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"Oh, yeah, give it to me" Logan muttered.

She was currently faking another orgasm with John. She really didn't know what his problem was. It seemed like he should be a Zen master in bed but he was most definitely not. He came loudly and all Logan could think of were gorillas because of the way he held his arms and the "O" face he made. He collapsed on top of her heaving. She shoved him off and grabbed her clothes and went to the bathroom. She'd been irritable ever since her ride with Cody that morning and unfortunately for John he'd had to take the brunt of it. Logan pulled her tank top over her head feeling very alone. Tyson hadn't called her yet so she'd had no one to vent to at all. She needed a drink. She opened the door and left the hotel room without a word to John who'd already started snoring. Logan sat down at the bar with tears in her eyes. She fished her phone from her purse and hit the speed dial to Tyson's cell. Her thumb hovered over the send button. She didn't want to ruin Tyson's night by crying to her. She was probably having the time of her life. She hit the delete button and sat her phone on the bar. She let the tears cascade down her face. She could almost hear Tyson making fun of her. Logan was notorious for crying at the drop of a hat.

"Whoever he is he's an asshole and he probably doesn't deserve you anyways." The bartender, a middle aged woman who'd apparently seen it all said.

"I actually don't deserve him." Logan replied sipping on the martini and giving her a thumbs up, "My best friend would love this. Apple martinis are her favorite."

The bartender raised an eyebrow, "I highly doubt that he's too good for you, based on fist impressions only."

Logan let more tears fall, "I'm not the girl you take home to meet the parents."

The woman smiled, "Wild child? Commitment-phobe? Or Both?"

Logan stared at her in shock, "Both, see what I mean? If it's that obvious…"

The bartender held her hands up to silence Logan, "I've gotten pretty good at reading people. I'm a poor man's shrink, and my advice, take it or leave it, is that you are your own worst enemy. Let yourself be happy. You might get burned but at least you'll get some good times out of it."

Logan shook her head, "I'll just mess things up, I know I will."

"If he's as good a guy as you say he is, he won't let you, and when you finally let go of this petty nonsense you'll figure out a way to make it work." She said, "You're too young to be this pessimistic about love. Have fun, fall in love, because you'll regret it more if you don't"

Logan nodded feeling all of her insecurities fleeing. She was sure they would reappear but it didn't make her second guess herself like she usually did. All she could see was Cody.

She downed the martini, "Thanks a lot. You really should be a shrink."

She grabbed her cell phone again and dialed Cody's number as she exited the elevator on his floor. She was straining her ears to hear his cell phone through the walls. She stopped when she heard a quiet ring. She knocked on the door. She heard the ringing get louder as he opened the door.

Cody's brow was furrowed as he looked from his phone to her face, "Logan?"

She rushed into his arms, tears flowing down her face as she crushed her lips against his. He was too stunned to even return her kiss.

She pulled away from him and began rambling, "I'm so sorry about everything. I didn't want to leave you, but you were right I was scared. And then I've been feeling awful because Tyson hasn't called and I missed you and the bartender went all Dr. Phil on me…"

Cody covered her mouth with his hand staring deeply into her eyes, "I just need to know one thing. Do you love me?"

She nodded vigorously. His mouth twitched into a smile as he removed his hand and pulled her into the room.

Randy's eyes shot open as he sat up swiftly, "What did you say?"

Tyson's heart stopped beating. She couldn't believe those words had slipped out of her mouth. What a fool she was. Now came the intricate tap dance to try and back out of what she had just admitted. Stupid sub-conscience.

"Nothing." She mumbled into his ear moving her hips slowly.

Randy groaned, "Yes, you did. What did you say?"

She was silent, slowly pushing against him praying that he wouldn't press the issue any further. She heard him exhale a frustrated breath, as he lifted her off of him and to the other side of the swirling water. Tyson had never seen a more confused look on Randy's face. She knew then that he'd heard what she had said. Sudden fear gripped her and made her freeze. Had Logan been right about him after all? Randy stared at her for a long moment. His blue eyes were like an open book and were quite startling to look at. It was like she was staring into his soul at that moment. He had completely exposed himself waiting for her to tell him the truth.

"You said you loved me." He stated barely above a whisper.

She hugged her legs to her chest, "I didn't mean to say that."

The brightness in his eyes faded a bit at her statement.

"Then why did you?" he probed.

She bit her bottom lip, "I was caught up in everything. Being here with you, doing what we were doing…" she trailed off shrugging her shoulders.

Another hit, his eyes were very dim now.

He slowly wet his lips, "So you didn't mean it?"

Why was he making her do this? Why couldn't he just let it go? She felt her throat tighten like her heart was working overtime against her mind trying to prevent her from making a huge mistake.

"No." she lied coolly, hating herself the second the word slipped off of her tongue.

His eyes were completely dark now almost a navy blue if she had to categorize them. Tears stung her eyes as she fiercely bit them back. She never cried about anything, especially a man. She'd never had to fight her emotions so strongly before either. She reached out to take his hand that was resting on the smooth marble of the Jacuzzi.

"I'm sorry." She whispered.

She was too. Genuinely sorry. She saw a wall come up in his eyes. He'd put himself out there for her to take and when she rejected him he retreated back to his fortress. He brought her hand to his lips and pulled her back onto his lap.

"It's okay, I hope I didn't ruin the moment." He smirked half-heartedly.

She was going to bite through her tongue to keep herself from crying. She shook her head and inhaled sharply as he settled into their familiar position.

Her half lidded eyes shifted to his handsome face, "No you didn't."

Several hours later Tyson had fallen asleep in the bed and Randy got up to sit out on the adjoining patio. To say he was crushed was an understatement. It felt like a whole herd of elephants had trampled him. He thought he'd finally won, that she actually fell in love with him. What an idiot he was. Practically begging her to tell him he wasn't living in a fantasy world, that she did love him and wanted to be with him. He inhaled a shaky breath. The ocean sounded like white noise mirroring how he felt. Lost and empty, never ending static threatened to envelope him. He looked back over his shoulder into the bedroom at Tyson's sleeping form. The thin white sheet covered her in a ghostly swath. The moonlight and the last of the flickering candles made her even more irresistible. How could she not see that they were perfect for each other? They were equals in every sense of the word. They had the same sense of humor, food, clothes, sports, everything. He knew she would abandon him probably the very second she stepped off the plane, and was not going to let that knowledge mess up the rest of their trip. He went back inside leaving the doors open, the cool ocean air billowing through the room. He climbed in the bed behind Tyson who had rolled over to her side, nestling her comfortably to him. He kissed her cheek before resting his head next to hers.

"I love you too Tyson." He whispered squeezing her gently.

Tyson who had woken up when she felt him get in the bed choked back her emotions. His words stabbed her heart. Her eyes fluttered back tears as she felt his arms tighten around her. She snuggled deeper into his embrace, his even breathing lulling her back to the beautiful nightmares of her sub-conscience that were filled with thoughts of Randy.

Hmmm...Tyson did a little switch-a-roo there...let me know what you think about that!!