Moments of Life
BPOV
Why was I acting so stupid? I wanted to die because Edward didn't love me, but why? It hurt when he said that he loved his now dead wife, it hurt like hell and for some reason it reminded me of being used like a plush toy and thrown away, like Aiden had treated me but he never admitted her loved me or didn't but the way he acted gave it away. I could cry, and I was, the small streams down the side of my face soaked my cheeks, tears were being born from my eyes and dying on my cheeks all because of Edward. Edward, the godlike man that ruled my mind was now a widow.
To die or not to die? I pick he either dies or I die. I couldn't bare tearing him apart and burning him, the last site of his silky blond hair, the last time I would see his deep golden eyes, his mind wouldn't open to me again and I would die anyway, it would be hard living without him. If he loved Tanya so much then he wouldn't mind if I went and killed everyone at Forks, I hope he wouldn't. He should be lucky though, less humans to worry about if he ever moved back there but still. Why was I fussing so much over him!? I need to move on! Haha, I am going to move on to another world. Yes that will do.
My decision was made, I was going to kill the Forks humans and if I can't do that then I will go to the Wolf pack, they would kill me straight away, hopefully they just killed vampires on site instead of seeing me as different. Oh life was painful, I wish I were human so I didn't have to deal with this sort of life and I could continue on with my own, I wish I was never married, Carlisle wanted me as his daughter still and never went missing and none of this reality existed and Éclair was still alive, oh how I missed my lovely mother and how I still wanted to kill Jasper. Wait, I wanted to kill Jasper, I want to kill him badly. I will kill Jasper but right now I needed to get to Forks and wait at their house, kill Jasper and then kill people at Forks, perfect! I shielded my mind so Alice couldn't see my decision before I moved stalked through the air port, wolf whistles heading my way but who cared? I bought my tickets and headed of to Washington, my Maserati stolen from the Volturi and in the plane, yes this would be an interesting flight in First Class and if this guy gives me his phone number again I will kill him.
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The flight to Washington was boring, somehow I got jetlag as I got off the plane, I smiled as they unloaded my Maserati and I had to head through customs. I just walked through, unseen, invisibility comes in use and oh crap the Cullens. I saw then, they didn't see me but I saw Jasper and smiled, My prey was in front of me, my daughter was in front of me with her soul mate, aha! This is my perfect time to creep Jasper out.
I moved up behind him quietly hiding my presence completely. I was listening to their conversation about me. "But she kills Mike Newton by sucking him dry, a vampire cannot be sucked dry and die, why does he die? I told you you should have hunted that day Ember" So Mike was a vampire? Oh sheer joy. I feel like jumping up and down..not. I walked behind Jasper, breathing lightly on his neck making him jump and turn.
"Jazz?" Alice asked but he was cautioned and I smiled. He turned around, the Cullen's faces suspicious. I moved closer to him till my mouth was almost against his ear. "Do you wish to kill another human? Their blood fresh and unique, the thirst in you growing, hunger, humans blood, everything. You will die for my revenge" I whispered into his ear with a high French accent. I heard him growled under his breath, everyone looking in his direction. I pulled him back almost like he had fallen. "You will die" I spoke again, the French accent heavy and Alice rushed to help him out while others were scoping the area.
I left quickly, my red Maserati calling out to me, I moved making sure people weren't watching as I became visible again. I walked toward the man with the sheets, taking the sheets out of his hand and signing them. "Thank you for taking care of my car" I said with a small smile dazzling him before I sat down. Oh how much I missed my baby girl. I ran my hands over the steering wheel, smiling pleasantly down at my car, she was a beauty from heave, I love her. I love my car. I turned the ignition on before hitting the accelerator, speeding out of the airport rapidly while missing cars. Yes I loved the speed. It was depressing though. I parked my car out the front of my burnt rubble home, staring at it, what the fuck? Oh the bastard burnt down my home to? MY PIANO WAS IN THERE! Gr, I am glad he is dead or his death would have been slow and painful once I would be through with him. I stepped out of the Maserati, turning around and bolting toward the Cullen house, hiding my presence. I reached the door and opened it, they didn't lock their doors, funny. I closed it behind me before I moved toward the stairs, sitting down on them briefly, my head in my hands while I waited for them to come home so I could kill Jasper. So much fun that will be, tearing him apart, throwing his limbs on the ground and setting them alight, burning them. I sniffed the air, the Cullen's were coming closer and closer and closer and there are their voices!
"...How will we stop her from destroying the people at Forks High?" Alice's voice as she opened the door, walking inside. She hadn't noticed me yet but when the others flooded in they did. I had my eyes closed, I could tell when I let my instincts take over they would become a white and blood red shade.
I heard a growl and opened my eyes, Alice gasped seeing the blood red iris. "You ate a human!?" She asked but it came out as a hiss.
"No, I am letting my instincts takeover" I muttered and she tilted her head while the others prepared to charge. I sprung my shield out, pushing the away from Jasper and me, Jasper was now unable to escape my shield, he was mine now. "And for the reason you know Jasper" I used the heavy French accent and he gasped. "Let's move this outside so we don't ruin Esme's house" I suggested holding my hand out in front of me, the sudden wind pelting Jasper, his arms went to cover his face before he was flung outside, still in the barrier of this shield.
"JASPER!" Alice's cry out to her soul mate echoed in my mind and I ignored it. My instincts took over and I growled, my teeth bared as I crouched down. "Bella stop it!" Alice's shriek didn't get past my barriers wall nor did the vampires pounding on it.
"Why are you doing this Bella?!" Jasper growled.
"Revenge for my mother!" I snapped back.
"I can't take her power away!" Damine screamed furiously. "Because she has a mind shield" Ember muttered and Jasper stood up, growling as well before we both lunged at each other. We were clawing, biting and snapping at each other, Emmett hissing furiously, using his strength to beat at my shield. "IF YOU HURT HIM I WILL KILL YOU!" Emmett and Rosalie screamed in sink while Esme was trying to get to her sons aid along with Carlisle, like a true family should be but it made my fury rise since Carlisle was being hurt. "Bella, stop this at once you are hurting Jasper!" Carlisle yelled, I had god damn claw marks ripped down both my arms, do you care about me? Jasper hissed and I pinned him to the ground. I heard Alice dry sobbing quickly as I leaned down to Jasper's neck, ignoring his struggles. He had slammed me into a tree before I pinned him, I had claw marks raked down my arms and chest while he was missing an arm and his body was almost shredded and Carlisle was still calling out for him, not me his daughter, him his adopted son. So Carlisle really didn't want me? Not at all? I was just something he had with Éclair?
"DON'T PLEASE DON'T" I heard Alice that time. I brought my red gaze to me her black glistening one, as if she was going to shed tears but none came. "Stop it, please" her last words were a whisper, she had fallen to her knees, one fist still pounding on the window while the other was at her side, she slumped down, shaking with sobs. I stopped immediately. Why would I take away another's soul mate? I was meant to be getting ready to kill many people, not kill her life mate, it wasn't his fault my mother died, well it was but he was lost to his vampiric instincts, why was I doing this?
A green flashed went through my arm down to Jasper, his body becoming normal again as I stood up away from him, my head down as I moved toward Ember, not attack present. "I am sorry you had to see that Ember" I whispered quietly removing the shield so Emmett fell on his face, the other vampires rushing toward Jasper, Alice wrapping her arms around Jasper's shoulder, smothering him with kisses. Ember looked at me as I rested my head to hers. "I know what must be done since my life with end in this town, I will never forget you but you will forget me" I muttered and Ember realised what I was doing.
"Mum, don't! No I don't want to forget you! Please" She screamed the words catching the other vampires attention before she froze, like a solid statue. It was hard to replace my daughters thoughts, memories and emotions toward me. I was making her forget me and Damine realised it, trying to get past my shield before I felt strong arms wrap around my waist pulling away from her. They were to late, I was done fixing her memories. She was still in a frozen state and I struggled against Emmett's grip, I looked down again, tears filling my now blue white eyes, slipping down my face and hitting the ground, I figured it was Emmett's arms. "Bella why are you doing this!?" Carlisle's voice penetrated my own thoughts. "Bella why are you crying?" He asked more serious now "Are you hurt?" he added, oh nad dah, I don't have god damn cuts all over my freaking body!
"Why do you care?" I spat back in reply to him. "All you did was call Jasper's name, I guess it was true, you really did want to forget me and you succeeded in losing me, go to your son Carlisle since you don't have me as a daughter" I growled under my breath and Carlisle took a breath in realising one of his many mistakes to try and get me to trust him again.
Jasper stood up, pushing Carlisle out of the way. "Bella, why do you feel loss?" he asked, his tone wasn't furious but calm.
"Because I lost a daughter today" I replied quietly slumping in Emmett's arms. He still held me while Rosalie was yelling curses at him for not letting me go yet.
"You haven't lost her" Alice spoke up, moving to hug me but I pushed at the barrier of Emmett, forcing him back.
"Yes I have" I muttered and Alice tilted her head.
"No you haven't she is right th-" Alice was cut off as Ember woke up from her quiet state.
She seemed to take in her surroundings before she tilted her head at Emmett and I. "Daddy, why are you holding the stranger vampire and mummy why are you yelling profanities?" She asked, Alice had sucked in her breath and Rosalie looked toward Ember, not sure what to say. "Daddy, mummy, why are you looking at me like that?" She asked confused, I had planted memories of them that I could pull out of everyones heads so it was easier to change her memory.
"See, I lost the last thing I have left" I murmured, more tears escaping my face.
"Bella, why?" Rosalie just asked stunned and Emmett's grip loosened.
I looked p to her and smiled through the tears. "You always wanted a daughter, now you have one" I said raising my arm and elbowing Emmett in the abbs making him suck in breath. "Now I can die without anyone worrying or missing me" I muttered as Emmett hit a tree, Rosalie rushed to help him along with Ember who wrapped her tiny arms around him along with Rosalie.
Yes, I had everyone and everything I loved and now I have nothing, nothing at all. I put a stronger shield up around my mind so Jasper wouldn't dare feel my feelings so they wouldn't set him off. "Don't worry, I won't kill the Forks people as your vision stated I am going to the wolves" I said quietly smiling at them, Esme rushed forward to try and stop me but she found a barrier. "The shield will come down when I am dead" I muttered before heading in the borders direction.
"Bella!" Alice's scream filled my head but I blocked out all thoughts, I was at the border line in seconds and crossed it, tears still spilled down my face, my body healed and my clothes back to normal. I never understood how that worked. I moved into a clearly and sat down in the middle, waiting for the pack to arrive, my scent when I first came into the border line I kept my scent revealed but it automatically hid my vampire scent when I sat down as rested my head on my knees, my blue eyes open and tears soaking the ground underneath me.
I heard the familiar sounds of rushing paws, the beating of leaves and the breaths of wolves however the figures that appeared out of the trees were not wolves but the wolves in their human form, well actually they would be humans that turn into wolves but there is no difference. I stared at the four figures that stood there muscled and in jeans. All males and looking at me. One face was recognizable, was that Jacob Black? How the hell did he live this freaking long!? I remembered him, I had hidden my scent back then and acted human and he was my first friend, I knew he was a wolf but we were still friends, I had a feeling he didn't know I was a vampire. The other three I didn't know but I picked up their names. Sam, Embry and Seth. Sam I guessed was the leader. "Miss I think you should come with us, it isn't safe out here in this areas, animals attack" Sam spoke up but Jake just stared at me.
"Bella...Why are you alive?" He asked stepping forward and Sam just looked surprised at what he said. "It has been 220 years.." he whispered and I stood up.
"Why are you not killing me?" I asked, my unusual eyes catching their attention and the fact that I had been crying.
"Y-you're the vampire? Where is Ember?" When he said her name I looked down, more tears filled my eyes.
"Yes I am the vampire, and I replaced Ember's mind so she it wouldn't be hard on her when I die" I said and already saw Seth starting to phase at hearing me be a vampire.
"Why would you replace her mind? Isn't Aiden still after you? What if he goes after her? Bella...what is wrong?" He started to move forward but Sam pushed him back and Jacob growled.
"I have already answered your frst question, Aiden was killed, and what is wrong? My father Carlisle wants to forget me as his daughter, which I am his biological daughter, Edward doesn't love me and I just lost my daughter by replacing her 'parents' from me to Rosalie and Emmet. Everyone I cared about wants to forget me other then you." I muttered, my brown fringe still covering my eyes as I looked up to see Seth in his wolf form, Embry just staring. "It is your job to kill vampires. Why are you not killing me?" I asked and Sam just raised an eyebrow.
"Why is a vampire so willing to give up their life of immortality and drinking human blood?" Sam inquired.
"I never wanted to become a vampire, I was forced. Look into Jacob's mind when your phased, I told him the story and I am not going to repeat it. I do not drink human blood, I have never tasted human blood, I drink animal blood and I do not need to hunt as often since I can drink and eat human food on an odd occasion. I am not a normal vampire and I don't want to be a vampire. I want to be human and since I cannot be that then I want to be dead" I supplied the information to Sam and Jacob shook his head.
"I cannot allow you to die Bella" Jacob instructed and I just sighed. Great.
"It is not your decision to make Jacob, you are not pack leader, Sam is" I reminded him and he stiffened.
"How did you know Sam's name?" Jacob asked.
"I can read minds, it is nice to meet you Embry and Seth as well, I am Bella." I said nodding to the wolf and the other quiet male before turning my gaze back to Jacob. "I am one of the strongest vampires now why are any of you not coming to kill me?" I sighed.
"You do not smell like a vampire and are not a complete vampire since you can cry, yours eyes are not topaz or red and you can eat food and water, the rules do not apply for you" Sam said calmly, GREAT!
"So that means I will not die here?" I asked with a small sigh before I felt myself being wrapped in a bear hug. Jacob squeezing me tightly. "Jacob... I did miss you but I cannot stay here" I muttered dropping the shield down at Esme's so they knew I was dead.
"Why?" He asked pulling me away from him.
"I am still a danger to humans and the fact I would be living with a pack of wolves around me..That is why" I said quietly and it almost brought tears to his eyes. "Why do you care so much?" I asked stunned. He was crying for me why? Oh wait..I was like his little sister last time we were together oh right...
"Because you are a little sister to me, you will be fine...I promise" Jacob said staring to drag me toward the others.
"Jacob, you might be a big brother to me but I will not fit in with a pack of wolves" I muttered digging my heels into the ground but he just lifted me off the ground. I growled. "Will one of you wolves help me? I cannot hurt him..." I said and they just laughed but Sam watched me curiously.
Why are you letting him do this!? You know how your pack will react, they will not be happy. I sent the message to Sam who met my gaze and smiled.
You can be some help to us in killing vampires. And Jacob gets his way one way or another. Grr.. I was struggling against Jacob trying not to hurt him as the 5 of us walked back toward La Push. "Hey Bella, how did you meet Jacob?" Embry asked.
"It was years ago when I was looking for Carlisle. I was at New York when I was attacked by Aiden, my rapist, husband and the man who turned me and Jacob saved me and Ember my daughter but Aiden escaped and Jacob took care of me for a while as I was his little sister." I spoke calmly, as if what I was saying about Aiden didn't matter. "The Cullen's killed Aiden" I added making Jacob smile a bit.
"Where have you been these past few years?" Jacob asked, I grimaced.
"Crucified in a metal coffin for the past 157 years until this morning" I said and Jacob held me closer to him. Protecting his little sister, cute. "Jake, any tighter and I will be forced to hurt you just to get away from your hold" I warned and he loosened up. "Where are we going? I do not wish to be stuck travelling with a pack..." I said and looked to Sam but I just gave up. "I am not going to win?" I growled quietly, lightening clashing in the sky at my attitude and Jacob's smile widened.
"No you are not and we are here" Jacob said. I looked up to the sky, when did it become night? I looked at the large group of people, my mouth open. All of the pack was males. I guessed the females were at home doing something. "Jake...how many wolves are here?" I asked and realised he was still holding me bridal style. "Put. Me. Down" I muttered, my tone ice and he finally complied, allowing me to stand on my own two feet.
"There is about 120 males.. and 60 females at their homes" I gaped at him and most of the males were now watching us, Sam and Embry just grinning while Seth moved in within the crowd.
"This is the biggest pack I have met and you bring me here!? WHY DIDN'T YOU JUST KILL ME IN THE CLEARING!" I screeched at him, my blue white eyes staring through him like daggers. I turned quietly looking at the pack, their faces had changed to mean looking.
"You were the vampire" one of them said and I just gave him nod. He growled.
"I can growl to wolf" I muttered before looking at Jake. "Well at least I will probably be killed here since you couldn't bloody do it." I hissed and heard some whispers about me from some of the pack. "For crying out loud if you wolves are going to talk about me or Jacob then say it out loud and don't be a coward!" I yelled over the crowd and Sam sighed. "Why are you sighing?" I asked curiously.
"Because some of the comments are saying you and Jacob are together and have had a small past together" Sam said giving the hint of the Boy friend and Girl Friend relationship and I stared at the people.
"You all have sick minds" I responded quickly and got a few laughs before I saw Mike pushing through the crowd, I was suddenly confused. "Aren't you meant to be a vampire Mike?" I asked tilting my head to the left.
"No, he wasn't turned, no venom got into him, he is actually a wolf and I would hide if you don't want to have an arm wrapped around your waist" Jacob warned moving away from me as Mike was suddenly next to me, his lips against my hair and his arm snaked around my waist.
"You just said arm around waste Jacob. Grr" I said doing a fake growl before looking at Mike giving a real growl. "Remember the last time you did this and remember what happened?" I asked and he moved his lips away from my hair.
"Yes I do but I am stronger now and what makes you any different from other vampires that I am allowed to keep you?" I hissed furiously at him, bearing my teeth.
"You do not get to keep me, I did not want to be here but Jacob wouldn't let me go and the reason is because I can cry tears, my eyes are not topaz or red and I can eat human food and drik animals ok? Now let me go or I will use my bloody vampire strength to kick you again" I growled but his arm tightened around my waist. "Jacob Black, you are going to pay for this" I hissed before turning to my side, Mike pulled my chest to meet his own attempting to kiss me like he did years ago and I hissed. I raised my knee, he let go and moved back out of the way and I smiled. "Shouldn't have done that" I said ad as revenge I used my foot and snapped it up, coping Jacob between the legs with a loud crack, he was lifted into the air and Jacob winced. "No touching" I hissed before moving to Jacob, cheers erupted from the wolves. "Why are they accepting me?" I asked looking up at him calmly, a curious look on my face.
"Because you're not a normal vampire but since they cannot kill you they will accept you and you will help us kill vampires. Also most girls fall over Mike and you just broke his pelvis in three places just by kicking him in the balls." I laughed at that and hugged him. So I am accepted somewhere, as long as I am accepted I will live and go to the High School here. I scanned the amount of 120 males, most of them were adults and around 30 or 40 were between 17 and 19 by the looks of it. "Now since you are a new member of our pack we want to hear your story of your life and by the fact you look 16" One of the older members spoke and I sighed looking up at Jacob.
"Fine. When I was 16 I was married off to a man who happened to become a vampire, his name Aiden. My father Carlisle Cullen had gone missing one night and no one could find him. My house maid came to tell me and then was dead, I was about to go look for Carlisle and Aiden didn't like the idea, he was thirsty and I didn't know he was a vampire. When he raped me he bit me causing me to change but I also gave birth to a daughter. I woke up one day found a little girl staring at me since vampire babies age quicker than human babies. I was a new born and my mother was knocking on the door, she was a new born. None of my family, Éclair who was my mother and Ember my daughter or me had tasted human blood, it was wrong to hunt what I once was so we fed f animals. During the years after that Aiden had caught me a few times, raped me, then Ember and Éclair saved me and we were looking for Carlisle when we found him I found out he wanted to forget me and had replaced me with two other vampire girls, Alice and Rosalie. Jasper killed my mother when she was protecting a human from being hurt and the human ended up doing suicide right on the spot, I almost killed Jasper well wanted to. I ended up having Edward live with me, found my feelings for him and went to school for the first time in years and Mike here made my life a living hell and I kicked him between the leg twice, once in front of his friends when he was trying to kiss me and again in front of most of the school when he tried again. I left infuriated, Aiden came back when I went to my house raped me, left to burn down my house and was killed my the Cullen's, I was crucified to a cross and chucked into the sea in a metal coffin for 157 years and was released today to find out the man I loved got married, I killed his wife, he didn't love me, I came back here to die by either killing people at Forks High and being killed by the Volturi or coming here to be killed by the wolves but before I did I edited my daughters mind so she forgot about me and thought only of Rosalie and Emmett as parents and you know the rest, Jake can fill you in on the bits with him." Well that was long, I didn't need to breath ha. I hadn't told Jacob the being raped again bit and he seemed a little furious that he wasn't there to protect me. "And all of you with wives at home, stop getting images of fantasies with me in your head because I can read your mind" I said calmly and their mouths opened. "I can control the elements as well and I have a shield for my mind and physical attacks" I muttered and they were quiet. "Umm...its nice to meet you all?" I asked since it was an awkward silence before Mike came up to hug me. "No" I said pushing him away. "I will probably like everyone here but you and you know it Mikinizer, and why such a lame name?" I chuckled and smiled at Jacob, the male who I wanted to be my older brother. "Also just a warning, if any of you imprint of me, I will kill you and believe me I will die trying" I said with a small cute smile, dazzling them like normal.
I am sure I will like it here while I can.