Nick was about to knock on Amanda's door.

Since seeing Leigh his head kept on spinning, he couldn't stop thinking about her words 'that blonde woman you work with, spend time with' he figured she was referring to Rollins, the first time he interviewed her – Rollins was there too, maybe she saw her. But why would she say she doesn't love him? Then the image from the dream reappeared, the way she smiled at him… He had to talk to her because even though the explanation was pretty clear, he just couldn't wrap his head around it.

He knocked and waited.

Frannie started barking the moment she heard the knock, she rushed to the door and started jumping as if she couldn't wait for it to be opened.

"What is it girl?" Amanda petted her and looked through the peephole.

Nick.

That's why Frannie was so excited, she liked Nick and missed him. What was he doing there? She had a glimpse of hope he remembered, finally. But he looked anxious, confused maybe.

Amanda opened the door and he barely took one step in when Frannie jumped on him, catching Nick off guard.

"Eh…" he wasn't sure what to do, the dog seemed so excited, sniffing him, licking him. Nick knew Amanda had a dog but the few times he remembered seeing her she was calm.

"Settle down girl" Amanda tried to pull Frannie away from Nick "here" she gave her a toy bone but Frannie wasn't interested, she ran back to Nick.

"Hey Frannie…" his voice was full of hesitation, but he kneeled down and petted her, thinking that would calm the dog down.

Amanda shut the door and watched them. He still didn't remember, or else he wouldn't be surprised about Frannie's actions. It's been a while since he'd been in the apartment and the dog had no idea where he'd gone to, it's not like she could understand.

Before this whole ordeal Nick used to play with her a lot, he liked Frannie and one evening Amanda asked him if he came over to see Frannie or her.

"Both of you" he smiled, petting Frannie's head "you're a good girl"

"Yeah? I'm not so sure, you two seem to get along" Amanda smiled, she loved the fact Nick cared about her dog.

"Who wouldn't get along with this adorable creature? Right?" he asked Frannie.

"Oh, I see" Amanda chuckled "you're saying I'm not that easy to get along with…" she moved closer to them.

"That is true" he shrugged and let Frannie go "but I can handle you"

"Oh…handle me?" she tilted her head and gave him a questioning look.

Nick grabbed her hand and pulled her into his lap "I don't want to get into trouble, so I'm just gonna kiss you right now" he grinned and looked into her eyes before capturing her lips.

Amanda stared at them, all she wanted was for Nick to remember, for things to be back to the way they were. She's been trying to keep it together, but it was so hard. She missed him so much. Maybe she should have jumped on him like Frannie did.

"How are you doing Nick?" Amanda asked, if he didn't recall what's been going on between them why would he come by to her place?

Frannie settled down a bit and Nick stood up "she's…happy"

"Yeah" Amanda smiled.

"Listen, I have to ask you something" he was feeling very uncomfortable, but the dog's reaction was another sign. He looked around and his eyes fell on the counter, it was identical to the one in that dream he had. All of these things, what Leigh said, the dream, Frannie…

"Is there something you want to tell me?" his voice was a little harsh.

"Tell you what?" Amanda wasn't sure what he was talking about.

"About us, is there anything you need to tell me about us?" he took a step towards her.

Amanda looked away, was he suspecting something? He didn't look too happy, he actually seemed angry.

"Is there anything going on between us?" he asked.

"Yes" she whispered.

"Yes?" Nick's eyes widened and he placed his hands on his hips "and you just planned to keep it to yourself?"

"I…" if he didn't remember why was he asking? What gave him the idea?

"Well?"

It's been so long since they had a fight. Disagreements, arguments, they had many at the job. But a real fight…

"Why didn't you say anything?" he repeated, raising his voice.

"What was I supposed to say?" she almost whispered "you thought you're married and I…"

"You thought I didn't need to know? How long were you gonna keep this from me?"

"Nick I…" she took a breath, trying to think of something "I wanted to, but I couldn't. Because you were somewhere else…I didn't want to overwhelm you. You woke up asking about Maria and I thought you'd remember, a day or two…"

"A day or two? A week? How long? Because I still don't, and if I wouldn't have brought this up you wouldn't have said a word, right?"

Amanda wondered how he'd found out. The only other person who knew was Adam and he had no reason to say anything.

"You know" he turned away for a second "1-p-p don't really want me back, I don't remember things about my life and you keep this a secret…I don't even know what to think. When she told me…"

"She?"

"I went to talk to Leigh" he replied bitterly "funny how she's the one who told me the truth"

Amanda knew Nick was hurt, she understood where he was coming from, but the way he spoke to her, the tone of his voice…was he mad about the fact she didn't tell him or the fact something's been going on?

"How would she know?" she didn't mean to say that out loud but how could she know? Did she follow them?

"I'm sorry for not asking" another snarky remark.

Amanda stared at him, she could almost feel the tears forming and fought them "what do you want me to say?" she asked quietly.

"The truth, tell me what's going on between us"

That was a tough question, even when he remembered they didn't define things "we're…seeing each other"

"Seeing each other?"

"I don't know what else to call it" she bit her lip "we never gave it a name, you never told me how you felt"

Nick chuckled, it was all too much for him to take. She should have told him, keeping it to herself…it was wrong "I just can't believe you wouldn't say anything"

"Say what? I know you think you're still married, but we've been sleeping together for months…surprise!" the pain caused Amanda to raise her walls, he was blaming her, and yes, she was the one keeping the secret, but it wasn't an easy thing to share.

"So keeping me in the dark was better?" he countered.

"You know Nick" her tone changed "you're right, I didn't tell you. I wasn't sure you'd even believe me, would you? What would you say?"

"We will never know, won't we?"

"Why not?" Amanda asked "say it now"

Nick let out a laugh "you want me to comment on something I had no knowledge about, something you kept from me. You think I need this? Not being told the truth? Don't you think I've been through enough? I'm being kept out of the loop on this investigation and on my life…so I'm sorry if this is not the reaction you expected"

"I did not expect anything Nick, I did what I thought was best. I'm sorry that it hurt you, but it wasn't exactly fun for me…you think it was easy? When you didn't remember me, when…"

"I can't control this" he pointed to his head "I didn't want to lose my memory, I can't just bring it back. But you knew. Why didn't you say anything?" He kept on asking it as if she would give him a satisfying answer if he put more pressure.

She remained silent for a minute or two, looked at the floor as if she lost something there "because of this Nick" she finally spoke "the look in your eyes…" she shrugged "I guess I hoped you'd remember so you wouldn't look at me as if you don't even recognize me, like I'm a stranger…not when you used to…" she turned from him, fighting the urge to cry was getting harder.

"Used to what?" he took another step towards her.

"Nothing…I'm really sorry I haven't told you Nick, I should have and I'm sorry I didn't" she apologized again. It was the first time she wanted him to leave, she missed him when he wasn't at her place. Now she wished he wouldn't have come, this wasn't how he was supposed to find out…maybe a kiss would work, bring it all back like it was a fairytale. But most fairytales weren't the Disney version, they were grim.

Nick thought she looked so sad, so upset. What was the nature of this thing between them? Was it serious? Was it just sex? He hated not knowing. The physical pain wasn't that bad, he could handle it. But not knowing, not being able to remember…it felt like he wasn't himself. He didn't know who he was, so many people knew him, knew things about him, but he didn't.

"It's a lot to take" he tried to keep his tone softer but it wasn't working "and finding out like that, it's not right"

"Yeah, I made a mistake" she cried out "I get it, I should have told you everything, should have come clean…well Nick, you and I are seeing each other and I love you, I love you so much but I don't know how you felt, you never told me…so maybe I can give you only half an answer, you're gonna have to figure out the other half yourself…I think you should go now"

Frannie, who'd been lying by Nick's feet for the entire time got up and walked to her bed. She was back, holding something in her mouth. Frannie placed the fabric on Nick's shoes. He picked it up, recognizing the black t-shirt, it belonged to him.

Amanda opened the door and he walked towards it. He glanced at the kitchen counter and then at Amanda, her hand was grasping the door like she was ready to shut it.

The few steps that separated Nick from the door seemed like a long way. Their eyes met for a second but neither said a word. He walked out of the apartment and heard the door close.

Amanda stopped fighting, she allowed the tears to flow freely, not caring anymore. She sat down on the floor and Frannie rushed to her, trying to soothe her owner.