I don't anything!

Chapter 14

I was sitting in my bedroom looking over some stuff for school; I could hear my parents down stairs fighting. I took my control and turned up the music even louder. I highlighted some parts that I needed to know, I needed to pass this test. I jumped when I heard a bang; I looked up to see my mother standing in my room.

"I won't say it again, turn that shit off" I nodded turning my stereo off, my mother never liked my music.

"Sorry mom"

I got up grabbing my jacket, and headphones. I didn't want to be in this house, and the only other thing I wanted to do was run. There have been times where I would run so fast I thought I was never going to stop. Tonight was one of those nights; everything was getting too much again. I looked around and realized I ended up at the beach down the road from my place. I took a seat in the sand, trying to catch my breathe.

My parents loved each other, but there morals where so different. My father believed that we should be raised to love everyone, my mother wanted to raise us under the teaching of the bible. Every time we go to church it's like she makes me go to see if I get saved or something. I never did come out to them officially, but they do know I enjoy all humans. My mother really does not like that.

I watched the waves come crashing into the shore, something about it made me relax enough to hand back home. When I got onto my street I saw Ashley drive back in her car, I wonder if she had to work tonight or was visiting her friend. I stopped outside of her place, pulling off my hood.

"It's late why you are out here alone?" she asked, walking over to me.

"I needed to get out of my house"

"Should I ask why?" I shaked my head, looking at my house.

"Just my parents, I don't think they will ever be the same like before"

"Before?"

"They use to be so loving, now they are just cold and angry"

"Parents have a lot of their plates; it's hard enough to keep a relationship strong when there is a lot going on outside of that"

"How do you know this?"

"My parents went through a rough patch, and my dad told me that once when I asked why they wouldn't just get a divorce"

"Oh, I'm sorry your family went through that"

"I think I was the cause of the fighting mostly, I wasn't the best child to have"

"Why do you blame yourself so much, you're a teen you can explore?"

"I did more than exploring Spencer, I destroyed everything around me. I made my parents worry about me every second, and when I was home they were always making sure I was still safe"

"Then why did you do it?"

"I wanted to have some fun, I had some anger and I let it out the worst way"

"I understand, anyways I'm going to go finish my homework." Ashley nodded, heading into her house.

I sat down on my front porch, looking up at her bedroom window. Every night Kyla invites me over I spend it sleeping in Ashley arms. We never do talk about it, but maybe that's how it has to be. I think she is still searching for what she wants, as for me I am still searching to. I got up walking into the house, where I found my father drinking in the kitchen. I smiled at him as much as I could, and then walked up stairs to my room. I stopped at my mother's room; she was asleep in her bed. I continued into my room sitting on my bed, grabbing my teddy bear.

I wanted my family back to the way it was, where we all enjoyed are time together. When my mother and I use to spend the weekend shopping, and coming home to my father's cooking. They even use to come to my games, which stopped when my mother moved into another bedroom. Neither of them has sat me down to tell me what's going on, I guess they think I will figure it out on my own. I thought about asking them to just divorce anyways, but deep down I know they love each other a lot.

Ring Ring Ring

"Hello?"

"Why are you looking so down?" I looked over; Ashley was standing by her window looking over at me.

"Just think about stuff"

"Like?"

"Stuff"

"You know you can talk to me Spencer, I don't bite" I smiled.

"You just cuddle?"

"I only do that on rare occasions"

"Oh really, what a rare occasion"

"When it's you" I couldn't help but blush a little, she always had a way of words.

"I'll remember that, so how was your day?" I laid down staring at my ceiling, listening to Ashley tell me about her day.

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