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Poker face and Cold War

NPOV

"Come on in…" he stepped in and I shut the door.

Leah sat on the sofa chair that was slightly facing the couch where Jacob was sitting at the far end. I sat with Jacob.

"Are you okay?" Jake asked me. He was careful not to lace too much worry in his voice so that Leah wouldn't ask but I could see it his face that he was scared that Embry did something bad.

"I'm fine Jake. Really… Just headache." I added the last part for Leah's sake. The three of us sat quietly for a while. Leah was the first one to break the ice.

"So… um.. Nessie, you're are going to come with us this Saturday right? I mean, I'm going to treat the whole gang to the movies." I would've said yes right away. I wasn't really fond of going out or partying or whatever normal teenagers like me seemed to like doing every weekends but I usually go out whenever Leah personally invited me. I don't really have the heart or a valid excuse to do so.

But then I remember something. I almost forgot about it but now that she mentioned Saturday, something popped out of my mind.

"Um…" I hesitated and look at Jake before I look at Leah and said. "I can't. I do want to but I have…plans for Saturday." From the corner of my eyes, I could see Jacob's expression mirrored Leah's confused look. I could almost read his mind trying to figure out what was it. I realized I never really said anything that to him.

"Huh? What do you mean?" Leah asked. I fidgeted and looked down. I was contemplating on lying but I was never really good at it.

"I'm… going out…" I said and dare not to look up. But I could see at the corner of my vision that my statement brought more confusion to Jake's face.

"Going out? With whom?" The way Leah asked it made me look up but I force myself not to look at Jacob. I took a breath subtle enough for them to notice.

"Um…" I know that my face was now as red as tomato judging by the heat that I could feel. I really wanted to delay that detail at least until Jacob wasn't around.

"With… with… A-alec." I managed to choke out. The weight beside me shifted and I know that Jacob was now looking at me. I didn't know what exactly was going on his mind right now but I wasn't that enthusiastic to know.

I didn't really know how to explain this to him. I badly wanted to explain now. I wanted to look at him right then but Leah was here. I was caught in the middle. I wanted to tell him that I had to go because I promised Alec back in the resort. But I couldn't.

"You have a DATE with ALEC!" Leah exclaimed. She was surprised by it and was now smiling like she won the lottery. She knew that I have been crushing for Alec for a while now.

I dared to look at Jacob and I didn't like what I saw. His face was blank. A perfect poker face. But I know what exactly it meant. I had seen it in a while but I remember seeing this kind of expression in his face whenever he was totally pissed off or angry but he couldn't afford to let it all out as of the moment. Jacob was usually very vocal whenever something or someone pisses him off but when he was really, I mean REALLY, mad. He did this. I know that I was in trouble.

"No… I mean its…" then the oven signaled that whatever food Leah prepared was done.

"Okay, wait. Hold that thought, I need details." She hurried to the kitchen leaving me and Jacob all by ourselves. Great, just what I needed. (Heavy sarcasm.)

I know that he wasn't going to hurt me or hit me or something. Jacob wasn't like that but I was scared to the bones. I didn't know what to do or how to explain but I know that I have to. I needed to clear things up.

"Jake…"

"Cancel it." He simply stated. His voice cold and distant.

"What?" I knew what he meant by that but I didn't have anything to say.

"Cancel your… Date-" he gritted his teeth as he said the word, "with that…that… Alec." I know that he wanted to call Alec names but he held back. As much as I wanted to fulfill his wishes, I couldn't. I had already promise.

"I couldn't." I looked down. I was silently hoping that he would somehow understand my situation.

"Why is that?" His voice was now trembling. I know he was struggling to keep it down so Leah wouldn't hear.

"I had already promised him, Jake." I looked at him in the eyes. It was very pierce and it seemed to cut through me.

"Then, say that you are busy. That something came up. Tell him that you cannot go." He insisted. I didn't know why but I was mad at him. I guess I just don't like it when people tell me what to do.

"No, I wouldn't." I have to stand my ground.

"Why are you being so difficult? Can't you just do it?" He was irritated too. His poker face was now having expressions.

"Why do you care? It's my life. I'm going to do whatever I want to do with it. So get over it." I knew that it was too much. I instantly regretted what I said. They way his face froze back to its deadly poker face made me wish that I could take it all back.

His eyes were no longer pierce. But I could see something clearly: HURT.

I have been his best friend log enough for me to tell and read the emotions that he have through his eyes way better than his other friends. It felt like I could sense it too.

He got up to his seat and got his bag. He was walking to the door. I caught him by the hand before he can fully open the door.

"I'm really sorry Jake. I didn't…" he didn't let me finish. He yanked his hands out of my grip. My vision blurred and then I felt hot tear on my cheeks just as he stepped outside of my door. Hopefully, just outside of my house. But not in my life. I couldn't afford it. I wouldn't.

If I wasn't having a headache a while ago. I was surely having one now. I sat again in the couch and pathetically wiping my tears as I heard Leah approaching.

"Hey, here's food… OH where is Jacob?" She was holding a tray and noticed that Jacob was not in the room.

"He…left." I told her.

"Oh? Why? Going back to school?" She asked. I just nodded though I didn't really know. I didn't want to explain further so nodding was the only option that I had. I didn't really trust my voice too.

"Oh well. Let's just eat then."

We ate and talk to each other. I was trying to sound normal but it was really exhausting me. I didn't want to hurt her feeling by sending her away though. I already have a lot of things that I know when she the moment she knew about, she'll probably beyond upset.

I was dreading for that moment to come. Even now, I glanced at her and waiting for her to just shout at me and slap me or whatever. I was a little grateful to Embry for the delay though I know I shouldn't.

Thinking about it was draining me and now that Jacob and I had a cold war makes it even worse. I wanted to curl up on my bed and cry badly but I know that I have to get grip on myself. Leah seemed to notice that there was something wrong with me.

"Are you okay, Nessie?" She was really concerned.

I wanted to slap myself for her. I wanted her to shout at me. Be angry. To punch me and everything. But she genuinely cares about me. Suddenly I wasn't sure what to do. The words of Embry echoed again in my mind.

Is it really going to be worth it to lose this precious friend in exchange for a chance with Jake? A chance that I, myself didn't know if it will work.

"Ness?" She slightly shook me by the shoulders and I was brought back to now.

"Um… Yeah. A little tired." I lamely excused.

"Oh yeah. I'm really sorry Ness. I should let you rest. I'm really sorry. I'm so stupid." She apologized. A pang of guilt once again sent chills to my heart.

"It's alright. I'm fine." I told her and she smiled.

After a short while, she decided to go home. She needed to do something, she said. But not after she washed the dishes (which I object but she said I was being ridiculous.) and making sure that I was going to be okay. She told me that she was going to call my mom but I said, I'm going to do that.

She gave me a hug before she goes.

"Thanks Leah. For being a good friend." I whispered into her ears. She released me and looked at me like I was crazy. But she smiled

" You are welcome. And I'll always be." She told me though I didn't know if she would still be after she knows our secret.

After she was a few blocks away from our house and I safely shut the door, that was when the tears came rushing like flood. I couldn't help it. I couldn't control the sobs that I kept and restrained. I ran to my bedroom and buried my face into the pillow.

I didn't know how long I had been like that or how many liters of tears I have shed. I didn't realize that I had slept in the middle of the process and woke up when it was already dark outside. I wasn't really feeling well to get up.

There was a know on my door.

"Come in." I realized that my voice was hoarse and my throat hurts.

My mom came inside and suddenly rushed by my side the moment she saw me.

"Oh goodness. Renesmee. What happened to you honey? EDWARD!" She called my dad and I suddenly know that something was really wrong with me.

"Why?.." My dad entered my room and saw me. Then I was suddenly pulled back be the darkness.

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