Disclaimer: I owe nothing from Harry Potter. NOTHING.

Gin,

Why haven't you answered me yet? I really need to speak with you and explain some things. I know what everyone is saying about me, but the only person I feel needs to know the truth is you.

Tonks

"Ok. What's the problem then?" I frowned. I didn't get it.

Anna's eyes bulged. "GINNY SHE ONLY CARES THAT YOU KNOW THE TRUTH!"

"Well, I'm sure she assumes I'll set everyone else straight."

"Ugh. You're truly ignorant aren't you?"

I still didn't get it. She wants me to know the truth and that made Anna mad. It's got to be because it's Tonks. No, everything sets Anna off these days. If I track mud in after training, if I don't answer the phone before the machine gets it, if I leave a glass in the sink. She was really hard to live with now.

Tonks,

Sorry. Been training a lot in the off season. I'm taking a day off tomorrow, can you come to my house round noon?

Ginny

I shifted in the bed, trying again to make myself comfortable. Nothing was working. I was too nervous about tomorrow to sleep. I couldn't pinpoint my nerves as to if I was nervous because I was going to be alone with Tonks or because I was going to be alone with Tonks in my girlfriend's house and my girlfriend has no clue. It is the latter, for sure. The way Anna's been, I can't so much a sneeze without her going into a screaming fit, no way was I going to tell her Tonks was coming over to spill her guts. Anna would have hung around and I wanted to be alone with Tonks.

I sighed, annoyed. Tonks was always on my mind it seemed. It wasn't a good thing either.

Tonks arrived exactly at noon. Alone.

"Tonks. Where is Tin—I mean Nate?" I stammered, staring at her beautiful face.

"It's a Wednesday. He is at preschool." Tonks explained as if I should already know.

"So…it's just us then?"

"If you ever invited me, yeah."

"Right. Come on in. We can chat in the kitchen. I made some lunch. If you were hungry. It's nothing special, just sandwiches…" I trailed off, blushing.

"Yeah." Tonks followed me down the hall and into the spacious kitchen.

"Anna's a chef," I explained gesturing to all the cooking utensils hanging everywhere. I watched her studying the kitchen, taking it all in, just an auror should.

Tonks took a seat at the island where I had laid out two plates, two glasses, a plate of sandwiches, and iced tea. "Well, Ginny. I want you to know the real reason why I ended things with you."

My mouth dropped. I hadn't been expecting this. "Why now?"

"I've been planning this for the past four years. I was going to write you one day, but when I ran into Molly at Diagon Alley and she invited me for dinner on Christmas, I thought this is my chance. But I hadn't taken into account you would have moved on," Tonks help up her hand when I opened my mouth to interrupt her. "No, Gin. Not because I thought you'd be hung up on me, but because in my mind you are still my seventeen year old Ginny. Not twenty-one year old Ginny with a career and a fiancé."

"She's not my fiancé!" I blurted out before Tonks could continue.

Tonks ignored my outburst and poured herself a glass of iced tea. "Well, I just didn't figure you would have a girlfriend then. I couldn't very well express my thoughts to you in your mother's house with your girlfriend there. Especially not when I heard the story from Harry about how you two had meet and how everyone loved her. I couldn't hurt them by ruining their holiday with my shitty story."

"I loved you with everything I was. I really did. I thought about you constantly. I wrote letters to you that I never sent just so I could feel like I was talking to you in person." Tonks smiled fondly. "I even sometimes wrote to myself pretending to be you."

My eyes were beginning to mist as her words hit me likes waves. I never knew this and I suddenly felt bad thinking our whole relationship was one sided. "Then why…," I gulped. I couldn't even say the words.

"Because of Nate. Because when I saw you last, September 1, when you were boarding the train to Hogwarts, I left for the mission that day. I wrote you on the 4th even though I could barely stand to think about you after what had happened. I had found out I was pregnant late November. Even though I wasn't showing yet and barely three months pregnant, I was too embarrassed to show up at Christmas. I couldn't face you, telling you that I had had sex with a man and was pregnant all at the same, I didn't want you going through what I was going through. That's why I ended it in January." Tonks then helped herself to a sandwich and stared at me.

"You had sex with a guy? You cheated on me?"

"Ginny, no, I didn't cheat on you. Not really. I gave myself up to save others during a mission. I knew what he wanted. He made it really clear. I knew what was going on the entire time. I didn't resist. I willingly had sex with him so he wouldn't kill the others."

"But…why?"

"Ginny, the only time sex ever meant anything to me was when it's with someone I love."

"And that's where Nate came from? How do you look at him at every day?"

"Nate was the product of me saving people I loved. I don't look at Nate and see what happened or see the man who helped bring Nate into this world. I look at Nate and see Nate; my son. I look at him and see this kid who is so like me it's scary. It's not his fault he was created that way." Tonks finished softly, pulling the crust off her sandwich.

I reached over, placing my hand over hers. "Who did it to you?"

Tonks face paled, her eyes grew wide. "Gin-,"

"What?"

"She's trying to tell you, I'm home." Anna hissed.

Fuck.

Ok, just to clarify this, when Ginny first realized she had a crush on Tonks, she was 15, even though I had said she was 16, which was my mistake (I'm going to go back and correct it). Ginny and Tonks became an official couple Christmas Day (1997) when Ginny was sixteen. They last saw each other September 1st 1998. Tonks conceived Nate around September 3rd, 1998. They broke up sometime in mid January (1999) when Ginny was seventeen. Tonks had Nate end of May 1999. Shortly after Nate's birth (which no one knew about) Ginny graduated from Hogwarts. Ginny meet Anna Christmas Eve (1999) when she was eighteen. Anna and Ginny officially became a couple late Jan/early Feb of 2000. Ginny see Tonks for the first time in four years Christmas Break of 2002. I'm going by the Harry Potter wiki for dates and such to make this timeline. Its currently early March of 2003, the year Ginny turns 22. Also, there wasn't a big battle of Hogwarts. Ron, Harry, and Hermione (along with the help of others) defeated Voldemort, early August of 1998.