Chapter 14

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CLUBHOUSE POV

The Sons were sitting around discussing Jackson and his actions over the Mayna retaliation. Most of them think that he is a danger not only to himself but to them as well. He's a loose canon right now that's ready to explode and not give a shit who it effects. Tig was pushing Clay the hardest.

"Man you are gonna to have to do something with Jax. I respect what he has done for the club and all. But he is a danger to whoever he fucken rides with man. You saw how he went cowboy out there. He didn't think about how many brothers could have got killed when he rushed them like that. We backed him up Clay; I won't do that shit again."

"Jax is my problem to handle. You will back whatever the fuck up I say. Is that clear?" Tig knew he had to do exactly what he was told but he didn't like it.

Opie was trying to tell Clay Jax needed to get Bella out of his head before he gets himself killed. Since they got back from the retaliation Jax has been locked in his room. Clay told Opie that Jax is fine; he just needed time to heal that's all. Opie decided that was bullshit and went to handle shit his own way.

Opie knocked on Jax's room door several times. But Jax wouldn't answer him.

"If you don't open the fucken door I am gonna kick it in." Jax knew that Opie would do it so he let him in.

Opie and Jax talked about a lot of little bullshit things before Opie brought up Bella.

"Jax don't you think it's time to makeup with Bella now. You evened the score with her. You know that I love Lila but she can't ever replace Donna in my heart. You only get the chance once in a life time to meet your Donna. I see that in you when I watch you with Bella. Get the fuck up and go work your shit out with her."

Jax wanted to makeup but he didn't know how or if she still even wanted to be with him. He was pissed at her about Emmett and now he just missed her. Jax needed Bella to make him whole again.

"I've called her and texted but she never returned any of them. Op she left me for Emmett; that's who she wants to be with. You don't know how pissed I was when I saw that fucken picture of them together. Bella is the first woman that I've ever been faithful to. You know how this shit works. We do who we want when we want. I let her in and let her get to me."

Opie corrected Jax. Bella had told Lila that Jax asked her to leave. Jax told him he was just pissed off at the time and didn't want to hurt her. He didn't really mean that he wanted her to leave when he said it. But he can't take it back now.

When Opie started questioning Jax about the picture; Jax had no answers. He didn't know who had sent it to him or why.

"Brother don't you find that a little off that someone would send it to you without a name. They were trying to cause problems and didn't want you to know who done it. But you told me that Clay wanted to break up you and Bella. My guess, it was Clay or Emmett."

Jax never stopped to think about who had sent it. Only how miserable he has been since he saw it.

Opie told Jax that he better get his shit together because Clay was making decisions without him. If he wanted there to be anything left to salvage of the club he needed to handle his business. Jax told Opie that he didn't know how to do that this time. Without Bella with him it was not as important to him anymore.

While they were talking gun shots rang out through the clubhouse. Both Opie and Jax got their guns ready and went to see what had happened. When they went outside; there had been another attempt on Clay's life. The Myans were starting war on the Sons own turf. If Tig had not pulled Clay out of the way he would have been shot.

Clay told Juice to start calling in the other charters. It was time to put the Mayans out of business. Jax would not go along with that.

"Call or vote?"

Clay was pissed that Jax had called him on his decision once again. "You vote this is the second attempt on my life by those scum bags. We kill them and now. What if they come back and it's one of our old ladies or kids? I know you don't have to worry about the old lady part but the rest of us do."

Jaxs felt that fire that Bella had ignited inside of him "Fuck you Clay. We vote that is how shit works. Brains before bullets remember? Or has JT been gone so long that you've forgotten?"

Clay shoved Jaxs. How dare Jaxs throw his father words at him? Jaxs shoved him back.

"Don't put your goddamn hands on me. We don't even know why they are doing this. Your fucken up big time." Jax just walked away.

Clay was even more pissed that Jax walked away when he gave the Sons a direct order of what he wanted done.

"Jackson where the fuck do you think you're gonna go? You better be here when its time. Put your fucken cut on."

Jax told Clay to go fuck himself.

Jackson went to his room to shower. It was the first one he had in three or four days. When he came out Cherry and Lila where waiting for him.

"I'm not in the mood for you two. Get the fuck out my room."

They both shook their heads no and crossed their arms.

Lila told Jackson that Bella was leaving town, if she had not already. He pretended not to care but he did. Cherry handed him a piece of paper.

"What's this?"

She told him it was the address to the Cullen's house. Jax wadded it up and threw it down.

Cherry stood up to Jax "You are being pig headed. You love Bella and you know it. Even if Bella did fuck Emmett so what? You fucked some little whore too. Get over yourself Jackson. Be the man and go to her before it is too late. You are just pushing her farther into Emmett's arms. When is the last time that you left this room to even go to see your son? Stop feeling sorry for yourself."

Jax threw them out of his room. It was time to swallow his pride. He thought about his father's words.

A true outlaw finds the balance

between passion in his heart and

the reason in his mind. The outcome

is balance of might and right.

Jax has always known that his outlaw ways would someday catch up with him. Balancing between love and the club was never a problem until Bella came along. But both in his mind and in his heart he is going to find that balance that he needs to make their love once again right.

As Jax was walking out the door Bobby asked him where he was going.

"I am gonna get my old lady back or at least try."

Bobby thought to himself that it was about damn time Jax left his room to do something.

BELLAS POV

Edward was continuing to touch me. I removed his hand from my arm.

"What in the fuck are you talking about? Victoria is looking for me again?" He had a shocked look on his face.

"Bella what do you mean by again? I have been tracking her and the seven other vampires that she has been traveling with. They have not come near you or I would have known. I still love you and want to be with you. I only left so that you would not be hurt by us. I can protect you and we can be together forever."

Now it is not just Victoria. She has others that are looking for me too. I thought of Charlie, he is unprotected. There were so many things running through my mind right now. I just wanted to get away from Edward. But he wouldn't stop touching me.

"Take your fucking hands off of me. You left me unprotected. You have no idea what I have been through because of you. I do not want to hear the bullshit that is coming out of your mouth right now."

Edward grabbed me again. Does he not hear me telling him that I do not want him to touch me? Emmett removed Edwards hand from me.

"Bella said she did not want you touching her."

Edward was concentrating hard right now on Emmett. Shit he was reading Emmet's mind.

"You have been with Bella. I left her to have a better life and be free from us. You are my brother how could you do this to me? You know how much I love her." I could not believe that Edward was saying that he loved me. That naive little girl that he left in Forks might have believed him but not the Bella that I am today. I owe that to Jax.

Edward grabbed Emmett. Emmett threw him off of the porch away from me. They were fighting and I wanted to stop it.

"Emmett I love you and I don't want you to get hurt or fight your family because of me." I went to go down the steps when two arms grabbed me a spun me back up by the door. It was Jasper.

"What in the hell are you thinking? Never get in the middle of two vampires fighting they will hurt or kill you." I didn't care as long as Emmett was okay.

Jasper must have been feeling what I was. "He will be fine Bella. It is Edward that I am worried about."

Peter took off towards the woods to find them.

Jasper told me that Jax was coming. That it was not safe to have him here right now, to get rid of him as soon as possible. He blurred in the same direction that Peter had gone.

Jax pulled up on his bike. "We need to work our shit out and talk. We can do it here or we can go somewhere but it's gonna happen. If you don't want Emmett hearing then let's go somewhere. But I'm not leaving until you say you'll talk to me." I put his helmet on and we rode to what use to be our spot.

(****)

We walked down the path but he hadn't said anything since we left the Cullens. I decided that it was time to tell Jax some of the truth or much as I could.

"I'm sorry that you found out about Emmett that way. I was going to his house a lot and taking Abel with me. I should have never taken Abel there without your permission."

"I'm sorry for what I did too. That girl didn't mean anything to me. I've had you on my mind since I walked out the door. So you've been doing Emmett this whole time. I don't get it Bella. Why did you stay with me if you love him?"

That was going to be the complicated question that I had to answer; he deserved the right to know.

"When I started going back around them I built a friendship with Emmett. At first that is all it was but then I started having feelings for him. I didn't sleep with Emmett before you told me to leave but I did after that. I am not innocent in all of this either. We kissed and did other stuff before then." I got out most of the hardest part of what I had to say. I was hoping that he would not ask a bunch of questions.

"My telling you to leave then was the push for you to go to Emmett, I'm a fool Bella. Now that you've been with him; is that where you want to be? Do you love him? Don't you even want to try to work shit out with me?" This was the question that I wanted to avoid but I guess I can't now.

"Yes I am in love with Emmett. He is such a wonderful and caring man. But I love you too. The love I have for both of you is for different reasons. I never wanted to hurt either one of you. I want to still walk by your side when you need me just like I promised I would."

Jax just looked at me but didn't respond to that.

We made small talk but it was time for me to get back. I wanted to be there for Emmett when Rosalie got to the Cullens. Jax dropped me off at the house and was hugging me good bye.

"I love you Bella. But I can't share you, I won't. I want you to come home but, I won't beg."

He kissed me and then he rode away. I have watched Jax ride away so many times. But this time I saw a broken outlaw and it was my fault.

I could tell by the look on Emmett's face that Rosalie was already here. He took me by the hand and we went outside with everyone else to meet them.

She got out of the car with another male vampire. He was attractive but not as handsome as Emmett is. She was all giggles and grins until she saw Emmett with me holding my hand.

"What is that bitch doing here? Emmett is holding her little hand so she doesn't fall down and kill herself?" Emmett was right she was going to be a bitch about it.

Emmett hugged me close to his body and never backed down from her "You normally hold hands with the one you love."

Her eyes and face was of furry "Emmett I forbid you to be around her. She has damaged this family enough. I loathe everything about her and what she has done to us." Right back at ya babe. Emmett kissed me and told me to stay on the porch he would be right back.

"Rosalie I don't give a fuck what you don't like. Bella is with me and you will show her some respect." He wasn't his normal self-right now, almost like a vampire. I could tell that shit was going to get bad again today.

Esme told Rosalie that she was being rude to me and she just rolled her eyes. She asked Joshua to come over; her new boy toy as Emmett calls him.

"Emmett let me introduce you to my fiancée Joshua. He is everything that a real man should be. Babe this is my brother Emmett and over there on the porch is the piece of shit human that I told you about." He looked me up and down and had a look of disgust on his face.

"Ignore the stuck on herself cunt. Rosalie why don't you go emasculate Joshua for a while and leave us alone? I know that you are not happy with your man unless you can do that to them." Well I guess Emmett told her.

Joshua asked Emmett if he had a problem and that if he did he could take it up with him. I couldn't believe they have only been here for five minutes and they already want trouble. Not to mention that this guy was kind of prissy like Edward and Emmett towered over him.

Another fight; only this time it was Emmett and Joshua. Edward seemed truly amused by that. But I don't know why he was considering Emmett had already kicked his ass today. Maybe he was routing for the underdog.

Rosalie turned to me and I knew it was going to be bad. "This is all your fault. You're like a parasite that feeds off this family. Sucking what life we have left out of us. Emmett is trying to fight everybody to save you. It will only be a slow death for him. You're killing him and don't even have the sense to know it. I wanted to kill you the second that Edward wanted to be with you. The only thing that saved you was the family. But they won't this time."

She was coming for me and Alice blocked her. "No Rosalie I will not let you hurt Bella. You are my sister too and I don't want to fight you but I will." I didn't want Alice to defend me. If I didn't stand up for myself with her she would be one more person that I would have to run from. I wanted to be strong enough to walk by Emmett's side too.

"Fuck you bitch. You want me, come and get me." She threw Alice to the ground and Rosalie was one pissed off vampire right now.

Before she ever got to me Emmett grabbed her by her throat "She can't fight you but I can. If you even think about touching her again I will kill. I just kicked Joshies ass and I will yours too if you open your mouth one more fucking time." Emmett was all vampire right now. But he let her go. She was shocked that he talked to her that way and was willing to hurt her over me.

"Oh Rosalie you might want to go gather up Joshie's body parts. After I ripped his small penis off I threw it into the woods." She glared at me and went running off to find Joshua.

Carlisle told Emmett that he needed to help find the pieces so that he could put him back together. Emmett didn't want to leave me alone knowing that Rosalie and Edward were here. I told him I was going to go for a drive and get my head clear. He kissed me good bye and told me that he would call me when they were done. I think I needed a drink or ten.

(****)

I have been sitting here drinking and thinking about life. All of the pain and problems that I have caused for everyone by just being a part of their life. Maybe Rosalie was right; maybe I am nothing but a piece of shit. Just a parasite feeding off of others and killing them slowly every day.

The bartender asked if I could call someone to pick me up. He officially had cut me off. There was no one that I wanted to see right now. I thought about having Cherry or Lila do it. But I couldn't continue to be a part of their lives without being around Jax;s life too.

I saw Jax walk in and he was talking to the bartender. I don't know what they were saying but Jax slapped him on the back and walked over to me.

"Hey, Dave called me and told me my old lady was drunk and needed a ride. But I told him that I don't have one of those anymore. I don't know what Emmett's number is or I would've called him to come get ya." I think he was caring about me and burning me a little at the same time.

Jax's face went cold. "Fuck, Mayans." I looked over at the front door and there were three or four of them with their cuts on motioning for him to come outside.

Jax took out his prepay and called Opie "I've got Mayans up my ass at Dave's." Then he hung up the phone.

"Bella I want you to go out the back door when I go out the front. Get your ass in the car and get the fuck out of here." He got up out the booth to leave.

"Jax please wait for the others Sons to get here. There are too many of them. They will hurt you."

"I love you. If I don't get out of here they'll come in and get me. Everyone in here will get hurt. They're on our turf, they want blood. I don't want you to get hurt." Even after what I had done to him he still wants to protect me.

As soon as Jax went out the front door I went out the back. But there was two of them waiting for me. They grabbed me and carried me away from the bar. They threw me on the ground next to where they had Jax. What a way to sober up quick.

I could tell by his President patch on his cut that he was the leader of the Mayans. Jax was on his knees and that guy had a gun pointed at Jax's head. Jax kept telling him that he had no idea what in the hell he was talking about. All I understood was that there had been some drug deal made between the sons and Mayans.

The guy pulled the trigger back on the gun. "I'm going to give you one more chance to tell me before I shoot you. But first I want you to take your fucken cut off and lay it at me feet."

Jax showed no fear of him. He spit on the guy.

"Pull the fucken trigger. That's the only way this fucken cut is coming off my back."

He struck Jax's in the face with the gun "You are much stronger willed than your leader. We decided since he wasn't even strong enough to stand and protect his own club. There is no way in hell that he is strong enough to take us on." Jax's face said it all. Clay was somehow responsible for what these guys were going to do to us.

The guy then stuck the gun in my face. He smiled at Jax "What about the bitch; does she mean enough for you to cower to me?"

Jax had his mask on. "She's just some whore I was picking up, doesn't mean a damn thing to me. My old lady would carry my ink. Check her if you don't believe me. So let the bitch go and we will settle our business." One of the other guys raised up my shirt. I was never more thankful that I never wanted a tattoo than I was right now.

The guy picked my arm up and saw my bracelet. "Well well, it looks like we do have the right girl; VP's old lady. How about I let the boys take turns with her and make you watch? You will surrender to me just like Clay did." I swear if Jax and I get out of this alive that I am telling him the truth about what Renee wanted him to know.

Jax was struggling to get free from the two guys that were holding him. "If you touch her I will kill all of you mother fuckers by a slow and painful death." There was my outlaw unafraid and unstoppable.

They were all laughing at Jax. Asking him what the hell was he going to do about it. There was fifteen of them and one of him.

Then I heard a familiar voice. "He is not alone and if you touch her Jax will have to fight me to see who gets to kill you." Emmett found us.

It wasn't just Emmett. Jasper and Peter was with him. The guy with the gun was amused at them.

"You're little pussy boy gang better run home to your mamas before I let my boys show you what it is like to be fucked like a prison bitch."

Peter stepped toward them. "I would love to see you try that. People refer our gang as the Vamps; Very Angry Male Personality Syndrome."

Even in my life or death situation he thinks he is funny, shit.

I know the Mayans cannot hurt them but I fear what Jax will realize about the Cullens. If Jax knows their secret then they will have to kill him. Everything was going on so fast. Emmett beat those two guys that were holding Jax. Jax and Emmett side by side were fighting for what they loved the most, me.

The Sons were riding up. Those of the Mayans that were left standing rode away. Emmett made sure that I was okay and I couldn't wait to be in his arms. I was hugging him and telling him thank you for saving me. I should have never left the Cullen's house. He will always keep me safe.

Clay had a huge smile on his face when he walked up to Jax "I see Emmett saved your old lady again, I mean ex old lady. Kill those pieces of shit."

Jax just walked on by him. I do not understand the need for Clay to be so cruel to him.

As Jaxs was getting on his bike he told Emmett to meet him down the road. I rode with Emmett and he told me it would be fine and he wouldn't fight with Jax.

"I promise Bella I will not hurt him, too much." I must have had that look on my face. He kissed the back of my hand and told me he was just kidding. In a fight with a human Jax could hold his own but with Emmett he wouldn't have a chance. But I guess Jax and I have the same odds with trying to fight against vampires.

Jax was parked off the road sitting on his bike smoking. He didn't want to talk to Emmett; he wanted to talk to me.

"I think you really need to come with me. The Myans have already tagged you as my old lady. I can't live with myself if they hurt you. Emmett can fight but what the fuck is he gonna do when bullets start coming?" I couldn't tell Jax the truth. That being with Emmett was safer than being with anyone. But now I can add to the list of ones that are going to track me down; vampire and human. The more distance that I put between me and Jax the safer he is.

"I will be fine. I have turned your world upside down enough. I have something for you that I want you see. Can we meet tomorrow?"

It was time to give Jax the letters and let the shit fall where it may. He told me to come by his house after work.

I went to walk away and he grabbed my arm "Please Bella come with me. Even if you don't love me; I still love you. Emmett can't protect you from them. They will kill him too." I kissed Jax on the cheek and my heart sank but I had to let him go.

Emmett wanted to know if I was ready to go back to the house and face them again, I wasn't. So we drove around for a while and I tried to get my buzz on again. It was working. I started to relax a little and think he was too.

We agreed that after I see Jax that he and I are leaving. I don't care what happens to me but I would never want them to hurt Emmett because of me. He kept telling me not worry that Alice, Jasper and Peter are going too. That no vampire or human will ever hurt me; he would make sure of it. I believe that he will.

I wasn't feeling well when we got back to the house and I just wanted to lie down. Rosalie was being her normal bitch self to Emmett.

"I see that you saved the white trash so the vampires can kill her later."

Emmett went to say something to her but I stopped him. It was time for me to handle her on her own level. I looked down at the red pumps that she was wearing.

"Cute shoes are they new?"

"Uh yeah, I got them when Joshua and I went to France. They cost more than you could make in six months human."

I smiled at her leaned down and hurled. All over her feet and those pretty little red shoes of hers. I wiped my mouth off "I feel so much better now."

Emmett was laughing as he picked me up and carried me up to his room.

"Bella I am finding you so hot right now. You just upset her whole evening and I loved the look on her face. I will keep buying her new shoes if you keep doing that." I hugged him because he doesn't deserve to be treated like she treats him. Emmett would do anything for you and never ask for anything from you in return. He is so easy to love.

(****)

Emmett did not want me to go alone. I told him that Jax would never hurt me. I had to give him the package from Renee. It was not Jax he was worried about. Emmett and I are going back to Forks as soon as I get back. That is where I need to be right now.

I am doing Jax a favor by leaving him. The Mayans will still try to hurt him but the vampires that are looking for me will never know that he existed in my world. At least they will not try to hurt him and Abel too.

I had been waiting on Jax for almost an hour at the house. It was never like him to be running this late without calling. I kept calling his cell and he didn't answer. He wouldn't even answer his prepay.

Lila was calling me and I hoped that she knew where he was.

She told me the one thing that all old ladies fear the most of hearing; Jax had been shot.

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