A/N: Hi everyone! As always thanks so much for all the reviews and messages. I cherish every one of them!
And here it is, the penultimate chapter, and I thought I treat you all with 7000+ words full of fluffy, fluffy first time smuttiness and give us all some respite but … well … you will know what I mean by the end of the chapter.
Chapter 14
Continued…
"I said …" Kurt's eyes lingered on Dave's. An adorable coy smile spreading across his face as he licked his lips nervously before speaking softly. "I want you to make love to me…"
Dave could feel his body tense up and he forgot to breathe as Kurt's words slowly sank in. He gawked open-mouthed at Kurt as the severity of what Kurt had said, had just offered to him, was taking shape in his head. This was something that honestly hadn't crossed his mind at all. He had just assumed they would be doing more of what they had done before and he would have been perfectly happy with that. He never thought Kurt would want to share something so intimate with him.
Suddenly he became hyperaware that Kurt was looking at him intensely and trying to keep his face free of emotions although Dave could tell he was nervous, most likely as nervous as Dave, as he was chewing his bottom lip and sounded like he was about to hyperventilate.
"Kurt … I …" Dave croaked as his hand came up and gently stroked Kurt's cheek. "I don't know what to say … it's … I …"
"Dave, no … just … forget it ok … I don't want you to do anything you're not comfortable with" Kurt interrupted Dave's stuttered flow of words, feeling suddenly very foolish and pushy. He had just assumed that Dave would want to be close with him in this way and Kurt knew it was definitely something he would want to, but the way Dave was reacting right now Kurt was convinced he had crossed a line Dave wasn't ready to cross and it shouldn't really have come as a surprise Kurt mentally scolded himself.
"Kurt, Kurt, Kurt…" Dave placed both hands on either side of Kurt's head and pulled him in placing a kiss on his nose and smiling lovingly at Kurt as he was slowly finding his voice again. His chest felt like exploding both because of the overpowering feeling of affection for Kurt and because of the way Kurt was looking at him so adorably tense. Kurt had obviously mistaken his surprise for rejection and Dave wanted to let him know that that was not the case at all.
Kurt, shhhh … it's … oh god …it's … it's not that I don't want to … or want you …" Kurt let out a relieved sigh and coyly smiled up at Dave. "It's just … I mean this is huge, capital H huge!" Dave chuckled tightly feeling his own nerves radiating off of him but trying his best to stay in control. "And I know … I'm supposed to be a horny teenager jumping at a chance like this but … Kurt … you mean so much to me and … this should be special, you should be waiting with this for someone who really can give you everything you deserve and …"
"Dave," Kurt said his voice turning very serious but with a warmth to it that melted Dave's reserve rapidly. "Dave, I really have thought about this, you and I … you mean so much to me, we have something special no matter how fleeting … and I want it to be you … but only if you really want to that is …" Kurt's fingers were playing with the hair at the back of Dave's head and their eyes were searching each other, both breathing rapidly.
Dave gulped audibly a few times as they were just gazing at one another and he was hot and cold and anxious and excited and breathing too much but not enough all at the same time.
"Kurt …" Dave said in an almost whisper, deep and throaty. "I … if I'm honest I'm scared. I'm scared as hell… what if I do it wrong or hurt you? I … I mean … you know my history … I really have no point of reference here … well, assuming straight porn doesn't count," Dave giggled nervously.
Kurt let out a little snort and smiled at Dave. "I'm sure it's a starting point … and we can work out the rest together … not that I'm the expert on sex here… but anyway … I'm sure there will be certain similarities like the kissing and caressing and the playing with nipples and …"
Dave looked at Kurt wide eyed before his eyes involuntarily travelled down to Kurt's chest, "Oh … you mean that … guys actually do this to one another? I had always assumed it was just for chicks and …" Dave blushed a bit. "Well … to be honest I … always have just gone down to business and never really…"
"What? You never played with your nipples?" Kurt burst out as his hands were already against Dave's shoulder and pushing him back down onto his back.
Dave shook his head bashfully and licked his lips, taking in a few shallow breaths as his eyes locked on Kurt and his stomach started to do some nervous flips.
Kurt smiled at Dave mischievously, "then let me show you," he hummed as he moved himself to straddle Dave at the waist before starting to tug at Dave's polo shirt. "Off" he ordered and Dave lifted himself up enough for Kurt to be able to pull the shirt over his head. He let it fall next to the bed and shifted his gaze back to Dave's chest, admiring its broadness and letting his hands slowly stroke across the skin, tangling his fingers briefly in Dave's rather impressive amount of chest hair. Kurt slowly stroked downwards and let the palms of his hands rest flat against Dave's stomach for a minute, watching them rise and fall with each laboured breath Dave took. Dave was staring at him open mouthed and trying to keep his breathing even. Kurt smirked at him as he let his hands travel back up towards Dave's chest and slowly started to circle his index finger around Dave's left nipple and then without warning flicked it over it and when Dave jerked up and moaned at the contact he did it again, this time using his thumb as well to give it a gentle squeeze.
"Oh my fucking …" Dave's head was falling back against the mattress and he had his eyes closed. "That is … oh god …" Dave was overwhelmed by the electric jolt that was shooting straight from his nipple to his dick. It was like there was a direct connection between the two and it felt fucking amazing. "Kurt … oh god keep on doing that…" he whimpered and Kurt more than happily obliged.
"I'm glad you like it so far…" Kurt teased as his fingers alternated between both nipples now, stroking, flicking and squeezing the hard buds and loving every single moan and groan he elicited from this big strong guy under him. Kurt's own breathing had started to speed and he was shocked at the way he found himself utterly turned on without actually having been touched yet.
After a few minutes of clearly driving Dave insane Kurt stopped his ministrations and dove in. He wanted to kiss Dave. Wanted to swallow up every breath and moan that escaped those lips. His lips lingered just an inch away from Dave's and Kurt could feel Dave's breath hot against his lips.
Dave was already in a daze but he could feel Kurt hovering just above his head and he wished he would kiss him already but when he didn't Dave opened his eyes and saw Kurt gazing at him, smiling.
"Hey" he whispered, as his hands traced along Dave's stubble and his thumb was running along Dave's lips. "Did you enjoy that?"
"You need to ask?" Dave smirked. "Wasn't it obvious?"
"Well, just checking … " Kurt said before he finally closed the distance and kissed Dave hard on the mouth, his tongue darting out immediately licking against Dave's lips which parted and Dave's own tongue came out and met Kurt's in a tender wrestle.
They continued to kiss and suck at each others tongue and lips until they eventually needed to come up for some air and Dave took that moment to grab Kurt and flip them around so that Kurt was now under him. Dave propped himself up on his arms and looked into Kurt's lust blown eyes.
"Kurt, you're sure about this?" he just had to ask one more time, he did not want to do anything Kurt might regret later.
"Yes, I am, Dave I want you to make love to me … to be my first and to be your first …" Kurt confirmed and placed a tender kiss of confirmation on Dave's lips.
"Ok" Dave smiled at Kurt as he lifted himself up and straddled Kurt at the waist. "Is that ok, I'm not too heavy?" Dave asked nervously looking at Kurt.
Kurt just shook his head. "Perfect" he gasped. His stomach was fluttering and his hairs were standing on edge, this would be it, Dave would be making love to him soon.
Dave started to undo Kurt's tie before slowly pulling it off and discarding it on the floor. He next made swift work of Kurt's shirt, unbuttoning it and letting it fall open. Kurt was panting watching Dave's every move and the way Dave was looking at him was driving him mad fast.
Dave let his eyes roam freely, admiring Kurt's perfect complexion and lean muscled chest.
"You are so fucking beautiful," Dave groaned as his hands ran up and down Kurt's stomach and waist. Dave just couldn't get enough of Kurt and he wanted to explore every last details of his body and make him feel how special he was to him. He shifted himself so he could bend down and then he let his tongue flick out, licking across one of Kurt's nipples before taking it into his mouth and sucking on it.
"Oh my god … Dave …" Kurt groaned out. "Oh … you're definitely a quick study," Kurt tried to joke between moans.
Kurt could feel Dave's chuckle against his nipple as he was still sucking on it and it send another spark of current through him.
"Dave…" Kurt moaned as he writhed beneath Dave. He could feel Dave's erection pressing into his stomach. Kurt's hands started to stroke along Dave's back, his fingers travelling up and down his spine. Kurt was so nervous he could hardly breathe as he slowly let his hands travel towards Dave's ass and then experimentally dipped his hands into his jeans and for the first time giving Dave's ass a tentative squeeze.
"Mhhh…" Dave moaned and lifted himself up on his arms eyes fixed on Kurt. Oh gosh he was so nervous but at the same time this felt so right and Dave knew they would have to move on as he was sure he wouldn't last long at any rate. He got back into a sitting position and placed his hands on Kurt's belt looking at him for confirmation which Kurt enthusiastically granted by nodding his head.
"But … you too …" Kurt gasped out as Dave's hands started to unbuckle his belt. "Want to …"
Dave grunted his agreement. He took in a deep breath. He knew they had seen each others bits already but still, being naked completely, having nothing to hide behind was scaring him shitless. But then he took in the way Kurt looked at him and that one look was enough to melt away any insecurities he had about his body. Kurt on so many occasions had commented on how much he liked his bulk, and the way he devoured him with his eyes just now was more than enough confirmation that he had meant every word he had said.
Dave got up off the bed and pulled Kurt up with him. They were standing toe to toe and as Dave started to unzip Kurt's trousers, Kurt shrug out of his shirt before getting to work on Dave's belt and buttons of his jeans. Dave pulled Kurt's trousers and boxers down and when they hit the floor Kurt stepped out of them before pulling Dave's own jeans and boxers down and watching Dave shaking them off.
They were standing mere inches from one another now and breathing heavily as their eyes allowed themselves to take in each others bodies and chuckling nervously.
Kurt was the first to recover and he closed the gap between them and took Dave's hands in his as he pressed his naked form against Dave's. Dave shuddered and moaned at the contact and especially at the feeling of Kurt's erection pressing into his own.
"Oh god …" Dave moaned. He was slowly loosing all coherence and just needed to feel Kurt. Just like with their previous encounters he was purely running on instinct now as he moved back towards the bed, having Kurt's wrists in a tight grip and taking him with him.
"Hold on …" Kurt said and Dave stopped in his tracks. "Just before we get comfortable on the bed …" Kurt smiled at Dave and opened the top drawer of his nightstand and pulled out a small bottle of lube and some condoms.
Dave stared at the items in Kurt's hand and he was suddenly feeling very dizzy and short of breath. Shit this was really happening. If he had had any doubts before, these items had hit the fact home just nicely. His breathing was erratic and he actually had to sit down on the bed to steady himself.
Kurt smiled timidly at Dave as he sat himself down next to him. "You're ok?" he whispered as his hand gently stroked Dave's thigh which had Dave's skin come out in goose bumps all over.
"Yes," he whimpered more than actually speak. "Just … this is really happening … it's … I'm just kind of overwhelmed I guess but …" he turned and smiled at Kurt. "I really want this, you … you're the best thing that has ever happened to me and I want to show you just how much you mean to me…"
Kurt sucked in a breath at Dave's words and his heart was beating double time in his chest. He leaned in and started to lick along Dave's bottom lip before taking it into his mouth and sucking on it. And it was as if that has been the sign Dave had been waiting for. He could feel his desire for Kurt swamping every fibre of his body. He acted quickly on it and grabbed Kurt, who squealed out in surprise, and pushed him back onto the bed.
Kurt's every nerve ending was on fire. He was sure he would not be able to contain himself much longer and when Dave started to slowly stroke up and down his legs and thighs, Kurt let his head fall back and whimpered. His body was literally trembling.
Dave was admiring Kurt's toned legs and loved feeling the dusting of hair that covered them. His hands slowly travelled up and stroked between Kurt's thighs and Kurt started to giggle.
"Oh god… sorry … ticklish" he huffed out breathlessly.
"Really?" Dave smirked and gave Kurt's inner thigh another tickle and Kurt again broke out in giggles and pulled his legs together tight. "Mercy please…" he whined as he tried catching his breath.
Dave let go and instead chose do lean in for a kiss and let his body cover Kurt's as they let their passion take over. Their hands were eagerly discovering their bodies. Dave hadn't realised when but he at one point had started to grind his hips down against Kurt and Kurt was meeting his with rolls of his hips and elicited sinful little moans into Dave's mouth as they continued to kiss.
Dave could feel himself get close as the familiar warmth built up in his stomach and down his legs towards his toes. Dave froze and took in a few deep steadying breaths.
Kurt noticed the sudden change in Dave' demeanour and opened his eyes looking into the darkened eyes of Dave. "You're ok" he gasped out between trying to get in some air.
"Yes," Dave panted, "just … too close already and we haven't even … what do I do next?" Dave felt foolish for asking but he really had no real concept of gay sex, he just knew he wanted this, wanted Kurt so badly and he wanted to do it right.
"Not that I'm the expert as I said, it's all hearsay, mainly thanks to a certain friend …" Kurt giggled and Dave joined in, knowing full well who Kurt was referring to. "But I have it on good authority that you need to prepare me …" Dave looked at Kurt raising an eyebrow, lost and not really knowing what he was talking about.
Kurt noticed straight away that he had lost Dave and it was a reminder for him as to how much Dave had actually been in the closet and that he probably would need a lot of guidance in this.
Kurt smiled up at Dave. "Here … give me your hand…" He asked of Dave as he grabbed the bottle of lube from the nightstand and flicked open the lid. He placed a generous amount on Dave's fingers.
"You need to prepare me, that means you will need to stretch me down there so that I can take you when you penetrate me." Kurt could feel his own nerves flaring up, as saying it suddenly made it real, they were really going to do it and he could feel his body starting to tense in anticipation.
"Oh … ok" Dave replied sucking in a deep breath, trying to hide his nerves and the slight embarrassment that he really didn't have a clue. He suddenly was reminded of his flippant attitude toward gay sex of only a few days ago and if he could he would have punched himself for ever having been that stupid.
"I … I guess … this is where I …" Dave's hand shook as he rolled off of Kurt, resting himself next to him, propped up on his arm, and watched Kurt opening his legs to allow him access to his entrance.
"Just start with one finger," Kurt guided Dave before he closed his eyes and waited. He could not make himself look at Dave, in case Dave would notice how petrified he really was. It was not that he didn't want this but he knew this would hurt, any first time would, Blaine had always told him that much, and he didn't want to give Dave any reason to worry.
Dave tentatively brought his hand between Kurt's legs and hesitated a moment, taking in another deep breath, before letting his index finger make contact with Kurt's skin and gently brushing against Kurt's hole and massaging the outline of the puckered flesh. He was mesmerized at the way Kurt was spread out before him, and watched his finger as it circled Kurt's entrance before seeing it disappear into Kurt as he started to push in.
Kurt moaned and Dave could feel his muscle clench around him and he stilled his finger. "You ok?" he asked placing a little kiss on Kurt's cheek.
"Yes, just … a new sensation I guess … you can move it, it's ok" he gasped as his eyes briefly opened and he smiled at Dave.
Dave nodded and started to slowly work his finger in and out of Kurt. He could feel the tightness and that Kurt was very tense. He started to kiss him in time with moving his finger, hoping that that would relax him. Kurt moaned into the kiss and one of his hands was fisted in the sheets while the other one was clinging on to Dave's hair.
When Kurt thought it would be safe, he asked Dave to add a second finger and when Dave pushed in with his middle finger as well Kurt couldn't help but let out a hiss. It hurt and he could feel himself go rigid.
"Kurt, please … talk to me … you're ok?" Dave picked up on Kurt's distress straight away.
"It's just … I know it's supposed to hurt but …"
"Kurt … try to relax" Dave said and stopped moving his fingers, trying to give Kurt time to adjust to the intrusion. He left his fingers rested inside of Kurt while they went back to some kissing but Kurt was still clenching.
"Kurt … I don't want you to be in pain and … we don't have to do this …"Dave said concerned.
"No, I want to … just … maybe … Dave I read somewhere it might help the bottom to relax if they come first … maybe you could …"
Kurt didn't need to finish the sentence. Dave understood him perfectly well. He wasn't used to the lingo but could only assume bottom meant the one being fucked and yes, he could see how coming could help Kurt relax.
Dave felt a wave of affection swamp him and pulling out of Kurt he wrapped him up in his arms and started to place little kisses all along his neck and down his chest. "Kurt … you're … I … you're amazing " he stammered out between kisses and when Kurt hummed in agreement or lust or possibly both Dave moved his hand over Kurt's cock and while still kissing him slowly started to pump him. Kurt was very responsive and immediately thrusted back into Dave's fist and his whole body was one fluid motion of thrusting and gyrating against Dave.
"Oh god … Dave …" Kurt whimpered out, he had been on the edge of his orgasm for a while now and feeling Dave's strong swift strokes was quickly pushing him over it.
"I'm not going to last …"he whimpered and Dave increased his strokes, letting his thumb brush over the head and swiping across the slit and Kurt whined and Dave could feel his nails digging into his back and the pain was strangely turning him on. Kurt increased his grip and Dave knew he would have marks there in the morning but he didn't care. He continued to pump Kurt, gazing at his face and waiting for that moment where his face would explode in ecstasy. He could feel Kurt tense under him and his cock pulsating and then with a high pitched "Dave" Kurt came and spilled all over Dave's hands and onto his stomach.
"Ohmigod…" Kurt whined trying to catch his breath as he leaned up and captured Dave's lips in another passionate kiss. Dave quickly grabbed his polo shirt from the floor and gave Kurt and his hand a quick wipe while his eyes were glued to Kurt and admiring the way he looked so happy as he was coming down from his orgasm.
"Oh god …" Kurt said again after a minute, unable to find anything more coherent to say. "Dave … touch me…" he whimpered and Dave knew what he was referring to. Kurt was still too blissed out to really think so Dave grabbed the bottle of lube himself and placed some more on his hand and then went back to stretching Kurt out.
Kurt was a bit more flexible this time but when Dave tried to push three fingers in he could still feel Kurt's muscle fighting against it. Dave took his time but he was so turned on by now he actually was surprised that he hadn't come yet. Every time Kurt's thigh brushed against his dick as he was thrashing next to him sent jolts of electricity through him and he had to concentrate really hard to stop himself from coming.
"Dave…" Kurt whined and it pulled Dave out of his haze of moving his fingers and controlling his breathing and thinking of unsexy things.
"Now …" was all Kurt was able to groan out and Dave grunted in agreement, withdrawing his hands and grabbing the bottle of lube.
"Condom?" Dave asked in a quizzical voice.
"I … we don't … I mean … I've never and you've never … I would really love to feel you … unless you want it of course." Kurt whimpered out between shallow breaths.
Dave looked at Kurt and thought it over for a second. "No, I rather feel you too, we're safe." He said and looking at Kurt's face he moved himself between Kurt's legs and opened the bottle and spread a generous amount on his dick before discarding the bottle next to him.
He was trembling and he was sure he was just short of passing out as he watched Kurt pull his legs up and presenting himself to Dave. Dave aligned himself with Kurt's hole and took his cock in his hand guiding the head to Kurt's entrance.
"OK?" he said in a whisper, his voice breaking. He just needed to hear Kurt's confirmation one more time.
"Yes," Kurt said in a hushed voice and grabbed hold of Dave's free hand as a sign of support but also because Kurt needed something to hold on to.
"Ok" Dave said in acknowledgement and then pushed his cock against Kurt's entrance. There was an initial moment of resistance before suddenly Kurt opened up and Dave slid in.
Kurt whimpered out in pain. Dave was big and it hurt. He started to take in some deep laboured breaths and tried not to let the tears that were threatening to fall show.
Dave stilled. "Kurt … you're ok? Talk to me?" he asked concerned.
Kurt only whimpered again and gave Dave's hand a squeeze. Dave was too scared to move. He could feel Kurt clench around his cock and telling by the expression on Kurt's face he was in some serious state of discomfort.
"Give … just a minute …" Kurt moaned as he tried to get his breathing under control.
"Kurt … are you in pain?" Dave asked worried now.
"Yes …" Kurt said honestly, opening his eyes and looking at Dave. "But … it's supposed to hurt, just give it a minute … I will be ok…"
Dave didn't hear the rest of what Kurt had said to him. Just hearing that Kurt was in pain was enough for him to pull all the way out. Despite it having been painful Kurt hissed out annoyed at the loss of Dave inside of him as he suddenly felt empty.
"What are you doing?" he asked breathlessly and a little bit bitchier than he had intended to.
"Just … putting on more of this ... maybe it helps." Dave said as he grabbed the bottle of lube and put more on his cock.
"Wait…" Kurt said remembering something else he had read somewhere. "I … I think it might be easier on me if I turned around."
Dave nodded and moved back a bit to give Kurt space to turn and get onto his hands and knees.
"Please Dave … don't be scared ... trust me ... if it gets too much I will tell you, I promise" Kurt said as he glanced at Dave over his shoulder.
"OK." Dave said. He took a moment taking in the picture presenting himself in front of him. Kurt on his knees in front of him, knees slightly bent under his tummy and his entrance open and waiting for Dave and fuck, Dave panted as he slowly pushed back inside of Kurt, only letting his head breach him before stilling and giving Kurt time to adjust.
Kurt moaned when he felt Dave back inside of him. It still hurt and stung but not as much as a moment ago. This was a pain level he could live with but still he knew Dave would have to take it easy with him.
"You can move …" he encouraged Dave. "Just don't go to deep" he whimpered as he could feel Dave grabbing his waist with one hand while the other had started to stroke soothingly along Kurt's lower back as he slowly pushed in a bit more before pulling back and then repeating the action. Kurt now had tears falling for real but it was not the pain that had set him off but the way Dave was being so caring, so gently taking him that had opened the floodgates and Kurt had to fight with himself to not outright cry and give Dave the wrong signal.
"Oh fuck … Kurt … that is …you're … I'm so close" Dave grunted as he very shallowly thrusted in and out of Kurt, always very aware of not penetrating him too much but it didn't really matter. The amount of friction he got was more than enough to drive him ever closer to his release.
Kurt was shaking again by now. He let the sensation of feeling Dave take over and as the pain slowly started to subside he started to enjoy the friction of Dave moving inside him and it was almost too much to bear. Having to keep himself on all fours was proving harder than he had anticipated and Dave feeling Kurt starting to struggle grabbed him under his waist with both hands and helped keeping him up as he kept on fucking Kurt ever so gently and then he was there, his body exploding as he emptied himself into Kurt and his legs gave out and he slumped against Kurt with a loud moan. Kurt in turn lost his balance as well and both collapsed onto the bed.
"Oh my fucking god …" Dave grunted as he felt the after spasms of his orgasm course through his body and started to kiss along the back of Kurt's neck and took a little nibble at his shoulder.
He could feel Kurt wriggle and moan under him and pulled out and rolled off of Kurt and onto his back pulling Kurt on top of him. Kurt was smiling at him through tear stained eyes and Dave immediacy brought his hand up and wiped the tears away with his thumb.
"You're alright?" Dave asked still catching his breath.
"Yes," Kurt replied truthfully. Despite feeling sore he already missed feeling Dave inside of him. It had been a strange kind of combination of pain and pleasure and Kurt was sure with time the pain would go away completely and then all that would be left would be the glorious feeling of fullness and friction.
Dave smiled up at Kurt and captured his lips in a hungry kiss. They continued to cuddle and kiss until eventually they both dozed of into a light slumber, while holding each other tight.
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Kurt awoke first and wondered what time it was but judging by the way the bigger candles were still burning he couldn't have slept that long. He pressed himself against Dave; not really wanting to wake him but when he stirred Kurt was happily gazing at him and waiting for him to open his eyes.
Dave stirred again and started to smirk but still not opening his eyes. Even with his eyes closed he could feel Kurt's stare and the anticipation of looking into his lover's eyes was speeding up his pulse. Kurt placed a kiss onto the beauty spot on Dave's cheek, letting him know in no uncertain terms that he was awake.
"Hey gorgeous," Dave said in a husky voice as he lazily opened his eyes and started to smirk as he took in Kurt's appearance.
"What?" Kurt lifted himself up on his elbows and giggled looking bashfully at Dave.
"Your hair …"Dave chuckled as his hand came up and brushed back a lose strand. "I told you that I will have it dishevelled sooner or later and I'd say mission accomplished." Dave let his hand run through Kurt's hair and mess it up a bit more and Kurt rolled his eyes in mock annoyance but really he enjoyed the feeling of Dave's fingers massaging his scalp and tugging at his hair. Kurt let out a contented moan as his own hand came up and grabbed a handful of Dave's short curls and twirled his fingers through it.
They gazed longingly at one another, both having words stuck in their throats, things they wanted to say but at the same time they both were still overwhelmed by this whole situation and scared of saying the wrong thing, so they went back to letting their eyes and hands do the talking. There was still so much to explore, so many things they didn't know about each other's bodies, and they both continued their explorations of finding out their sensitive spots, where they could elicit a moan just by touching or brushing against it, where they were ticklish and begged for the other one to stop as they were struggling for breath between giggles and the spots that might not mean much to the person being touched but drove the one doing the touching absolutely crazy.
Kurt had decided that his favourite bit of Dave, even more so than his impressive arms and hairy chest, was his stomach and he had slowly wriggled himself down enough to be able to press his face against is and suck and lick around Dave's belly button. Dave was initially a bit tense but relaxed when it became apparent that Kurt really enjoyed this particular part of his body. Dave in return was totally fascinated by the little dimple like dip just above Kurt's ass, where he could feel a dusting of hair and had his fingers run over and over that spot again and again.
At one point Kurt had found himself underneath Dave again, a position he really had come to treasure and it wasn't long before their cocks had swelled to full hardness again as they continued to kiss and lick and suck along each others bodies. Dave had moved his attention to Kurt's neck and was licking and blowing over it.
"Oh god … Kurt I know I can't but … I … your pale skin is so perfect and just screams mark me and …" Dave grunted knowing how badly he would love to leave another mark on Kurt's neck.
Kurt moaned and without hesitation turned his head giving Dave better access to his neck. "I don't care … mark me" he whimpered and Dave let out a low growl and attacked Kurt's neck with little bites and sucks.
Kurt really was beyond caring about little details like having to explain hickeys. He was too aroused to worry about anything other than how to make the most of this moment and how to feel more of Dave. His hands dug into Dave's back and he dragged his nails across Dave's skin, leaving scratches as he brought his hips up thrusting against Dave. He was so turned on again by now, he just wanted Dave.
"Dave…" he whined. "Please … I … fuck me." And Kurt's eyes flew open as he surprised himself with the crudeness of his language and stared at Dave who had stopped sucking on his neck and was staring back at him. Kurt had always been convinced he would never call this fucking but always making love and he had no idea where that had come from, just another one of those things Dave had done to him.
"You're sure you're up for that again?" Dave asked not really being able to hide his amusement at the choice of Kurt's words and his concern was intermingled with a slight giggle.
"Yes … I think I will be fine … and … this time I want to see you when we …." Kurt stuttered as he tried in vain to regain at least some of his composure. But with Dave here and driving him mad as usual he knew it was a lost battle.
"Oh god …" Dave groaned out. The idea of looking into Kurt's face, watching Kurt watching him as he moved inside him was turning him on big time and giving Kurt one more passionate kiss Dave moved himself upright and between Kurt's legs. He felt more confident about what he needed to do this time and grabbed the bottle of lube and put some on his fingers and pressed in and was pleased when two fingers and then three went in easily and Kurt smiled at him in a way that let him know that it felt ok.
Again, he stilled for a second as he aligned himself with Kurt and then pushed in with a low grunt, taking Kurt for the second time. Kurt had his eyes screwed shut in anticipation of the pain but opened them after a moment when the pain was only marginal and then he brought up his legs and wrapped them around Dave's waist. Dave like their first time was only thrusting in very shallowly but after a few minutes Kurt insisted that he could go deeper as the pain had almost gone and he wanted to feel all of Dave. Dave slowly with each thrust pushed more and more into Kurt and at one point Kurt was going rigid and whimpering out.
"Oh god, sorry … "Dave gasped out as he was about to pull out but Kurt just smiled up at him whimpering "Oh god … you must have hit my prostate."
"Is that good then?" Dave asked.
"You kidding, please … again …" Kurt begged and Dave more than willingly started to push back in. He didn't manage to hit Kurt's prostate right on with every stroke but when he did Kurt definitely let him know with a whine or a whimper and the way Kurt sounded Dave had to assume that it really must feel that good.
At one point Dave grabbed Kurt's hands and their fingers interlaced. He leaned in to kiss Kurt as he slowly continued pushing in and pulling out of Kurt. Their eyes had locked again and they were watching each other slowly fall apart as their bodies moved as one, and even their breathing seemed to have synchronised.
Dave all of a sudden felt a surge of emotions overtake him like a tidal wave without warning as he was still looking into Kurt's eyes.
"Kurt…" He whimpered as he looked at Kurt intensely, getting lost in those blue eyes and the feeling of moving inside of this beautiful creature under him. "I … I think I … l…"
"Shhhh…." Kurt interrupted and put a finger over Dave's lips. He knew what Dave was about to say and he would be lying if he didn't think he felt the same but, he didn't want Dave to say it. That would make it real and Kurt didn't know he could deal with that.
"Don't say it … it will just make this that much harder," Kurt whispered as he captured Dave's lips in a gentle kiss while still moving with him.
Dave nodded in silent agreement as he continued his thrusts, his eyes never leaving Kurt.
Kurt had to fight with his own emotions, which was hard when he had Dave fucking him and it feeling so fantastic and overwhelming.
"I know …" Kurt said after a moment. "I think I feel the same but ….The last couple of days have been so intense and … there's no way we could possibly really know what we feel at this point." Kurt said trying to convince himself just as much as Dave.
"Oh fuck…" Dave groaned as tears were pooling at his eyes and a stray tear made it's way down his cheek which was kissed away immediately by Kurt whose eyes had turned watery as well. And in all this they were still thrusting and rolling their hips and slowly bringing each other closer to the edge. This suddenly had taken on a whole other meaning than just having sex and they both knew it.
Dave snivelled and stopped moving staring at Kurt. "Kurt … I … oh gosh … tomorrow … I don't do goodbyes very well and …"
"It's going to be ok Dave …" Kurt said not sounding very convinced.
"I … Kurt … can this be our goodbye?" Dave croaked out fighting with his tears.
"Yes" Kurt whispered without giving it a second thought. It kind of felt right having this intimate moment as their goodbye memory. "Yes … tomorrow morning we will go back to like things were before," Kurt confirmed and immediately could feel Dave's grip on his hands tighten and Kurt squeezed back just as hard
They started moving again, slowly and gently. Whereas earlier there had been the soft music of Kurt's Ipod in the background, now the room was in complete silence, amplifying their laboured breathing and the slight slapping sound of skin meeting skin as Dave was finally able to bottom out and pushed deep inside of Kurt with every thrust. Slowly their movements were getting more urgent and Dave picked up speed and intensity while Kurt started to push back against him as his hand was now stroking his cock in time with Dave slamming inside of him while the other one was still tightly attached to Dave's own hand.
They continued to fix each other with their eyes and only when Kurt could feel himself about to erupt did his eyes flutter close before he released with a loud "fuuuck". Dave felt Kurt clench around his cock as he came and the new intensified tightness together with two more thrusts pushed him over the edge as well and he growled as he came hard and grabbed onto Kurt's waist to steady himself.
Dave collapsed on top of Kurt but didn't pull out as they both came back down slowly. Despite his body feeling like jelly Dave was the first to stir and started to shower Kurt with little kisses and gentle strokes, whispering sweet nothings into Kurt's ear which had Kurt giggle and hum. Kurt opened his eyes and placed his hands on either side of Dave's face, turning Dave so he could look at him directly.
"Please … promise me one thing … don't forget me." Kurt said, choking up a bit.
"Never …" Dave stated emphatically meeting Kurt in a desperate kiss.
Kurt let his thumb brush across the small healing cut where Dave had cut himself that first night which would turn into a small scar.
"Anyway, you will have this to remember me by…" he said trying to lighten the mood and Dave brought his own hand up and let it stroke across the cut and started to smile. "Yes, see, you will always be with me…"
They went back to looking at one another, Dave still on top of Kurt and still buried inside of Kurt, not willing to pull out and make this end.
"Dave … you know …" Kurt whispered. "I will only be a phone call away should you need anything or anyone to talk to."
Dave gave him a sad smile. "I know … but …I'm just not sure I could deal with that at the moment. Having you in my life but not having you, if that makes sense. And …" Dave gulped, "things are still messed up for me and the next couple of months will be tough … I … I don't want you to put your life on hold for me, you deserve someone who can proudly be by your side and … I hardly have enough strength to face my own issues at the moment."
Kurt nodded somehow understanding what Dave was talking about but still his heart was breaking. He really would have no problem waiting for Dave but he didn't want to be a burden for him at this point. It was not what Dave needed right now.
"I know" Kurt said, giving Dave a gentle kiss. "But … really … I will always be with you, you will always be a part of me and … maybe when you're ready you can come looking for me?" At his last words Kurt was gazing directly into Dave's beautiful hazel eyes and trying his best not to fall apart at the hopeful smile Dave was flashing him.
"I'd like that," Dave said as he grabbed Kurt in a tight embrace which Kurt returned as they started to kiss again, both desperate to make this moment, this night last as long as possible. At one point Dave pulled out as he moved himself next to Kurt and pulled up the blanket over them as they held each other so tight that they didn't know where one ended and the other one began.
The last of the candles was slowly burning out and was shrouding the room in some eerie flickery light before it died and left the boys in darkness.