I drove JJ and I back to the hotel in silence. It was hard to be in the car with her for that length of time without talking to her. I dreaded to think what the rest of the night in the hotel room would be like. I told myself that it was easier to ignore JJ and the feelings that were currently swimming round my head. I couldn't allow myself to give in to them right now. It was too dangerous. We had work to do.
We made our way up to the hotel room, which was situated in the middle of the two rooms the others were sharing. "Shit," I muttered under my breath, unlocking the door and mentally cursing Garcia. I'm sure she had a hand in this.
I went inside with the plan of crashing straight into bed, but JJ evidently had other plans. As I sat down on my bed to arrange my things, she sat down next to me. "Emily, honey, what's wrong? You've been avoiding me all day. Have I done something?"
I sighed. "Jayje, please, can't we discuss this later? It's been a long day, we've been really busy, and right now all I wanna do is get some sleep." I stood up to make my way to the bathroom. "And besides, I haven't been avoiding you. I've been working, in case you failed to notice."
"Yeah right, Em. No matter how busy we are, you always make time to talk to me. And today that didn't happen, and I didn't know what to think. One minute you're hot, next you're cold. What's going on?"
I was in the bathroom changing and brushing my teeth, pretending I couldn't hear her even though I'd left the door slightly ajar. Please JJ, I thought, just leave this until we get back. But JJ wasn't about to give up so easily.
When I opened the bathroom door, there she was, already changed into the smallest pyjamas I'd ever seen. I mean, she might as well have not been wearing anything. She was standing with her feet slightly apart, hands on her hips, her long blonde hair framing her face. All coherent thought disappeared from my mind. She looked stunning.
"Now, Emily, I'm only gonna ask this one more time," she said, slowly making her way towards me. "What the hell is going on?"
"I… I uh..." I started, but the words wouldn't come. I was too overwhelmed by the sight of a half-naked JJ in front of me. I started to back away but she continued to get closer, until I felt my back hit the wall. "Fuck", I thought to myself, "nowhere to run now."
She continued coming towards me until there was practically no space left between us. She pushed her body against mine, pinning me to the wall. I was powerless to stop her. She reached up to tuck my hair behind my ear, and then started kissing my neck.
"Come on Emily," she whispered between kisses, "just give in to me."
I felt my knees go weak and my breathing become heavier as she continued to kiss me. I wrapped my arms around her, allowing myself to feel the heat of her body against mine and inhale the scent of her perfume. I was so overwhelmed by what I was feeling that I couldn't think straight, only realising what I was doing when I felt JJ pulling the bottom of my top up.
"JJ, stop," I said breathlessly. "I can't do this, not here."
JJ brushed the hair out of her eyes and looked at me. "What? Are you serious? I can't think of anywhere better to do this!"
"This isn't a vacation, Jayje. We're working, remember? The rest of the team are on either side of us. We can't let them find out about this. That's just asking for trouble. "
JJ turned and made her way towards her bed. "You know, you've really gotta make up your mind about what "this" is. Just a couple of days ago you were telling me how much you liked me, how much you wanted me. Here I am presenting you with the opportunity, and you're turning me down. You said you would be proud to have me as your girlfriend, but now you don't want anyone to find out? You're sending me some really mixed signals here, Emily."
"It's not that I don't want anyone to know ever, I just think it's a bit quick to be broadcasting the fact that we're a couple. What if it doesn't work out? And as I said before it's against…"
"…the rules," she finished, rolling her eyes. "Well, God forbid I should be the one to make Miss perfect Emily Prentiss break the rules. We can't have that, can we? Not exactly the expected behaviour of an ambassador's daughter, is it?"
"JJ, that's not fair," I protested.
"Save it Emily, I'm going to sleep," she said, climbing into bed. "I'll see you in the morning."
I felt awful as I made my way to my own bed. JJ was right. If I was feeling confused, how on earth must she be feeling? I switched off the light and laid down to sleep. I tossed and turned for an hour or so. Knowing JJ was just a few feet away was killing me. Thinking about her, lying there, in those ridiculously small pyjamas…
Aw, screw the rules.
I got out of bed and quietly made my way over to hers. "Jayje," I whispered, "are you asleep?"
My question was answered by a small moan.
"Can I get in?" I asked, still whispering.
In the dim moonlight, I saw JJ smirk to herself before she replied, "I thought you'd never ask."
