Okay, so a recap of the first 12 chapters is that Tony finds out about Ziva being pregnant because she gets sick and goes to the doctor once Tony puts the doubt that she might be pregnant in her head. Ziva tells only Tony, after spending the night together (only sleeping) Tony, Ziva and the rest of the team are called to a crime scene where the muderer left a note on the body saying that someone in NCIS will die soon. Gibbs then assigns everyone to pairs, Tony and Ziva, Abby and McGee, Jenny and Gibbs, Ducky and Palmer. Ziva passes out while in Abby's lab ans Tony gets Ducky to help. Tony tells ducky about the baby. The marine killed at the crime scene (Lt. Goodwell) had the exact same mark as the man who raped Ziva. McGee found out that Eli David, Ziva's father, wrote the notes that were at the crime scene. All partners (who Gibbs assigned) go home together. While eating pancakes at Tony's apart Tony is shot. Gibbs gets a call from hospital saying Tony and Ziva was brought in. When McGee and Gibbs arrived at the hospital Ziva is a mess. Gibbs now knows about the baby and Tony not being the father. Ziva shares Tony's hospital room with him. McGee connects Hasara to Ziva. Ziva explains who Jacob Hasara is to Gibbs and Tony. Ziva tells them Hasara raped her. Tony and Ziva go to the doctors appointment. They see picture of baby. That night Ziva goes to get ingredients to make Tony dinner, even though she not supposed to be alone. On way home from store Hasara runs Ziva off road and puts her in take hospital. Tony and Gibbs are about to receive news from the doctor.
So....i hope u enjoy this chapter......thanks!!!!!
"Family of Ziva Daivd?" The doctor asks as he walks over to Tony and Gibbs.
"It's us" Tony tells the doctor.
"Okay, I have some good and bad news. The good news is that is alive and ok, the bad news is that... the baby was lost." The doctor ends in a quiet nush.
Tony gasps as the news settles in, Ziva is ok, but the baby is not. Taking a deep breath Tony turns toward the doctor.
"Does Ziva know about the baby?"
"Yes, she was just informed"
"Where is she?" Tony asks in a hurried voice.
"I'm sorry sir, you cant go see her right now" The doctor replies.
"Where is Ziva doctor? You are not going to tell me whether I can see her or not. Now I ask again where is she?" Tony says in a menacing voice.
"Um, she is in room 520" The doctor tells Tony, now a little scared of Tony.
"Thank you" Tony said briskly as he headed off to Ziva's room.
Gibbs looks at the doctor smirking as he watches Tony almost run down the hall. Before Tony reaches Ziva's room, he prepares himself. This is more her loss than it will ever be his. Tony knocks softly on the door as he makes his way into the room. He sees Ziva laying in the bed staring at the ceiling, her eyes rimmed in red. Tony cautiously makes his way over to Ziva's bed. Ziva's eyes are ones of pain and desperation. Any other time Tony would have made his way onto the bed and held Ziva tight, but he didn't know how she would react tonight. He slowly say down on the side of her bed and silently reached out to stroke her cheek, his eyes cautioning Ziva the entire time. Tony's hand touched her cheek and Ziva broke down. She began to cry, sobs rocking her body. Now with out a second thought Tony climbed further into the bed gently taking her shaking body to his lap. Ziva instinctively relaxed and formed herself around Tony's body. Tony held her small body tight as she cried, tears silently falling from his eyes. About 30 minuets later Zivas' body quit rocking with sobs. Tony noticed she was about to close her eyes to sleep. Seeing this Tony began to rub circles on her lower back, away he knew always made her sleepy. Tony held Ziva Tightly as she drifted off to sleep. Minuets later after he knew she was sleeping for now Tony closed hes eyes and willed sleep to come.
Tony and Ziva had been asleep about 4 hours in each others arms before Gibbs made his way into Ziva room. The sight Gibbs saw as he entered Zivas room broke his heart. He saw Tony and Ziva entwined in each other, both trying to make the nightmare go away. Gibbs knew he should call the rest of the team, but since no one else had knew about the baby, Gibbs figured that explaining why Tony and Ziva were so upset should be done by them themselves. Gibbs silently made his way over to the chair beside the bed and sat down to wait on his agents to wake up. Gibbs had been sitting there about an hour and a half before Tony began to stir. As soon as he remembered where he was Tony stopped all movement to make sure he didn't wake Ziva. Still not noticing Gibbs in the room Tony lightly stroked Zivas cheek, removing hair from her face in the process. Gibbs was shocked when he saw the amount of love Tony's eyes showed when he looked at Ziva. Gibbs shifted in his chair, trying to make a noise to alert Tony that he was there. Tony immediately looked in Gibb's direction and saw him.
"Um...Morning Boss. How are you?" Tony said his voice still groggy from sleep.
"That's the question I should be asking you DiNozzo" Gibbs replied quietly.
At this Tony averted his eyes away from Gibbs' probing ones and gazed down to look at Ziva. Tony continued to look at Ziva, his eyes losing focus the longer he stared. Gibbs was quiet while he let Tony figure out his thoughts.
"I will be fine boss, it's her i'm worried about. I know she will be okay but I hate to see her in this kind of pain. When she first found out about the baby she was ashamed and happy. She thought that everyone would treat her differently whenever they found out about the baby, not just the fact that she was having a baby, just the fact that the baby came from her being raped. Boss, but through all of the emotions she was feeling about having her rapist's baby, she was happy that she was going to be having a kid, boss everyone else didn't see her whenever she let her guard down. She was so happy....and now all of that is gone. How can she just lose the baby like that, I mean one minute she had a baby growing in her and then that baby is gone." Tony finished with a defeated look on his face.
"Tony, the only thing I can tell you is to just be there for her. I remember what it was like when I lost Kelly, it was the hardest thing I have ever had to do."
"Thanks boss." Tony said sincerely.
Tony and Gibbs sat there in silence until Gibbs' phone rang. Gibbs quickly answered the phone hoping that it hadn't woke Ziva up, but it had. Gibbs saw this as the opportunity to let Tony and Ziva talk about everything that had happened.
Once Gibbs was out of hearing distance Ziva spoke up.
"Tony I...." She trailed off not knowing what to say.
"Do not, do not even begin to think that this is your fault" Tony said sternly, lovingly.
"But it is Tony, I should not have been out, I should have paid more attention, I should hav-" Tony stopped her rant by putting his finger over her lips.
"There is nothing that you could have done to stop this from happening Ziva. Things like this happen, and I am not saying that it should have happen, just that it did. I wish to goodness Ziva that there was someway I could go back and change it, but there is not." Tony told her.
Ziva waited a few minutes before she spoke again.
"I feel so empty now Tony" Ziva said in a small voice "I feel as if I am missing some important piece of me."
"And for that I am so so sorry Ziva" Tony said, his voice thick with unshed tears.
Tony tucked Ziva tightly into his side, offering her comfort along with himself. Ziva took this comfort without question, burying her face him, inhaling the scent that is just Tony. They lay there gaining and giving as much comfort as possible from the other.
Gibbs walked back into the room hesitantly not wanting to interrupt any part of their conversation. Once he noticed that neither one of them were not talking he walked further into the room. Both Tony and Ziva acknowledged a person walking into the room, but Tony was the one to lift his head to see who it was. When he saw that it was only Gibbs he laid his head back down and told Ziva softly that it was Gibbs. Watching this exchange as he made his way to the chair where he was sitting earlier, Gibbs was once again surprised by the level of trust Ziva put into Tony.
As Gibbs sat down Tony shifted himself and Ziva so that Ziva was laying more on top of him, but still slightly facing Gibbs. Tony figured that as long as he had some kind of physical contact with Ziva they would both feel better.
"The team knows that Ziva is in the hospital because McGee traced her phone last night, but they will want to come and see Ziva, and explaining why both of you look like yall do might be hard unless they know about the baby" Gibbs said softly, fully knowing that losing the baby was the last thing they wanted to be explaining to someone.
"Boss, could we...um..have a minute to talk about this?" Tony asked.
"Yeah" Gibbs replied as he exited the room.
"What do you want to do Ziva?"
"I do not want to tell everyone about the baby Tony, especially since...since there is no baby now" Ziva said, her voice breaking.
"That's fine Zi, whatever you want to do" Tony assured her.
"Okay" Ziva nodded her head.
"Boss!" Tony called out loud enough for Gibbs to hear.
"What have ya'll decided?"
"We don't want anyone to know about the baby" Tony said.
"Okay then. Do you want to see anyone or what? I spoke to the doctor when I left earlier and he said that Ziva should be able to go home in a few hours if nothing changes" Gibbs told them.
"Thanks boss and as far as seeing anyone, I will leave that up to Ziva" Tony said.
"I do not wish to see anyone right now Gibbs" Ziva said softly.
"Then I will call everyone and tell them to just see you whenever you two get home. That okay?"
"It's fine Gibbs" Ziva said.
"Well I am going to go back to headquarters and work on the case some more" Gibbs told them as he left.
Once Gibbs was gone Ziva snuggled closer to Tony and drifted back off to sleep. Tony just held Ziva wishing the doctor would come and release Ziva so that they could mourn in the peace of one of their apartments. Moments later Tony was asleep.
I am officially on my winter break now, so im hoping to have some more time to write. There will be more Jibbs and McAbby in the next chapters. PLEASE REVIEW!!!!!!!
Sam :P