AN- Im finally ahead again in this story!! and thank you to all of my reviewers new and old. I finally got past that 1000 hits I was aiming for, im up to like 1300 now -dances-
the song for this chapter is "stay" by lisa loeb, and while it dosent really fit the theme of the chapter, it does make sence, I suggest listening to this song before reading the chapter, or while reading the chapter, it makes alot of sence in this situation.
Kagome was officially miserable.
She had spent all week working as hard as she could and when she finally got her much anticipated pay check it was nothing like what she expected, she wasent greedy but it seemed that no matter how much money was in her paycheck, she just couldn't afford to buy everything she needed.
She hated that feeling, back when she was in the feudal era she never wanted for anything.
You say I only hear what I want to.
You say I talk so all the time so.
And I thought what I felt was simple,
and I thought that I don't belong,
and now that I am leaving,
now I know that I did something wrong 'cause I missed you.
Kagome sniffled softly trying to keep from crying when one of her coworkers approached her.
"Kagome why are you always so sad, Ive heard the stories about how you moved back home when your american boyfriend broke up with you, but why are you still so hung up over him? If you broke up with him then you should let him go, forget about him and meet someone new!"
Kagome just never could explain what was wrong to anyone, maybe it had to do withh the way that Sesshomaru always looked down at her, like she was worthless or she was not good enough to be around him and sharing his precious air.
Yeah yeah, I missed you.
And you say I only hear what I want to:
I don't listen hard,
don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
to anyone, anywhere,
She tried to remember the way his smile looked, the way he looked that day he took her to see the sunrise, but every time that she remembered the good times she would remember how it was to see his body poised over Kaugras.
Kagome still didn't understand it.
I don't understand if you really care,
I'm only hearing negative:
no, no, no.
So I turned the radio on,
I turned the radio up,
and this woman was singing my song:
Sometimes she knew that it hadn't been Sesshomaru, knew deep in her heart that he would never have lied about something like that, but other times she thought that he was just as bad as his half brother, nothing more then a cheater.
lover's in love,
and the other's run away,
lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay.
Some of us hover when we weep for the other who was
dying since the day they were born.
Kagome walked home through the park today, watching children playing was easy, she tried not to miss Rin too much, and her hands were pretty full with Shippo, but there was just something about missing your little girl that tore up her heart, she wanted nothing more then to go back and take Rin to the future too.
She was being selfish and she knew it.
And I thought I'd live forever,
but now I'm not so sure.
You try to tell me that I'm clever,
but that won't take me anyhow,
or anywhere with you.
When Kagome finally made her way home she was greeted to the sight of Shippo standing in front of the well house. His aura radiated pure depression, and she was sure that he had spent at least a little bit of time trying desperately to make the well work.
"Shippo, what are you doing?"
"nothing mama, I thought Sesshomaru was there that's all."
You said that I was naive,
and I thought that I was strong.
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."
Oh, but now I know that I was wrong,
'cause I missed you.
Kagome spent that night at the well house, trying to feel for what was on the other side of the well, she just wanted to feel Sesshomaru's aura just once, she just wanted to say goodbye.