Craig
I'm so excited, he's coming for a visit this week, and I promised him I'd not be here at the airport waiting for him, but I couldn't resist. I couldn't stay away really. I had to see him as soon as possible. I spot him before he sees me and practically run over to him, only stopping when he sees me, I then slowly walk over to him, noting the delightful surprised expression on his face, "Hi," I say as I reach him and just look into his eyes, then before he manages to answer I cup his face and press a soft kiss to his lips, "I've missed you," I whisper in his ear as I wrap my arms around him and pull him to me, holding him tightly.
"Hi sweetheart," he chuckles as I pull back and take hold of his hand, noting that this time he doesn't seem uncomfortable with it, "I missed you too," he tells me and then kisses my cheek.
I walk us outside to the taxi rank and we get into one, telling the driver the destination, before I settle next to John Paul, resting my head on his shoulder. "How are things in Hollyoaks?"
"Alright, how are things at home?" he wonders and I chuckle.
"Alright I suppose, Kate has begun to stress about the exams though they're a bit away for now, but otherwise everything is fine."
"And how's your school?" I look up at him with a raised eyebrow, making him laugh at his own question, "What, I'm really wondering how you're doing in school?"
"Well good, still top of my classes you know." He nods and kisses me on the lips.
"My boyfriend, the genius,"
"John Paul," I look away and feel my cheeks flush.
"Hey," he makes me look at him, "You are a genius, you're my genius and I am dead proud of you." He tells me as he looks into my eyes and I nod shyly, because I know he's being utterly and completely serious. I return my head to rest on his shoulder and sigh happily.
"I've been counting down the days till you got back, probably had such a face on too, the others will undoubtedly tell you, but I couldn't help it, I really missed you."
"Well I'm here now and it won't be long till I'm here for good," he says me and I as I grip his hand tighter, he kisses my forehead and wraps his free arm around my shoulder, holding me close to him.
We reach the house soon after and I pay the driver, then practically drag John Paul and his bag into the house with me. "Come on then," I start to head up the stairs with his bag, but he chuckles and looks at me, "What you don't want to unpack?"
"Not really no, I want a kiss and a cup of tea," he tells me with a smile and I just chuckle.
"Right, well how about I go put this in the room and then kiss you silly when I get back down, and then you can make me some tea afterwards."
"Oi, I'm the visitor, you should be making me tea." He laughs but I just shrug.
"Yours tastes better, so deal or should I just leave the bag here?"
"Nah go on then. Then I'll have something nice to look at while you walk up these stairs," he says with a teasing wink. I lift my eyebrow and chuckle as I grip his bag tighter and head up the stairs, making sure to go slowly so he has a nice view.
When I come back down he's in the kitchen preparing the mugs for us, "Come here," I wrap my arm around his waist, making him turn and look at me, then I kiss him lovingly on the lips, a kiss with promises of more later on, when we're up in our room. He sighs happily as I pull back and brushes my hair away from my face with a smile, just looking at my face and into my eyes for a while, until the water boils, then he turns and makes us the tea.
We sit down in the living room, in our chair, me on top of him and drink our tea, chit chatting about my work and his work. He's still not quit, but there were some things going on with Warren currently so he'd just wait until all that was sorted, since there was no point in aggravating him now.
"Oh I got you something," I reach into the pocket of my jeans and pull out a key, "Here, your very own key to this place." His face lights up at this and he just looks at me then kisses me tenderly.
"Thank you," he takes the key and carefully puts it into his keychain, "Our home," he sighs and I nod my head, yeah our home, well with some other people living here too, but we have our own room and that's ours and ours alone.
We're still sat together holding each other when the others get home, the girls as per usual when they see us, awed and squealed. Joe and us, we just rolled our eyes and laughed, but it was good to see that they all greeted him and asked him about his school, and were, well, normal with him. I had thought that maybe last time they'd just done it do be nice but there hadn't been any comments in the time he'd been away. I knew I'd get no hassle from Rae, but there was nothing from Joe or Kate either, and they seemed to really be happy to see him here, like he really belonged here too, and he does, he does belong here. Rich, we'd not seen much of him lately, he'd pop by every now and then to get some clothes or spend the night, but otherwise he'd been at his girlfriends house all this time and well that's his choice really, suppose he'll get back to the house once he'll get over his crush on me.
The guys leave us after a while, they all have school tomorrow and have some work to do, while I have everything sorted and am taking these couple of days off to be with John Paul. "Wanna go upstairs now?"
He looks at me then nods his head, getting up I grip his hand and pull him up, then watch as he takes our mugs to the kitchen and places them in the dishwasher. "Come on then," he smiles warmly as he takes hold of my hand again and walks us to the stairs.
In our room, I smile as I think that, our room, it's our room, not mine, our, he sets out to unpack his bag and I help. I've cleared half the closet for him and there's loads of space for his things in the dresser too, it takes us no time to get him unpacked and I sigh happily as I drop down on the bed and look up at him. He frowns for a moment as he spots something, then gets in bed and reaches for it, and I see it's his hooded shirt. "I see this is right where I left it, eh?" I bite my lip and nod sheepishly, "I take it it's been a good replacement then?"
"It has yes, but now it can be tossed over there," I point in some direction, "Cause, I have the real thing right here." As I say this I take the shirt from him and toss it away, he looks at where it lands with a smile on his lips and then looks at me, and I'm gone. I cup his face and close the distance between us by pressing my lips to his in a gentle kiss at first, but then he pushes his tongue against my lips and I part them, letting him into my mouth, letting him kiss me as deeply and as passionately as he wants.
"I've missed doing this," he says as he pulls back slightly and looks lovingly into my eyes. I simply nod, look at his lips and as my hands go in his hair, I lay completely down now and pull his head towards me again, connecting our lips again, wanting him to kiss me forever. We stay like this for a while, him on top of me, rubbing off against me while we kiss, then suddenly he flips us so that I am on top of him and pushes slightly on my shoulders.
I sit up and look questioningly at him, he simply smiles and tugs at my t-shirt, his hands all over my skin the second it has been removed. He pinches my nipples and I moan, he sits up and licks them, bites them and I just groan. He flips us again, going back on top of me again and takes off the rest of my clothes, then undresses himself and then he's back on top of me, rubbing our hard cocks against each other, using our pre-cum as lubricant while he carries on kissing me.
It soon becomes too much for me. I want him inside of me. I need him inside of me, so I pull back from the kiss and reach for the lube on the bedside drawer, handing it to him. I don't need any words he knows what I want; my eyes tell him what I want. He chuckles and takes the bottle from me, squirting some of the liquid onto his fingers and then with one final kiss, he raises my legs up to rest on his shoulder and slowly inserts first one then two and finally three fingers inside of me, filling me up and tenderly preparing me for his cock. He knows my body better than anyone and he quickly finds my prostate making me gasp in delight.
I'm about ready to burst, when he withdraws his fingers and coats his cock with lube, and when he finally begins to push into me, I am on cloud nine. I've gone without any sex for practically two weeks, phone sex just isn't the same, and for him to be doing this to me now, it's just amazing. He makes love to me, slowly and passionately, and it's just wonderful, we move together perfectly. He brushes over my prostate repeatedly, and it's a combination of him being inside of me, him kissing me and his eyes shining with his love for me that brings me over the edge.
I feel my entire body shake, my cock twitches and then my seed shoots from me, covering our bellies and my cock. I feel myself clenching against his cock and with a loud grunt he comes. I feel him shoot his load inside of me, filling me up and I wrap my arms tightly around his back pulling him down once his orgasm has rocketed through him. He slips out of me but stays on top of me until he catches his breath, then he rolls to the side, with me still holding him and I just look into his eyes, we don't need to say anything, our eyes say everything for us. I pull the duvet up, covering us both as he wraps his arms around me, placing a kiss on my lips and then closing his eyes, nestling closer to me.
John Paul
"I've got to tell you something sweetheart," I look at Craig as he's sat at the kitchen table waiting for the cup of tea I'm making him, we've had a rather enjoyable day today, just walking around and shopping a bit in Dublin. We ate lunch out and were like any other normal couple in love, doing what they do, though with us, we did tone it down loads, just quick pecks on the cheek or lips, never letting go completely as we've agreed not to be overly affectionate while outside .
Holding hands for a bit and a kiss on the cheek is okay, but holding hands all the time, I'm still not comfortable with that and kissing, proper kissing outside is great and we do that at times, but sadly there are still some people who disapprove and well idiots who target gay people, so to be on the safe side, cause I don't want to lose him and he doesn't want to lose me, so to be on the safe side we tone it down a fair bit, and there's nothing wrong in that.
I know he's ready now to kiss me and touch me out in public and he does, but I also know that that isn't what makes us a couple. I love that he does it, but I don't have to have it all the time, which is what I thought I wanted back in September. I shake my head and look at him again, seeing him sat there looking questioningly at me.
"You were saying?" He chuckles as I shake my head again and bites his lip as he waits for me to speak.
"Oh… Right…" I stutter and give myself a mental slap, "Ehm… I've not told people I'm moving yet," I tell him and bite my lip again, "It's not cause I don't want to, but each time I wanted to say it something happened, like the stuff with Rhys and then we sort of needed to take care of Mercy and it just didn't feel right and…"
"John Paul," I look at him and he's sat there smiling, "It's okay," I raise my eyebrow, making him chuckle, "Look as long as you are still coming here to live with me then it's fine, you can tell them when you are ready, there's no rush." He tells me as he comes over and places a soft kiss on my lips, "Don't worry about it," I nod slowly and smile. "So…" he raises his eyebrows expectantly, making me frown, "Tea, anytime soon would be nice too." He continues then laughs before kissing me on the cheek and going back to sit at the table. I chuckle and nod once more, before pouring the water in the mugs with the teabags; I get the milk and then turn to look at him again.
"There's another thing I should tell you…" I take the teabags out, throw them in the garbage, and pour the milk into the mugs. Adding sugar I stir it into the tea and then carry the mugs over to the table, sitting down opposite Craig.
I take a sip of the tea, he does the same as I continue with what I wanted to tell him. "I've asked about a transfer to Dublin," I start as I look at him and he nods for me to continue, "Seems it can't be done," I shrug and see his face drop at that.
"Oh… So you… You're not coming to live here after all then?" he says sadly and looks away.
"Craig, no…" He looks at me, and the sadness in his eyes claws at my chest, "No, I don't mean no I won't come live here, I mean…" I grip his hand and smile, "Look, I've had some time to think about this and I can always go back and get a degree later on in life, for now..." I squeeze his hand, "I want to just focus on my DJ'ing for now. I'm young and the pay is amazing and well you are the brains of this relationship, you're the one who'll have the businesses, you're the one who needs the degree. I've wanted to be a DJ for as long as I can remember, and I think I can be a proper one with this job I've got here… So it works out perfectly. I can do what I want, and then you can focus more on your school and not have to worry about earning enough to cover the rent, cause, we'll both be working and sharing the rent, yeah?"
He looks at me for a long while, I can tell he wants to say something but keeps changing his mind and I just smile encouragingly and wait patiently. "You're sure about this; you don't think you'll regret it in the future?" He finally asks and I just raise his hand to my lips, placing a soft kiss on it.
"I want this Craig. I want to be here with you. I want this more than I want anything else. Remember back in school, when we got detention that day and you asked what I wanted to be when we finish school?"
He nods and smiles, "You said you wanted to be a DJ," I smile and nod.
"Yeah, and this way I can be a DJ and have all my focus on just that. This is what I want, I think I've done what others expect of me for far too long now. It's time to think about what I want, and I want to try to be the best DJ I can be, and I want to be based in Dublin, where I live with my gorgeous boyfriend who's a business genius."
He chuckles as he gets up and walks over to me, cupping my face and pressing a warm soft kiss to my lips. "I'll support you no matter what you want to do John Paul, I know you want to be the best DJ you can possibly be, and I know you'll be the best one that there ever was." He kisses me again and smiles warmly, "It's funny how right this feels," I look questioningly at him and he continues as he retakes his seat. "I mean, I always figured you'd end up being a superstar DJ, but maybe not this soon, I always thought you'd get your degree first, but I mean as you say you can always get it later if you want…" I nod and smile as he carries on talking, "And I've wanted to do this business degree for a long time too, and…" he pauses and looks lovingly at me, "Well we're both doing what we dreamed off, we're both going for what we want. We're doing it together, no more fear, no more shame, no nothing, just us, two British lads who know what they want in life. Two lads who love each other, and support each other in whatever they choose to do with their life from now on."
"Exactly sweetheart," I get up, walk over to him and kiss him on the lips, "It's time we both did what we wanted. Screw what everyone else thinks, screw what they think is best for us, it's our lives and we can do what we want, when we want it."
"We can do everything we want, together." He says firmly making me nod and smile.
"Yeah, together," I repeat before sitting down on his lap, wrapping my arms around his neck. "You know this place is home to me now. When I went back to Hollyoaks the last time, it didn't feel like going back home, it felt like I had just left my home." I rest my forehead against his, "I missed this house and the people living in it, which is strange when you think about it logically, but it just feels like this is where I'm meant to be." I sigh happily and look into his eyes, "I mean yeah saying bye to Hollyoaks and some people will be difficult, but there are full good replacements of all those people here."
"I've yet to encounter six women that can even come close to being good replacements of your lot," he chuckles and makes me laugh. "You'll be okay with not seeing them every single day, not being able to get a hug from your mum whenever you want one?"
"I've got you sweetheart. My mum's hugs are great, but I have you now. You are the one who will take care of me and love me now, just like I am the one who will take care of and love you now. I'll always have my mum and my sisters and you'll always have your family, they'll always be there for us. But it is part of growing up, part of being in a relationship, to let your partner take care of you when you need it."
He smiles and kisses me, which I gladly return and we lose ourselves in this moment and just enjoy being able to sit together like this and just kiss because we can, because we are in love and together, because we belong together.
"We have each other," he whispers quietly as I hug him and I nod my head in agreement, because we do, we have each other and that's amazing. Just a month ago I didn't think I'd ever see him again and now we're back together, and we're stronger than we've ever been.
"No matter what happens Craig, we'll always have each other."
He nods and kisses my cheek as he holds me tightly, we don't say anything else, we just sit there holding each other, both feeling loved and cherished and both knowing that we're sat with our soul mate, cause that's what he is to me. He is my soul mate, he is the one person I am meant to be with for the rest of my life, and if everything goes well then I will be with him for the rest of my life. I'm not letting anything or anyone ruin this for us this time round.
Craig
"I've more or less decided where I want us to go on our holiday," I tell John Paul as we're led together in bed just holding each other. We're just being lazy now after having spent the day out and about in Dublin, then he'd told me about not being able to transfer to Dublin and him not caring about it, cause he wants to focus on being a DJ anyways, and now we're just relaxing together.
I don't know why this scared me so much before, this being intimate with him thing. It's just natural and perfect and us. It's us to be like this together, even when we're out, it feels normal to hold his hand, to kiss him. Things that petrified me before, I now have no problems with. Though due to various idiots out there who'd rather harm you, than see that what you have is beautiful, we'd agreed to tone it down, a lot, while being outside and keep most of it for when we were at home. We both know we love each other, and he knows now that I am not ashamed, but some things are best kept for our own enjoyment.
I've thought loads about where we should go on our holiday these past couple of weeks and I've made a decision, almost, I brush his hair away and smile. "I was thinking maybe we could go to Italy?" he's rather thoughtful looking as I say this so I carry on, "You think you'd like that?" I bite my lip and wait for his reaction.
"I think that sounds wonderful Craig," he smiles his reply, "I've never been, have you?"
I shake my head, no I hadn't been to Italy before, "I'm glad my first time will be with you, and if we like it maybe we can go back sometime in the future?" John Paul's face when I say that, it just lights up and he nods his head in agreement.
"I think I'd like that sweetheart. I think I'd like that, a lot."
"Good, so Italy it is then." I bite my lip and chuckle, "But where in Italy?" I hadn't thought further than the country; there is so much to see in Italy that I don't even know where to start.
"Ehm…" I can tell by the frown on John Paul's face that he's not really sure where to go in Italy either.
"How about we both think about it, and then decide definitely when I come out to visit you in Hollyoaks, eh?"
He nods at this and that's how it will be, we know the country now and we'll know the destination soon. We'll both look up places and do a top three list of where we want to go to in Italy and then see if anything matches, or just take it from there and find a way to pick. We'll be together in Italy and that's what matters the most to both of us.
"Can we book your flight, for when you come and visit me, now?" he asks me and I can see the joy in his eyes at the prospect of having me back in Hollyoaks, even for a couple of days. I smile and nod my head and before I know what's happened he's been over to get my laptop and is settling back down on the bed.
"It'll be the last time we'll be able to see each other before school ends." I suddenly realize as I look at the calendar he's opened up in the laptop, and as realization dawns for him too I see his face fall a bit. "Well it'll only be a month or so I suppose, but we'll have to make the most of it while I'm in Hollyoaks, eh?"
"We will, and the time will go by quickly and then we're both free, and I'll be living here."
I kiss him as he says that, and then just hold him closer to me, cherishing the fact that I can do this now whenever I want. I can just hug him, or kiss him, or hold his hand or look into his eyes. I can do what I want, when I want it and so can he.
"How about you come out here, and stay the weekend and until that Monday?" he says as he looks at the calendar again. I look too and then look at the week after before replying.
"I'd rather come out these days, and leave on the Tuesday. That way I'll be there for your birthday," he looks at the dates I'm pointing at and then smiles widely, as if remembering his birthday for the first time in ages.
"Yeah that will be better, and it will make for a perfect birthday too." He nods his head eagerly, "So can we book a flight then?" he looks expectantly at me and I chuckle as I nod my head and then watch him as he books my trip, paying for it and all, so that I am back in Hollyoaks on the 15th May and go back home again on the 20th May.
"Oh, we'll have our one year anniversary too, well sort of." I shake my head as I look at the dates, John Paul nods shyly and kisses me.
"I didn't think you'd remember."
"How could I forget the day when my life changed for the better, eh?" I brush a kiss to his lips before looking into his eyes. "May 16th, the first time we made love, the first time I allowed my feelings for you to take control of me, the first time life made sense." I sigh happily, "It was the single most wonderful event in my life and at the same time it was the single most frightening thing to have ever happened to me in my life." Shaking my head I continue, "I said some really stupid things afterwards and I'm really sorry for hurting you, and being off with you afterwards, you know that, don't you?"
"You were scared Craig, of course I understand that, I was scared too and I know it was just your fear that made you lash out at me that day and be off with me afterwards. I know all that and it is understandable. I think I'd have reacted the exact same way." He brushes a hand through my hair and smiles, "I was scared too, scared of losing what we had, scared of letting my biggest dream come true, but I'm glad it happened. It's one of my most cherished memories, even with all the things you said afterwards before bolting out of the house, and even with how you behaved afterwards. That day means the world to me, because that was the first time I felt like I could really have you, could really be in a relationship with you."
I nod sadly, "I wish I was ready for it back then, I wish we hadn't wasted an entire year."
"Sweetheart we haven't wasted anything. I mean yeah I think we both could've been without that engagement, and yeah it would have been nice if you'd been able to just come out and say you loved me and wanted to be with me from the beginning. But you weren't, and I don't think I was ready for a proper relationship with you anyways." He sighs and I look questioningly at him, "Well you see you wanted to hide away back then, you weren't ready for public displays of affection and I thought being in a relationship meant showing it to everyone at all times. We were both wrong, and we both needed the time apart to realize what we really wanted." I nod my head slowly and he chuckles, "I'm just glad we both realized we wanted the same thing, eh?"
"Each other," I whisper softly making him smile and nod his head.
"Yeah, we both wanted each other, and here we are now." Brushing a kiss to my lips he continues, "We've both grown up the months we've been apart, and I don't feel like we've wasted anything. We sort of rushed into a relationship when we both weren't completely ready for it. Then when we were apart, we both got ready for the relationship. Now we're here, and I don't think we need to worry about anything else anymore."
"You're right, we're more than ready now and we both know what we want." I agree with him making him smile as I grip his hand tightly.
He turns his attention back to the laptop after a while, and finishes booking me my trip to Hollyoaks. "Okay tickets will be here in a couple of days I think," he chuckles and then closes down the lid of the laptop, placing it on the floor. Then he draws me into his arms, holding me closer to him, pressing his lips to my forehead. "I love you sweetheart."
"I love you too John Paul." I sigh happily, nestling closer to him, savoring the feel of him holding me, loving me. Why was I so scared of this before? Why be scared of something that feels so right, so perfect? I was an idiot back then, but no more. I know what I want now. I want him.
That's it for this update. Feel free to comment and review, it's always appreciated. :)