Chapter 14: blood red eyes

I sat curled up at the foot of my bed. All I'd done the past week was sit there and watch the sun rise and set. I didn't even sleep, just kept my face buried in my knees. Every single day Kiba would come by and knock on the door, but I wasn't going to answer. Not for him, and not for anybody. The room was a mess, it smelled like ashes and fire… and blood. I began to claw at my eyes again, dried blood was stuck under my finger nails and finally I felt fresh blood fall down my face, and I cried. For what felt like the hundredth time I cried. "I hate the Uchiha, I hate the Amamiya, I hate everything." I cursed. "Why, why, why!" A mixture of blood and tears ran down my face. Maybe this was just a dream, maybe it was a nightmare. I'd told myself this many times already, then I crawled up to the mirror in my room and was reminded that it wasn't all over again. My eyes were a bloody red and inside of it was a black flower made of lines that snaked inside of my eyes. "What is this!" I screamed slamming my head on to the mirror so hard that the glass shattered. "Why did this happen…?" I sobbed curling up in to a ball again. "I never wanted this to happen."

All of a sudden there was a knocking at the door again. It was obviously Kiba. "Azusa, please come out! I don't know what's going on with you! I'm worried, Azusa!"

I wanted him to go away. I didn't want him to see me like this. Looking back at the mirror I whispered. "It's so ugly, these eyes are so ugly." They were worse than my silver eyes. I'd hated those so much already for isolating me, for telling everyone that I was the pitiful Azusa Amamiya. Now these eyes…

"I've had enough of this Azusa!" I heard Kiba cry. Then my door came flying off of it's hinges. I jumped in surprise and screamed, running to the far side of the room and curling up. "Azusa, what the hell happened!" He said walking in to my scorched room. "Was there a fire in here!" Then he found me in the corner. I must've looked like a mess because it was like he stopped breathing for a moment. "Azusa! Are you alright!" He cried.

"I-" I began.

"Azusa, there's blood on your shirt! What happened here!" Kiba tried lifting my head up from my knees and I panicked.

"D-don't touch me!" I cried slapping his hand away. "D-don't look at me."

"What's going on Azusa?" Kiba sounded hurt and confused. I never wanted to hurt Kiba. "I'll never be able to understand you if you keep secrets from me." Then he lifted up my face and saw them. "Azusa, your eyes."

"Didn't I tell you not to look!" I screamed burying my face back in to my knees. "It's so ugly! It's a curse! Why is this happening, what is this!"

"Azusa!" Kiba hugged me tightly like I would leave if he didn't. "It's just a Sharingan. Isn't that normal Azusa? You're from a branch of the Uchiha clan, it'd only be normal for it to be this way. It's okay Azusa, you don't have to be scared."

"It hurts," I sobbed. "My eyes, they hurt." It was true, it wasn't only the cuts over my eyes that stung, it was my eyes itself. They were aching like they were crying out on their own. I didn't want these eyes, because these eyes didn't want me. "It's a curse." I said. "The Sharingan doesn't like the Amamiya clan just like the Uchiha don't like the Amamiya clan. So it's hurting me, it burned this place with black fire. Sharingan aren't supposed to start out this way. You're not supposed to be able to use Amaterasu until it develops in to the Mangekyo Sharingan. Look at my eyes Kiba," I told him raising my head for him to see. "Why do I have a Mangekyo Sharingan? To get a Mangekyo Sharingan you must kill your closest friend, so why? Why do I have it? I didn't kill Sasuke, and my closest friend in this village is Hinata, and she isn't dead… so why do I have this?" "I don't know," Kiba replied. "Let's just get you to the hospital." Kiba said staring at all of that scratches that I'd created above my left eye.

"I don't want to," I replied.

"Well I'm not giving you much of a choice here Azusa, and the way you look right now isn't giving me much of a choice either so just be a good girl and don't try and stop me." He told me seriously. Then he scooped me up and carried me out of my apartment door. When we finally got down the stairs he hoisted me up on to Akamaru's back and jumped on. "Hold on, okay?"

When we got to the hospital I was rushed in to disinfect the cuts above my eye. Kiba waited outside for me to come out. The doctor ended up having to put a bandage over my whole eye because the cuts had gotten way too close. "Please don't try something like this again Amamiya-san." The doctor warned. "It could've been a lot worse."

I nodded and left. My cuts were still stinging with disinfectant when I met up with Kiba in the waiting room again. "Did it hurt?" He asked running his thumb softly over my bandaged eye.

"Only a little. I'm sorry for worrying you." I apologized.

"Yeah, don't you ever lock yourself up without talking to me for a whole week ever again." Kiba said.

"But what am I going to do," I sighed. "You kicked in my door and my whole apartment is burnt up… I can't live there anymore."

Kiba laughed nervously, "yeah, I guess." I could tell that he'd been thinking about this and that he already had an idea, but it must've been embarrassing because he seemed a little reluctant to say it. "H-how about you live with me?"

I turned red and quickly turned my head to the floor so that he wouldn't see it.

"I-I mean, it should be fine since my mom and my sister live there too, so it shouldn't be weird or anything." Kiba tried explaining himself.

"Your mom would really let your girlfriend live with you?" I scoffed. "Tsume-san seems a little more serious than that."

"I could get her to agree to it after a while." Kiba scratched the back of his head with a small grin on his face. "And I think living with you would be fun."

"It depends on what kind of fun you're thinking about Kiba," I lectured looking him in the eyes. "You're thinking about nasty stuff again aren't you? Like that time I was in your room."

Then he turned red, "I-" He stammered.

"Boys will be boys," I said forgiving him. "How have my genin been doing anyways?" I asked.

"Hinata had been subbing in for you. They've been worried about you, they should be finishing up training for today if you want to see them." Kiba told me. "Do you want to see them?" I nodded, I really wanted to see them, and I didn't want them to worry about me. "Even like this?" He asked brushing his hand over my right eye which didn't have any bandages on it so it showed my Mangekyo Sharingan completely.

"I don't know how to make it go away." I admitted. "I've tried just telling it to go away, but it doesn't." Then Kiba got really close to me with a surprised look on his face.

"Azusa, one of the petals in your Mangekyo just fell." He told me.

I looked at him shocked. "Why-?"

He saw me get scared again and grabbed my hand and held it tightly. "Sorry, just don't worry about it right now." He began to pull me out of the hospital. "Let's just go."

"Kiba, do you not like this hospital?" I asked him.

"I don't really like hospitals all that much. When I come here I can see all the bad things that are going on in our world. I don't like it." He admitted.

"I like it here," I replied. "Because this is the place where I met you, remember? After you guys tried to bring Sasuke back. I didn't really know you back then, but I wanted to thank everyone that tried to bring back Sasuke, and then I met you."

I faintly heard him whisper. "Thank goodness we failed that mission." Then he just laughed and turned to look at me. "I do remember that, maybe I should learn to like this place too." We continued walking out of the hospital.

I smiled. "How has Hinata been doing with training my genin?"

"Pretty good actually. She and Tsuyoi are always talking about their Kekkei Genkai, and Takeshi is amazing as ever. The only problem is Shou, he's always moping about you not being there. You know I don't like him very much, I think he has a crush on you or something." Kiba frowned. "You might not be able to tell, but I sure can."

"Are you jealous?" I joked. Kiba just looked away and frowned. He seemed to be a very territorial kind of person, like a dog. Which was probably why he didn't like the idea of me talking to any guys except for him. "Don't worry, it can't be that serious. I mean I'm his sensei." I laughed.

"Maybe, I mean I though Kurenai-sensei was pretty." Kiba thought about it.

"Horrible person," I frowned. "Kurenai-san has a baby already."

"But she is a very pretty lady." Kiba replied. "But so are you, I should be proud that I have such a pretty girlfriend." I blushed and held his hand tightly. "Your eyes don't make you any less pretty, Azusa. You've never liked your eyes." Then he picked me up and put me on Akamaru. "But I think they're beautiful." Then he pulled me down and kissed me.

When we broke apart I scoffed. "You're such a sap, you know that?"

"You know it," He laughed jumping on to the back of Akamaru with me. Then we went off to the spot where I usually trained Takeshi, Shou, and Tsuyoi. When we got there Hinata was actually the first person to jump on me.

"Where have you been? I've been so worried!" Hinata cried almost in tears.

"Sorry," I replied.

"And what did you do to your eye! You have a bandage all over it!" She said worriedly.

"Just her being an idiot." Kiba joked.

"An idiot? This is your fault isn't it!" Shou accused Kiba.

"It's not his fault Shou. If Kiba didn't come I probably wouldn't have ended up ever coming out of my room." I explained.

"Which, mind you is completely burnt so she'll be living with me." Kiba bragged with a smirk on his face.

Shou seemed to get really angry, "you pig! What are you going to do with her!" Shou exclaimed. The both of them were so alike that it was funny to watch them fight, I just laughed. Then I noticed Tsuyoi, I remembered Tsuyoi telling me that she liked Shou.

"Hey, Tsuyoi. How have you been?" I asked waving to her. She ran over to me happily.

"Good, I'm really progressing in training." Tsuyoi was as excited as ever. Then she pointed at my eye. "Ah! Is that a Sharingan?" Then everyone except for Kiba came piling on to me trying to see. "It's so pretty!" Tsuyoi grinned, "It's a flower!"

"That's one thing that I want to talk about," I said. "Hinata, I might need to sub in for me for just a little while more. I can't quite control this thing yet so I don't think I should be teaching right now, I need to train with my Sharingan. I mean I did set my house on fire with Amaterasu." I admitted. "And I want to do some studying on my family." I said. "I want to know why I have a Sharingan in the first place, so please take care of them." I told Hinata. She nodded.

"All this Uchiha and Amamiya stuff is pretty confusing, huh?" Hinata sighed. "And Hyuuga stuff too, but it'll get better!" She said trying to cheer me up.

"Yeah," I smiled. "It should get better."