BPOV

It didn't take long for Edward, myself and my father in tow to find Alice. Fortunately She was with Esme and Carlise.

Father and Carlise gave each other the stink eye but neither said a word. Alice was extremely pale. She had a life belt with her and one for me and father as well. She convinced Esme to grab one for Edward and Carlise. Thankfully, Edward put his on. Father and Carlise were being a little more stubborn.

A lot of people had gone back inside to warm up, Alice refused to let any of us out of her sights. I was grateful for this. I was currently experiencing a tingly feeling in my left had as Edward gripped my hand tightly. I am not sure if it was if it was numb or just the fact he was holding it, but I wasn't about to find out.

EPOV

They just shot up the distress flares, and they had started to load the boats. So far the boats weren't very full, which greatly surprised me. I sat there and tried to do the math in my head. If this ship was indeed sinking and another ship didn't get here quick, there would be a lot of people in the North Atlantic before dawn.

I shuddered.

"Women and Children first!" One officer bellowed.

People were starting to panic, Mostly the men. Myself included. I had to keep my promise to Bella and keep her safe. She was going to make it onto one of those boats if it was the last thing I ever do.

More and more people were crowding the boat deck. They even pulled the band from the first class dining saloon to play to keep people calm. Good Luck with that.

We were inching up closer to the boats, I saw a blond man dress in shabby clothes sneak up behind myself and Bella. I gripped her hand tighter and pulled her closer.

"Miss?" The man whispered.

Bella jumped and turned around.

"Miss please help me," The man whispered again. "I know they won't let me on the boats, But my daughter has no one. Please take her."

His eyes were pleading, in his arms was a little girl not much older than 3. She had bright green eyes and dark brown hair with shades of red. She could have past as mine and Bella's child. She looked just like Bella, but with my eyes.

"Her name is Carly. Please I beg you miss. take my little girl, give her a fighting chance." Bella looked at the little girl, then up at me.

BPOV

The little girl was so cute, she could have past as mine and Edward's child. Wait...what did I just think?

I looked up at Edward. My mind was made up. I would give this little girl a chance, I would help this guy.

"I will help you," I said slowly. "What is your name so that I can get your little girl back to you once we are on the rescue ship."

"My name Is James McCarthy. Her ma, passed just after she was born. You look like a trusting soul. I know you will take good care of her." With that James passed me the little girl and slipped back into the crowd.

Carly looked up at me with scared green eyes and then at Edward.

"Hi, sweetheart." I cooed at her.

"Hi." She whispered back.

"My name is Bella, and this is my friend Edward." I said pointing over to Edward.

"Hi, Eddie." She gave a little wave to Edward. He gave her a crooked little grin, and she turned away with a little smile.

Our little moment was cut short when Alice grabbed my arm.

"They are going to load us in the boat now." Alice hissed at me.

She grabbed my arm that was holding Carly to follow her, Edward was still gripping my other hand.

Esme was already in the boat, tears streaming down her face and Alice was being loaded next.

I started to panic. They won't let men on, that means Edward can't come with me. I can't go without him.

I passed Carly to Alice. Alice looked at Carly puzzled.

And turned to Edward, my eyes locked onto his.

"I'm not leaving without you. I can't. And I will not." I was fighting back tears. I would not let him see me cry. I haven't cried since the day my mom died, and I wasn't about to start now.

"Bella, please get on the boat. I will see you in the morning on the rescue ship, ok. Please Bella. I need you to do this for me please." His eyes were pleading me to get on the boat.

He gripped me in a tight hug. I buried my face in his chest. I never wanted to let go.

"Please my love, get on the boat. I promise you I will be ok." He whispered and kissed my forehead.

I didn't want to move. it made things too real. But before I could refuse to move again I was being picked up by Edward. He scooped me up and placed me into the boat.

I turned to look at him.

"Here," He said passing me a book. "When you are out there waiting, you can read something to pass the time."

I did not take my eyes off of him as they lowered the boat. I did not hear anyone around me. All I could hear was my thoughts screaming at me for not saying I love you. He was close he called me love. I am such a fool.

EPOV

I passed Bella the book I stole for the library while she was taking to her father. It was the book she was reading last night. I somehow knew that I needed to tell her like that. I had to put my words on paper, or they wouldn't come out right.

My eyes locked on hers the whole time they lowered the boat. What if this was the last time I saw her? No. I will see her again. I promised her.

BPOV

We were a ways from the ship now. Carly was cuddled into my lap eyes closed. I was numb. I should have stayed. I should have told Edward how I felt.

The lights flickered, and went out. the ship moaned its death cry and then a loud crash. people crying and screaming. All I could do was pray, pray that Father was ok. Pray that Edward would be with me again.

I picked up the book he passed me. It was the book I had been reading last night. I opened it. There on the first page in elegant script was a note from Edward.

If I don't make it, know that I loved you all along.

I closed me eyes, as a single tear slid down my cheek.

EPOV

The water was like a steel knife stabbing me over and over again.

So cold, so very cold.

It was like being burned but worse.

I had to get out of the water. I had to find something to climb onto. I frantically splashed around me. People were screaming. Screaming for the boats to come back. I knew if they did they would be swamped. I know this cause I would probably be one of those people to swamp them.

The last thing I thought, was maybe I couldn't keep my promise to Bella.

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