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Otis's POV

Sure, we had been roomies for a short amount of time but co-workers for longer, we were apart of each other. We were all family. It isn't fair that she had to be tragically killed. I don't know what we are going to do without her.

6 weeks earlier

"So Shay, who was the girl you brought last night?" I asked, turning to look at the paramedic who stopped eating and looked over at me.

"Why you want her number?" She asked, narrowing her eyes at me and turning back to her breakfast.

"If she has any straight friends, yeah." I said, leaning back in my chair as Cruz slapped the back of my head as he passed towards the kitchen.

"You wish," She retorted before Ambulance 61 was called away to man in distress.

She was the one who kept us all on our toes, she liked to joke and pull pranks. And she could drink us all under the table. We loved her though.

6 weeks later

It was the Chief's wedding day and since Herrmann couldn't "find" a church, as he claims. Though we did find a better venue...Firehouse 51. I mean everyone came it was great! Chief was surprised, the girls had done a great job with the decorations and the food.

Mills certified online to perform the ceremony so they didn't have to hire a pastor.

Everything was going great and then we received a call.

Abandone warehouse. 2 people inside. We quickly rushed off and grabbed our turnout gear before rushing towards the trucks and pulling down the decorations and jumping in before we all sped off towards our call.

On scene

"Truck 81, we're going in and completing a primary survery. Stay close." Casey called out his orders and we grabbed our oxygen tanks and followed him into the building with Squad 3 close behind.

We were heading towards the stairs to go up to the third floor where we found a man. So of course, we called in the girls. We waited with the patient until the girls got there when Casey filled them in before we headed up to the third floor while Squad 3 was already headed up to four.

Third floor

We were looking and heading further into the building and were on the stairs when BOOM!

Then there was darkness and silence.

1 minute later

I slowly opened my eyes and sat up groaning, as I heard the other men groaning to get up.

"Truck 81!" Casey yelled, as we all called back that we were fine and we started helping each other to get up, when we realize Mill's wasn't standing with us.

We all started searching and we found him. He had been knocked unconcious and he was slowly coming to but he yelled out in pain as we moved him, it was his leg. He had a fracture.

The call came through from Boden, "Has anyone heard from Dawson or Shay?"

We all looked at each other before Casey and Severide started yelling for them and back tracked to where they were last seen.

Herrmann, Mouch and I followed, just in case.

We found them right where we left them, the patient was gone but what startled us the most was Dawson doing compressions on Shay's lifeless body.

Severide ran over and they traded, Severide on compressions and Dawson on rescue breaths.

Casey looked at us and we knew it was over, so we walked over and much to their protests, we managed to pick Shay up and go outside to waiting ambulances.

Chief looked over at us and bowed his head, we had lost another one.

Lakeshore

We were all in the waiting room of Lakeshore, waiting to hear news in Mills when Chief walked in with what we knew was Shay's photo. For the formal identification until her parents could get here.

Severide was down the hall with Detective Erin Lindsay. Waiting for Boden.

Gabby looked up from where she was crying on Casey's shoulder and said, "I want to go with you."

Chief nodded and they made their way down the hall.

It wasn't till much later that they came back, both crying on each. Antonio and Matt grabbed them both and walked out, not wanting them to be here much longer.

My Apartment

I looked around at all the pictures from the picnics, the firehouse and Molly's.

I sat back on my lounge with my beer and I thought,

Why did it have to be you Shay?

Wasn't it supposed to be Always? Like you said.

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I'm sorry I haven't updated, we've had severe storms once again we are getting a battering.

With writing these chapters and POV's, I have cried with writing each chapter. I know what its like to lose your best friend/sister, as I'm sure all my readers do.

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This is my take on how Otis is feeling and the emotions he would have felt during this episode. Let me know which POV you would like to see next!