Chapter 14

Whoa! You know when you read back over something and you sit there in shock because even I can't work out what my last entry said my friend and I am hoping you did I think everything just got turned upside down in my mind. Oh, well let us hope I make more sense now. However, I will say sorry for any confusion. You have to remember this whole family thing is new to me but I let them all near me now as long as it is on my terms and they do not make the first move. However, I still tend to flinch. God I Miss Karen right now, I guess she is like a big sister to me like she is to mom, how freaky is that!

Okay so it is the day of the wedding and I am keeping out of the way as much as I can. Mom has been up most of the night to the point I had to get in bed with her because she was missing Ma so much. Starting to understand the whole she keeps me together saying.

Morgan can stay more often if he going to make that every morning just wow! A man who can cook and deal with my mom, which now one can deal with mom aside from Ma, she seems whole, but right now she is worried and starting to think she lacks faith in me! Either that or she is scared out of her mind that Ma is not going to show up or that we have forgotten something.

I have never seen her this stressed well I am not even sure I would stay stressed it is like a whole heap of emotions and worry and god knows what else is sat in there with her. Never thought mom would panic about grandma, are weddings really this stressful? Her mind seems to be everywhere or is it the fact that she is pregnant?

Really, I cannot believe she thought I was not okay with this! I mean not as if I have helped arrange the wedding or anything is it, for someone with so many brains my mother can be so thick! I must say I am glad I got to do her hair though she looks very stunning and I hope she feels it.

She is beautiful, and no I am not just saying it because I am her daughter I am saying it because it is true. Okay when I asked Hotch if mom and Morgan are normally worse than they are right now I didn't know what to think other than how the hell do they get any work done? On the other hand, is it just because they see so many bad things they have to laugh and joke at each other?

Wow Rossi's home is huge I mean yeah the embassies are big but just wow. This place can give them a run for their money. I just hoped we were not spending too long in that room, Morgan was trying to calm mom down, which was not working Grandma looked just as bad, and I am stood in a corner because right now everything is telling me to run because I feel crowded!

Okay I am now totally blown away for more reasons than I can place into words. We are now a family a true family and I now have two moms. How many people can say that and be happy about it. I mean let us face it I have only known Ma two years but, when mom told me years ago that the world can stop and what seems like a few months can in fact be a lifetime. It finally makes sense I feel I have known Ma all my life.

I feel like she was what was missing in our lives this whole time. Does that make sense? Grandma has told me I will be having some time away soon going to England! I wonder if it. I mean I want to see my best friend again. It has been such a long time but there again she may have forgotten me because and I do not know what mom told her still and I doubt she will remember.

I dance with the whole team! Even scary Hotch! Guess he is not too bad after all. Well I am going to stay with my grandmother tonight and she said for a few days really so mom and Ma can have some alone time. We to me translates as very very loud sex! Eww.

Well I am now in England! I fucking love my grandmother Karen is here! Why did No one tell me I was going to see Karen and she was flying back with me? I have missed her so much I told her everything about the wedding and the team and how I dance with them all just wow! I love my parents! They set this up Grandma said they knew how much I missed her, I can't believe they always put my feelings and needs first even Ma does, Karen told me this would be her last trip here for a while, she seems sad and I can understand that she missed him.

I don't know how I would cope losing mom, I nearly lost her once and that was bad enough don't think I could cope if I lost her again, I had forgotten what the weather was like here, it is still very warm I think they are having their Indian summer again which means it will be hotter than back home hitting above the 100 marker.

People seem to think it rains a lot here and is cold but it is only really cold three months out of the year. However, they have been known to get snow in June before now, I still miss it but now it does not feel like home. I told Karen that last night and she understands it, I also want to go back to school again I miss having a friend how strange is that. However, Karen has said it is because I am finally settled and she is right. I have never felt so settled in my life and never felt so safe.

I won't ever forget what happened to me that is still deeply imprinted in my mind but I can live with that I can live with the memories I get the feeling I will be making a lot more and they will be good ones now.

I guess mom has been forgiven for having that abortion; either that or she has been punished enough.

I think I need to tell you my friend what I have learnt today we went to the tower of London and wow!

It was founded towards the end of 1066 as part of the Norman Conquest of England. The White Tower, which gives the entire castle its name, was built by William the Conqueror in 1078, and was a resented symbol of oppression, inflicted upon London by the new ruling elite.

The peak period of the castle's use as a prison was the 16th and 17th centuries, when many figures whom had fallen into disgrace, such as Elizabeth I before she became queen, were held within its walls. This use has led to the phrase "sent to the Tower".

Executions were more commonly held on the notorious Tower Hill to the north of the castle, with 112 occurring there over a 400-year period. In the latter half of the 19th century, institutions such as the Royal Mint moved out of the castle to other locations, leaving many buildings empty. Anthony Salvin and John Taylor took the opportunity to restore the Tower to what was felt to be its medieval appearance, clearing out many of the vacant post-medieval structures. In the First and Second World Wars, the Tower was again used as a prison, and witnessed the executions of 12 men for espionage. After the Second World War, damage caused during the Blitz was repaired and the castle reopened to the public. Today the Tower of London is one of the country's most popular tourist attractions. It is cared for by the charity Historic Royal Palaces and is protected as a World Heritage Site.

Yep okay useless information my friend but I want my mom and Ma to know what I have been doing because they will want to know and my memory is not as good as it was when I was younger, that would be part of the brain damage and why you are so important to me.

The bridge facing stones were disassembled and each was numbered. After the bridge was dismantled, it was transported to Merrivale Quarry where 15 to 20 cm was sliced off many of the original stones. These were shipped to the bridge's present location and re-assembly began in 1968. Re-assembly work was done by Sundt Construction, then headquartered in Tucson, Arizona. The original stone was used to clad a concrete structure, so that the bridge is no longer the original after which it is modelled. The reconstruction took slightly over three years and was completed in late 1971. Today, it serves as a popular tourist attraction for the city.

It is a popular rumour that the bridge was bought in the belief that it was London's more recognizable Tower Bridge, but this was ardently denied by McCulloch himself and by Ivan Luckin, who sold the bridge.

The bridge's relocation was the basis of a 1985 made-for-television movie Bridge Across Time, also known as Arizona Ripper or Terror at London Bridge, directed by E.W. Swackhamer and starring David Hasselhoff and Stepfanie Kramer. In the film, a series of murders in Lake Havasu is attributed to the spirit of Jack the Ripper, whose soul is transported to the United States in one of the stones of the bridge. Also, the movie Falling Down, the title of which references the nursery rhyme "London Bridge Is Falling Down", has a Los Angeles policeman's wife who wants to relocate to Lake Havasu City after he retires.

Yep more useless facts but just wow! That is something I want to see going to have to ask mom if she and Ma will take me at some point. Who knew you could sell a bridge? That is just crazy! Why on earth would you sell a bridge? English people are crazy!

Well we set back off home today and I can't wait my friend it is now July and I have miss my parents so much but I will say I have had a great time here I just wish Mom and Ma had come. Will write soon my friend...