Just want to say thank you - again! - for reviews/alerts! Love you guys so much, and I honest-to-God didn't think this story would go this far. Obviously I didn't want to just stop writing it, but I think if I hadn't had so much support from you guys I would have finished it a while ago with a really rubbish ending to save myself the time.
Aslo, I went to the Warner Bros. Studio Tours yesterday with my dad and my step-family and it was AWESOME! Butterbeer is delicious! Plus the stuff there was sooo coooool! :) I even got a replica of Luna's wand! (I love Luna - if I had to liken myself to any HP character, it would probably be her. I love her quirky-ness!) So yeah, I'll let you read the chapter now... C xx
Kurt found the apartment surprisingly quiet when he let himself in, Blaine following behind him. "Rachel?" He called out, glancing around the kitchen and peering into the living room as he took his jacket off and hung it up by the front door. Blaine shuffled in behind him and softly shut the door, standing awkwardly as he watched Kurt hunt for his roommate. "Hmm," Kurt frowned, coming back over to Blaine. "I guess she must have gone out or something." He checked his phone to find a text from Rachel. He opened it hastily, curious about where she could have gone in the thirty minutes that he was out of the house.
Gone to library to print off some work for class tomorrow. Finn's with me, too. Will be back by two. R xxxx
Kurt typed out a quick reply and put his phone back in his pocket, becoming aware of Blaine's presence. "Oh, Blaine, I'm sorry! Take your jacket off; make yourself at home." He smiled, playing the host as he gestured towards the living room.
"Thanks for this, Kurt," Blaine smiled softly, shrugging his jacket off and hanging up as Kurt had done. "I know it's a little weird, us only having met again on Tuesday-"
"Blaine, don't be so silly." Kurt told him, leading the way into the living room and plopping himself down on the sofa. Blaine followed and sat timidly next to Kurt, sitting further forward with his hands in his lap, not sure of himself in this strange apartment. "And anyway, I'd rather it was weird and I was helping you rather than me not helping you at all." He placed his hand on Blaine's shoulder and moved slightly closer to him, smiling reassuringly when Blaine turned to look at him. "Now please relax, you're putting me on edge." He laughed as he pulled Blaine backwards so that he was leaning against the back of the sofa.
Their laughter trailed off and they were left in silence, neither of them sure exactly where to start or what words to use to do so. Blaine broke the silence.
"I know it's probably best if I talk about… what happened, but could we talk about something else for a while?" He looked to Kurt, who saw that his deep hazel eyes contained a mixture of hope and despair. "I just, don't think I can deal with that right now." Blaine mumbled, looking down to his hands in his lap.
"Of course we can talk about something else." Kurt replied, a little disappointed to find that he had no conversation topics suddenly spring to mind. By the look on his face, neither did Blaine. "So…" He started, dragging out the word in an attempt to fill some more silence, but instead heightening the level of awkwardness in the room. He felt heat creep up his neck, but luckily Blaine wasn't looking at him to see him turn a faint shade of red.
"Where did you go to school?" Blaine asked, turning to a slightly bewildered Kurt.
"What?"
"Well, I told you about Dalton," Blaine reasoned, grimacing at the other memories that his high school dragged along with it. "I wanna know where you went." He turned his body to sit sideways so that he was fully facing Kurt, rather similar to how they had been sat that morning. "Seems only fair." He added with a smile.
"William McKinley High School." Kurt stated, not really sure how to elaborate any further. "I was in the glee club there-"
"The New Directions?" Blaine asked, his eyes shining in what looked like awe.
"Yeah…" Kurt narrowed his eyes slightly.
"Oh my God!" Blaine exclaimed, laughing as he sat upright with a newfound enthusiasm. "I was at Regionals 2012! You guys were amazing!"
"Really?" Kurt beamed with pride.
"Yeah!" Blaine was beaming too, and nodding enthusiastically. "I mean, I was there to support The Warblers and-" He stopped suddenly, and his smile disappeared. "And Sebastian." He added quietly, moving away so that he was sat with his back against the sofa again. He sighed heavily and leant forward, running his hands through his hair and then settling with his hands intertwined behind his neck.
"Blaine," Kurt leant forwards and placed his hand on Blaine's shoulder, rubbing in small circular motions for a few moments before speaking again. "Are you sure you don't want to-"
"I'm sorry about this morning." Blaine suddenly sat up and looked Kurt in the face. A few tears were trailing down his cheeks, and Kurt instinctively grabbed a tissue from the box on the coffee table and reached out to wipe them away.
"Don't you dare, okay?" Kurt looked Blaine in the eyes, smiling softly as he gently wiped away the tears on the dark-haired man's cheeks. Blaine closed his eyes and moved his face towards the touch, but Kurt didn't think anything of it. "What happened this morning was not your fault. You didn't know that Sebastian was cheating-"
"I'm not talking about that." Blaine's eyes snapped open, and Kurt flinched back slightly. He dropped his hand into his lap and stared at Blaine, trying to figure out what he could possibly be apologizing for. Blaine took in his confused expression and, seeing that Kurt had no idea what he was talking about, decided to explain. "I'm sorry for nearly kissing you." Kurt opened his mouth to protest, but Blaine continued before he could say anything. "I don't know what came over me, and it was an awful position to put you in. I promise you it will never happen again." Blaine was looking at his hands, but Kurt couldn't tell if he looked shy or guilty. He didn't know what to say; he hadn't exactly been upset that Blaine had nearly kissed him, but he hadn't really been disappointed that he hadn't, either.
"Ok." He managed to say quietly, still watching Blaine. They sat in silence for a few minutes, both caught up in their own thoughts. Kurt realised that he had slowly been pulling apart the tissue that was in his hands, shreds of white now scattered across his lap. He collected them up and stood up, walking across the room to the bin that he had put in once Finn started to make regular visits.
"Kurt?" Blaine's voice made him jump; it was quiet, but there was a hint of curiosity in it that spoke volumes. Kurt turned to him and moved back over to the sofa beside him. He looked at Blaine expectantly, waiting for him to speak again, but Blaine seemed to have lost his nerve.
"Yes?"
"Nothing, it doesn't matter." Blaine shook his head and returned to looking at his hands, softly rubbing the palm of his right hand with the thumb of his left.
"Blaine," Blaine looked up again, and Kurt raised an eyebrow at him. "Tell me. You can tell me anything, remember?" He took Blaine's hand in his, keeping his gaze on Blaine's face. His expression seemed to soften as soon as their skin made contact, and his cheeks coloured slightly.
"I was just going to ask," He swallowed and frowned, his brow furrowing slightly as he chose his words. "Do you think I'm stupid?"
"What?" Kurt was not expecting that at all. "Why- Why would I think you were stupid?"
"Because I stayed with him for so long." Blaine mumbled, his voice catching slightly in his throat as he spoke.
"What do you mean?" Blaine sat silently for a while, avoiding Kurt's concerning gaze until finally, he spoke.
"Well, me and Seb… We weren't exactly, happy. At least, I don't think Sebastian was." He took a deep breath, steadying himself to stop his voice from wavering. "I knew things were a little off; I mean, he'd started moving his clothes into the spare room ages ago, thinking that I didn't notice. We barely sleep in the same bed anymore, and whenever I tried to ask him about it he just said that he needed a little space. But as soon as friends or family came over he was happy again, and I felt like we were an actual couple again. But then everything went back to normal and I tried my best to make him happy again but I had to find work and then I got West Side Story and I had to rehearse and practice and train all the time and we hardly had any time together-" Kurt pulled Blaine into a tight hug as he took a deep breath, his voice straining from saying so much in so little time. While he was talking tears had begun to glide down over his cheeks, but Kurt didn't bother trying to wipe them away this time; instead he let them fall. He could tell that Blaine had been holding these thoughts in for a while, and they desperately needed to be let out.
"This wasn't your fault, Blaine," Kurt reminded him softly, resting his chin on Blaine's head as he tightened his embrace on his friend. "You said yourself that you tried to get your relationship to work. None of this is your fault."
"But I could have talked to him," Blaine whined tearfully, his voice muffled slightly as he buried his head in Kurt's chest. "I could have asked him what was wrong."
"But you did, Blaine. You did and you tried but Sebastian was just too ignorant to realise how much he meant to you." Blaine was silent then for a while, and Kurt hoped that he had said all the right things to comfort him. Blaine then mumbled something into Kurt's shirt, but the only way that Kurt could have noticed was due to the slight vibration of Blaine's voice against his chest; his voice was almost inaudible. "What was that?" He asked, leaning backwards to try to look at Blaine to get him to repeat his words.
Blaine sat back and brushed a few tears away from his cheeks, wiping his nose with the back of his hand and sniffing loudly. "I just don't understand why he wouldn't talk to me." He looked up at Kurt. "Why wouldn't he talk to me?" His voice was barely above a whisper, and Kurt could see that he was dangerously close to breaking down crying again. He shifted closer and put his arm around Blaine, and they sat together in silence as Blaine rested his head on Kurt's shoulder.
The shutting of the front door caused Kurt to jolt awake. He hadn't even realised that he'd fallen asleep, and upon looking down he saw that Blaine was snoring lightly against his stomach. He wearily raised his head, his neck and shoulders stiff from the position he had been sleeping in, and looked towards the door.
No-one appeared.
He began to wonder if he had imagined it and lazily checked his watch for the time, trying not to move too much so as to not wake Blaine. 2:07pm. Kurt looked up again when he heard footsteps in the kitchen, coming through to the living room.
"Kurt?" Rachel appeared in the doorway, and her eyes widened when she saw Blaine asleep in Kurt's arms. "Kurt, what is going on-?"
"Shh!" Kurt hissed, trying to keep his voice quiet. "Blaine's asleep."
"Yeah, I can see that." Rachel whispered sarcastically in return, moving further into the room. "May I ask as to why?" She sat herself on the coffee table in front of the sofa Kurt was on, regarding Blaine's sleeping figure with what looked like adoration.
"Well I went out to see him," Kurt explained, no longer whispering but keeping his voice soft. "And he was very upset, as you can imagine, and so I brought him back here so that we could talk and somehow we just… fell asleep." He looked back down to Blaine again and smiled at his sleeping expression, feeling a pang in his chest as he did so.
"He looks adorable." She whispered, leaning forward slightly to get a better view of Blaine as he slept. Kurt could only nod in agreement; he felt that talking anymore about Blaine whilst he slept was rude, and so decided to change the topic.
"Where's Finn?" He asked.
"Oh, erm," Rachel looked about her, suddenly aware of the absence of her fiancé. "Oh, he's in the kitchen." She said, suddenly remembering. "I think he said he was hungry. Again." She rolled her eyes at how much food Finn consumed over the course of a day, and Kurt giggled at her exasperation.
Blaine began to stir in Kurt's lap, and Kurt hurriedly gestured for Rachel to leave the room. She sighed and walked out into the kitchen just as Blaine's eyes fluttered open.
"Morning, sunshine," Kurt teased as Blaine squinted up at him.
"Huh?" He blinked a few times and stared up at Kurt, completely dazed and confused. "Did I fall asleep?"
"We both did," Kurt smiled, and Blaine smiled sleepily in return.
"Sorry about that," He chuckled as he sat up again. "Were you talking to someone?" He asked as he rubbed his eyes blearily.
"Yeah, Rachel," Kurt stood up and stretched, arching his back until he felt satisfied. "She came in a second ago. She and Finn are in the kitchen." He dropped his arms back to his sides and turned to Blaine, who was stretching his arms above his head. "Are you hungry at all? I think Finn is raiding our fridge again as we speak."
Blaine chuckled, his smile lighting up his face despite how sleepy he was. "I think I could handle something to eat." He smiled, standing up to follow Kurt out into the kitchen.
I will be honest, I don't exactly love this chapter. Or chapter 15, which I'm writing now. It's not due to the plot or anything, it's more that I don't like the way I wrote it. Chapters 14 and 15 were mainly written whilst suffering from horrible writer's block, so hopefully it will clear up before Thursday so I can make the ending to 15 a good one.
I did my Maths Non-Calc GCSE paper today - that's probably why I'm all stressy! - and I have the calculator paper on Wednesday in the morning, so hopefully the relief of that being over will wash over my writer's block and defeat it!
I've started a few drabble one-shots, which I may resort to for ideas I get while writing this, just to keep you guys interested while I busy myself with SC, so they may be uploaded soooon :)
Any ideas for a chapter title? I sat staring at this for a good 10 minutes before uploading it but my mind is still refusing to offer any ideas! Suggestions in reviews please? x
My gosh I'm rambling now! I'll sign off now, and if you want to PM me about anything, whether it's story or just general fangirl/boy-ing about Klaine, Glee or whatever you want, feel free to :)
C xx
