Once again thanks for the reviews comments and favs on this story. Not really sure how long its going to go on for but we shall see. This chapter was inspired by some reviews i was given. I didnt think it would work out this way but now that it has there is a whole new story behind it. Which in the long run will make things more interesting im sure.

Chapter 14. Think Logical.

Molly awoke from her doze in a haze, she lay on the hospital bed for a few moments, feeling those few moments of bliss, silence, just peace as you slowly wake up. And then, it hits you. Molly felt hot tears run down her cheeks, just that small moment of weakness could really allow her to fully break down, but she wasnt going to let that happen, not here, not anywhere.

She moved very slowly and stiffly onto her back, the sunshine glaring through the window causing her to squint as she looked at the small clock on the bedside table. It was 11 30 and she was still tired?. She pulled herself up into a sitting position wincing at the sudden pain darting though her back and arms. She realised she was still attatched to fluid tubes and was slowly remembering the details of last night when she arrived at the ward.

It was a soft knock on the door, she jumped quickly at the sound breaking the silence,

''Come in'' She said softly, as the door opened the noises of everyday life outside her room flooded in, they where shut out quickly as the nurse let herself in.

''How are you this morning Miss Hooper?''

''Very sore, but im ok'' Molly smiled warmly at the nurse.
''We can detatch you from all this now'' She waved at all the monitors Molly was hooked up onto ''we are happy with your stats improving, i can give you something to ease the pain as well if you like?''
''Yes'' said Molly keenly, ''When can i go home''

''We would like to keep you under observation untill this afternoon but if you keep improving we can send you home tonight, would you like to be set up with a counseller or just someone to talk to?''

''No thankyou, Molly smiled warmly at the nurses caring attitude, it comforted her knowing she had people around her that where really taking care of her.
''Ok'' The nurse said softly, ''Would you like me to call anyone for you?''

''No thankyou'' Molly said again, ''No point in worrying anyone if i will be home tonight''

''Alrite dear'' The nurse had now fully removed Molly of her tubes and needles, '' You are advised to walk around a little, it will not be as bad when the painkillers kick in but the more you sit around the stiffer your body becomes. You will recover much faster if your muscels are moving more, if you need a hand just push that button we can come and help you whenever you need it'' The nurse smiled softly before leaving Molly to take the pain killers.

Molly looked around the room that was once again quiet, she shuffled in her bed slightly realising the nurse was right about movement, she felt better for sitting up already. Molly knew that what happened happened for a reason, she couldnt look back on it for bad luck or some sin cast over her, she was never really looking to start a family and that fact she couldnt have kids should of screamed alarm bells when she found out. But she thought it was to good to be true, that it was a mirical, fact is it was, but miricals dont make your body stronger, they dont hold everything together. Molly felt her chest ache as she tried to hold back the tears, yes she was sad and felt empty having had to loose her baby, but she would not be alive tomorrow if she didnt go through with it, thinking back it was discussed when they found out about Mollies condition. However she never paid much attention knowing she would never have a chance at getting pregant. But Kidney failure was on the list of side affects. Molly knew she had brought it on herself but having a severe kidney infection due to the lack of nutirents her body was getting for itself was not part of her pregancy dream plan. Molly sighed deeply. Her body had suffered a severe loss of nutirents while Molly was carrying and her kidneys had picked up an infection in which was not picked up, the infection then turned into something more and damaged her kidneys function deeply. Molly could not keep the baby and get the treatment for herself that she needed, her body could not cope with both, so the decission to have the child terminated was the only really sane option.

Molly was not one to suffer grief a huge amount, she felt sad and lost without the mirical she was carrying but she knew she was better off now, a few weeks of carrying the baby and Molly was now on strong antibiotics to kill the infection for another month or so, it would take over a year for her kidneys to fully repair if they ever did. She sighed deeply and began to move herself off the bed, slowly and very gingerly she got to the window sill of the small room she was in, opening it on the gardens at the back of the hospital, she breathed in the fresh air and loved the sound of the birds chirping in her ears, the noises of every day life picked her up. Sure she felt different and sore and a little lost and sad but she never really wanted that urge to have children, she never looked ahead at boy or a girl or names it was so early one it was just a case of going about as normal, nobody knew she was pregant via sherlock. SHIT Sherlock!.
Molly put her head in her hands, How the hell am i going to tell him this...oh by the way sherlock i suffered a cronic kidney infection and lost the baby, hmmm will that work?. Shit Shit Shit Shit ! Mollie shivered as she thought of the conversation to come.

The day dragged on and on and on, Molly did not need to tell anyone else about her baby problem because nobody else knew about it, just Sherlock, but he was to damn clever to know when she was lying and he would notice a change in her behavior as soon as he walked in the bloody room, so whatever was going to happen she knew he would find out when they next met, which would be tomorrow when she was back at work. How would she tell him that she lost his child, did he really care in the first place?. Why did she have to get involed with the most passive and stubborn man in the entire world ?. Because she was Molly Hooper and nothing would be normal without something going wrong in her life!.