Disclaimer: I do not in anyway own Scrubs, it belongs to the brilligant mind of Bill lawrance and all the amazing actors in the show
Info: Yay I finished reformatting this Fanfic so all the chapters coming up are new so I hope you enjoy. As a warning I just want to let you guys know that the next 2 chapters will be more like a filler until I get the story were I want it to be before something big happens. Remember I warned you, by the by be sure to check out my latest Scrubs Fanfic titled "My Family Reunion" I promise it's very good so go check it out. Anyway I know I'm talking way to much on here right now but I just wanted to say please enjoy and if you have any ideas just message me and I'll try to incorporate it into my original idea regarding this sorry. Thanks
- JustAGirl019
"Okay man I got to go prep for surgery so I'll catch ya later" Turk said and after giving me another hug.
"By Cbear"
"Okay Bambi I got to go back to work but you call me if you need anything, alright"
"Carla relax, I'll be fine"
"Okay bye Bambi" she gave me a kiss on the cheek and I couldn't help but think of the time when we shared that drunkin kiss.
"Jd"
"Yeah Elliott"
"We should talk"
"Okay about wh-"
"Not now, I have to go back to work, but when you get out of here, maybe we can talk"
"Okay"
"Bye Jd"
"Bye"
I sat there for a while just thinking about how I was wrong to do what I did and how I should of just talked things over with my friends. I felt like such an idiot. But before I could evaluate my feelings more Dr. Cox came in, grabbed a chair and sat next to me.
He handed me my cup of water and I took it.
Oh My God!
my wrist's both felt like they were on fire. I probably opened up the wounds.
"Wrist Hurting?"
"Yeah"
"Well that's what you get for trying to kill yourself"
When he said that I felt even more like an idiot, dammit don't cry, don't cry, I looked down so he wouldn't see my struggle with the tears.
"Sorry"
Oh no he's going to leave me here, quick distract him
"What are you doing here? What about your patients"
no you idiot now he'll think you want him to leave, show him the hurt on your face.
"Barbie's taken care of em"
"That's Good" yay Perry's staying I smiled.
"so why'd you do it?"
ugh I knew he was gona bring this up, I started to think about how depressed I've been lately and a tear rolled down my eye. I was just about to start crying when Dr. Cox grabbed my hand and said:
"Look you don't need to tell me if you don't want to, I just wish you would"
I looked at our hands and thought about my father, how when ever I was upset he would just ignore me and never comfort me. Dr. Cox was more of a father to me then he ever was, so filled with a new confidence on our father/son relationship I decided to tell Dr. Cox everything.
"I just feel so lost, I don't know who I am anymore and on top of that I've lost my confidence as a doctor."
Everything was silent for a moment, and then Dr. Cox said:
"You know I tried to commit suicide once"
What no way Dr. Cox? What?
"What?"
"Yeah I was 16 maybe 17, I just couldn't handle life anymore" he smiled, I wonder what he's smiling for?
"Why?"
"My father was abusive, liked to beat me allot. On top of that my mother became a drunk and always called me things like worthless piece of shit, I wish I never had you, you know things like that. So one day I decided enough was enough"
"What did you do?"
"I tried to drown myself, I remember finding this very heavy rusty old chain, I found a bridge then I wrapped the chain around myself then jumped into the water"
Oh My God!
"I was out cold as soon as I hit the water; the doctors said I was dead for 7 minuets. But before I could sink all the ways in a man jumped after me, pulled me to safety, and took me to a hospital"
I was utterly shocked, I could feel him rubbing my hand but my mind was some were else.
"So then what happened?"
" Well nothing really I got better and left the hospital, my father stared beating me more and my mother continued with her insults but this time I didn't care because I knew I could do better. So I worked hard and eventually fulfilled my dream of becoming a doctor"
"Wow I never… I never knew..."
"Yeah I guess now you know why I'm the man I am today haha"
I suddenly became very tired and all I was able to do was yawn and say "aah"
'Hey you should get some rest"
Wait don't go please don't go
"Dr. Cox" I said trying to cover my fear
"Don't worry I'll be here when you wake up" he smiled at me.
Oh my God am I in heaven? Did he just smile?
Okay needed to get this chapter out of the way hope you liked it, I know it was just a redo of the other chapter but I had to let you guys know what Jd's thinking. There's going to be one more chapter that will sort of act as a filler before we get to the good stuff. Remember I warned you. Also I hardly get any reviews and I would like to know that my story isn't falling on deaf ears if you know what I mean, a review of some sort will be highly appreciated. Thanks.