Hello again!
Thank you for all your wonderful reviews and all the lovely messages you sent in relation to my recent bout of misery. You have all been so kind and they all meant so much to me, so thank you for being so lovely. I apologise for how long it's been taken me to update but I've been trying to do essays and also have just got a new job, which is my dream job, but a lot of my time has disappeared.
Tauriel could hear him pacing outside the door. The redhead had waited almost five minutes after hearing him walking up and down outside her room, expecting him to knock on the door and becoming more concerned every time his footsteps became quieter. She knew that he was worried, that he most likely had spent their time alone thinking about his mother's reaction and the reaction the rest of his kin would have when they entered the coronation together. Pushing her hair away from her face, Tauriel sighed before nodding to herself and moving towards the door in silence. She couldn't wait for Kili to knock for her. They didn't have long until the coronation started and she didn't want him to spend the whole event miserable. She knew how excited he had been for his uncle being crowned King under the Mountain and she didn't want anything to ruin the day for him.
"Kili," Tauriel called out when she opened the door, a small smile covering her face when the dwarf immediately turned to face her. "Come inside," the redhead said quietly, moving out of the way to allow him into her bedroom before she shut the door and sighed. Turning around to face the dwarf, Tauriel sighed before she sat on the edge of the bed and patted the space beside her; Kili slowly moving to join her before she took hold of his hand and squeezed it. "Tell me what you have been thinking," the elf begged, still clutching onto his hand as the dwarf sighed. "Talk to me Kili," she said quietly, leaning across to press a kiss into his dark hair while he shut his eyes and shook his head. "It is your mother, isn't it?" she asked quietly, the dwarf nodding slowly before looking up at her and smiling weakly.
"You look so beautiful," he whispered.
"Don't change the subject Kili," Tauriel responded, Kili laughing gently before he squeezed her hand again. "I know your mother's reaction upset you," the redhead said quietly, desperately trying to get him to talk. She didn't want him to go into the coronation replaying that morning over and over again while trying to act happy around all his kin. She didn't want him to go in feeling defeated because of his mother's reaction. "If you would prefer, I could stay here Kili. Your kin would love to see you there and we can tell them another time," Tauriel said quietly as Kili slowly moved off the bed and moved to the other side of the room. "Kili, listen to me," the redhead explained, moving to join him before she knelt down in front of him and took hold of his hands. "I know you are not ashamed of me, I will never believe that, even if you want me to stay behind," the redhead smiled, pressing a kiss to his forehead before squeezing his hands and resting her forehead against his.
"I don't want you to be forced to hide away because of me," Kili mumbled, letting go of one hand before he brushed his fingers across her cheek. "I don't know what to do now," the dwarf admitted, sounding so lost as she remained perfectly still. "I want to be there, with you and show you and our baby off to everyone," he began before shaking his head. "But I also don't want to do it today. What if everyone hates the idea? What if they are all disgusted like my mother was? What if we do ruin my uncle's coronation with our news?" the dwarf questioned, clearly upset as the redhead pressed a kiss to his forehead. "I just want to do what's best for everyone, especially for you two," he stated, moving his hand to rest against her abdomen while she nodded.
"I know you do," Tauriel explained before kissing him gently. "I am going to stay behind," Tauriel said quietly, feeling him tense beside her at the news. "Don't argue with me Kili," she immediately added firmly, the dwarf laughing gently at her immediate awareness that he would try and fight her decision. "He is your uncle, you are the heir, you need to be there today Kili. I do not need to be there, Legolas is there to represent my kin," Tauriel explained as he nodded slowly. "Thorin has been like a father to you for all of your life my love, he will want you to be there with him," she whispered, kissing him again before he stepped away from her. "Go, stand beside your uncle and be the prince that you are," Tauriel smiled as she moved to sit down on the floor, her hand moving to her abdomen as the dwarf stood in front of her. "And then come back to us and be the fiancée and father that you also are," the redhead smiled as the dwarf sighed and nodded, trying to make himself smile.
"You shouldn't be forced to stay behind to keep my kin happy," Kili muttered, his fingers brushing his blue tunic down while Tauriel watched in silence.
"And I wouldn't but I don't want to make things even more difficult between you and your mother today," Tauriel explained as the dwarf groaned, the redhead sighing as she stood up and moved towards him again. "Kili, you have survived trolls, Mirkwood's prisons, orcs and a battle. You can get through this," she listed, her voice full of pride as the dwarf stared at her. "Be strong tonight Kili," Tauriel whispered, pressing a kiss to his lips before she forced herself to smile; her fingers playing with his tunic. "You look very handsome."
"And you look so beautiful, you should be there too Tauriel," Kili whispered, his fingers playing with the green material of her dress. "What will you do tonight?" he asked quietly, watching as she shrugged. She didn't know what she was going to do. She hadn't originally thought that she would not be attending the coronation; it was the whole reason why she had come to Erebor. She didn't have any other plans for the evening but she also knew that there was no way that the evening would go to plan if she was there with Kili. His mother's reaction had proven to them both that not everyone was going to be accepting like Bofur and Thorin.
"I'm going to think about our wedding and our baby," Tauriel responded, desperately trying to think of some way of making the dwarf feel like she wouldn't be bored. "You need to leave now, you don't want to be late," she explained, kissing him quickly before he nodded and sighed.
"Don't wait up Tauriel, I'll sneak in when it's over," the dwarf responded, slowly moving towards the door as Tauriel nodded, watching as the dwarf finally walked out of the room. Brushing her fingers across her bump, the redhead sighed as she glanced down at her hand.
"I guess it's just the two of us tonight, little one," Tauriel whispered before moving towards the bed and sitting down; suddenly feeling very alone.
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"I'm so glad that you could attend," Thorin said quietly as he sat at the table, glancing across at his silent nephew. Thorin had never been prouder than he had been in the moment he was crowned King, with his young nephew standing beside him. There had been a moment, not that long ago, when he had believed he'd lost both the dwarves he had seen like his own sons but that had now changed. Kili was sat beside him, alive and his heir. "It is a shame that your elf was unable to join you," he added, not surprised when Kili finally looked across at him and nodded slowly.
"Mother would not have approved," Kili said quietly, glancing across at Dis as she laughed with Balin and Dwalin. "Tauriel decided that she wouldn't attend tonight, in case she upset someone," he said quietly, thinking back to the redhead he had left alone in her room. He missed her. He had wanted her with him at the coronation; he hadn't wanted to share that moment with her. He wanted her to be sat beside him at the feast in the space she belonged in. She was going to be his wife and the mother of his child; she was supposed to be sat beside him, joining in the festivities instead of hiding away. "She deserves better than this."
"I have not had time to talk to your mother today, I only saw her briefly when she arrived," Thorin commented, watching his nephew as he nodded slowly. "She didn't react well to Tauriel?" he asked.
"She didn't even say much. She just said that Tauriel was our enemy and walked out but she was clearly disgusted," Kili whispered before shaking his head. He was supposed to be happy. The whole reason Tauriel hadn't attended was so that he would celebrate with his kin but instead he was sat at the table feeling miserable. "She hasn't even talked to me tonight," the dwarf sighed, hearing his uncle groan in frustration. They both knew that Dis was stubborn and she hadn't gotten to know the elves like they had. Hearing footsteps approaching them, the two dwarves fell silent as Legolas approached them, the blonde elf bowing his head at Thorin before glancing across at Kili.
"Where is Tauriel?" Legolas asked as Kili sighed. He had known since he had arrived that Legolas was going to be looking for the redhead. "I have not seen her for days," the elf continued, the dwarf nodding slowly as he noticed the concern that briefly covered Legolas' face.
"Tauriel decided not to join us tonight," Kili explained quietly, watching as Legolas' eyebrows rose in confusion. "I am sure she would like to see you though Legolas," Kili immediately added. "She is in her room and would love some company if you are free at any point this evening," he stated, the blonde elf nodding before he bowed his head and moved away; disappearing into the crowd again. "She should be here uncle."
"She should but maybe she was right not to attend. There are many here who still distrust the elves, if they learnt that their prince was in a relationship with one, was going to have a child with this elf," the King explained. "They need to get used to her before they learn the truth. I think you and Tauriel need to stop hiding away in your room and start becoming a part of the community again," Thorin commented. "The company misses you Kili, no one ever sees you because you are always hiding away in your room. Can you imagine what the majority must think? Most of our kin know that you spend all your time with her Kili, you must understand that many feel like they have lost a friend to an elf."
"She is going to be my wife," Kili stated before standing. "I love her. She is going to be my wife and she is going to be the mother of my children, however many we are blessed with," the dwarf declared before shaking his head. "She is not evil or our enemy, she just wants to be accepted. She wants our baby to have a home, to feel like they belong somewhere in this world," Kili declared as Thorin sighed.
"Go and talk to our kin, they have missed you. Perhaps that might make things easier for you," Thorin ordered, the young dwarf nodding before he moved away.
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"Legolas," Tauriel smiled as she opened the door to find the blonde elf standing in the corridor, her arms wrapping around him tightly as he laughed gently. "I have missed you," the redhead admitted, stepping away from him before she took hold of his hand and led him into the room. Shutting the door behind them, Tauriel smiled as she moved to sit down on her bed before smiling up at her friend. "Come and sit with me, tell me everything you have been doing mellon," Tauriel declared, the blonde moving to sit beside her while his arm wrapped around her shoulders and pulled her close.
"I have just been exploring Erebor Tauriel, attempting not to insult any of the dwarves without you there to stop me from saying anything that might be seen as offensive," he shrugged, a small laugh leaving Tauriel's lips as she relaxed into his side. "It is unbelievable how much you have changed," he admitted as her eyebrows rose in confusion. How had she changed? "Pregnancy suits you," the elf smiled.
"How?" Tauriel asked quietly.
"You are almost glowing, you look so beautiful," he shrugged, Tauriel laughing as her hand moved to her abdomen again. "You are getting quite big now too," the elf commented as she shook her head.
"I'm going to get even bigger yet. This will be nothing compared to how I will look at the end I imagine," Tauriel admitted before sighing. "How was the coronation?" she asked quietly, after desperately trying not to immediately ask after Kili. She missed him. She missed his company and she was hoping that he was enjoying himself, that there separation had been worthwhile.
"Uneventful," Legolas shrugged. "Your dwarf, however, has looked miserable for most of it," the blonde explained as Tauriel groaned. "It also looks like his mother is avoiding him. They have not talked, I heard some of the dwarves discussing it," he explained, Tauriel's eyes shutting while she remained cuddled up beside her friend. She knew that his mother's behaviour was hurting Kili and she was devastated to learn that Dis was even ignoring her son while she wasn't present. "I take it things didn't go well between you and his mother."
"She was disgusted," Tauriel admitted. "She didn't even give me a chance. Kili introduced me to his mother and she was horrified," the redhead whispered as Legolas sighed, keeping her close to him as she shook her head. "I know that we were silly, thinking that everyone would be accepting, but I know Kili was really hurt by her," the elf continued before shaking her head again. "What if we are never accepted? What if they hate me forever?" Tauriel asked quietly, glancing up at her friend as Legolas smiled down at her.
"How could they possibly hate you forever? You are lovely," Legolas whispered, a small laugh leaving her lips as she stared at him. "You have charmed the heir to the throne and their King, many of the company like you," Legolas continued. "They just need to get to know you," the blonde concluded, the redhead nodding slowly before she leant up and pressed a kiss to his cheek. "I have barely seen you in days, which means that none of his kin have seen you either. You need to see it from their point of view, you arrive in Erebor and their prince wakes up but no one ever sees him or you."
"I guess we have been hiding away," Tauriel said quietly. "Kili asked me to marry me," Tauriel admitted, laughing when Legolas sat up properly and stared at her, amazement covering his face. "You can't really be shocked by that, you must have known it would happen. I am carrying his baby, we love each other, of course we were going to marry eventually," the redhead explained as Legolas nodded, smiling at her as she slowly sat up and took hold of his hand. "I am going to miss you when you return to Mirkwood," Tauriel admitted, watching their hands as Legolas remained silent. The prospect of leaving her behind, with the dwarves, saddened him. He had spent most of the last six hundred years with Tauriel, watching her grow, becoming her friend. He found it difficult to imagine not seeing every day or at least being in the same kingdom as home. "You have been there nearly every day since your father took me in," Tauriel said quietly, her fingers lacing with his as he smiled weakly.
"My little sister," Legolas whispered, his free hand moving to rest against her cheek before slowly moving to make her look at him. "No matter where you are Tauriel, you will always be my little sister," Legolas stated, tears appearing in Tauriel's eyes as she moved closer to him and wrapped her arms around him. "And I will always be there if you need me," the blonde added, pressing a kiss to her forehead as she shut her eyes and remained cuddled in his arms. "You will be happy here, won't you?" he asked quietly.
"Yes," Tauriel whispered. "Yes, I will be happy here, with Kili and our baby," the redhead smiled, his arms remaining tightly around her as she sighed. "You will visit me Legolas, no matter what your father says?" Tauriel asked quietly as her friend laughed and nodded.
"My father could never keep you from me Tauriel," Legolas responded, smiling down at his friend. "I will have to come for the wedding anyway and then I will have to come and see your baby; see whether it favours dwarf or elf," he stated as Tauriel laughed. Who would her baby look like the most? She had never thought about, thought about whether the baby would look more like her or like Kili.
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Smiling to himself as he moved back towards Tauriel's room later that evening, Kili sighed as he watched Bofur attempt to walk past; clearly very drunk. He had spent most of the evening with the company, laughing with them and talking to those who knew about Tauriel and the baby with pride. He was excited and it was nice to talk to Bofur and Oin about the baby to learn that they were excited about the baby as well. Laughing as Bofur moved towards his room and almost fell into the bedroom, Kili shook his head before running up the stairs and moving towards the redhead's room, knocking gently before he opened the door.
"Tauriel?" Kili asked quietly as he stepped inside, a small smile covering his face when he looked into the room to find Tauriel fast asleep while Legolas sat silently beside her. "Thank you for keeping her company tonight," the dwarf whispered as Legolas looked up at him and nodded slowly, moving silently off the bed before he approached the door.
"Thank you for making her happy," Legolas responded before walking out, the dwarf smiling to himself before he shut the door and moved towards the bed. Sitting down beside the redhead in silence, Kili slowly laid down beside her before wrapping his arms tightly around her body and pressing a kiss into her hair, his hands resting on her bump. No matter what his mother thought or any of his kin, nothing would make him regret falling in love with the elf in his arms.
So what do you think? Love it? Hate it?
I decided that I didn't like the idea of Tauriel and Kili admitting everything at the coronation so I decided to write this. In the next chapter, I promise there will be more of Dis and things will start to be admitted. I also think Legolas will be leaving in the next chapter- although he hasn't really featured heavily recently, which I apologise for.
Anyway, please review and let me know what you think.