"I'm ok Meg, really" Cas states as he rubs my back. I sigh and finally let him go from the death grip hug I had him in. "You scared the hell out of me" I state as he lifts his hand up and wipes a tear off of my cheek with his thumb. "What happened? Last thing I remember is Holly stabbing me" Cas states, looking from me to Dean. "Yeah, that is what I remember too. How the hell is Cas ok?" Sam questions. I look at Dean and he nods "Well, I promised Holly that she could live if she saved Cas, so she did" Dean started "and then you killed her anyway?" Cas asked with his eyebrow raised. "No, I did!" I replied back to him. Cas looks over at me "So you betrayed her?" "Yes, I did….demon remember?" I say with a huge smile, causing Dean to chuckle to himself. "Well as long as you all are safe" Cas continues. Dean laughs and pulls Cas to him "I missed you Buddy" he says, patting Cas on his back. "I missed you too Dean" he replies as Dean lets go of him and he and Sam share an awkward hug. "Boy's do you all need a room?" I ask with a smile. "We already have a room?" Cas states quizzically causing me to burst out laughing, joined by Dean and Sam.
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"I'm glad you called us Meg. I was really starting to worry about Cas. But what I don't understand is why you didn't call me yourself?" Dean asks Cas from the edge of the bed that he was sitting on, after we had finished cleaning up the room as best as we could. "I didn't want to burden you with my problems. I only ran into Meg by accident." Cas starts "Cas, you are not a burden, you are family!" Dean replies back and then looks at me. "And Meg, how is it that you are alive anyway? We both saw you get stabbed with the angel blade" he continues. I just shake my head and fill them in on how I have no clue how I got there. Dean and Sam both nod in understanding, both brothers being far too aware of being brought back from the dead and not understanding how. "So, are you going to come with us?" Dean asks after a long silence, looking at Cas. "I am not sure" he replies as he looks over at me. I turn my head away, not able to make eye contact. I just lost him, very damn close to for good, but the same issues I had with him staying with me before are still there. Dean and Sam look from me to Cas and it seems to dawn on both of them at the same time what has gone on between us. "Meg, can I talk to you for a moment outside?" Sam asks. I stand and follow him outside. We both lean up against the impala "Ok, so what is really going on here?" Sam asks. "Nothing, I just need him gone, he is cramping my style Winchester" I reply back as nonchalantly as I can. Sam lays his head back with a laugh "Please Meg! I know there is nothing you wouldn't do for him….Your unicorn remember. Now spill" I sigh "I can't have him here. He is so good, so sweet, so innocent, especially now with this whole being human thing. I will only hurt him. And I can't hurt him, I can't" I say, getting louder and louder "He is everything Sam, and I cannot do that" Sam nods "I understand, but don't you think Cas should get a choice in this? He is very big on free will you know" I smile, remembering him telling Holly how it was his will to care about me. "It's not that simple Sam and you know it" I reply. "Your right, it's not that simple, nothing worth having is. And you can do everything in your power to keep somebody safe, but they can still get hurt, so you might as well be happy while your doing it" Sam states as he places his hand on my arm. I nod, knowing what he is saying is right. "How about we give you both tonight? We will get another room and if you want to come with us in the morning, both of you are welcome." I look at him with a raised eyebrow "both of us?" Sam smiles and nods "Yes, both of you"
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"Cas, you slept with Meg, you dog!" Dean says with a smile after Sammy and I had left the room. "we did more than just sleep" Cas states, causing Dean to laugh hysterically. "It's not funny, I care deeply about her and now she wants me to leave. I don't know what I did wrong or what I did to make her angry with me" he continues as he sits down with a flop on the chair. "Oh you didn't do anything man, this is all Meg. Demons….can't live with em, can't sleep with em" Dean says with a smile as he nudges Cas' arm "I don't understand that reference" Cas says with a sigh. Dean smiled more. "It just means that she is scared." He starts. "Meg is not scared of anything" Cas says, looking at Dean. "Yes she is, she is scared of you. Now don't get me wrong, I don't understand this whole Megstiel thing you both got going on right now, but when you died, I have never heard a scream like that before. That girl cares a lot about you man" Dean states as he pats Cas's arm as Sam and I walk in. "Dean, we are going to get a room and leave in the AM, if that is cool" Sam asks, passing Dean a knowing smile. "Sounds good, you two work this out and we will see you in the AM" Dean says with a grin as he grabs his jacket and heads toward the door. 'Wait, don't you both want to hang out…." I start to say as the door slams behind them. "Dammit" I say softly as I turn to see Cas standing there, just looking at me intently with those amazing, crystal blue eyes.