AN: First off. Happy 10-8 everyone. DS day! Secondly, this is the last chapter of this story. :( I haven't focused on it like I should of and it got way off course, so this is the time to end it before I go crazy. I know I haven't updated in awhile and I'm sorry. Please Review. :)
Serena sat on the couch waiting for the doctor to call her in. This was her third session and nothing had impacted Dan. The doctor said that this was expected since the trauma was extensive. It didn't help that he had people from all different ends pushing new memories on him. She believed that Dan was suppose to regain this all himself. Serena still found it odd that he remembered almost everything, even events right before his accident, but couldn't piece together the rest. If they didn't move in together, she'd swear he was pushing her away. She didn't care for Cindy. She always felt like she was judging her for the way she handled things. It didn't help that Cindy and Dan managed to talk more. She thought that today of all days would be the one day that she'd have off from therapy, but Dan insisted that today they had to go.
"Serena, you can come in now."
Serena sighed before getting up. She wanted to make a mad dash for the door but couldn't. Dan wasn't allowed to even sit in the waiting room. Cindy told him to skip this session. Serena just found that even more odd. Why was she the one who had to go alone if this all for Dan.
Serena sat there watching as Cindy wrote in her book. Serena didn't feel like sharing much today. Her mood was totally off and Cindy could sense that.
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing. Just tired." Serena faked a smile.
"You can't lie to a trained doctor."
"It's not lying."
"How's Dan?" Cindy crossed her legs.
"He's fine. Everything is at the same pace."
"Which bothers you?"
Serena pressed her top lip into her bottom lip. Maybe lying wasn't exactly the way to go. She couldn't tell Dan anything that was said, so might as well be honest.
"Sometimes. I just wish we could get through this. I mean we live together and it's great, but to have to remind him of things we did. I feel like I'm the only one who gets the jokes we had or the feelings we shared."
"Like there's a wall."
"Exactly." Serena nodded.
"It's common. Patients normally put up this block cause they're afraid the other person might..." Cindy paused. Dan's afraid you might figure his emotions out before he can process them."
"Has he told you this?"
"I can't tell you what happens in sessions, Serena." Cindy closed her book.
"So that's it. You write down that I'm frustrated and then close up?" Serena was growing angry.
"Three sessions will not fix what's been done."
"Well, you haven't offered me anything. I don't even think you're interested in helping."
"I wish to help all my patients."
"Yeah, but I get this weird vibe from you that...well you're not interested in all aspects." Serena grabbed her bag and stormed off.
The assistant tried to grab her and ask for the next appointment date but Serena just glared at her. This girl was not seriously going to start something with her in a mood like this. She pushed through the door and didn't even bother to catch a cab. She just started walking. She felt her phone vibrating in her bag. She just kept ignoring it. It was mostly likely the doctor looking for an apology or something, and Seren just ouldn't care about that.
After vibrating for seven times in a row she finally answered it. She didn't even look at the contact name.
"What!"
"Whoa, calm down Serena."
"Dan...I just can't."
"Yeah, the doctor called me and said you flipped out."
"I did."
"But why?"
"Cause, I didn't want to go to this session today, of all days."
"I'm sorry, but I had to schedule it this week."
"But today?"
"It's just another day Serena."
Those words cut through her like a knife. Just another day? How can Dan Humphrey say that October 8th, was just another day. Serena knew he remembered meeting her at the party, so her anger wasn't misplaced.
"Where are you now Serena?"
"Walking, aimlessly."
"Meet me at the train station. I'm losing reception."
Dan hung up before Serena could say no and tell him off. She threw her phone in her bag and finally got into a cab. She rested her head against the window and waited for the fifteen minutes to pass.
Serena walked through the train station to find Dan sitting on one of the benches. He looked up and smiled. He waved for her to come over and sit with him. She half smiled back and began to walk. Her feet felt like they were dragging.
"Hey." Dan kissed Serena.
"Hi."
"You seem really upset. You okay?"
"It's just..."
"Wait." Dan cut Serena off.
He looked at the incoming people. He scanned the crowd. Serena had no idea what he was looking for. She titled her head to see if she could spot a person before he could. Dan just put his head down and shook it.
"It's not there."
"What's not."
"When I first got out after my accident, I came here. Looking for something, anything."
"And?"
"It wasn't here. So I came back after I kissed you at the pool hall. Still wasn't here. Then after we slept together, it just wasn't here."
"You're talking in circles. What were you looking for?"
Dan smiled at Serena. He opened his mouth to talk but no words came out. He felt a sharp pain in his head. He grabbed the side of his head and fell into Serena's lap. Serena screamed out for someone to help. A woman came up to them and called 911. Serena fell to the floor with Dan in her lap. She was reliving the accident all over again.
Doctors swarmed around Dan. They put him on a crash cart and yelled numbers up and down the hall. Serena was sitting on the floor crying. She could even dial the phone to call his family. Words would just not compose in her mouth. They took Dan to a room and brought a flashlight to his eyes. He was somewhat responsive, but the doctor knew surgery would need to be done. They wheeled him into a room while a nurse consoled Serena.
Four hours later, Serena was still sitting on the floor. She felt like her body was glued to that spot. A doctor approached her. She looked up and braced herself against the wall. She swallowed all of her tears and began to get up.
"If you tell me he can't remember all over again. I just might die."
"There was a buildup of pressure in his skull. We made a small hole to alleviate it."
"Okay."
"He's responsive still. So that's good."
"Do you think there's more damage."
"It's still too early to tell. He's awake now. We waited to call you in till he was up."
"Can I see him?"
"Only for a few minutes, he needs rest."
Serena nodded. She followed a nurse into Dan's room. His eyes were shut. Part of her felt that this would be a repeat of the previous months. Her heart just could not take hearing that he didn't remember again. To lose what little they did have, would crush her.
"Dan, are you awake."
She heard him make some sort of moan.
"I'll go if you're tired."
"No, stay."
"So, you remember?"
"Yeah. A little hole in my head won't make me forget you, again."
"I should let you rest. I just wanted you to know I'm here." Serena brushed Dan's hair back.
"I want to finish our conversation from before."
"We can talk later."
"No, you need to her this." Dan motioned to get up but Serena pushed him back down.
"I'll listen."
"The thing I was looking for... it was a couple." Dan started coughing.
"I wanted to see if there was a couple or a guy who saw a girl, and felt what I felt. That was the place where you came back into my life and I realized you were the one for me. It seems stupid because you didn't even see or speak to me. Or know I was alive at that point." Dan laughed. "Somehow I just knew that I loved you, and I never stopped. I just needed you to know this, that through it all, that never changed."
"Dan..." Serena began to cry.
"I remember now. Every last line of it. Happy Anniversary."
"I knew you couldn't forget." Serena kissed his forehead.
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