it. Though he did recognize tow characters, the two that he saw in the video Keith showed them.
"Please explain the song." The blue fox sat back in bed and waited for a long explanation.
"The main guy in it is named Shintaro and this is based off two different outcomes of his life, the good ending and the bad ending. Both start out the same, he had a friend that he loved in middle school that showed him that life isn't dreary and dull, that it can be much more fun. But she ends up committing suicide and Shintaro isolates himself in his room for two years, becoming a shut-in." Roy ran a hand through his black hair and sighed. "In both time lines, he gets an e-mail with a cyber girl attached to it. But after that is how you tell the difference between both worlds."
"What happened next?"
"In the bad end, Shintaro is still grieving over the lost of his friend and eventually stays in the past memories and chooses not to get over it, but the cyber girl, Ene, tires to convince him to stop dwelling in the past." The boy's face became saddened, he didn't like thinking of the bad ending. "He gets fed up with her and ends up killing her, then he realizes that he was afraid of being alone and ends up going crazy, to the point of slitting his own throat with a pair of scissors."
"Oh... That's so bad..." The human boy held up his hand.
"Now the good ending, Shintaro is a bit shaken by his friend's death, but he quickly gets over and eventually gets shot trying to stop a crazy killer from killing himself." Marcus had a blank expression. "I'm not explaining the whole damn plot to you, just the song, anyways. That's when both Shintaros meet their friend, the bad end Shintaro is awestruck but does nothing as she fades away. The good end Shintaro accepts her death and in return is given the red scarf she always wore."
"So the moral is...?" Roy had enough questions and hit the fox on his head.
"Don't dwell in the past and live for today!"
Sorry for another song explanation. Then again, you will see the lyrics though. Anyways, I'm still smiling even though I can't speak to my love anymore. Don't worry, I won't pull a Shintaro and slit my throat. Hope you guys enjoyed.