A/N sorry for taking so long to update people!! I AM SO SORRY! I have had a lot going on since I last updated. There was the holidays *happy belated Christmas and New Year* and then we were supposed to be moving so I had my book that had this chapter in it packed and then I found out we weren't moving so I had to figure out which box this was in and some other stuff… So here it is.

Thank you to my Beta reader! Cudgeled.

Disclaimer. I don't own anything Stephenie Meyer does.

BELLAS POV

I sobbed and tears streamed like waterfalls down my face. A cold hand pulled me into a cold, cloth covered chest.

"Ssh, Bella, Ssh" A voice soothed. Right now nothing made sense. It was kinda like when you started to mix different paint colours together. But not completely blend them. You would be able to see swirls of colours all mixed up and confused as to what to do.

My tears soaked the grey shirt, in which I gripped dearly and evil thoughts of Phil were in a constant memory stream. His face. His evil doings. It was ravaging my mind like a plague.

When I finally stopped crying I looked up to see who was holding me so gently. Immediately I was transfixed with his liquid golden eyes. I gasped

"I'm sorry!" and quickly pulled myself out of his beautiful arms wiping my face with my sleeves. I looked down and saw his shirt was soaked.

"OH! I'm SO SO Sorry!" I yelped. " I will get you a new one I promise" I teared up again.

"It's fine. No need I have plenty more shirts. Believe me!" he assured – though he didn't have me convinced. He looked kind of confused at my behaviour as well. I was talking to him like I didn't know who he was, and even though it feels like I should know him I don't remember him

"Edward!" I cried, burying my head into his shoulder once again. His face relaxed visibly and I felt his body loosen,

"Ssh, Bella. I'm so sorry about this!" Edward whispered.

"About what?" I asked. I was the one who was staining his shirt over pointless tears.

"About what you saw because of my carelessness" Edward added, cleaning up my confusion.

"Phil" I stated grimly. If not for Edwards Vampire hearing I don't know if he would have heard the strain in my voice to say his name.

"Yes" he breathed.
"It's okay" I comforted. "I was just to weak to stop him before" I sobbed.

"Bella, your anything but weak." He countered my words instantly.

Finally my eyes were out of tears to produce and I was just sitting there latched onto Edward's shirt.

Just as I let go of Edward and thanked him Lilium popped back through the window.

"Bella!" she cried. She ran over and hugged me mumbling I'm sorrys over and over again. I pulled her off me never having seen her looking so vulnerable.

"I'm okay now" I told her. She shook her head.

"No your not" she signed. Edward and I looked at her questionably.

"What?" I asked. What I didn't realize is it wasn't Lilium who said that. Carlisle walked out from behind Lilium who was to caught up in all the emotion to sense him to start with.

"I mean that your not okay" Carlisle restated.

"What do you mean I'm not?" I asked. My voice panicky.

"You have been traumatized mentally, and as result went a little… strange for a bit. You shook and cried and fell unconscious. You forgot who Edward was for a few minutes as well. You have been abused. This is what leads me to this conclusion" Carlisle said. (A/N I have no idea if any of these hold true) "These are all factors in emotional and mental instability."

"So I'm crazy" I asked starting to hyperventilate. Thoughts of strait jackets and white rooms and doctors and needles and asylums popped into my head.

"No. Your mentally unstable"

Edward stepped forwards ready to lash out at Carlisle for his words but Lilium beat him to it.

She punched Carlisle, which happened to make a new hole in the wall. Esme was going to be angry.

EDWARDS POV

Bella watched Carlisle go through the wall. I grabbed her and held her in a hug. It was then I felt her start to shake.
"It's okay Bella" I said trying to calm her. Her shoulders shook harder. I looked down expecting to see tears racing down her cheeks. What I saw instead surprised me.

Bella looked to be laughing. She was laughing. It was as if nothing was happening right now. Nothing had happened.

'Edward, son, back away for a moment. Go slow. Put Bella down and back away from her' Carlisle thought to me. I looked up to see Carlisle was back in the room and he and Lilium were just staring at Bella. I looked back at her.

"Bella sweetie." I said hoping to catch her attention. Shoe looked at me before laughing even harder.

Her laughing stopped. She sat motionless for a moment. Then her laugh came back, but now it wasn't a normal laugh. No now it was a maniacal laugh. Bella's eyes were crazed and her laugh was scaring me. It made me scared for Bella and what had happened to her. I looked at Lilium zeroing on her mind. Hoping to get a glance at Bella's

But do you even think that what I found in her mind seemed remotely sane?

"Lilium are those your thoughts?" I asked a little more frightened. Curiosity killed the cat. That saying kept running through my mind. I was beyond scared as the thoughts continued. What if those thoughts were Bella's?

Lilium looked at me gravely and shook her head no. I growled. She was lying she had to be!

"Bella" she said solemnly.

I felt as though if I had a heart it would have frozen in shock. Thawed out and frozen again, then blow up. I felt like I could have a vampire's version of hyperventilation.

"Bella's thoughts?" I squeaked. She nodded.

"Bella was thinking those things?" I asked again trying to prove her wrong.

She nodded again.

"What is wrong with her?" I asked. Before Lilium could answer Carlisle asked,

"What was she thinking?" I looked at him.

"Death, blood, us dead with our heads sitting on our chest, our hands holding them there. Peoples hearts all over the place, along with other organs. She was thinking about rooms painted with blood. She was thinking about ways to kill, ways to torture." I sobbed. I couldn't think like this.

Bella's laughing rose back into the room.

"Death to the undead is fitting. Don't you think?" she asked. Laughing.

Bella, what happened to you?

A/N okay people. Let me know what you think. hope you liked it. Sorry again for making you wait so long!!!!

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