I do not own vampire academy or any of its characters

I've been sick in bed all day so this is a longer chapter that was more thought out.

I'm sorry if you don't like what I'm doing with the story but I really hate happy la la stories

So there has to be more drama and I know you will all love this chapter as much as I do…especially the beginning (^.^)

DO NOT KILL ME WHEN YOU GET TO THE END PLZ

So here is the chapter

Rose

I was walking down the hallway towards the dampher dorms. All I wanted to do was get to my dorm and let my sarrows take over. I wanted to feel better but nothing could ever do that. My heart felt like it had shattered into a thousand pieces, and they were scattered all over the ocean. There was no getting them back. There was nothing left to live for. Dimitri had moved on, and i was pissed and lonely at the same time. He had found someone else. Someone better.

"but you told him to move on" Shane's voice said in my head. (Remember Shane=conscience)

"Yeah but I didn't think that he actually would" I thought back. I almost growled at the thought.

"Why shouldn't he move on, didn't you?" He said, and I was able to have my mind back, without an annoying voice.

I stopped in mid step. I had indeed moved on. I moved on and that's what had started this whole thing and it wouldn't end as long as I am with Adrian. That's when i made up my mind. If I wanted Dimitri back, then I would have to end it with Adrian. But do I really want Dimitri back? I thought. Should I forgive him? No, I shouldn't. I had lost my memory and he kept the biggest part of my life secret.

"But he did it for good reason" Shane said

"Damn it! Will you leave me alone?" I almost yelled in my head

"You know that he did it for a reason" He said, ignoring my outburst

"The reason doesn't matter" I thought "He lied and kept one of the biggest parts of my life from me. Nothing makes up for that"

"But now you have lost him. He belongs to Tasha now" Damn, why is he always right

"Even if he is with Tasha, I still have something i need to do. I can't keep Adrian around if its just going to crush him in the end" After I said that, there was silence. Shane had left.

I turned around and walked towards the Moroi dorms. If I dumped him, then I would be all alone, but the guilt would leave. Dimitri would still be with Tasha and I would just be alone.

I arrived at his door shortly after I made my decision. I knocked and waited a few seconds. My heart was beating so hard I thought it was going to break its way out of my chest. Finally I hear the lock click and he opened the door.

"Little Dampher, what are you doing here?" He asked with a curious expression

"I need to talk to you" I said while shifting my weight from foot to foot.

"Sure, come in" He said and motioned me into his room

"So, what do you need to talk to me about" He said, but for some weird reason he had a knowing look in his eyes and the curious look on his face looked fake.

"I don't think that we're working out" I said in a rush

He just looked at me, as if he was seeing if I really did want to break up. Then out of nowhere he laughed. he fucking laughed at me.

"What" I hissed at him

"Oh, nothing. I just thought that you would figure that out sooner, but It took you a while" He stated while trying to hide a smile but failing miserably.

"What!" I yelled and growled at the same time

"You know how I'm a spirit user" He stated

"Yeah..."

"Well I can see auras, and yours around me is yellow which is friendship" He told me

"And why do you think I would break up with you. I could have just stayed with you for a while, how did you know I would dump you" I asked

He chuckled "Because I've seen your aura around Belikov. There are rays of pink and red for love mixed in with the black of hate. His mirrors yours except the hate is from you dating me." he explained

"And why didn't you just tell me" I asked

He just loved to fuck with me "Where would the fun be in that?" he asked with a smile

I yelled for no reason but to let out anger "God I hate you so much" I yelled and stormed out of the room.

There was no one in the halls because they were at lunch, but I was too pissed to eat. I started to walk towards the dampher dorms when i heard footsteps behind me. They were semi muffled steps so it was a guardian, but not a very good one at that. I didn't turn around and just kept walking. I was almost to my room when I heard a voice that I learned to hate even in the short time I had been here.

"Hathaway" He said

I turned around and put my guardian mask on. I crossed my arms over my chest and stood with my weight on one leg and the other bent. The way that girls instinctually know how to but guys fail at miserably.

"Guardian Alto" I greeted in a cold voice...God i hated Stan. Fromt he few memories that I have of him, there are a few things that I had learned. 1) Stans a douche 2) He loves to tourture the students and 3) He couldn't take me in a fight

"Miss Hathaway, why are you not in classes?" He said

I gave him an 'are-you-serious' look "I have amnesia and don't remember anything. The doctor said to skip classes for a week or so" I told him

"Miss Hathaway, why do you insist on keeping up this fake charade?" he asked me

"Fake charade?" I couldn't believe that he thinks I'm faking this.

He kept a straight face "of course its fake. You supposedly killed two Strigoi than after the fact you cant remember anything. I think that you didn't make the kills and now you're covering up for it."

Was he that arrogant? How could he think that? No one is that stupid.

Before I could stop my self, my fist was flying towards him and connected with his face. His nose was broken and was poring blood but I didn't care. I kneeled over him and punched him again while yelling "How dare you" over and over again. I faintly heard someone running down the hall but I ignored it. There was nothing but me, Stan, and the hatred that filled me. I was about to hit him again when someone grabbed my waste and pulled me off of him.

"You arrogant bastard! How could you think that?" I yelled. The person holding me spoke in a calming tone and I recognized the voice as Alberta's.

"Rose, honey, calm down. You need to calm down before something else happens" she told me, while still talking in a calm tone.

"I'm going to kill that ass hole if its the last thing I do!" I yelled. There was fear in Stan's eyes. Oh yeah, you disserve to be scared I thought.

Just then, Oh god can today get any worse, Dimitri ran around the corner and almost fell when he saw what was in front of him. Stan on the floor bleeding. Me yelling and being held back by Alberta. This must look really bad, but as always, my anger took over again.

"Stan, you stupid son of a bitch, I will kill you!" I kept yelling

That's when Dimitri figured out that darkness had me in its grasp. He ran over to me and told Alberta to give me to him. She was able to give me to him without getting hit to many times. After she ran over to Stan to see of he was okay. He was just starring at me.

Dimitri started pulling me towards my room but I yell "I hope you die your fucking son of a bitch" one more time before we were out of sight. I was fighting against him the whole way there but he was able to get me into my room and shut the door and lock us in.

"Sit down" He said in a cold voice

"Why the hell should I listen to you" I was still yelling but it was a little quieter now.

"Because Everything I have done was for your own good, so listen to me mow" He was yelling back at me now

Reluctantly i sat on my bed and glared at him "Now what" I growled

"Why were you attacking Guardian Alto?" He was still using that cold tone on me

"Cuz he pissed me of" I said then got up to go to the door. I needed to let the anger out somehow. But before I could get out the door he grabbed my wrist and pushed me against the wall.

"Let me go!" I yelled at him

"No. You aren't going anywhere until you calm down" He said

"Why the Fuck do you care!" I yelled at him. I was still fighting to get out of his grasp and not succeeding

When he spoke it was in a whisper "I have always cared about you Roza" He said. I kept fighting and he was starting to louse his grip on me. I was almost out of his grip when he kissed me. I tried to fight him but my attempts were futile. There was a current running through my body as deep as my bones and I stopped struggling. By body reacted without my minds consent and I started kissing him back. My hands instinctually lightly couched his back and slid my hand from the small of his back up to his hair and knotting my hands there. He shivered when I did that and only made me moan into his mouth. he pulled back when we were both out of breath, and I just looked at him for a few seconds with shock and hatred.

Then as always, hatred and anger won. I slapped him across the face and he stumbled back. When he did that I kicked him on the side of the head and he fell to the ground. I jumped on him and punched him in the stomach. He flipped us over and pinned me to the ground. I started screaming and struggled more. I heard the door open and saw Lissa. Why was she here? I can't control myself, and I may hurt her. I was able to get one leg free and kneed him in the stomach and flipped us over again. I was about to hit him when I heard Lissa speak.

"Rose don't" she said

I looked over at her then went back to Dimitri as my focus of attention and punched him in the stomach. For some reason I couldn't get myself to hit his face. I felt a hand on me then through the bond I felt spirit. I felt weightless for a few seconds then everything went black.

When I opened my eyes, the first thing I saw was the blinding lights. I was in my bed but someone was shining a light in my eyes.

"What the hell" I said while hitting the hand that was shining the light at me.

"I think she's fine" I recognized the voice as the doctor

"Why are you here" I asked while looking around. I was in my room lying on the bed, so why would the doctor be here.

"You passed out and Guardian Belikov and princess Dragomir called and asked if i could check on you" she said then looked at her watch "Well its getting late, I better get back to the clinic" then she left

I looked around and saw Lissa and Dimitri standing there just looking at me. I noticed that he had a few bruises and smiled a little. I remembered Dimitri kissing me so I glared at him. That ass, he diserved every scratch and bruse that he got. When lookat lissa I smiled, while giving Lissa a questioning look. No one said anything, so I decided to speak. "Liss, what happened?" I asked her

She ran over to the bed and hugged me "Oh my god Rose, I'm so sorry" I gave her a questioning look and she explained "I was using spirit and forgot about the effects. Then I guess that You ran into Stan and he pissed you off again. What did he do to piss you off so badly?" She asked me

I took a breath to calm myself "He said that I was over reacting and needed to stop this 'fake charade'" I told her. There was a faint growl in the room that had come from Dimitri. I guess he doesn't like people being mean to me, well that's his problem.

"What how could he say that" Liss was angry now

"Stan's a douche, everyone knows that. I just got mad at him and a few other things then the darkness took over" I said glaring at Dimitri.

"Well I'm glad you're okay" she said. I heard the door shut and Dimitri was no longer in the room.

"Yeah me too. Hey, do you know why I passed out?" I asked her. I remember her touching me then blacking out.

She looked guilty "Well when I walked in I saw you on top of Dimitri and you were fighting him. I knew instantly what had happened and decided to try out a theory that I've had for a while now" she said.

"And that theory was..." I pushed her

"I healed you of the darkness" Was all she said

"And it worked?" i asked

"Yeah it did, but it also made you pass out for a while" she said

"Well thanks Liss" I said

"Would you mind telling me why you were attacking Dimitri?" she asked

I grimaced "Well, I was pissed and he took me to my room to calm me down. I was fighting and he ended up kissing me to calm me down" I told her.

"And you just hit him?"She asked

I looked away this time "uh...I kinda kissed him back until he pulled away, then I freaked and slapped him"

"Do you like him?" Liss asked

Just then realization hit me but I didn't want to believe it. I wanted it to be true but also didnt want to admit it. Instead of a long explination, I just looked in her eyes to speak.

"No, I don't like him" I stated then took a deep breath

"I love him"

I know that's a really bad place to end it but I got stuck

I have no idea what to do next

I'm begging you for ideas

Cuz I have nothing and I'm sick in bed and need something to do

Review and ideas PLZ

(^.^)

~Mattisen