The first thing he heard was the loud obnoxious beeping of the heart monitor the next being the pounding in his head reaching all the way to his ears. The pain in his head was horrible, it felt like the worse hangover ever, though Kyo had never been drunk and had no idea what one would feel like but he imagined that this was it. He slowly attempted to open his eyes but when the blinding light assaulted his vision sending new waves of pain through his brain he quickly slammed his eyes shut regretting everything in those awful seconds. He let out a strangled groan and moved to rub his face when in the second time in his life he found that he couldn't move his arms.
His eyes shot open ignoring the instant jolt of pain it sent through his system and frantically look around the room his eyes locking on the thin white strips binding him to a sterile white mattress. Panic surged through his body as he attempted to free himself from the cushioned cuffs.
"NO, STOP. LET ME GO." He screamed in anguish tears instantly streaming down his face.
He froze when he felt a body cover his and arms gently pushing his shoulders back down on the mattress. Snapping his head back to see the assailant his eyes locked with lavender and the panicked words on his tongue died out.
Yuki saw the swarm of emotions race across Kyo's face, confusion, panic, and the last and most heart wrenching one, fear. Tears of his own started to well in his eyes as the final emotion took residents in the eyes that he loves the most. He gently cupped Kyo's face ignoring the visible flinch he saw in the other and gently spoke.
"shh, shh, it's okay I'm hear and I'm not going to hurt you. It's okay Kyo, I promise no one is ever going to hurt you again. Please just calm down."
Yuki ended with a slight brush of his lips against the others. Kyo kept his eyes locked and his heart rate slowed back down and he let out a slight chocked sob of relief. He still didn't completely believe, or trust the Yuki wasn't going to hurt him but he chose to ignore that and pretend that maybe Yuki wasn't lying. He let out a couple more shuddering breathes and brushed his lips back against the rats and softly asked.
"can you please just take the restraints off." Slight desperation present in his fragile eyes.
Yuki nodded a heavy weights lifting from his chest that Kyo didn't react to his advances with animalistic panic like he did the last time. He reached down and slowly undid each bind bringing up sore wrists and placing gentle loving kisses on each angry red line. When he had both binds removed he rolled off of Kyo and laid sideways on the small bed bringing Kyo with him to snuggle into his chest.
Kyo was stiff for a couple of minutes but slowly calmed down and relaxed against the strong chest of his ex-rival. Yuki started playing with his dirty orange hair trying to enjoy the somewhat peaceful quiet and internally grateful that Kyo was awake again and that he could once again see his eyes and hear his voice. He was brought out of his thoughts though when he felt a fist tighten in his shirt he looked down and Kyo quietly started to speak.
"I-is, please, I mean" he paused tears running down his face once again. "please tell he this was all a dream. Please tell me that no one saw that. Please tell me that no one knows what happened." Kyo pleaded eyes looking up at Yuki.
Yuki's heart constricted as he saw the desperation and false hope in Kyo's eyes, but he knew he couldn't lie to him. He steeled his heart and forced the words past his lips.
"I'm so sorry Kyo, I wish I could tell you that it was all a dream, but it wasn't but I promise you that no one hates you. No one blames you for anything that happened. I promised you that you would never be hurt again and I promise you this too, no one blames you and no one hates you. And another thing, I still love you and I always will." He ended with another small kiss on Kyo's temple tightening his arms around his beloved cat.
Kyo tried to keep a strong face but It just crumbled seconds later as he nodded. Sobs soon followed shaking his very core, he was embarrassed, humiliated and devastated. He had no idea how he was ever going to face the others again. Yuki was one thing, he could lie himself into believing that Yuki might actually care, but the others. The ones that didn't spend any time with him, the ones that never bothered to try to get to know him. The ones who spat on him and blamed him for killing his mother when he was a child. If he were honest with himself, he had never in his life been as terrified as he was in that moment thinking about how the rest of the family would react. How they would look at him, how they would treat him.
He found himself asking. "where's my dad?" Kyo asked weakly referring to Kazuma as his father instead of his master in a show of vulnerability only a scared child to muster, with the fear of their parent's rejection on stake.
Yuki's heart broke even more at this being forced to tell him the news he knew would hurt Kyo the most. "No one has seen him for weeks, since you last woke up." Yukl whispered.
"and how long ago was that?", was Kyo's eerily calm reply.
Yuki swallowed "About three weeks ago"