"I can't believe you, Huey!" Jazmine shouted at me, throwing two pillows in my direction.

"Stop throwing shit at me!" I groaned, wanting to just walk away from this whole situation. Me and Jazmine rarely ever argued, but when we did, it was usually pretty bad.

"How fucking dare you text some girl, flirting and acting like you're single! All that bullshit about how you wanna marry me! How you wanna have kids with me! Fuck you, Huey!" Jazmine screamed at me, grabbing another throw pillow and throwing it even harder.

"Just listen! Okay?! Take your head out your ass and listen to me! I wasn't fucking texting her like that! She's a friend!" I tried to defend myself. Well, I wasn't defending myself, I was telling the truth. Jai was only a friend, she was just friendly. I know I was wrong for not telling her I wasn't interested but I never initiated. It was never sexual. Just… really flirty. On her end, of course.

"Oh, pretty friendly y'all are, hm? Had I never found out you would've been fucking her - oh, but only as a friend, right? All them cute selfies she sending you, breast popping out, allllll that. Not once did I see you say you no. Not once."

She was right. I was stumped as to what to even say. She was making valid points and explaining my side would only make it worse. I did love Jazmine, I did want to marry her and have kids with her. It was just exciting and different. To have someone else talk to me they way Jai does. But Jai wasn't Jazmine. I knew that.

"I've already told you, I don't do that cheating bullshit. There is no second chance. It's done."

"Woah." I ran up to Jazmine before she could run to the room to lock the door behind her. "Jazmine I didn't cheat. Jazmine. Look at me."

She looked up at me, tears rolling down her cheeks. "Why didn't you tell her to stop?"

"I…" I paused. "She was different. Fuck this sounds so bad saying this. She treats me different than you do. Not better, just different. And we've been together so long, I don't know."

"Say no more Huey." Jazmine snatched her arm out of my hand and stormed off into the bedroom. I followed her before she got the chance to close it all the way.

"Look. I fucked up real bad. The first time ever, this bad in five years. I'm not an idiot, it doesn't take much for me to learn my lesson. I know it was wrong. I know I was wrong. Forgive me." I wrapped Jazmine in a tight hug, burrowing my face into her neck. "Please forgive me."

Jazmine shoved me away and walked into our room. "I'm gonna stay with Cindy for a few days to think everything through."

I didn't bother chasing her as she walked into our room, locking the door behind her. When she came back out twenty minutes later to get her stuff from the bathroom, I didn't even budge. I just let her go back into the room. Fifteen minutes later she had a duffel bag over her shoulder and started to head towards the door.

"Jazmine you don't have to leave," I said, trying my hardest to keep from tearing up.

"You can let me go so I can process this on my own," she took a deep breath, "or, I can stay and start to hate your fucking guts. Your choice." She said, smiling sweetly at me.

I just nodded my head. "Alright. I love you."

"Yeah." Jazmine sighed as she closed the door behind her.

don't entertain the hoes, it's not worth it. on a side note, i'm not really writing these for them to be connected as a storyline, but obviously, you can read them that way if you want, just know that they aren't in order.

posted: 10/9/2017

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