We're back, isn't it amazing? It feels great to be back...Hope you enjoy reading this chapter. This was written by me, CassidyTVNut. Italics are from House's dream world.

In theory, I was asleep, but in a way I felt conscious, like I was awake in the first place.

What the hell is wrong with me?

I thought that now I was with Lisa, now that my heart's desire had been realised and acknowledged, Paul would leave me alone. But now it's all said and done, he's still here. I can only gather that he has some unfinished business to attend to, and somehow it involves me.

Could it have anything to do with that dream? It was definitely feasible, Paul being my brother, and my mind kept going over the possibilities, over and over, making my head spin. Throughout my childhood, so many people had come and gone, it could have been any of them.

My mind diverted elsewhere for a while, and before I knew it, I was back in my dream world, the world of Lisa and I, the world of our children. But I knew, although that world had them in it, my subconscious was playing with me, sticking us into the trickiest, most horrible situations and watching my reaction, watching my mind slowly uncurl.

And it was unfair, but I was powerless to do anything about it. My own mind was sabotaging me, and I had no way to break free.

'Lisa!' I cried, my heart breaking ever so quickly, killing me slowly to make me suffer.

She was crying too, I could see it in her eyes. She didn't want to leave me, not like this. She didn't want to take our kids away; she didn't want them to grow up without me.

But she was leaving. And she was taking them away. And my heart was breaking in two.

She turned around, her raven locks swinging around, framing her face and making her skin appear ever so paler.

And she didn't even reply back to me. She wouldn't let me hear her sweet voice, she wouldn't let it sooth me.

'Mommy,' pleaded Olivia, tears flooding her baby blue eyes. 'I don't wanna go.'

'Yeah,' agreed Allen. 'I wanna stay here with you and Daddy.'

'Olly, Al, we can't stay. We're going to live in Florida with Andy, Mommy's new friend,' said Cuddy gently.

'New friend?' I shrieked back. 'More like rebound guy. Or did we overlap, eh Lise? I wonder how long we overlapped for, huh? Maybe 10 years? Are the twins even mine Lise?'

She made eye contact with me, her eyes alight with rage.

'You bastard,' she said quietly. 'How dare you even think that I would be unfaithful to you. I loved you for crying out loud, I still do, but I just couldn't be with you anymore. I was tired of pulling you out of the gutter, I was sick of you putting me down. You never change House, and I couldn't deal with that. I cannot believe that you would be so up your own ass that you never noticed that your daughter has your eyes and your smile, or that your son has your sense of humour and body shape. You look into their eyes, and tell me that you're not their father.'

Realising what I had said was completely out of line and spur of the moment; I broke eye contact and looked to the floor.

'Forgive me for that Lise, that was terrible. And you know what? I know that I never change, you were aware of it when we first started dating, you knew it when you married me and went off birth control to have the twins. But did that stop us? Face it Lise, you're bored of the useless cripple who can't go at it 3 times a night, who can't teach your kids to play sports, to run around playing your games,' I spat back.

'Greg...' she said warningly.

'You know what Lise? Go to your lover in Florida, but you won't be taking my children,' I said.

'Your children?' she spat at me. '2 minutes ago they weren't yours!!'

The argument dissolved, and I turned my back, knowing that I had lost the battle and the war.

As I walked away, I said, 'I guess you can't lose what you never had.'

And then, I began to sing, hoping that the words would reach her.

Baby you're so beautiful
And when i'm near you i can't breathe
A girl like you gets what she wants
When she wants it
You're so out of my league
I show you no emotion
Don't let you see what you're doin' to me
I Imagine the two of us together
But I've been livin' in reality

Fear of rejection, kept my love inside
But time is running
So damn my foolish pride!

I don't care if you think i'm crazy
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad
I've got no fear of losin' you
You can't lose what you never had

Now i'm gonna confess that i love you
I've been keepin' it inside feelin' i could die
Now if you turn away baby that's O.K.
At least we'll have a moment
Before you say goodbye

(you cant lose what you never had)

Rules are made for breakin'
Nothing' ventured nothin' gained
I'll be no worse off than i am right now
And i might never get that chance again

Fear of rejection, kept my love inside
Told my heart I didn't want you but i lied

I don't care if you think i'm crazy
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad
I've got no fear of losin' you
You can't lose what you never had

Now i'm gonna confess that i love you
I've been keepin' it inside feelin' i could die
Now if you turn away baby that's O.K.
At least we'll have a moment
Before you say goodbye

Here on the outside lookin' in
Don't wanna stay dreamin'
bout what could have been
I need to hear you speak my name
Even if you shoot me down in flames

I don't care if you think i'm crazy
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad
I've got no fear of losin' you
You can't lose what you never had

..I'm gonna confess that i love you
I've been keepin' it inside feelin' i could die
Now if you turn away baby that's O.K.
At least we'll have a moment
Before you say goodbye

(you can't lose what you never had..3x)

'I never did have you, did I Lise?' I said sadly. 'When you love someone, you stay with them. You know me, you knew I couldn't change. You said you loved me regardless, you loved me for me. But you lied. So did you lie about loving me in the first place?'

She looked at me, the tears threatening to fall.

'No,' she said sombrely, getting the kids in the car.

And then she drove away, making me feel even more hollow inside. I had lost everything.

I snapped back into reality, my head spinning and my heart aching. My breathing was ragged and the tears were running down my face.

Lisa had heard my cries, and woke up in a flash.

'Greg,' she said in alarm.

I looked at her, tears in my eyes. She understood straight away, the way that a soulmate only recognises in their partner.

'Another dream?' she asked, stroking my face.

I nodded as she pulled me into her arms and held me close.

'What was it about?' she said gently.

'You took the kids away, you divorced me and went to live with this guy called Andy in Florida,' I said tearfully.

'Honey,' she said reassuringly. 'You're the only one for me. And I do not know anyone called Andy. But if I find him, nothing will happen, because you're my soulmate.'

'I love you,' I said, feeling comforted by her words.

'I love you too,' she said, holding me tighter.