Disclaimer : I do not own the Vampire Diaries or any and all of the characters and settings used.
Author's Note : I really recommend you guys to listen to With Me by Sum 41 on the latter part of the story. Also, I used Elena's and Damon's POV. I noted the parts. :)
Every Beat Of My Heart (Corrinne May)
On The Side Of Me (Corrinne May)
With me (Sum 41)
Chapter 14 : Finally
One month later
Elena Gilberts
I looked over the bouquet of white roses placed on each end of the seats' rows. Women were effortlessly walking around with their white dresses, their escorts in spotless suits. It almost felt like I was watching jubilant angels run around, everything was perfectly serene. At the far end was the priest, he was sitting on a white cloth-covered chair, he was praying. As I gazed at him, I wondered, what does he feel at occasions like this?
Does a part of him feel happy for the couple? Does a part of him feel lonely, because he never gets to experience the same feeling? I shrugged, it was a terrible thought. The last thing I would want to do is question religion. But it crossed my mind only because a part of me was sad too. I was glad that Jenna finally found someone to spend the rest of her life with... But how about me? Will I ever get to say "I do?"
I didn't even want to linger on the thought, it was scary. I decided to focus on the once-in-a-lifetime moment. I looked at the man across me. He was wearing something I've never seen him wear before, a white tuxedo, with white rose pinned upon the left pocket. As my stare roamed over his face, I noticed his strong features that were too well-defined, it almost seemed unreal. His eyes looked like ocean to me, just as blue, and just as vast. It felt like if I stared a little longer, I would've drowned.
He smiled at me, and I smiled back. It finally came to me, that right now, the man standing across me, is the most important man in my life –- my bestfriend, Damon. I'm very lucky to have him. We've been through so much together, and I'm very grateful for that. He makes me happy. I wanted to come up to him, and fix the rose, but as I was about to, the march started.
From afar, I saw Jenna. Words cannot express how ethereal she looked. It was not only because her white flowing dress fitted her perfectly, but because there was a certain look upon her face. The look that no one can ever buy, the look of contentment, beatitude and love all in one.
In a matter of time, Jenna and Ric were facing the cross. They said their vows and the song "Every beat of my heart" played in background. I listened intently to both, and the tears I was trying to stop, unexpectedly fell.
'Cause I don't know where your journey goes
Or how long It will take to unfold
"I take you to be my husband, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part."
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark
I will be watching over every beat of your heart.
Unconsciously, my gaze turned to Damon. He was looking at me with a smile. I thought that If I looked at him, the crying would stop, since he had been my only solace. But It didn't, I only felt more and more lonely. Maybe he noticed that, coz he slowly moved beside me. To my surprise, his hand took mine. He held it so tight, it made me want to bury myself in him. Then the priest uttered, "You are now husband and wife." and as if on cue, our eyes met. It was a magical moment for me, I wished it was for him too. I looked outside and had an epiphany about something I should have realized a long time ago. I have fallen in love with the man who held my hands tightly. The man who stood beside me. The man I would like to call my Damon Salvatore.
It had been a month since me and Stefan broke up. I miss him sometimes, but I no longer want his love or presence, or anything from him for that matter. Me and Damon have never seen him and Katherine, ever since. It made things easier for me, and maybe Damon.
Jeremy is coming back from boarding school tomorrow. The same time, Jenna and Ric will be back from their honeymoon too. Since I'd be alone at home, Damon will be sleeping over. He's protective like that, and I would have to admit that I like that attitude of him the most.
He will go straight to my house by 9 pm. I have cleaned the whole house, wanting him to maybe notice that. Because tonight is a very special day, tonight is the night I will confess to Damon that I love him, in a way I have never thought I would.
Damon Salvatore
I walked over the bar and tried to look for Elena. The witch told me she was here, and I figured I should pick her up, since it was almost 9 pm. I sat at one of the bar stools, wanting to grab whiskey. But my bestfriend wil sooooo kill me. And we wouldn't want that, wouldn't we? Coz she can definitely kill me. The vampire species is vicious, that's true, but I've gotta say, the Elena species is freaking deadly. I swear she'll be the re-death of me.
I picked up all the conversations in the bar, and soon enough I found her trademark always-melodramatic tone of voice. She was sitting a few tables away from me. As usual, she was amazingly beautiful, with her hair tumbled halfway down her back, emphasizing her honey eyes. The most enticing part though, was her smile. It was so innocent and pure. Isn't it kinda disturbing? I have been seeing her everyday the past month, and still, every single time I look at her, I get stunned.
Sometimes I wished I had Sookie Stackhouse's power, coz I want to read Elena's mind. I wanna know what she thinks of me. I hate it that I'm sounding a wee bit insecure right now, but I'm not. It's just that Elena's complicated. It's like with her, you'll never know. And that beats the hell out of me. I mean, I know I'm hot (and cocky), but sometimes, she looks at me like I'm this fragile little thing, like she could melt me.
What I don't get though is how she doesn't seem to be successful in reading me. I have been dropping incredibly obvious hints and clues. But God how slow she is! I'm totally in –-.. I'm totally in lov-.. Okay. Fine. I'm a little shy to actually blurt it out. But let's just say that uh, I'm totally into her. Seriously! Even if I'm her bestfriend, how many bestfriends in the world get tortured to save their friend? Ugh. I guess it's that whole bestfriends-move-to-the-next-level thing.
I walked towards my BESTFRIEND.(Yes, all caps.) I wanted to hug her from the back to surprise her, when another guy came to her table. He was a dark tall guy with brown hair and turtle-ish eyes, he looked extremely ugly to me. He held out a bouquet of flowers and gave it to my BESTFRIEND (All caps again.) Oh my F-ing God, is this a blind date?
It was actually reasonable, she had broken up with Stefan for some time now. Maybe he wanted to go out with someone new. But why choose the weirdo over me? Even Ellen Degeneres would say I am soooo much hotter. And better.
Just when I thought things couldn't get any worse, they hugged! What the fuck? This is seriously getting on my nerves now. Who hugs in a blind date anyway? You're supposed to get to know each other, not grapple each other. I've got to do something. No. Actually, I want to do something. I want to break each ugly bone of the turtle guy. She might kill me later, but fuck it. I don't want to have to watch another second of their encounter.
I went over to their table. I looked at Elena who was in shock. She almost looked like a girlfriend (Can't believe I just said that) caught cheating. The waiter was taking their orders.
I pointed to the waiter, "You!" he was startled, "Get a bucket of ice coz someone's gonna get hurt." I looked over the turtle guy, my eyes burning in rage.
Elena said something loudly, but I didn't listen. Instead I pulled her hand, and angrily said, "You. Come with me." She then stood behind me, I think I scared her. I heard her heartbeat fast. That's when I decided not to kill the turtle guy, she'd surely hate me for that.
Finally, I pointed to the ugly guy, "You," my voice more hostile than ever, "Appear on my face again and these flowers," I took the bouquet and forcefully hit it in the table, "will be on your grave."
I turned my back, the ugly guy was shaking as expected, and Elena was struggling to get off my grip, people were staring. When we were almost at the door, I looked back at the ugly guy and shouted, "And can I just say?" Everyone listened to me, "You look like a rip-off from Monsters Inc."
Elena was in rage when I said that. But not as angry as I was. I heard some people laugh loud enough to embarrass the ugly guy. Well, that's what you get when you cross Damon's Salvatore's girl.
Narrator
Elena felt rage run through her veins. She felt like she would explode any moment, she couldn't even look at Damon, scared that she might tell him something that she would regret. She put on the seat-belt, and tried to calm herself down.
But as if Damon didn't get that she didn't want to talk, he said, "Tell me that wasn't what I thought it was." His voice, spiteful. He was mad too, and Elena can tell just by looking at his arched brow.
Elena told herself not to lose control. He was probably just being himself, very protective. But he was sitting there looking so cocky that she lost her temper anyway.
"You know what, you don't even have the right to get mad at me. All of this was your fault! You were the one who made that mess!" She clamored.
Damon abruptly halted the car. He veered it to the side of the road. It was too sudden that the black sedan behind them almost went haywire pushing the brakes. Elena gasped in terror. She got even angrier now.
Damon then answered back, "I knew you'd get mad at me for this, but you're going too far Elena!"
I'm going too far? Elena yammered inwardly. For her, Damon was the one who was going too far. He was the one who just barged in to their table, not knowing anything about the guy or her. He didn't even ask her why she was out with someone in the first place.
"Who do you think you are anyway? What right did you have to threaten that guy?"
"Wow! Now you're protecting that guy! If you're so into him, then just fucking go back to him!"
"This is exactly what I hate about you, you don't even bother to ask me or let me explain!"
"Okay then! Now we both know that you Elena have hated me ever since! Guess what? I hate you too!"
Elena had never been this angry all her life. It was nothing serious and he didn't mean any word he said, but because it was Damon, the impact was heavy. She cursed endlessly in her mind, she was furious, way way furious. Before she could even think about it, she impulsively bawled, "You know what? Right now, I wish I never met you!"
Damon's eyes widened as much as Elena's did. She didn't mean that. God, she really didn't. It was out of anger. Bit by bit, Damon's face turned back to normal. He was no longer angry, but he was saddened. Elena had never seen him like this before. She wanted to say something to him, but pride got in her way.
Damon went back to steering the wheel, his face tensed. He wasn't looking at her, he wasn't even glancing her way. It scared Elena, is this it? Have she lost Damon? She wanted to cry at that moment, but she didn't want to carelessly make things worse.
A while ago, they were yelling at each other at the top of their lungs. It almost felt as if the people outside could hear them. But now, they were silent, not one word, not one look.
When they reached Elena's house, Damon got off the car first. They may be in a fight, but he's not going to let Elena sleep in the house alone. It was too dangerous. He swung the door open and checked the whole house.
Elena followed him inside her house. Her anger already died down, and she was pretty sure Damon's did too. She was staring at him, who was sitting at the sofa. She remembered that she was supposed to confess her love to Damon tonight. But first, she had to apologize.
"I'm sorry..." She said, waiting for Damon's response. There was silence. He was still sitting at the sofa, not replying, not even looking back at her.
She sat beside him, and touched his right arm which was resting on his knees. In a quick snap, he was standing up, his back facing her, and both his hands pressed against the wall.
Elena felt a pang of pain realizing that he refused to be touched by her. She was desperate. She needed him. Tears started falling from her eyes without her even knowing it. She said rather loudly, "Dammit Damon. I didn't mean that. I said I'm sorry!" She stood up and moved closer to him.
He still wasn't saying anything so she decided to risk it and gently brush his back. She took her hands off right away when Damon started growling. He hit the wall hysterically and left her in shock and extreme terror. When he stopped, she went to his side, wanting to see if he was alright. She wished she didn't when she saw his face in complete transformation. His fangs were protruded, his eyes pure black, and his veins readily visible.
Elena's shoulders raised on its own when Damon started yammering, "I fucking hate it Elena! I hate it! I hate you! You piss me off, then you make me laugh. You make me smile then you crush my heart. I can't stop fucking thinking about you! You run in my head like a marathon every freaking second." Damon continued in an angry rush. "And do you know how hard it is to restrain myself everyday to hold you? Or take you into my arms and kiss you? I like you too much, you make me go crazy! I'm fucking crazy about you! Dammit! Why don't you just fucking leave me alone?"
Elena took a step back, but even before he could walk out, Damon took a hold of his wrist and softly said, "Uhm... Uh,I take back the last line."
Elena couldn't stop herself any longer. This was it. This was what they both tried to keep for so long. She held Damon's hand, it caught him off-guard.
She held it as tight as she could then said, "You know what Damon Salvatore?" she cupped his face and looked straight onto his ocean eyes then continued, "I am already an expert of your twisted mind..." she brushed his face, "I know exactly what you're trying to say Damon... And I... I love you too."
Damon's face softened. His whole body trembled inside. If he had a heart,it would've definitely beaten out of his chest. There was deafening silence in the room for some time. Maybe it was only for a few seconds, maybe a few hours. They didn't know and they didn't care. Then in a sudden, Damon demanded, "Say it again."
Elena thought that the way he said was as if it was an order. It was as if he needed to hear it badly. So she said, more confident now, "I love you so much, Damon."
"One more time." His eyes met hers.
"I love you very-" Even before Elena could finish it, Damon grasped her face in his hands fiercely, she almost went off balance. Damon kissed her lips passionately and tenderly. Elena smiled inwardly as his lips met hers. She felt that that kiss had so much in it, she couldn't breathe. It was as if everything that Damon ever felt for her had been poured into one single action. She kissed back, making him feel the same way.
After what seemed like forever, with their lips parted and their sweaty foreheads still touching, Damon said, "Say it again."
"I love you so much! Too much!" Elena was gasping for breath.
"Say it again, Elena. Don't stop."
"I love you."
"I love you."
Elena didn't stop saying it even when Damon crushed his lips onto hers again. She still kept on murmuring it again and again. And it made her feel good. It made both of them feel good. It was as if they could never get enough of each other. In a sudden snap, they were already in the cushion of her bed. They were both sweating, both longing, both madly in love.
Author's Note : I hope you liked the way I had them confess to each other :) The next chapter is going to be fiery! Watch out! :) And if you guys have any requests, please PM me. :)
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