For the next hour, Gibbs stays there, outside the delivery room, fighting against his memories, trying hardly not make connections between Ziva and his experience with Abby, tying to forget all those feelings hidden inside his heart, all those words which never share.

"Hey you, " she said from his side

"Karla! What are you doing here?"

"Supporting a friend" Gibbs look at her smiling " a friend of a friend?" His laugh hardly

"Really?" He ask

"Yeah, I came with Tim" she said blushing hardly " What's your excuse?

"Abby can't come,so,she send me"

"Yeah, she does...she sends you to support your kids there" Karla nods to the door "How's Abby?"

" Better, she's better now"

"I'm glad to hear that... but how are you?"

"Me?"

"Yes, you, Mister, you... You become quieter than ever, you're always working on your boats, or chasing crazy killers putting your life at risk..."

"Sorry?"

"Liar..." the girl said smiling at him "How are you really?"

"Having a hard time... hard one"

"I know hun..."

"Abby was here too, in this same floor" Gibbs said after a few minutes in silence, "I was waiting outside that door, " he point to another gray door " I was praying for Abby, really wishing she can be better, but at the same time I was excited for known my new child" In that moment, the Gibbs's blue eyes are full of tears, Karla put her hand in Gibbs's shoulder, trying to ease his pain and help him to talk...

"When she was here... I was so scared for my Abby, I really want to do everything to help her, to save her... but minutes later our baby was here too, she was so small, so perfect, I wish to give my life for her... I love my child but, I can't loose Abby... she was my life... Abby is my life..."

"You feel parted between your two loves... is normal boy"

"When all this happened, the only thing I can feel worse, everything was so unfair... Abby barely can hold her daughter, we can't know our daughter... we can't see her grew older..."

"Anything at all of this was right Gibbs, you can't blame yourself"

"Any parent had to bury his baby... the life can't be like that... I was alone... alone with my two daughters... I feel like I can't do it... I'm so weak"

"Oh, big boy!, you're the strongest man I never know... I can see you doing everything to help Abby, you know? I saw you holding her for days trying to soak you in her pain, wishing to take on you her sorrow, you don't want to see her sad... You're more worried for her than yourself, that's not weakness Gibbs... that's love, true love"

"Karla..."

"And big boy, I'm pretty sure of that. And one day, every kid you two will have in the future, will be so darn lucky to have you two like his parents, I want to be there to see that happened

"Karla, you don't understand... I can't be a father... I don't know how"

"You fool, you know how to be a father, you, Mister, you're the Kelly's father for eight years, and you're the father of Abby's baby, and nothing and no one can change that. Gibbs, look at me, Jethro, look at me, " she smiles when the man pulls up his face doing the exact thing she was asking "You're the father of two angels Gibbs, you don't have your kids here with you, but no matter what, you're their father, because you love those girls even if you can't see her grow up"

"I don't know..." Karla was sure of one thing, that man had another daughter, an adoptive one inside that hospital room.

"I'm telling you the truth Gibbs, you need to forgive yourself for all those things you can't do, just like you forgive Shannon or Abby... and you need to give yourselves the chance to try again"

"I don't know if I can..."

"You are sure of that? You can't see you or Abby with another child?"

"I'm not sure Karly... I want another baby... Abby needs another baby... but I don't know if we can do all of this again... We need to talk about this..."

"Yes, and you do... and if you decide not do it again, you have to be happy with all the things you already have. But promess me you have to have that talk ok?"

The Marine silently moves his head saying yes, wipe shyly, his tears, and hugs his friend. Happy, because this the first time he can talk with someone about this, and that crazy girl was the only person who told him this "It wasn't a bad thing miss and love his girls everyday"

They stay hugging each other for a lot of time, all in the room is wanting to ask them what are they talking so hard, but that bunch of cowards don't say a word.

McGee and Ducky came in in that moment, making the pair be separated finally.

"How are you son?" Ducky asks walking next to Gibbs.

"Me? I'm fine, Tony... that's another story..."

"Yeah, maybe he pass out two times by now" the doctor answer smiling

"Yes, maybe..."

"I'm asking you Jethro, how are you... Is too hard for you being here?"

"Duck...?" He ask, looking at the man firmily.

"I know you're here with Abby months ago"

"What!" Gibbs said "How do you know that?"

"I had friends here... I was here one time and she cames to see my dear friend Samuel..."

"Oh... that"

"Yes, my boy, Sam told me when she came here before her baby..." Gibbs close his eyes with a lot of pain "I came looking for her, but I see you're already with her... And I know how much she needs you in that moment, so I back off"

"Why you never said anything to us Ducky?"

"You never said anything too... the others don't know anything either... Why I have to said?"

"Thanks"

"Is OK my boy... I know how hard was for you seeing her in that pain... how much you love her, and how much that event destroy you..."

"Yes... still hurt..."

"Always will boy, always will..." both men stay there in silence, inside his head, Gibbs was wondering how much of that story, the true story his friend already know? And why he don't say anything? "Jethro, I was really worried about Abby that time... she was alone in all of this..."

"She wasn't Duck..."

"I do something for her that day... something to help her, but... I never can say she..."

"About what Duck?"

"The hospital has a special service to..."

The words of the doctor were interrupted for a blue dressed Tony, all shaky, scared and with a funny pride grin in his face...

"Everyone... we had a girl"

"How is she?"

"She's beautiful McUncle, she's strong and perfect, the only bad thing was she needed to stay in the NICU one day or two, only for precaution, but she's perfect"

"Congratulations my dear boy" Ducky said "So how's the new mom?"

"Wanting to kill me... but she's ok too Duck, My Ninja is OK"

"A name DiNozzo?"

"Mia, Boss, her name is Mia"

Five days later, Abby finally can get out of her lab, and as like she promises to her friends, the first thing she do, was go to Tony's home, where Ziva and the baby are leaving temporarily.

After shopping, she was knocking the door, totally scared for her reaction with the baby...

One very exhausted Tony open the door holding a crying purple bundle. He hugs Abby and let her in, cooing at his baby, Tony and her talk for a while, until Mia get sleep, once he was secure the baby doesn't wake up, he gives the child to Abby, telling her how much he need a little rest, after two days without sleep a wink, he desperately needs to take a nap.

Abby holds the girl against her chest, smiling, she always thinks her pain will be horrible by the minute she knows the baby, but the reality was a lot different. Mia was a very sweet little girl, and looking at her Abby can see how different from her baby she was, this girl was healthy and looks like a mini version of Ziva. At that moment she can see the truth behind Karla's words, she was really healing... She always will think of her daughter... but she can stop seeing her in every baby in the world.

The girl makes a funny sound, and stretch his tiny fist against Abby's chest opening her eyes looking at focus for Abby... the Goth felts like all the air was scraping of her lungs... inside of that gorgeous green eyes Abby can see her strong spirit... and the hope in a better future for herself.

"Abby!" Ziva said walking slowly to the window next to Abby.

"Hi Zee... we're making plans for clubbing this week you know?"

"Hahaha, funny, Abby, but I'm pretty sure she'll like all your music... she screams like one of your favorite groups"

"Mean Ziva, really mean" both girls laugh hardly

"Where's Tony?"

"Sleeping in the studio... this noisy bug doesn't let him have his beauty sleep"

"Crying big baby"

"Maybe is for that reason God gives to us the miracle of the birth..." Ziva nods laughing "She's beautiful"

"I know! She's like me, but at the same time is just like him..."

"Good genetic mix yours" Abby said

"Can I make you a question?" Abby nods yes, touching the baby's face with her finger "This is hurting you?"

"No, Why?"

"Tony lets you here alone with her..."

"Oh Ziva, don't say that! I'm ok, she's a cutie, how can't love her? So, now having her right now is not hurting me at all!"

"Thank you for all your help Abby... I know how hard was for you..."

"What?"

"I know Abby..." the girl only closes her eyes and nods kissing Mia's forehead" I'm so sorry"

"Me too... Zeev, I don't want to lie you, It hurts... but is a good pain, is a good thing, you know?, I'm OK now, I really do."

"I can't understand why you stay by my side all my pregnancy Abby, I know how much that hurt you..."

"Why not? I was there before, and I knew how much fear you can feel... you need my help, and I give you my help, is OK"

"Your baby..."

"She was beautiful Ziva... so small and perfect, she was a fighter like me, like her father"

"She had a name?"

"No, we always think she was a boy... so... nope"

"She needs a name you know? Are part of you grieving, your Shiva" the grieving process

"I know, but is too hard...I'm not ready"

"It's OK, take your time and make it on your way... you know... My daughter has a guardian angel"

"Who?"

"Your girl"

"Ziva, that's so sweet"

"Hey, Tony told you her full name?"

"Yep, her name is Mia"

"Yes... Mia Abigail DiNozzo"

"Ziva! You didn't" Abby said crying

"Yes we did... and, we hope, really hope you and Gibbs will and want to be her Godparents"

"Ziva you don't have to"

"Yes, we have Abby, if something bad happened to us, our baby can't be in better hands, than your's"Ziva said firmly, kissing the Abby's forehead "Did you think the Boss says yes?"

"Maybe... but if he said no, I will send him to sleep in the basement floor until he said yes, don't worry"

The next Sunday, when all the team was together, eating in Gibbs's backyard, he can see his wife smiling, holding Mia with one hand, and slapping Tim with the other, she was smiling. Her smile makes him feel good... finally she has found her reason to smile... again.