The class goes by as it did before, with no one noticing me. I don't really care though, as I distractedly draw a little in the margin of my paper. No one notices it, and I wonder how long class will drag on.

After what seems like forever, the bell rings and I gather up my things. I notice the teacher giving me a worried look as I leave. I try to ignore it, but it's kind of hard to.

"Hey, there you are!"

I look around and see Gil come up to me with a smile.

"How was class?" he gently asks me. I shrug a little.

"OK, I guess..."

He gently puts an arm over my shoulders. "Don't sound like it was."

"It was normal, so it was fine."

"Normal for you or a normal person?"

I shrug a little.

"You then. Alright then." He holds me close in a protective way. "Alright."

He walks me to my next class, making sure to keep me close and safe from people.

"here we are." he tells me as we get to the next classroom. "same thing as before, but I'll be right across the hall this time." I nod a little and he brings me in the class, talking to the teacher again. I have to remember to ask him about that later. He waves a little when he's done and leaves. I softly sigh a little as I take my seat and get ready for the lesson.

Unfortunately, this period goes by just like the last one did. and afterwards, Gil takes me to my next class and talks to my teacher again. that continues until lunch.

"And how was this class?" Gil asks as he wraps his arm around me again and starts bringing me to lunch.

"Same as the other ones." I softly tell him.

He sighs softly. "Well, do you know if you have to go meet with that lady again?"

I shrug a little.

"well, we should go see her."

"w-/we/?"

"yeah, we."

"b-but-"

"Hey, don't worry about it."

I don't have much of a choice as he brings me to the building from two days ago. "Now...which door?"

I pause a minute before pointing shyly to the door. Gil nods and walks up to the door, pulling me along. He knocks on the door. The same girl opens the door, but with her hair down this time.

"Gil? What are you doing here?"

He pushes me in front of him. "Mattie."

"Matthew. Why didn't you come back?"

Before I can answer, Gil does for me. "He was in no condition to go anywhere two days ago. And yesterday, I, uh, kinda took him somewhere."

"you did?" she sighs and shakes her head. "you know you have to leave, though, right Gil?"

He holds me close in that protective way again and I can tell he's glaring at her.

"no way am I leaving him, Macy."

So she must be Macy. She looks at him. "so, you won't leave at all then, will you?"

"No."

"is it fine if he comes with you?" Macy asks me. I silently nod a little. "alright, come on then." She leads us both into the same room as before, and Gil makes himself comfortable on the sofa, bringing me with him.

GIL POV

I hold Mattie close as I sit on one of Macy's sofas. I had seen her a while ago a lot, but this time she wasn't going to scold me for drinking. So that's good.

She sat down across from us.

"have you two had any lunch yet?"

"nope." I tell her.

"What would you like?"

I shrug. "whatever. It doesn't matter."

"Matthew?"

"I'm not hungry." he quietly says. She only sighs a little and gets up.

"I'll be right back with something." and she leaves.

I look over at Mattie. "what do you mean you're not hungry? You haven't eaten in a while. You /have/ to be hungry." Mattie only shakes his head and I frown.

"why are you doing this? This isn't good for you."

"it doesn't matter if it is." he mumbles.

"Yes it does. I don't want anything bad to happen to you. Mentally. Physically. Or emotionally."

"Well, you're too late for that."

"to late to prevent it happening the first time. Not too late to fix it and prevent it from happening again."

He remains silent, staring at the ground. I hold him close again.

"everything's gonna be ok. Can't you just accept that?"

He slowly shakes his head.

"and why not?"

Before he can answer, Macy comes back with some sandwiches.

"I brought a few for you too, Matthew."

Mattie just nods a little.

"Thanks, Macy." I grab a sandwich and happily eat it, then grab another. I take Mattie's hand with my arm that's still around him and put the sandwich in his hand.

He looks up at me and quietly protests. "Gil.."

"No, you have to eat something."

He just shakes his head again. Macy softly sighs.

"Gil, let it go."

"But-"

"Gil." she sternly says.

I sigh and grumble a little. "Fine. Starve if you want."

He gently sets the sandwich back on the plate and looks back down at the sofa.

"Matthew, are you going to actually talk with him here like this?"

"of course he will!" I automatically say.

"Gil, I wasn't asking you."

"But I'm too awesome for him not to."

"Gil, leave."

"But-"

"Leave. I need to talk to Matthew alone. But, please stay in another room. I need to talk with you afterwards."

"...Fine." I let go of Mattie and get up, taking another sandwich with me as I leave.

It takes forever, but when she's finally finished, only she comes out.

"where's Mattie?"

"he's still in there."

"why?"

"because I need to talk to you."

"can't you talk to me with him?"

"it's about him."

"so why can't we talk with him?"

"...Gil, I don't think you're the best person for him to be hanging around with."

I'm a little taken aback. "what? Of course I am!"

"no, look, I don't think you understand this."

"I understand he wants to die and I want to help him be ok."

"I know you want to help, but you're not. I know you're not meaning to, but I think you're making it worse. He barely talked, wouldn't eat. Not that he did before, but just nothing. Please, just stop hanging around him."

I look at her, slightly dazed. I'm making Mattie's life worse? But I was helping him. I was gonna get him to be happy. Happy, dammit! And now she's telling me I can't even do that?

"no." I tell her. "I can't do that."

"you want him to get better though, right?" I nod. "and you would do anything to make him better, right?"

"of course I would!"

"then, I think it would be in his best interest if you stayed away from him, ok?"

"but...why?"

"because he will only get worse if you're around him."

I'm silent for a minute, looking down. "so...if I stay away from him...he'll be better?"

She nods. "yes. He will."

"Dammit...dammit...VERDAMNEN!" (...dammit. but I most likely spelt it wrong since I've only heard it ^^;; ))

I try to wrap this around my head, then ask, "what does he want? Does he want me to leave him alone?"

"when I brought it up all he did was shrug."

"shrug. Shrug. All he did was shrug. H-he doesn't know."

"do you want to talk to him first for a few mo-"

Before she even finishes I rushed into the room and locked the door so she couldn't separate me from him. I turn to look at him, slouching as he sits, elbows on his knees as he looks down at his hands, his hair falling over his face, looking so sad.

I slowly go up to him, staying in front of him.

"Mattie?" I softly ask.

He slowly looks up at me.

"d-do you want me to stay with you? Because if you don't want me around anymore, then I'll leave you alone, I promise."

He only stays silent.

"please tell me."

"I...I don't know..."

"you...you don't..." I glare at him, and then my words come out bitter. "fine. I won't be around you anymore. All I wanted to do was help." and then I storm off, ignoring whatever Macy was trying to tell me.

I start walking to the tree I usually hand out by and pull out my phone calling Toni. Once he picks up, I only say three words. "Bring it all." I hang up an put my phone back in my pocket. When I get to the tree I sigh and slide down the trunk and sit on the ground.

"all I wanted to do was help him and now I can't..."