I know it seems like it's been years, but I have had loads of exams...
Actually, screw that. I've had a mental block for ages. Then when that was over... I don't know...
Life's just... Life, y'know?
Anyways, I really hope that you enjoy this. Sorry about the massive gap between the last one and this. I will update as soon as possible. Thank you so much for reading! Sorry about the weirdness of the chapter! :D
05/03/13
Diary Entry 14
Onee-chan came to visit today! She had to come after school and we ate together. We played lots of games together, like our favourite acting games – she's gotten much better lately - and I think Mother might like Onee-chan more now because she always tells me to tells her to visit. I'm going to go to her flat to play soon! I really want Onee-chan to come back home. I miss her so, so much. But she's going to be very busy from now on. I'm really; really glad that she's going to do what she's always wanted to. I hope I get to be that happy when I'm older.
It's funny but, I had a rather odd dream last night. In some ways it was happy, but it also made my heart feel sad. I wonder if your heart feeling sad is the same as the rest of you feeling sad. Anyway, my dream started in complete darkness. I was a bit scared until lots of flashing lights came. It made me dizzy so I closed my eyes in the dream. When I opened them I was underwater and I panicked because it felt like I couldn't breathe, until I saw Sakagami-sensei coming towards me. He was riding on the back of a turtle and he reached out to me. When I got on the turtle shell it was really beautiful and big and there was a massive golden palace. Inside the palace were lots of pretty dresses and jewels and no people, and when I went out to the gardens I found Nao-chan there, and he was crying, but I didn't go to him. I don't know why, because in real life I would've. I woke up after that, but I feel like I missed a bit of a story – I sort of felt a little bit empty. Like what little emotions and feelings I had didn't really matter – like I wasn't important. I was so happy that Sensei had saved me, but I don't really understand what my dream meant and why the ending didn't feel right.
Speaking of Sakagami-sensei, something really exciting is happening! I did really well on my tests at school and at home so Sensei is going to take me to the amusement park! Mother was going to come but she's busy on that day - I think she's going to see Onee-chan or something. I don't know why, but the fact that I get to be with sensei for hours makes me really joyful! My heart beat really fast when I found out and I really can't wait for the weekend.
I know! I should make a bento! I am good at making egg rolls – Onee-chan always said so – so I'll put lots in. And maybe I'll get some cookies. I made some for my school friends one Youko's birthday last year. I love cooking. I hope I don't mess the bento up, or do something stupid at the theme park like vomit after going on a big ride. I don't want Sakagami-sensei to hate me, it's what I want least in the whole wide world.
I really can't wait! I'm so excited! Why can't Saturday come sooner? I've got to go to bed now, but I don't think I'll be able to sleep well.
Goodnight.
Akane