A/N:

Rin's Age: 18

Sesshoumaru's age: 900 in human terms; 22 in demon terms

'Italics' -- Thoughts

'Bold Italics'-- Conscience

CAPITAL WORDS – Emphasis

Bold -- Flashback

Hello people just as promised this is chapter fourteen to you people out there. I hope it is good enough… Cross Finger. Ok I shan't hold you back… go on and read.

Disclaimers: ………………… isn't it obvious? I don't own anyone of them! Sheesh…

Chapter Fourteen:

'I can't stay here. I have to get away from Sesshoumaru for some time', Rin thought while lying on her bed. It had been two weeks since she confronted him. Yet it hurt her like crazy. The entire two weeks were hell for her. She had been crying day and night replaying the incident over and over again.

She hadn't seen Sesshoumaru since then. She never left her chamber, not even for her meals. The only time when she got out was when she needed to bathe.

During these couple of weeks, Rin had been doing a lot of thinking. She needed to get some solutions before she went insane. She didn't know if she should give Sesshoumaru up or continue loving him. Dammit, why did she even fall in love with such a complicated being? 'I love him because he is complicated'.

Finally, after so much of thinking, she had come to a decision. She wanted to leave the palace for the time being. She needed to isolate herself from Sesshoumaru for a while, perhaps until she recovered from the emotional pain. 'I don't even know if I can be recovered'. But where would she go? She would have to go to a human village, but where?

Then a bell rang loudly in her head. Yes! That's it! She would go to Inuyasha's village! Besides it had been quite some time since she had met up with Inuyasha's mate, Kagome. She would stay there for the moment. They would definitely welcome her there. There. She had found for a place to stay.

Now, there was another problem. How was she going to break this to Sesshoumaru? 'Humph…why do I bother about him! He said it. Humans and demons don't mingle with each other. He wouldn't bother if I want to leave or not. This will be the best for the both of us'. It had been decided. She would go to Inuyasha's village whether he liked it or not.

She sat up in her bed with her knees on her chest. 'If only I was a demon, then milord would have taken me as his mate'.

'That would not be true. He wouldn't have. He loves you for who you are. Make him accept you Rin!', her conscience encouraged.

'But how? He made it clear already! He can't be with me!'

'Make him to accept you Rin! Make him crawl back to you! Make him beg you Rin'

'… You sound as if I have to take revenge'

'… Well yes it is revenge. Make him suffer now and let him feel your pain. Then he will know how you felt and will come back to you. But when he comes back to you, you will shun him! And then he will beg for forgiveness from you after he realised how much he had hurt you. After which, you will forgive him and let him claim you! Isn't that a brilliant idea! .', her conscience said maliciously.

'There is no way I will take revenge of my lord! I can't do it!'

'Of course you can! Come on Rin, you don't have to fight a battle with him! There are other ways of revenge you know!'

'Like?'

'Uh… I haven't think of that yet. I'll tell you later when I thought about it! Bye for now!'

'Mental Note: Kill that damn conscience of mine when she appears again!'

She stood up and marched to the exit of her chamber. She had to tell Sesshoumaru about her decision.

'I have to at least see her. I need to. This Sesshoumaru hasn't seen her for two damn weeks and it's driving me crazy! I wonder if she is still upset', Sesshoumaru, the Taiyoukai wondered in his library. For the past two weeks he had been keeping himself busy, distracting himself from thinking of Rin. Unfortunately no matter how hard he tried doing so, his mind still wandered to Rin. He felt lonely without seeing Rin; without hearing her laughter; without her entertaining him by asking ridiculous questions.

'Keh! What do you think? Not sensing her around you, not hearing from her? Isn't it so obvious? OF COURSE SHE IS UPSET AND YOU ARE THE REASON FOR IT! Come on Sesshoumaru, be sensible for once. Accept her', his conscience said appearing from god knows where.

'Finally you are here. You made this Sesshoumaru wait for two damn weeks for you!', he scowled.

'Did I hear right. The Lord of the Western Land is waiting for my arrival! I thought you didn't want me around! So why the sudden change?'

'…'

'Ok fine! What do you want me for?', he inquired the inuyoukai.

'Because of Rin'

'Oh I see. You want to know how to make things better for the both of you?'

'…'

'Won't you ever answer me? Besides I thought you don't need my help? Even if you want, I'm not helping you this time'

'…'

'OK since you don't wanna talk, I'm off for now. By-'

'Wait! Is there any other alternatives besides taking her as my mate?'

'No. If you want to make her happy and make YOURSELF happy, you have to take her as your mate'

'What if I don't?'

'Then wait for her to commit suicide or to mate with another man'.

Sesshoumaru didn't like both the choices. He would die if Rin were to commit suicide. And he would be at a loss if he saw her happily mated with another man. He wanted Rin only for himself, no one but him! Just as he was about to ask his conscience another question, he smelt Rin's scent moving towards his chamber. 'She's here to meet me!'

He was elated! Finally Rin wanted to meet him. Oh how he was dying to meet her. That elation didn't last for long as he could smell Rin's dried tears and sense her exhaustion. 'She kept herself awake at nights?'

'Sesshoumaru, accept her! This is your chance! You will make her and yourself happy! All the best!', with that said his conscience disappeared.

Sesshoumaru pondered on what his conscience had said. Yes, he was going to take her in. But not now. He would tell her when she felt much better, perhaps the day after. His pride reprimanded him for such a decision taken, but he could care less.

"Just come in Rin. There's no need to knock", he invited her in when she was just outside his chamber in an authorized tone.

He wore a bored expression on his voice, but it was on the contrary on his inside. He was excited in meeting Rin. 'I knew it! She wants to meet me too! She must have missed me'. He was curious, wanting to know why his ward wanted to meet him today of all the days. He wondered what made her take the decision in meeting him after two damn long weeks.

The door slid open and Rin entered. He could feel his heart cracking at the sight of his ward. It was really unsightly. Rin looked very tired with dried tears staining her cheeks. Her chocolate brown orbs were empty as if they lost their life and were terribly sore due to late night crying. Ironically, she was wearing a hot pink kimono which had sparrow embroidery on it.

Seeing this sight of her made him wonder if she hated him now. 'Please don't hate me Rin…please'. "W…what is it that you want Rin", he asked her faltering a little. He couldn't stand the sight of her. It really broke his heart. He was so afraid that she hated him now. 'What if she really hates this Sesshoumaru?'

"Milord…I want to go to Inuyasha's village", Rin spoke her voice cold and determined. Sesshoumaru restrained himself from shuddering. 'This is not the Rin I know'

"What for?"

"…"

"Rin I asked you a question."

"I…I want to stay there for the time being milord", she whispered. Rin pushed her tears to the back of her eyes. Seeing Sesshoumaru again really broke her heart. She needed to get away from him for now. She knew her lord wanted this as well. She knew he wanted her to be out of his sight.

However little did she know that she was wrong. Sesshoumaru, when he heard Rin's request, was feeling dejected. He didn't know if he heard right. 'Did…did she just say…'.

"What?", he barked not faltering even once. He hoped he had heard her wrong.

"I said I'm going to Inuyasha's village to stay with him and his mate, Kagome for the time being milord", she repeated now louder. Then she started again, "I don't know how long I'm going to stay there. But do not worry milord, I'll return…when I feel like it. I believe this is the best for both of us. I understand why you cannot accept me milord. Perhaps we are not meant for each other".

His heart shattered into tiny pieces when Rin said she wanted to leave the palace, leave him. He clutched onto the arm of the chair he was sitting on, restraining himself from trembling out of fear.

The inuyoukai sealed his eyes, digesting on what Rin had said. '…not…meant for each other? Yes. She hates me now…' His heart hurt so much, making him difficult to even breathe. He deserved it. When she had told him she wanted him, he shunned her away. Now that he wanted her and was about to make her his mate, she rejected him.

"What do you mean by return when you feel like it?", he asked in a voice he could not recognise.

Rin, now agitated, gritted her teeth and squinted her eyes at him. 'How dare he acts ignorant again!'. "It means that I may not return if I prefer staying with Inuyasha and Kagome. Besides I need to mix around with my own people since I've been living with demons for almost one quarter of my life! Why would you want a pathetic human like me living with you? It'll only tarnish your reputation and wound your PRIDE", she hissed through her gritted teeth.

Ouch! Yes that was what we could describe of how the dog demon was feeling at the moment. In fact it was more than that. He felt as though Rin had pierced his own fang, Toukijin through his heart. 'So…she doesn't want to live in this palace anymore. She's…she's leaving this Sesshoumaru…for good'.

"What if this Sesshoumaru forbids you from going?", he asked her. He knew she would say something scorn which would increase his pain, but he took the risk.

"Then that's too bad. Because I am going whether you like it or not!", she stated with so much hatred in her tone.

"Does this make you happy Rin?", Sesshoumaru inquired in a soft and vulnerable voice. 'Please say no Rin. Please don't leave me'.

Rin was taken aback. Never in her life had she hear her lord speak in such a voice. 'Is…is he feeling scared? But why?'

'Isn't it obvious! He doesn't want you to leave him. Don't give in to him this time Rin! He should suffer! He should feel your pain!', her conscience stated.

'But…I don't want him to suffer!'

'Hah! Even if you don't want him to suffer, do you think he will take you as his mate? Think! Make him suffer now, then he'll realise how much you mean to him and then he'll claim you!'

'…'

"Rin, are you happy with your decision?", she heard him ask again in the same voice, causing her to come out from her thoughts.

"Yes", she answered coldly.

Sesshoumaru dug his claws into his skin, blood seeping out, at hearing Rin's answer. 'She's going to leave me. I'll…be lonely once again'.

"When are you leaving?", he croaked unable to hold back his fear.

"As soon as possible. Probably I'll leave from here in the afternoon with Ah-Un. I believe I can reach there just after the sun sets. Do not worry milord, I'll send Ah-Un back to the palace after I land".

'Are you so eager to leave this Sesshoumaru Rin'. "I see…", was all he could utter.

"If there's nothing milord, I would take my leave now. I have to start packing". Rin bowed respectfully to her lord and exited his chamber. Sesshoumaru sat still with his eyes shut. He was scared. Lord Sesshoumaru was scared! The last time he felt that way was when he was a pup. But now Rin made him scared. He was afraid to be lonely again after having her warm companionship for slightly more than a decade.

'I deserve this. She hates me now', he thought regretfully. He knew that his ward was now out of grasp. He was late in noticing her love for him. And he knew he could do nothing about this.

No. He wasn't going to accept any of those bullshits. His Rin still loved him. It's just that…she needed time. Yes that's it. She needed time. 'This Sesshoumaru will wait for her return. She will come back to me. I know she still loves me!'.

Sesshoumaru let a small smile out. He was going to believe in that. Rin still loved him. Rin would return to him.

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