Chapter 13.5: Fear not this night

A/N hey everybody (hey doctror nick)... nothing? not even a chuckle?... okay so i've crawled out of my grave and have come to give you a much needed update you're all probably wondering where i've been, well any of you that actually remember that i exist but no matter for one i've been busy and two i have had no inspiration it's impossible for me to write unless i have inspiration which for the moment i have. now this chapter will be filler because i have no idea how to do the next chapter yet this takes place maybe a night or two before last chapter so sit back grab some popcorn and enjoy.

Lightning flashed across the sky and rain lashed against the windows of houses all over the city a second later there was a resounding boom from the thunder that rattled the panes of glass in their frames. all over the citizens of the city were having troubles due to the freak storm but it was worst in one house in particular.

the windows were almost all dark except for one that housed a faint glow that came from a solitary candle. huddled around the candle were the outlines of three people. after a few minutes of barely any movement save for one of the outlines constantly raising something to their mouth there was suddenly a shout of rage from the house.

"DON'T YOU DARE TELL ME WHAT TO DO WOMAN I'M THE ONE THAT MAKES ALL THE MONEY SO I'LL DO AS I DAMN WELL SEE FIT!" there was a crash and the candle fell over and was extinguished. there were then several loud thuds and in the middle of it all there was the sound of a little girls crying until it was stopped suddenly with another loud thud.

there were more thuds until the front door to the house flew open quickly and out of it came a little girl running as fast as she could into the darkness away from the house lightning flashed and the girl was illuminated for juat a moment. there was blood and tears running down her little face. then the moment is over and darkness swallows the street again. a moment of silence, barely even a second and then an all encompassing boom of thunder is heard as well as a faint scream into the dark and stormy night.

i woke suddenly and barely held in my scream. it's the same dream again except this time was worse, much worse. i remember flashes of it until even those are forgotten no matter how hard i try i can never remember any of it. even if i don't remember it i'm still shaken by it for some reason and i know that i'm not going to get back to sleep.

i open my eyes slowly and see that it is still very much dark out. carefully i slip out of Slys' arms and make my way towards the door all the while hugging my arms around myself tightly to try and stop my light shaking.

i open the door silently, head out and close it behind me. i make my way down the hall towards the stairs, i look back down the hall before heading up them. at the top i opened the hatch and stepped out onto the roof of the inn.

it's cold out but i'm too troubled to take notice. slowly i walk over to the edge of the roof and sit down. i draw my knees up to my chest and hug them tightly to my body. i look out over the dark landscape of the city surrounding the inn. i sit there silently trying and failing to remember anything from before i woke up in that alleyway. it bothers me more than i let on, even to Sly, and why shouldn't it my whole life is just one big blank. it feels like it should all be right on the tip of my tongue but it isn't and that scares me. i don't know who i was before, i don't know what my life was like, and i don't even know if i had a home, a family, a mom, a dad, anything. i feel tears come to my eyes and i don't try to stop them.

lost in thought as i am i fail to notice the sound of soft foot steps behind me until i feel a blanket fall around my shoulders. surprised i look behind me and i see Azuki with a worried expression on her face and she asks "are you okay Dawn?"

i quickly wipe my eyes before i reply "yeah i'm okay, what are you doing out here?"

she sits down next to me and says "i was coming back from getting a glass of water from the kitchen when i saw you heading towards the roof so i followed you. now tell me what's wrong."

"nothing is wrong."

"yeah because coming out onto the roof in the middle of the night and crying is normal." she says sarcasticaly. then she adds in a much softer voice "now tell me what is bothering you so much."

i look deep into her eyes and see that i have no choice so i sigh and begin "for the past few weeks i've been having the same dream over and over again i know it's something bad and i also know it's connected to my past but no matter how hard i try i can't remember anything of it when i wake up. tonight though it was so much worse, i can't remember it but still it's gotten me so shaken up. i can't remember anything from before i woke up in that alley and i'm afraid of what the truth about my past might be. these dreams keep coming and each time they make me so sad, so confused, so... so afraid!... i'm pathetic aren't i? being so afraid." i finish quietly and look into her eyes again.

"no you are not pathetic. anyone in your position would be afraid the fact that you get up everyday and are so happy makes you so courageous."

"it's only thanks to Sly that i can be so happy. whenever i'm with him i feel my fears and my worries just dissapear he makes me feel safe. but whenever i'm not with him my fears are so great they are almost suffocating me. i wish there was something i could do to get rid of them."

she's silent for a minute then she says "y'know back before i left home whenever i was afraid or i had a really bad dream my mother would always sing me a song, would you like me to sing it to you?"

"go ahead though i doubt it'll help."

she nods her head slightly and she draws in a breath before she begins her beautiful voice piercing through the silence of the night.

Fear not this night You will not go astray Though shadows fall Still the stars find their way

Awaken from a quiet sleep Hear the whispering of the wind Awaken as the silence grows In the solitude of the night

Darkness spreads through all the land And your weary eyes open silently Sunsets have forsaken all The most far off horizons

Nightmares come when shadows grow Eyes close and heartbeats slow

Fear not this night You will not go astray Though shadows fall Still the stars find their way

And you can always be strong Lift your voice with the first light of dawn

Dawn's just a heartbeat away Hope's just a sunrise away

Distant sounds of melodies Calling through the night to your heart Auroras, mists, and echoes dance In the solitude of our life

Pleading, sighing arias Gently grieving in captive misery Darkness sings a forlorn song Yet our hope can still rise up

Nightmares come when shadows roam Lift your voice, lift your hope

Fear not this night You will not go astray Though shadows fall Still the stars find their way

And though the night sky's filled with blackness Fear not, rise up, call out and take my hand

Fear not this night You will not go astray Though shadows fall Still the stars find their way

Fear not this night You will not go astray Though shadows fall Still the stars find their way

And you can always be strong Lift your voice with the first light of dawn

Dawn's just a heartbeat away Hope's just a sunrise away

as i listen i begin to forget all of my fears and i sit there in awe as i feel i sense of calm fall over me. she finishes and the last note echoes hauntingly into the night and all i can say is "wow."

she looks over at me a little sheepishly and asks "well how are you feeling? any better?"

i nod my head and say "that was amazing as you were singing i just felt all my fears and worries leave me, you sing so beautifully."

"if you think that was amazing you should hear my mother sing it she's more amazing than i am."

i scoot closer and then hug her and say softly "thank you... so much." she chuckles lightly and returns the hug.

when i let go she stands up and offers me a hand i gladly accept and she helps me up. i feel my cheeks tint red with embaresment as i ask her a question "do you think that... maybe when i-i'm feeling down... that you could... possibly sing to me again?"

she smiles softly at me and says "sure thing if you ever need me to sing just ask. now how about we head back inside and get to sleep?"

i agree and we head back down stairs and into the room i carefully slip back into bed and wrap my arms around Sly. i feel his chest rise and fall slowly with his breath and i allow myself to drift off, my brain filled with hope for the new day.

A/N first off the song is fear not this night from guild wars 2 it's an amazing song and i think you should really listen to it secondly since i created her i've really wanted Azuki and Dawn to become really good friends but i couldn't find a place to put it until now i quite liked writing this chapter and i hope you liked reading it so until next time don't forget to remember me.