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I glared at him. All I could think about was the time he left me...left us...and everything went wrong

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My eyes barely slit open. The light peeked through the curtains, blinding me...then I sat up straight, quickly. The time! I glanced at my clock...6:56! Dad's train left at 7:00... I looked outside and it was snowing again. I coughed harshly and covered my mouth. I had a fever for what seemed almost three weeks.

"Honey...?" called a warm voice. Mom stepped in and sat beside me, on the edge of my bed, feeling my forehead. I couldn't see at first, but upclose...her cheeks were streaked with tears. My heart sank, I knew it...he was already gone. I scrambled out of bed and ran out the door. "Edward, wait! Your too sick!" She called after me, but I was already outside, sprinting toward the trainstation. I weezed for air but, pushed myself on...hoping I could stop him...somehow. The train was in sight, and leaving. As soon as I reached the platform, I jumped onto the tracks, trying my best to catch up with the train...I tripped and fell forward in the snow. Coughing and trying to gasp lungfulls of air, I sat up and watched the train leave...watched him leave, as the snow fell all around me. 'I tried to stop him...i-i tried...but i-i wasn't fast enough...I let my family down...' I thought. Tears fell down my cheeks...knowing that it was up to me to keep the Elrics from falling apart...

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I squeezed his wrist more until a look of pain began to creep across his face

Yes, make him suffer...make him feel the pain that he caused you for sixteen years! GET REVENGE FOR WHAT--!

Everything went silent...I could see dad mouthing my name...then I thought for a minute...what would I gain if I killed him? My grip loosened...revenge...was it really worth it? What would Al think of me...? Al...his words haunted my every thought. My arms fell by my sides, and I let go of my anger...submitting to my broken heart. I looked at the window's reflection, my eyes were back to gold and my hair was blonde again. I stared at the floor my mind was mulling over thoughts like 'The reason I'm like this, is because I didn't do the right thing' or 'Al hates me...for who I am and for what I did to him'. I choked on my tears, and I started to run out the door.

"Ed, w-wait!" he called. I stopped, facing the door with my back turned to him.

"What!" I croaked. I didn't want him to see me like this, in fact...I didn't want him to see me at all.

"Tell me...what happend to you ?" he asked. I slowly turned around, even though I knew my face was streaked with tears.

"Why don't you answer me this? Do you have any idea what happend when you left!...any idea how many things went wrong!" I asked, holding up my right arm and pulling down the sleeve. "And another thing...why did you leave us?...why did you leave me...?" I let my arm fall, regretfully. He looked down...and he was silent. I decided to tell him about what happend...

"Fine...then, you want to know what happend to me! I'll tell you!" I paced the room quickly wiping away my tears with the back of my left hand. "Right after you left...mom got sick...and everyday I didn't want to admit to Al or myself that she was dying...but I knew perfectly well...that she was...and after she did Al was scared, afraid of how we were going to survive with you and her! So I promised myself...('And al...' I thought) that i-i..." I trailed off. "That i-i..." I tried to find my words but I couldn't, Al's voice pierced through me, distracting me. "That i-i wouldn't...let anything...bad...happen...to him..." I choked, feeling emensily. I slowly stopped pacing, and tears threatened to fall again.

"A-and...i-i broke..." I croaked and fell to my knees. "I-i broke it...I-i broke him...attaching him to that stupid armor...as an act of selfishness..I-i just didn't want to be the Elric left...It really is all my fault..." I whispered. I had a mixed feeling inside of me...I wanted him to leave...but I didn't want to be alone...even though...I am alone...I stared at the back of my rght hand. An image of Al with is back turned to me raced in my mind. "I-i'm so...sorry...i-i truly am..." I thought and I squeezed my eyes shut. Another image of Al in the armor flashed in my mind. I felt the tears starting to fall.

I shuddered when arm was placed around my shoulders and I looked up at him...my father whose eyes were full of concern and sorrow.

"You performed...A Human Transmutation...?" he asked calmly. I slowly nodded and looked away, wanting to disappear.

"i-i'm sorry, Al...and i-i know you'll never forgive me for what I did to you..." I muttered. Dad was kneeling beside me, and he pulled me into an embrace.

Hold on to your family, Edward...while you still have them...

"I will not let you hurt any of my family or friends..." I thought.

oh, but you misunderstand..I will not kill them...you will...

END CHAPTER: FATHER, HOME