Insult Carly Day.

It had been over a month since Carly had a panic attack and she was back to her normal self. She had felt a little down for a few weeks but now it was near the end of April and she was being herself which the others were happy to see.

Shane had just got off the phone with their manager who had been talking to him about their performance and interview tomorrow. He walked past Carly's room and saw she had left her window wide open. Carly was in the dining room doing her school work with Becky, so Shane went in her room and shut it. A blue notebook with 'Carly's thoughts' written on the front caught Shane's attention. It was in the box that Mitchie had done. He knew he shouldn't look. But he couldn't help it. It looked old, the cover was crumbled and the writing was smudged. He hesitated but then turned to the first page.

My Birthday.

Today is my 14th birthday! I have got a bracelet, iPod, money and this notebook. I thought I would write down my thoughts in here. So far today has been good, mum is still a little bit upset about breaking up with mark but she's happier now, she never likes to show me her emotions. She always covers them up. Like then I talk about my 'dad'. If I ever ask about him she always says that he couldn't stay with us and quickly moves on, hoping that I don't notice. But I do, always. Anyway, Mum has got a new job so I hoping we can move out of this small 2 bedroom house. I hate it. Anything else, I should write in here...... Oh, Mum has also been feeling ill. I hope she feels better.

14th year old, Carly :)

Shane sighed as he finished reading it, It seemed like back then Carly was happy and really loved her mum. He re-read the sentence 'mum is still a little bit upset about breaking up with mark' and he felt jealous. He knew he shouldn't though, because he had been dating other people back then. He flicked to the next page.

Parent's evening.

I know it shouldn't make me sad/mad, but it did. We were walking around the hall talking to all my teachers and we sat down at Mrs. Fletcher's desk. She said, "Is Carly's father going to join us?" I looked over at mum and she sighed and said "No, Carly doesn't have a father." I do, I just don't know who or where he is.... I guess she's right, I don't have a father. He isn't here, he isn't in my life so I don't have a father. So for the rest of the night, I kept looking at people who had both parents. Not just one. Both. I felt sad, so I didn't really pay attention to what my teachers say. I guess I don't really care either. I'm guessing I was a mistake, well obviously. Because if I was planned my 'dad' would've stayed. Whatever.

Mum's starting to feel worse, she thinks she got the flu or something. I hope she feels better.

Annoyed Carly.

Shane sighed once again. It was hurting him to read this. 'He isn't here, he isn't in my life so I don't have a father.' that sentence cut through him like a knife. He then re-read the sentence 'I kept looking at people who had both parents. Not just one. Both.' He felt even worse thinking that she had never had Both, parents. Not even now. It was killing him to read this but he didn't stop.

Mum's been really really ill lately. I'm starting to get a worried. She's says she fine but I know she just hiding her emotions again. I see her in pain, but whenever I tell her to see a doctor she tells me no and that she doesn't need too. I saw Mark today, that was awkward. He smiled at me and I gave him a cold stare, he's not getting away with hurting my mum. I tried to talk to mum about my 'dad' but she said she wasn't going to talk about it and went up to her bedroom. So, yeah, I'm not afraid to admit it, I cried. I sat and cried. She doesn't know how much this hurts me, it does a lot. I keep thinking about why 'he couldn't stay with us' and the more I think about it the worse the reasons get. He couldn't stay with us because he hated me? He couldn't stay with us because he didn't want me? He couldn't stay with us because he never really loved mum? I'm going to stop now because I'm feeling really down.

Depressed Carly.

It hurt to think that Carly had those doubts about him once. And that when Mitchie was ill, it was when her cancer was happening and no-one knew about it. He sighed and flicked to the next page but there was nothing. He continued to look through the book but nothing else was written. He heard Carly singing 'Hot and Cold' and quickly put the book back in the box before exciting the room. "Hey Daddy!" she squeaked obviously in a good mood. He turned around and smiled at her weakly before heading to his room and closing his eyes, thinking about how much Carly had suffered and was still suffering.

-x-x-

"Come on!" Shane yelled from downstairs, "CARLY! The limo is here and everyone is ready but you." Carly came running down the stairs in a denim mini skirt, white tank top and some white flat pumps, oh but not before tripping at the end but regaining her balance. "I'm OK."

Shane was going to go tell her to change but they were already late. "Good, now go." Everyone exited to house and got into the limo, the interview was in there town and only a few minutes away. "So, why did I have to come?" Carly asked.

"Because, it'll be fun. You can see us at work. And because Ella and Caitlyn were coming." Shane explained.

She rolled her eyes. "I'm not a child. I could have stayed at home by myself."

"Alright then." Shane stifled a laugh. Carly looked around shocked at the others smirking.

"I am NOT a child." Caitlyn spoke up. "When we went of for Chinese the other day, you stuck chop sticks in your mouth and pretended to be a walrus."

Carly sat back in her seat and crossed her arms. "That's funny." she muttered. They soon arrived at the studio and went inside, "Guys, Come over here." A woman with a headset said. They walked over to her and started talking and nodding. Caitlyn, Ella and Carly sat down by one of the screens that showed them what was on the show.

"Now, they had been performing for over 18 years and still have the hearts of many girls. It's Connect 3." The audience clapped and cheered as they walked on stage. They gave the host a hug and took a seat. "Hi, guys. How are you doing?"

"Great." They said in unison. "So, Jason earlier this week there was a picture of you and Ella out. And something on her finger caught our eyes." She pointed to the screen where a picture of them appeared and it zoomed into Ella's hand.

-

Caitlyn and Carly slowly turned there heads towards Ella who was biting her lip. "Ella. Is that, an engagement ring?" She sighed. "No..?" she offered.

Caitlyn rose her eyebrows.

"Yeah, OK? We wanted to keep it on the down low." she whispered.

"You could of told us?!" Caitlyn said.

"Not with loud mouth over there."

Carly held out her arms. "What is this? 'Insult Carly Day' or something?!"

-

Nate and Shane looked at Jason who eyes widened and he started to stutter. "Well, I .. er... Ella she... brought it?"

"Why is it on her ring finger?"

Jason looked at the others for help. "Ella, she..."

"... is stupid." Shane finished off. Nate and Jason looked at him if he was crazy and the host swiftly moved on. "OK.... So Nate?"

"Yeah,"

"How is Caitlyn?"

"She's great, we're expecting our first child next month." The crowd cooed and cheered. "And do you know what it is?"

"It's a girl." They cooed again. "Well congratulations." she said and the interview continued on like normal. They came off the show for a few minutes, so they went to sit with their family. "I'm stupid?!" Ella said to Shane.

"It was that or you tell everyone you're engaged," Ella sat back in her chair and huffed. "So how did this happen?"

Jason and Ella looked at each other. "We kinda just decided."

"When?" Caitlyn asked.

"Before you're wedding..."

Shane, Nate, Caitlyn and Carly looked at each other. "So, you kept it a secret all this time?"

They nodded. "That's why you two kept disappearing, like when you need to get another wedding dress." Carly said. They nodded again. "Connect 3? You need to get ready for your performance."

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"Now performing, 'Sorry'... Connect 3!" They audience cheered as they started to play.

"Broken hearts and last goodbyes, restless nights
But lullabies helps to make this pain go away
I realize I let you down
Told you that I'd be around
I'm building up the strength just to say

I'm Sorry
For breaking all the promises that I wasn't around to keep
It's on me,
This time is the last time I will ever beg you to stay
But you're already on your way

Filled with sorrow, filled with pain
Knowing that I am to blame
For leaving your heart out in the rain
And I know you're gonna walk away
And leave me with the price to pay
Before you go I wanted to say that I'm

I'm Sorry
For breaking all the promises that I wasn't around to keep
It's on me,
This time is the last time I will ever beg you to stay
But you're already on your way

Can't make it alive on my own
But if you have to go,
Then please girl, just leave me alone
'Cause I don't want to see
You and me going our separate ways
I'm begging you to stay
If it isn't too late

I'm Sorry
For breaking all the promises that I wasn't around to keep
It's on me,
This time is the last time I will ever beg you to stay
But you're already on your way

But your already on your way"

"Thank you!" Shane shouted into the microphone.

-

"I wanna go home....." Carly moaned, Caitlyn made her sit up straight. She groaned and before her eye caught sight of the food table. "Ooh, food!" Carly squealed and bolted towards the table. "Excuse me, This food is for Connect 3 only." She looked up from the table to see a woman with a headset on.

"Well, I'm family." Carly said with her mouth full. "Of Connect 3?"

She rolled her eyes. "No, of Take That." She sarcastically replied, the woman folded her arms. "What?" Carly asked as she picked up another bread roll. The woman grabbed her arm and walked her back over to Caitlyn and Ella. "Alright, get your claws off of me." Carly said.

"This is why we call you a child, you can't stay out of trouble for five seconds." Caitlyn said. "I got some food! It's hardly a crime!"

"Is this yours?" She said glaring a Carly who glared back. "Yes, she is."

"She said she was family of Take That."

Carly falsely laughed before stopping. "I was joking."

Caitlyn took Carly's arm and pulled her into a seat. "Keep an eye on her." She said then walked away.

"What a cow!" Carly said biting into the bread roll. Caitlyn shook her head at Carly.

A boy would looked about 17 walked past them and winked at Carly. "Ooh..." Carly said and went to go after him but was stopped by Ella. "You're not going anywhere."

"But...he...I....You guys suck." She huffed and crossed her arms.

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Okay, I didn't know what to write and this kinda fell together xD

Should Carly go to high school?!

- Just a random thought. What do you think?

Do you have an insult for Carly? xD

I will expand on the whole diary thing ;P

REVIEW! Xx (Jella... Engaged?!.. did you see it? Or guess it? I didn't but then I looked back at some chapters and was like 'IDEA!' xD)

What a suckish day. Meh.

- Charlotteeeeee