Still and Always
Throughout the last weeks, writing about you was one of the most difficult things I had to do. It's cathartic to finally be able to allow myself to think about you again. It hurts yet it makes me smile at the same time. I have come to dredge many memories of you, some I have shared and many others I would like to keep between us. This will be the last blurb I am going to write about you before I return to my solitude.
Some people live different lives in their lifetime. Some people live differently in every lifetime. But I wonder if you love the same person in all those lifetimes? Maybe I have loved you before (I wonder how that went) or maybe I have always been in love with you in different lifetimes. Maybe I have to find you and fall in love with you over and over again.
If I were to believe that people are born over and over again, then you would be my soulmate and maybe next time we will get it right. But if this lifetime is all we have, then I guess I just have to content myself with the knowledge that I loved you as much as I could and that no matter what the future has in store for us, a part of me would always belong to you, just as I feel that a part of you would always be mine.
So until then, I love you, still and always.