A.N: So so sorry that this took so long. I just have a hard time in school right now so hope you understand.

Thank you to my veeeeeeeeeeeery awesome beta KatKalamity.

Jasper's P.O.V

I could not forget the picture of Peter and Charlotte's faces when they first saw Alice. They felt surprised and shocked. And, if I was not wrong, there was a bit of fear in them too; fear that Alice would be like Maria.

We were now sitting in my room in complete silence. none of us knew what to say,

"So...uh...that Alice girl? Is she your mate or what?" Charlotte asked. I looked at her,

"Yes. She is my mate." I answered,

"How can you be with a human? Can you kiss her without trying to kill her?" Peter asked incredulously. I had to think about that for a second,

"Sometimes yes and sometimes no. I have not tried to kill her, yet, because I've kept myself fed." Peter nodded,

"What is she like?" asked Charlotte shyly,

"Alice? She's the most happiest person you will ever meet. No matter what, she is still always smiling and dancing around." "What about your past? Does she know about it?"

"Yes." But then I realized something. There was one thing in my past that no one knew. I had kissed Maria once and thought that she loved me, Peter and Charlotte did not know that because I had never told them. I felt like I had cheated on Alice, like I had done something really wrong.

"I'm sorry. Can you wait here? I have something I have to do." I said, standing up. I needed to tell Alice. Even if she would leave me because of it. Wait. Would she leave me? Would she be so mad that she would leave? Probably, yes. But that was the risk I had to take. I got out and ran. I tried not to think anything. Soon I was able to see Alice's house, to my surprise there was a faint light coming from her room. I climbed up the tree that was right in front of her window. As soon as I got in I noticed that she was sitting on her bed, watching me.

"You wanted to talk?" she asked. I nodded slowly, I had not expected that she would be waiting,

"Yes. I need to tell you something." I sat down to the bed next to her. If we would not have been together it would have been highly inappropriate,

"I kissed Maria. It was almost hundred years ago. It was just a kiss, it did not lead to anything. I thought that she loved me, but I was her puppet. She never cared about me. Please forgive me." I pleaded. Alice was quiet for awhile. The silence was torturous. Then she finally spoke

"There's nothing to forgive. I know that you don't love her anymore and since it didn't lead to anything, there's nothing to forgive." Then she got up and hugged me. I was surprised, I was used to the fact that when I would lie or not tell something, I would be punished. Or at least that's what Maria used to do.

I wrapped my arms around her,

"Did you leave Peter and Charlotte to the house?" she asked, I nodded, "You should go back. They must be worried." I could not help but to smile. She was caring, polite, smart and beautiful. Everything that a man could wish for.

I gave a soft kiss on her cheek and ran again. It took me under a minute to get back to the house. I ran back to my room and found out that Peter and Charlotte were no longer there. I was going down stairs when I heard them,

"What's Alice's and Jasper's relationship like?" came Edward's voice. What on earth was going on?

"I can answer that. It's sick, they do not kiss, hug or even show that they're in love in any way. But still, we can all feel it." Emmet said. I had to smile to myself. So that is what they thought. I went a bit closer so that I was able to see them from behind the corner, "Really? Don't they like each other?" Charlotte asked, clearly confused by the information that my 'brothers' were giving them. Edward chuckled,

"I will explain. They know that they love each other, so they don't feel the need to show it to us. But when it is just the two of them they do kiss and hug and show to each other. But only to each other."

I chuckled too and shook my head,

"Why does it bother you that we do not kiss in public?" I asked Emmet, slightly amused,

"It does not bother me, I'm just worried about you bro. Now that you have a girlfriend it would be normal to be all over her. But when you two are together it's like you would have met her a hundred years ago." This was even more amusing. It made my thoughts go back on Alice. I could not understand why people would not see that she is beautiful. Although it might be better because if they would see it, the guys of our school would be the ones all over her. Even the thought made me feel sick,

"You know you can go to her if you like. We can stay here, she means a lot to you and I am sure she would like it if you would be there when she wakes up." Edward said as he looked at me. I raised an eyebrow, 'What about Peter and Charlotte?' I thought. "I think they will survive." he said. I would have had so many things to say to him for saying that, but I just could not stop myself. In a second I was out of the house and in the forest running to my beautiful pixie.

When I got there, for the second time this night, she was sleeping and I was just stunned by how innocent and fragile she looked, I was almost afraid to touch her. Afraid that she would be as fragile as crystal, breaking when my hand would touch her. But I still had to, I slowly reached my hand towards her and let it wonder in her hair. A faint smile appeared onto her face and made me wonder if she was awake. I backed away and sat on the chair that was in front of the window.

As I sat down, I stopped to think. This chair had not been in here earlier, when I saw Alice's room for the first time. So she had brought it here, but why? I spent the whole night just watching how she slept. That smile never left her face, like she would have known that I was there and she probably did. After all, she was able to see the future. About five am. she started to move a bit. She turned around, so that I could not see her face. She scared the hell out of me as she suddenly spoke,

"How long have you been in here?" I just looked at her as she turned to face me once again,

"The whole night" I felt waves of confusion and love coming from her,

"Have you read anything or have you just been sitting there?" she asked,

"Just sitting"

"Jasper! You know you can take a book and read. It makes me feel horrible to know that you just had the most boring night of your life." she said, getting up,

"Honey, this was not the most boring night I have ever had. I loved watching you sleep." I said getting up from the chair and walking to her,

"Really?" I loved her face when she looked that surprised. So cute,

"Really." I assured her as I sat down next to her. I wrapped my arms around her and she rested her head on my chest, wrapping her own arms around me as well. We stayed like that for a time that felt like just a couple of minutes, but when I looked at the clock I saw that it had been an hour. Alice turned her head to look at the clock too,

"I better go and get dressed. Can you wait here?" I just nodded. I waited for a while. Then she came. She looked so beautiful, her hair had its normal pixie style and her clothes fit her perfectly. "Thank you" she whispered. To any other person it might have been confusing, but I knew what she meant,

"So are you excited?" she suddenly asked,

"What am I supposed to be excited about?" I asked, feeling a little bit stupid,

"It's going to be our first day in school as a couple, everyone is going to stare and ask and..." she took a deep breath because it seemed that she was running out of air. I used my chance to speak,

"I do not know if I am excited" I stated. Alice's face turned into confusion,

"What do you mean?"

"I mean that I do not know if I'm excited or if I'm horrified." I had to laugh at the last part. Who would think that Jasper Whitlock, a civil war soldier would be afraid of going to school and telling to everyone that he is in love,

"Why would you be horrified?" Alice asked, still confused by my earlier statement,

"Well not horrified, but I just...I'm a bit scared that I won't be able to take all the emotions."

"But you said you liked to feel emotions" Now Alice looked horrified,

"I do, I do. It's really nothing." I tried to assure her, but just like I thought, she did not listen to me. So I did the only thing that came to my mind. I got up and took her into my arms.

"Sorry, I did not mean to make you worry so much" I felt how Alice nuzzled herself into my chest and I was even able to hear how she closed her eyelids,

"I know." she whispered. We stayed like that for a minute, but suddenly Alice collapsed. She just simply fell. I lifted her into my arms and looked at her face. I could not feel any special emotion that could have caused it. Then she opened her eyes and blinked,

"What are you doing?" she asked. I immediately put her down. "I, uh, you fell and I catched you..." I explained. Alice's mouth formed a little 'o'. Apparently this had happened before,

"Oh, well its okay. I was just a little surprised. But now we need to go." she pointed at the door and started walking towards it. The way she walked would have been enough to make any ballerina jealous. She opened the door and continued her dancing downstairs.

I watched how she ate her breakfast and I felt like this was how it was supposed to be. Just me and Alice,

"You know if you're planning on going to school with a car you should probably go and get it." She stated while eating her cereal. I smiled at her, nodded and jumped out of the window and went back to the Cullen house.

As I walked in I saw Rosalie looking at me and smiling. It creeped me out a bit. She never smiled like that. She was sitting on a couch in front of the TV. Everyone else was there too. Then Rosalie got up and walked to me,

"Hey Jasper, I was just thinking that maybe Alice could sit with us in the cafeteria today." I'm sure that I looked ridiculous when I heard that. I needed all of my will power to keep my jaw from dropping,

"Yes, I think Alice would love that." I smiled,

"Great!" she said and smiled even wider,

"So are you taking Alice to school?" she asked,

"Yes." I answered.

I continued my way upstairs where I found myself a jacket. I could not go to school without one, because people would notice if you would be standing there, wearing a t shirt in the rain. So I took the jacket and grabbed the keys to my car. It was a black Mercedes and I knew Alice liked it. I ran to get the car trying to ignore Rosalie who was still smiling. I got inside and drove back to Alice's house. I knocked on the door,

"Hi Jasper!" Alice cheered when she opened the door,

"Hello. Are you ready to go?" She nodded, grabbed her coat and took my hand. I opened the door for her and she went into the car. I started it and that was when it finally hit me. I had a girlfriend, I was in love. And everyone was about to find out.