We Don't Belong 13

Kids?

Bill

Today was my first day off in forever. Alex and I slept until one it was surprisingly early. I leaned my head on the arm of the couch I was lying on. Alex was fighting with the radio again, she was cursing at it, and it was hilarious. I sighed in another month I would be 21, legal drinking age in the U.S. but for some reason I felt older. Maybe it was because I have been working for six years professionally and a few more before that. Now I felt old not like eighty but grown up. I had a perfect job, a perfect wife, now I wanted a perfect family. I sighed. I looked at Alex her perfect face agitated I had no idea what her views on this matter were. I rubbed my fore head, when had these thoughts entered my head?

"What are you thinking about so hard?" She said sitting down on the edge of the couch.

"What do you think about children?" I asked my brain still running on one track. She paused.

"What do you mean? Be more exact please. Do I like children? Do I want children? Am I ready for children? What are you asking?"

"Do you like children?" I watched her face intently.

"Sure, I just lose patience quickly." She smiled and I looked down it was obvious she did not want to talk about this. She watched me for a moment. "You want children don't you Bill?"

"Yes," I said no point in avoiding it; it was her turn to sigh.

"Not right now," then paused something must have shown on my face, "I'm not saying no, but for right now I like having you all to myself, I don't want to share." I nodded It was the best I would get out of her. I held out my arms and she curled up against my chest I wrapped my arms around her and held her tight.

Alex

I slammed my hand onto the radio it was being smart and driving me insane. We had had an on going war and I was loosing. I looked over at Bill he was immersed in his own thoughts; I went over to him keeping my eyes on his face.

"What are you thinking about so hard?" I asked and he looked up at me.

"What do you think about children?" My heart dropped to my stomach, this question already.

"What do you mean?" I asked stalling. "Be more exact please. Do I like children? Do I want children? Am I ready for children? What are you asking?" my heart was racing but I hid my panic, I was good at it, I had years of practice.

"Do you like children?" he asked.

"Sure," I said not wanting to say no. I knew Bill liked children and more then probably wanted some. "Just lose patience quickly." I said not untruthfully. He sighed, "You want children don't you Bill?"

"Yes," he said unsurprisingly.

"Not right now," I said, I was not ready to be a mother. I liked having Bill all to myself. We would have kids because Bill wanted them and I couldn't keep my hands off Bill but I didn't want them now. His face was disappointed so I tried to clarify. "I'm not saying no," I said slightly pleadingly. I could not stand to see him sad. Children aren't that bad right. "But for right now I like having you all to myself, I don't want to share." He nodded still looking slightly discontented but he opened his arms and I slipped into his embrace. I felt secure against his warm body curled up in his arms.

"I love you," he murmured into my hair.

"Ich leibe dich," I said it was another part of our relationship that we spoke to each other in our opposing languages.

Collette

I looked at Tom where he sat on the couch playing a video game and rolled my eyes he could be so childish.

"Hey Tommi," I said and he grunted, I assumed that was an invitation to talk. "I want to go to Oxford."

"You what!" he yelled hitting pause before chucking his controller on the ground and jumping up.

"Alex and I would like t go to college because unlike you we like top learn."

"That's insane, do you want to leave me! What does Bill think about this?" I sighed, Bill didn't know because Alex wouldn't tell him because she was worried he would leave her. I wasn't dumb enough to think Tom would stay only with me for the rest of his life so I had to take care of my future.

"No Tom, I love you but I know that you have problems with monogamy so I am making sure my life is set. I can go while you are on tour. Bill doesn't know Alex is scared to tell him because she doesn't want to lose him."

"You are insane," he said, "You want to go back to school?"

"Yes, I do, I like learning," He looked at a complete loss.

"I don't think you should go!"

"Why not?" I said I knew I sounded petulant it was college I had to go.

"I want you here with me and I don't want my fans to find and eat you"

"But I want to go, come on you can go on tour and I can go to Oxford with Alex."

"Why do you want to leave me?" Lord, he was as insecure as a teenage girl was!

"I don't I want to be able to take care of myself and to make a difference in the world."

"You don't think I can take care of you!" Insecure as I said.

"It's not your ability to provide I doubt, it's your ability to stay committed, you are renowned for sleeping around. I do not expect our relationship to go any differently in the end."

"You don't think I can change," he sounded hurt.

"No, I mean yes you could change just not for me, I am not special enough."

"You are," he said and I was surprised to see the truth in his face.

"No, I am just another girl,"

"Collette, you could never be just another girl," he said and pulled me into my arms I wasn't sure how to respond. I wasn't used to compliments or to Tom being affectionate.

"I am," was all I could say, it was the truth.

"No," he said and looked down at me his face confused, "why in the world would you ever think you are average?"

"Because I am, my life means nothing in the greater scheme of things," He sighed.

"It will baby, it will,"

A.N. - yes i know that i wrote that upper section twice but it was important you see it both ways! soo i shall write something else now.... Hmm Wellll REVIEW and keep writing if your a writer.