Disclaimers: I own nothing apart from my spelling mistakes. If you really feel like suing me, all you'll get out of it is a fat cat and a five-year-old brother who's been singing 'Who Let the Dogs Out' –which I do not own either- for the last half hour. You still interested in suing? Please do... ;
Title: St-Matthews High
Author: Black Mirror
Pairings: Taito! This means there will be shounen ai... maybe even YAOI! Be afraid... be very afraid.
Summary: Yamato's POV; after living through the harsh break up of his parents, Yamato finds himself enlisted in a new school in the very middle of school year. There, he meets Tai, a jolly, happy-going, bushy-haired boy of his year and slowly gets to know him. But is there really more to it? More than meets the eye?
Type: Drama and Romance, a little angst too.
Rating: PG-13 (for language use)
Status: Work in progress
Warnings: Mentions of Rape, Taito/Yamachi, AU (2nde season doesn't exist, neither does the digital world), mention of suicide attempt(s), dark, black, angst, violence (you'll see, it'll come at one given point), Shounen ai perhaps even Yaoi.
St-Matthews High
Chapter XIV
Of Dares and Jealousy
IMPORTANT NOTE: For all you Mimi lovers out there, you're gonna think I'm a bitch. Sorry. I don't hate Mimi but I needed it for the story. And if you really can't stand this, you should stop reading right away because it's not going to get any better any time soon. I truly am sorry, but that's the way the story goes.
Finally, the end of the week. I'd survived a whole week in a dump like this place and came out practically as sane. I'd even managed to tolerate Sora in science class this afternoon. She was one of those stupid I-ask-questions-all-the-time students. I can't stand those. Get my nerves, I swear. Keep your goddamn questions for yourselves. And then the teacher assumes that if one student asks a question, then the entire class doesn't understand the topic. What can I tell ya: she's dumb and I'm bright. End of story. And then there was a study class. Seems as though I have three of those every week. You know, the kind of class you're suppose to use to do your homework but it's only in your schedule because the principal couldn't find any decent teacher to teach a decent subject at that time. Yeah! That kind of study period.
By the time school ended, it was poring rain outside. The kind of boring storm without any excitement; devoid of thunder and lightening, just plain dumb rain. I could have managed to forget about the rain if only there had been a little action or something… but no. There was nothing but rain and wind. And, of course, I didn't have an umbrella. Who's dopy enough to carry around an umbrella?
"Oh, Mimi! What a cute pink umbrella."
Damn…
And I still had to go to Sora's. They –Joey, Izzy, Sora and Mimi that is- would probably be waiting for me at my locker. I'd taken my time packing my bag and stuff. Why would I want to rush things? Why would I be looking forward to playing a dumbass game of truth or dare with a bunch of immature school comrades? They probably still dared someone to ask another one's hand in marriage and that was tops. They'd naturally laugh their eyes out after that. What could be funnier? Really? Oh, wait! They got plastic rings from a one-buck surprise machine. Really now, no more excitement, my heart might give out.
No matter, it was finally the weekend and I didn't have much homework yet. Let's give the teachers time to get accustomed with the kind of students they had first and then they could give out homework. Up to now, all I had to do was decorate my History binder, and that was actually considered homework. I've escaped an institution for disturbed teenagers only to end up decorating binders. The thing next you know, they'll be confiscating our scissors and compass.
As you've probably noticed –scratch that- surely noticed, I've been wisely avoiding the ever so popular Taichi subject, though I know for a fact that that's all you really want to hear about. Of course, you don't want to listen to little old me while I ramble on and on about my day or week like a little child who's experienced school for the first time, that is, without having a suicidal desk neighbour or one with cuffs and foam around the mouth. But that's what this story's about: a moody teenager experiencing school for the first time. Love isn't everything you know and it certainly isn't the most important feature here. Get that through your puny heads.
This isn't a love story at all!
But no! The reason you people are reading this is because you want to make sure I almost commit suicide after being raped by my boyfriend with whom I only entertain a relationship with to make my true love jealous and I, at long last, get rescued by the said one true love and recover from my wounds pillowed by the warmth of his love. Oh, yes! You did read it clearly. That little rape warning that casts its shadow over every chapter. This is not a fairy tale in which everybody always gets what he wants after receiving a traumatising blow to the face. This isn't little innocent Snow White who, awakened by the prince's kiss, lives happily ever after surrounded by chibi Snow Whites and chibi princes. First of all, there will be no chibis for obvious reasons and kisses can be quite deceiving as, I'm sure, you've come to notice.
"By the way, Yamato, I'm not gay."
Kisses can be quite deceiving.
All in all, you're not reading this damn piece of shit to know me any better. Nope! You're reading this damn piece of shit because you're a curious idiot who can't control his urges and wants above all to know what'll happen next, what the ending will be like. You can't stand not knowing the ending. Will the precious main characters end together? What obstacles will they overcome in order to make this love worthwhile and stronger.
If that's what you're really looking for, an immortalized, fairytale love story, grab your DVD and go watch Sleeping Beauty because I'm not some kind of heroine who does nothing but sing and hope for my better half to stumble my way on his grand white horse, carrying presents and money. Reality check, people! Wake up and smell the coffee because… fuck Tai and his stupid 'I'm not gay'.
And here I thought this wasn't only a love story…
Shut up! It's not my fault if everything ends up being about love. I can't reinvent to way people think. Somebody kill me. Please!
Yeah, because you never had the courage to do it…
I never said tha- Who are you anyways?
Um…
Stab-
Heh! Sorry Folks. Now where was I? Ah, yes! Fuck Tai and his stupid 'I'm not gay'. If he can't realise it himself, than I'll just have to prove it to him. Fasten your seatbelt, Taichi; you're in for a bumpy ride. Just wait until tonight…
I joined the gang at my locker. Everyone was there, even Tai, acting friendly and cute, pretending nothing had happened. I let it slip. He's going to pay one way or another.
We headed to Sora's, which wasn't too far from school. Actually, she lived right above the convenience store her mother owned. Not a very nice place, but who had a nice place around here? It was cozy and warm enough and there were just enough couches for all of us. I sat next to Joe in the loveseat and soon had Mimi join me, sitting on the arm, though there was still a place beside Sora on the sectional. No matter, she was part of the plan anyways.
Izzy joined Sora on the three-placed sectional when Tai made a dive for the lazy boy. He stretched out immediately, sending hot glances my way, raising his arms above his head just enough for me to be able to see a thin line of skin stretching to accommodate his subtle abs. I crouched and sank deeper into the cushions, hoping to disappear but I knew I couldn't. I had to retaliate. I tossed my head to the side, exposing my neck hoping its curves would attract my eager friend. I fumbled with my hair a little, trying to make my pose look a little more natural for the people around me.
"Yamato? Is that a hickey?"
What?
The room grew deadly quiet. A looked over at Mimi and noticed she was referring to my neck. I grew redder than a fire hydrant in less than the quarter of a second, even worse when I noticed Taichi's widespread grin. At that time, I both noticed how white his teeth were and how I only felt like punching them all out.
"Well," Sora spoke up, trying to break the cold atmosphere that had settled upon her living room, "how about a little music to get this thing started?"
Oh no! I prepared myself for either hippie shit, quite popular at the moment, or Destiny's Child. I mentally blocked my ears, I didn't want to seem rude or anything, and readied myself. I was actually surprised when the first few accords and raw guitar of the Kaiser Chief's 'I Predict a Riot' started playing. Yup! I could come to like this girl. Full of surprises. Come to think of it, she's not the Destiny's Child type at all. Mimi, on the other hand… I don't want to think about it.
"Watching the people get lairy
Is not very pretty I tell thee
Walking through town is quite scary
And not very sensible either
A friend of a friend he got beaten
He looked the wrong way at a policeman
Would never have happened to Smeaton
And old Leodiensian"
Sora wrote down everyone's name on small rectangles of ripped paper and threw them into a bag, which she had grabbed out of her scrabble game. Everybody looked at her intently. All this in perfect silence with only Ricky Wilson singing 'lalala la la la' in time with his band. This wasn't the first time this closely-knit band of friends played this game, you could tell. It was probably something they did every week or two. Somewhat pathetic if you ask me but, hey! Who's asking?
"Alright, Matt, since you're the new guy," Sora said, "you can do the honors."
The what? She handed me the bag and I guessed I had to pull out a name from it.
"I don't know if this is such a good idea, Sora." Joe complained. "I say we should ban same sex… hum- action this time."
Oh god! This was going to be better than I thought. What kind of action were we talking about here? Will the wonders never cease?
Arcade Fire's 'Neighbourhood #3' started playing in all his peculiar glory.
"Ice has covered up my parents hands
Don't have any dreams, don't have any plans.
Growin' up in some strange storm,
Nobody's cold, nobody's warm."
"I went out into the night,
I went out to find some light.
Kids are dyin' out in the snow,
Look at them go, look at them go!"
"Nope, it's the best kind of excitement we've got." I turned to Taichi only to see his eyes glistening, plunging into mine. You could tell he had the same idea I had. My plan was slowly failing and I didn't even care.
"Go ahead, Matt." Mimi giggled in a high-pitched voice, a little bubbly sound fit to annoy and sicken anyone who isn't part of the Walt Disney and Mattel crew. "Pick someone."
My head disappeared into the bag for a mere second or two and all watched intently as it shuffled about, hoping, or not, that they're name would be selected. I pulled my hand out, holding a single piece of paper between my index and thumb. I read it aloud –Sora hadn't bothered folding them.
"Izzy."
Everyone turned their attention swiftly to Izzy as Tai shouted out:
"Izzy acting on…" every head in the room turned towards me again as if they'd all been slapped at the same time. I could practically sense the rush of wind headed my way. "Pick another one, Matt!" He insisted on the stupid nickname Sora had damned me with.
I followed his instruction and pulled out a second piece of paper.
"Sora."
Tai looked a little brought down, nevertheless he soon gathered up his spirits and proclaimed to all:
"Izzy acting on Sora!" He stretched again and I forced myself to look away only to find myself connecting with an intently gazing Mimi. She was practically laying on me. Alright, so she was just leaning against my shoulder, but that was far more than I was ready to handle.
I grabbed my courage with both hands and decided to put my plan at work. My arm slowly made his way around Mimi and she, nearer to my chest.
"Well, aren't you gonna tell them what to do?" she practically blew into my ear, probably hoping I would melt, but I didn't. There was only one person in this room that could make me melt like butter on a straight-out-of-the-oven warm slice of bread and we were at war. A very sensual war, if you ask me.
"Um, yeah. Of course, but-"
"Need help with the first one?" she asked, innocently.
I nodded quickly, my head approaching her shoulder and she slid off the arm and into my lap. I almost threw her off but I had to keep control. This plan was going rather well and I couldn't ruin this chance.
"Alright. Sora, I want you to straddle Izzy and work your way from his collarbone to his crotch with kisses. Oh! And don't forget to nipples."
WHAT?
"But I'll crush him. He's smaller than I am."
Izzy didn't say anything. And I knew he wouldn't. The only sign of life in him were his eyes popping out of his head. I had to suppress the urge of running towards him with a bowl to catch them if they fell. But I knew they wouldn't.
"Wait…" now, it was Tai's turn to object. Of course, he couldn't let his ex do anything like that. Funny to think that only three days ago, they'd still been a couple. Or was it four days… Who cares anyhow? "It's Izzy acting on Sora."
I didn't think that would come up, certainly not from him.
Sora turned to him with huge eyes, gapping like a fish out of water. Oh wonderful day!
"Well, just inverse the roles than" Mimi said joyfully, burying her face into my shoulder. It kind of hurt, but I wouldn't tell her that. I'd just spotted an angered look from Tai. Everything was going so well, it was scary.
"Can we at least forget about the nipple part?" Sora pleaded.
After a quick thought, Mimi acknowledged her request and I could understand why. Izzy headed Sora's way as she tensed slightly. Everybody's eyes were riveted towards the not-couple.
"But what if Sora's mother-"
"Oh, shush, Joe" Tai shut him up. I couldn't imagine Joe doing anything like this and yet…
Izzy laced his legs around Sora's hips, straddling her as he'd been instructed. Starting by the collarbone he quickly made his way past the breast only to be stopped by an irate Mimi.
"When I said butterfly kisses, I didn't you could just fly down. Two seconds per kiss, at least."
Izzy sighed and slowly went down to Sora's navel, with much difficulty for he was still straddling her. The lower he went, the redder he got. A ripe pimple ready to explode. He soon reached her jean button and claimed he wouldn't go any lower. No one's forced him to anyway. Never thought I'd see this day.
"Matt, put the names back into the bag and throw it to Izzy," Joe instructed me nervously. His name could be next.
I did as I was told, though Izzy never caught the bag, his hands still shook like crazy.
"Matt acting on… Mimi."
Mimi turned her head towards me and lifted her eyebrows, a slight smile playing on her features, stretching her glossy-pink lips.
I could hear Steel Dragon yelling 'We All Die Young' and I found the song strangely fitting
"It makes my stomach turn
It tears my flesh from the bone
How we turn a dream to stone
And we all die young"
"May I?" Sora asked, probably wondering if Izzy would let her pick the dare instead. He nodded, still a little traumatized, or so I supposed. "I want an intensive necking session. A good thirty seconds-"
She was going easy on us. Even Mimi thought so for she raised her head high ready to give it her best.
"-and I want you both stripped down to your underwear."
I don't want to see her in her underwear. It's bad enough she'll probably like the necking don't make it any worse.
Ready to accept anything, Mimi grabbed the hem of her shirt before I had even time to register what the hell I was suppose to do. Hearing it and registering it isn't the same thing. A little more and I'd think she was ready to take me to bed right this moment. Maybe that wasn't too far from the truth after all.
Next thing I knew, nothing remained but her bra and her panties, which, I could had guessed in advance, was a j-string, and she was grabbing the hem of my shirt, trying to pull it over my head. I let her but refused to take off my pants.
Strangely enough, Tai wasn't saying a word. I knew this would hurt him much more than it did me. Or would it? What if he really wasn't gay and he just wanted to have his fun? What was I doing this for again?
"Come on, silly" Mimi tried to convince me to take my pants off, but there was no way I was going to give in.
"Leave him be. He doesn't want to get underdressed. Let's just get this over with" Sora came to my rescue and, oddly, I wasn't satisfied.
Mimi sat on the couch; in the place I'd been only a few seconds ago. Joe had squished himself on his side of the loveseat, seemingly completely disgusted or nauseous. You make a choice.
I made my way to her neck, set my mind on thinking I was kissing somebody else's but it was hard. Everything was too frail, the curve, the muscle line align the collarbones, too light, the whiteness of the skin. I couldn't picture anything. Anything at all. I felt sick. I wasn't sure I wanted to do this anymore. It's not like I hadn't ever kissed or necked somebody I didn't like. I wasn't this little novice or anything, but I couldn't do it. I had to. I had to. Had to get my revenge. And this was as good a way as any and it had presented itself on a sliver platter, topped with a pink ribbon.
My lips grazed her neck and her body lifted into mine, her firm breast grazing my chest and her hips grinding into mine. Her arms wrapped themselves around my body as my lips touched her sensitive, heated skin again. I could feel everyone's eyes on me and I tensed. I couldn't do it. I just couldn't do this. The side of her face reached my ear and she blew into it, trying to arouse me. Then, something Tai had told me a few days ago came back into my mind. I tensed at the thought and stopped whatever it was I was doing.
"You remember Sora? Well, her best friend works there -69th hour; Mimi."
Oh God! Someone get me out of this mess.
The writhing body beneath me urged me to continue but I was frozen into place, her pleads swallowing whole my murmured 'stops'.
Suddenly, Mimi was grabbed from behind and tossed off me. A silhouette, still half-hidden by Mimi's naked limbs helped me up.
"Mimi, you slut!" he yelled and I knew immediately who it was.
Mimi 'humphed' and sat back down as he grabbed my hand and pulled me out of the room. My plan had backfired completely. I couldn't believe how weak I was. He rushed us both to the bathroom and slammed the door behind us, causing a sense of déjà vu to cross my mind. He let go of my hand and, disappointed, I reached out to grasp it in mine again, but he never gave me the time.
Before I knew what was happening, he pulled me into his strong embrace and his right hand reached for my head, burying his nimble fingers into my hair. Overpowered by something, though I don't know what, a tear fell down his face and landed upon my bare shoulder. I held him tighter as he started shaking, trembling from head to toe. His fingers fisted in my hair and not once did I notice any pain or discomfort. I buried my face in his chest and breathed in a lungful of his sweet, outdoor smell. His knees gave way and we found ourselves both falling to the ground. I stood up, disentangling myself from his strong limbs, and walk towards the door only to lock it. We wouldn't want anyone to walk in on us.
As I turned around, I found Tai on his knees with both hands placed between them and all weight resting upon those beautiful arms of his. His face was turned towards the floor, tears splashing against the old ceramic flooring. I walked in his direction, grabbing a towel to cover my nakedness, and fell before him, placing both my hands on each side of his face, feeling the moistness the tears had left behind as they caressed his skin.
In his ragged voice, he mumbled:
"I'm so-so sor-ry."
I kissed his forehead, right under the hairline, and forced his body into a bear hug. Even with his face completely out of sight, I knew he was smiling. As I pulled away, his sparkling eyes locked with mine. This sight alone was worth all the riches in the world and that's when I figured it out. That's the precise moment when I could have sworn it to the world; I was madly in love with Taichi Yagami and nothing would ever change that.
"Kiss me you idiot."
I smiled at him and did as I was told but not out of obligation. I did it because I wanted to. I did it out of want. I did it out of need. I did it out of love.
-end of chapter 14
Author's note: I've finally updated this story to an R rating and I don't think anyone will disagree that it needed it. Heh! Oh well… So? What did you think? Huh? Huh? Huh? I laughed my head off every time I received a review with "HOW COME HE'S NOT GAY" in it. Truly, it was so much fun. But yeah, you don't really get an answer to that, but you will, eventually. I'm very proud of myself at the moment; I've been updating a lot sooner than I usually would have for the last three or four chapters. Be very proud of me! Alright, so it's been almost a month… but it could have been a lot worse, it could have been three or four months, right?
Alright, before I make a fool of myself, feed me please!
BTW: An anonymous reviewer wrote what I believe sums up the best the end of chapter 13 and I just had to share it with you guys (I was laughing so hard it hurt after reading this): Ouch… Burn…
Review:
Taichi548: Nobody's said anything bad about it yet, but I'll give you a call if ever. 'smile' And, yes, all questions will get answered eventually. I felt like doing a poll in this chapter asking people who they thought had been raped or was going to be raped (Matt, Tai, Mimi, Sora, Izzy, Joe…) but I don't have the guts. I just hope people don't suspect anything and if so… well, I don't want to know. 'laughs at herself' Darn! Thanks for the review!
DarkMetalAngel of Destruction: So are you a happy angel now? Thanks for the review!
Kawaii Kyo and Totchi-Sama: And there you have; More YAMACHINESS. Thanks for the review. Greatly appreciated!
Ephemeris: Alors, pas trop deuce? Finalement, ça l'aura pas duré trop longtemps cette affaire de 'I'm not gay', juste assez pour ajouter un peu de piquant à ce début de relation. Comme j'ai l'intention d'envoyer ça sur le net, ce soir et bien je te laisse et te souhaite une bonne fin de semaine.
Ty: I have to admit that I didn't take the 'I'm not gay' form any other fanfiction but I wouldn't be surprised if it had been done. Practically everything has anyhow, but that's not going to stop us, huh? I thought of Toto one night before going to bed and I too wondered why it hadn't been done. Who knows, maybe I've started something here… ponders ponders or maybe not. Hope you enjoyed!
Quellesirel Peredhil: So, you weren't to traumatized, I hope… 'smile'
Dark-Dreams-69: They weren't really nudes… because that wouldn't be allowed. But they were half-nudes. 'smile' Yeah, I'm eighteen and I've drawn nudes at school since last year. So, it does exist. But those weren't students, they were real nudes… sweatdrop Thanks for the review!
Rayana Wolfer: Glad your loving it so much! I've got a confession to make… I love writing the very very hot terrain… heh… Oh! Joy! Thanks for the review!
Pinkypig: When the need is there, you can make out anywhere (I've just made a horny Mother Goose rhyme, heh)… and I like it! 'smile' Thanks for the review… by the way, I love killing people dead. Be shocked… be very very shocked. Be SCANDALIZED! 'smile'
Anon.: Couldn't have said it better myself.
SnakeMistress: Yup, gotta get a hand on that Darren Shan saga. Darn! Thanks for the review!
Ecehlon: (Just out of curiosity; how do you pronounce your penname?) Yup, a lot of people have abandoned Digimon, especially since the best season were one and two. After that, to my taste, everything went down the drain… But that's only my personal opinion. You'd be quite surprise to find that there are quite a bit of good Digimon fics out there. I'm even surprised, especially if you considering that the Digimon shows weren't exactly pg-13 or anything. They were quite childish actually. Heh, funny thing! Thanks for the review!
Towenaar: I'm so FUCKing pleased! 'smile'
Kaiya5: I've been drawing nudes for 2 years now and started when I was seventeen… yup, I actually knew what I was talking about. But don't forget that Tai and his soccer comrades were only half-nude… that helps. Trust me! Thanks for the review!
BreatheMeDeep: Thanks! I have to go read Under my Covers and Defy Stereotypes. Came highly recommended! Thanks for the review!
InfynitiStar: You didn't get your answer, but you did get a little bit of action, right? Does that satisfy you for now? Hope so! Thanks for the review. Oh, btw, happy to see you're getting better and she's a bitch with you, well you can either be a bitch with her –that can sometimes work- or just ignore it and she'll be diminish because her bitching doesn't work. PUMMEL HER INTO THE GROUND. Nya nya nya! 'sweatdrop'
Dreamer: What a party huh? In less than fifteen minutes, Tai and Yama were in the bathroom again. 'smile' Thanks for the review!
Anne-rice-fan: Yup, poor wittle wittle Matti-poo. Well, he'll get plenty later on so don't worry 'thumbs up' Thanks for the review.
Yamatoforever: I'm not telling you anything and I love to see you keep guessing, sometimes right sometimes wrong. It's much fun to see what other people think of your story because I already know what'll happen and I want to make sure I'm not making it to evident for anyone! Thanks!
Noroi-Inu: Truly I do agree with you; "Tai, stop denying it, there's no point now…" 'innocent smile' Glad to have hooked someone. It's just so much fun to know that you can be appreciated around the world for a lousy story. It really is a great feeling. Thanks for the review!
Kearia Hikari: Thanks! Though, I must warn you that there will be parts that won't be all that cute… but hey, we always unconsciously go back to the cute, don't we! 'smile' Thanks for the review!
BSama: Following your very justified advice, I'm placing an R rating on this story of mine. Thanks!
Little Wingz: I'm pissed of at you. ME NO MORE TALKIE TO YOU 'smile'
Black-chan (Hey! It's snowing!)