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3 months later……
EPOV
"do I really have to go uncle, c'mon ill just hang out here!" fate wined just the thought of being near alice right now was terrifying shes only three and a half months pregnant and shes getting on everyone's nerves, she takes the pregnancy thing to her advantage and believe me its not pretty.
"don't say that, aunt ali has been hanging out to see you again" I replied. Pushing her out the door while i was at it.
"please uncle Christmas is in a week and a half I want to stay home before the big 'thing'" she wined wined emphasizing the word with her fingers in quote marks.
"you'll be back on Monday" i assured whilst ushering her to the car. she stopped dead in the middle of the footpath and turned to glare at me.
"are you ditching me for bella?" she asked curious. A few emotions ran across my face and I felt confusion and then realization, shock and then guilt. I love spending time with fate just like father daughter quality time, but bella has me in a taunt and I cant get enough. I feel so guilty that fate caught on to it I didn't think I was that conspicuous, I feel like a failure of a father.
"im not ditching you" I tried to assure her while rubbing her shoulders. She dropped her head and averted her eyes to the ground. Another wave of failure and guilt overtook me.
"it seems like that" she mumbled.
"hey" I tried to grab her attention and her eyes. She didn't move her eyes from the ground. "look at me" I demanded in a soft stern voice, she reluctantly pulled her head up and her eyes landed on mine a second after she raised her head. "why would you want to hang out with me anyway?" I asked rhetorically.
"cause I love you" she mumbled truth dripping her words, shaking my hands from her shoulders and turning to the car. I stood there shocked for a second, what just happened? Three weeks ago she all but avoided me like the plague and was bratty and angry at the littlest of things, she declined a weekend of theme parks and ice cream land! What was up with her? I mentally reminded myself to talk to alice about it.
I jumped into the car throwing a glance fates way, she was staring angrily out of the windshield with the mask I remembered as the concentration mask plastered across her face. What did I do?.
"im sorry" I admitted as I threw the car into reverse and sped down the road. She just stared out into the rainy weather and I thought that maybe she didn't hear me until she turned to face me with a huge smile plastered across her face, my face showed complete confusion, and she smirked.
"why are you appoligising?" she asked rhetorically. "of course I don't want to spend time with you" she stated and then turned back to look out into the rain, the smile completely gone. It didn't sound sarcastic but it also didn't sound true, or at least I didn't want it to be true?
I pulled up to alices curb and turned to at least ask her what was the matter. "fate-" she jumped out of the car and I watched her retreating figure pass the front of the car, I rolled down the window. "I love you!" I yelled and she turned to me with a smile that didn't quite reach her eyes, one of those trying hard to cotroll something smile.
"I love you too" she said. "always have always will" she added with a wave, I smiled brightly at her.
"have a great weekend" I said with a smirk, she frowned and her lips went into a hard line as she stared at the pavement. Then she looked back up to me with another one of her fake smiles.
"course" she said as she turned quickly but not before I caught the look of mixed emotions across her face, something of disappointment? Of hate? I couldn't place it but I was trying hard to decipher all the signs and figure out what happened between us after the short amount of time.
FPOV
I don't know why im acting this way, is it jealousy? Possessiveness? No. im glad and happy uncle has someone made for him and meant for him. I guess im just a spoilt brat, he isn't mine he isn't going to be there for the rest of my life, he loves her too. And this didn't bother me, but why was I acting like this? Hormones?
Or maybe it's the fact that josh, my Joshua, is moving away in less than a week, okay three days to be exact?
"finally" alice sighned rounding the corner from the kitchen and smiling up at me, I didn't smile back seeming to feel those sleepless nights catch up with me now, now I know why I was acting so stupid, is it the tiredness? "whats the matter?" she asked, I smiled up at her with my new found fake smile, and shook my head no. "oh well" she relaxed slightly, then placed her hand on her slightly bumped stomache and smiled down at it then back at me. "I was thinking maybe we could catch a spa and massage this weekened?" she offered grabbing my hand and pulling me to the sitting-room.
"no thank you" I declined, she turned to me with a frown.
"what?" she asked shocked.
"Its that time of the month" I lied wagging my eyebrows twice, she 'oh'ed then frowned at me.
"I thought we get our periods at the same time?" she asked radding me out. "and if I wasn't pregnant I would not have it until at least another two weeks?" she continued, I lowered my eyes to the nice sofa material hiding my eyes from her.
"you still keep track of your period though your pregnant?" I asked sarcastically smirking at her, she smirked back then raised her eyebrows knowingly and I hung my head again.
"whats the matter faye? Why are you lying to me?" she said softly whilst raising my head to look her in the eyes, I shook my head thinking.
"im sorry, I just didn't want to disappoint you and your offer. But im not really up for doing anything this weekened" I admitted, she frowned at me sadly.
"I heard about the bicks i-" she started the one topic I didn't want to talk about.
"I think I might stay at ems sometime this weekend?" I kind of asked, she shut her mouth noticing I was trying to avoid the subject and nodded.
"well I still want to go check out the massage" she said chipperly trying to illuminate the sad atmosphere I created, but failing miserably, it was kind of jasper who eased the awkward of atmospheres, not psychic alice. "maybe you can go over today so I can shoot to seattle?" she offered.
"I was supposed to spend time with you aun-" I was trying to argue but she cut me off.
"ah" she warned. "ill call em now, go get some clothes for the weekened and ill drop you off" she smiled politely.
"you sure?" I asked.
"positive" she assured. "my back is starting to kill me" she added with a arch of her back, we laughed and I went to gather clothes for the weekened I came down the stairs to see a fully ready alice with a complete designer outfit finished off with kneehigh boots and a scarf, I looked totally plain in my faded blue skinnies and elbowlength buttondown with one of my most exspensive black jackets that flowed down to my knees, even my exspensive puma hightops didn't near a fight with her outfit.
We pulled up to emmetts and alice didn't part with her usual 'no boys allowed' but rather with a 'I love you, be carefull'. And I planned on taking that to my advantage. I rung the doorbell and Emmett threw the door open wearing a brilliant smile.
"x-box buddie" he sung and I laughed as I made my way into his living room and slumped down on the sofa. "hey I hope you don't mind but I need to shoot to the store for a couple….things" he mumbled from his head in the fridge, I laughed and he smiled sheepishly at me. "you don't mind staying here for half hour maybe?" he asked hopefull.
"course not, im used to being a loner" I assured him and he smiled a toothy grin at me.
"rose is at the office, you now her number if you need it, and if you need anything you got my number to-" he was giving me the 'emergencie number talk'
"I know em ill be fine" I assured him he nodded and then parted to the store. I rung josh and invited him over, it took some convincing that em wouldn't care but after I gave the 'im never going to see you again' speech he obligated.
Josh and I were watching the legally copied dvd of our favourite movie avatar, he was lying slightly on the end of the sofa and I was lying in front of him. Then Emmett burst throught the front door, and josh pushed me to sit up but I swatted his hands away and just lay there across his chest I could feel that he was slightly stiff scared of what em would do, I giggled slightly and he pinched my sides in a menacing manner.
"so rose is gonna kill me but as long as your happy im sure she wouldn't really care" Emmett was blabbering from the kitchen. "you like chocolate ice cream right?" he asked and I remembered it was joshs favourite and no need to tell him my fave was strawberry.
"yea of course!" I yelled over the sofa sitting up, josh gave me a questioning stare and I smiled then winked to him. He shook his head disbelieving.
"that's good cause four tubs of my fave ice cream never goes good with rose" he sighed the fright of what rose might do to him if all the ice cream was just for him disaperated. Emmett popped his head from the freezer and stalked toward the sitting room. "wha'chu watchi-" he stopped short when he saw josh beside me, he raised an eyebrow up at him. "well, well isn't it joshy boy?" he asked wagging his eyebrows in my direction while staring at josh with a cheeky smirk.
"mr. McCarty" josh said with a smirk raising his hand for em to shake, Emmett raised his fist instead and josh pound his fist to his, both smiling hugely. I looked from josh to em confused at the exchange and Emmett laughed a harty laugh slumping in the lazy-boy chair.
"I coached the football team this year" Emmett explained motioning toward josh. "hes got a fast pair of legs on him there faye" he added with a smirk. We all laughed and I was no longer confused. Emmett didn't seem to care about joshs presents in his house so I was relieved and I relaxed into joshs arms again.
"the movies avatar" I answered emmetts interupted question. Emmett wiped his head to me.
"avatar? How'd you get this one?" he asked.
"my brother is a computer freak" josh answered and Emmett laughed again throwing his head back in amusement, he had this thing with nerds.
We watched the movie and chatted happily, completely demolishing two and a half of the tubs of ice cream. Josh left before midnight promising to see me on Monday when they left, so em and I decided to hit the sak.
Sunday flowed by uneventfull, I woke at one in the afternoon sleeping up to my last late nights, and em and I just lounged around watching dvds josh left and playing x-box.
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Monday came and I made my way to joshs house, I was holding myself together pretty well at the moment so I was quite proud of me. But when I saw the two moving trucks outside of his house It hit me, the realization of that loneliness that is coming.
I sat with him on the lawn for a while and when joshs mom came out to say goodbye to me I knew it was nearly time for the final goodbye. I assured myself that crying was stupid, so I held it together and hugged the famly. Alex-joshes little brother- came up to me with his dog, it's a small black and white yorkie, its adorable shes so cute I love her heaps. I smile down at alex as he sets indie down in front of me. I bend down and hold her small frae in my hand stroking her softly.
"um..yes fate I have a favor to ask" mrs. Bicks stammers, I stand looking at her confused.
"not really a favor cause I know youll want to do it" josh corrects, I raise my eyebrow at him. And he laughs.
"faye I want you to have indicator"-yes that's her name, josh and his older brothers inside joke-"cause she doesn't like aeroplanes and traveling much, and she loves you heaps." Alex was puppydog eyeing me. Wait what did he say?
I looked at josh with shock confusion. "yes faye can you take care of indie for us?" he asks serious, I looked to mrs. Bicks witht the are-you-serious look. She nods.
"like…really…keep her as like…my…dog?" im stuttering, josh laughs.
"yes" alex says bouncing up and down. Im shaking my head cofused and contemplating with myself, I love her but would I look after her okay. "please" alex begs grabbing onto my shirt in an overdramatic manner. I smile at him and shake my head baffled.
"of course I will" I assured and alex jumped up and down. Beep, beep. I guess its time to go now. Mrs. Bicks runs me through the basics of looking after indie and then offers me a ride home, I decline saying I would like to walk back with my new dog. So I stood there with the puppy and leash in one arm and oversized bag of doggy assentials in the other, I waved them off with my puppy hand then sulked off in the opposite direction towards home.
Indie is running around me in a playfull way when I realize I haven't asked for permission to have a dog, does uncle like dogs? Damn it fate. Only then did I realize how dark the sky is. Holy crapydoodles I didn't even tell uncle that I was going out, shit and hell be home in another..i look on my phone…shit, hes ben home about an hour now, ohh shit. I pick up indie a run toward our house.
I hope im not in too much trouble. As I round the last corner to our drive I see that aunt alices and aunt rosalies cars are in the driveway. Shit. This means im in trouble, I stop and try to steady my breathing. Okay what to say….i step up onto the porch and take a calming breath. I can hear muffled yelling from inside straining my ears to hear I catch that its uncle ed and uncle em arguing and often a high pitched voice adding in. I contemplated wether or not I should knock put then decided against it slowly turning the handle and pushing it open.
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