Reality
I woke up with sunlight flooding the room and my brother's arm protectively thrown over me as he lay on his stomach, still snoring. Waking up with him near me was so different. For the past who knows how long I've deprived myself of contact to anything living. It had just been me and the blade.
Hikaru stirred and turned over so he could look at me. He didn't speak but he looked at me almost like he was trying to decide if I was actually here or not. I wasn't really sure either.
An alarm beeped and he groaned. "We do have school today"
I sighed. School was not fun. It wasn't like I gave any effort anyway. But I was going to try. I was going to try and connect back with reality and find hope and be happy. Slowly I sat up and stretched. "I might go to the host club today" I whispered, questioning my own decision and logic.
"What?" he sat up and stared at me. I felt him grab my hand and I clasped it to assure him that I was actually here.
"I talked to Kyoya last night. I need to start trying. I disconnected myself from the world for so long and I wasn't actually living. I abandoned you Hikaru and I am so so so sorry about that." I hugged him.
"Kaoru I have been so worried about you. I missed you."
"I'm going to try Hikaru. This isn't going to be easy for me. Jumping back into reality isn't going to be fun and I'm not always going to be here, no matter how hard I try."
He nodded my head and let go. Slowly we both climbed out of bed to prepare for the boring school day ahead of us.
My day wasn't easy. I tried to pay attention but I was so far behind in my classes it seemed to be a lost case. I avoided talking to people as much as I could but for once I stood up a little straighter and even smiled once.
Today was a giant step back into the real world and I was terrified.