OMG! You're not gonna imagine what happened. I forgot to update the Chapter 14 and instead I uploaded Chapter 15. So idiot. Sorry, guys! Ok, I couldn't let you without one chapter, so what I did was delete the last one I uploaded and re-uploaded two: Chapter 14, which wasn't here, and Chapter 15, which was. Sorry again, guys. I don't know why :S Well, now you have two chapters ;D
I run a hand along my bump, covering it with soap and bubbles. I needed a bubble bath, and that's what I'm taking right now. I needed to clear my mind, to think of everything from a different perspective.
I lean my head on the cold edge of the tub, sighing and not being able to stop thinking of Beck's face. He was just as surprised as me because of my reaction. Now, I don't know why I did it, but I just felt it was ok. I thought that I was doing the right thing, and now… now I don't know.
He's been all this time so far away from me, maybe his attitude has changed… maybe his feelings, despite what he said.
"Jade?!" I hear my mum knocking the door forcibly. I roll my eyes and let her keep calling me. "Jade, are you ok? Please, answer me", she begs me anxiously.
"Yes, now get out of my room", I yell, closing my eyes and surrounding my big stomach with my arms. I feel safe when I do it. It's like none can hurt my baby, and neither me.
"Just remember that tomorrow we have an appointment" she says through the wood of the door.
"I have an appointment" I mumble before sinking in the water, making it cover even my head.
I wake up panting and freaking out. I fell asleep in the tub… the water is even cold now and my bump is dry. I rub it and sigh when I check the time. Nah, it's just 6pm. I still have all the afternoon to get bored.
I get out of the bathtub and wrap my body with a purple towel, running the palm of my hand along the mirror to clean the steam.
Just in the moment I get out of the bathroom, I hear my phone buzz, so I just walk closer to my bedside table and check it.
"Hey, Jade, the gang is coming to my house to hang out, you wanna come?" I read Tori's message. I don't really want to go, so I just ignore the text and get dressed immediately. I just want to go on a walk.
"Oh, Jade, finally you got out of the tub! I thought it had swallowed you" mum states joking. Wow, I haven't seen her joke in years. She must feel pretty happy now.
"What's wrong with you?" I ask her while I put on my combat boots and she leans under the doorframe.
"Nothing, Jade" she says smiling. But I am not idiot, and I've living with her for a long time so I know when something's crossing her mind.
"Ok, whatever you say, mum…" I murmur. I don't know if it's because of the pregnancy or what happened with Beck, but I just feel depressed, sad, lifeless.
I walk out of my room and go downstairs, resting a hand under my bump, as if I was holding it up. It's just a mania I've got.
I hear how she comes down with me and opens the door for me.
"By the way, Jade, your dad is coming later", she says, as if anything wrong happened. But yes, it's wrong. It's bad, so bad. We could say I… didn't use to have a good relationship with my dad.
I just groan and slam the door shut. I'd run if this bump weren't with me all the time. I just want to run and fly and get out of this… shit!
I take my phone and type a new message.
"I'll be there in ten. Don't get excited or I'll kill you all" and I press the button to send the text to stupid Tori. At least her house is going to be better than mine when my dad arrives.
I just walk till I reach her house and then I knock the door. I can hear the music even with the windows and doors close. I guess everybody is here. I just hope that Beck isn't, I don't want to meet him after what happened. I mean, it's going to be all awkward.
I said things I shouldn't have said. I did things I shouldn't have done, but everything is said and done, and I can't go back to that. I have to accept every single step I took and I have to be strong enough to deal with anything that interferes in my way.
Laughter and then Tori opens the door. Her eyes have stopped flying to my bump. All my friends', we could say.
"Jade, you're here!" she exclaims, resting her hand on my back and pushing me slightly to come in.
"Yeah, isn't it obvious?" I ask her rolling my eyes. Did she really ask that? Ugh, Tori!
I leave my purse on the couch right before Cat throws her arms around me and hugs me tightly.
"Cat, Cat, the baby" I say to her when I see she's not being careful about my stomach. She immediately gets away while covering her mouth with her hand and letting her eyes start to water. "No, Cat" I say, walking closer to her and embracing her softly. I don't want anyone to get used to his behavior I'm having, mostly because I don't even know why I'm acting like this.
She sobs a little and then smiles again, while blowing a kiss to my bump. I roll my eyes whilst walking into the kitchen and sitting on a chair. I'm pretty tired. Carrying a baby is not light, I can tell. It's quite heavy, actually.
"Where's everyone?" I ask Tori as she hands Cat a glass of fresh water and leans her body on the sink.
"Who?" She asks acting dumbly.
"You know who I'm talking about, Vega! The boys! Where are they?" I say again, increasing my tone.
And suddenly, I hear her door open and I turn my face around to make my heart sink in a sea of sadness and happiness at the same time.
His teeth shining, his hair fooling around, his look getting fixed of me. And when I want to realize, Cat and Tori are already left. I curse to myself and then I stand up immediately.
All of a sudden, I feel the need to lean my hand under my growing stomach again, as I usually do now. He fidgets a bit but then stays quiet and not moving.
I walk closer to him but I stop a few inches away from him. I don't want him to believe everything's gonna be ok because he just walked in. No. There's more than that, a lot more.
"What are you doing here, Beck?" I ask him in a whisper. I don't even have enough strength to say a word.
"I'm here for you, Jade. Tori messaged me saying that you were gonna come, and as soon as I received the text, I came here" he states, looking straight into my eyes. I get lost in his big brown eyes. I never thought I would fall in love this hardly but I guess I still love him, and as much as my mind says I don't, my heart says he's my life.
"Yes but why? Why coming here if you know what I said to you before?" I ask him again.
"I would go anywhere for you, Jade. I would do anything and everything for you and… my baby" he starts approaching me. Beck lifts his right hand and caresses softly my cheek. I close my eyes for a moment and move my face to kiss the palm of his hand.
"My feelings are still the same, Jade. I don't know what happened before, but I don't even care if you give me a second chance, please. I promise I will do even the impossible to please you and to give you and this baby everything you both need. I love you both" he says, placing his left hand shyly an inch over my bump, but not touching it.
I open my eyes and look into his eyes… And I see truth, honesty, love, supplication… And it gets into my heart. He has got it, I guess.
I take his hand and suddenly put it over my naked stomach now. His skin touching mine, feeling his warmth against my coldness. The perfect mix.
And even without seeing it coming, we both feel it. He kneels and looks up at me before leaving a little and sweet kiss on my belly, making me shiver and the baby move. I felt it, he felt it. Right in the moment he touched the bump, my baby kicked. My baby, his baby, our baby.