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So I still don't have a laptop but I managed to get my old computer up and running. It's very slow and outdated but lets me write so I managed to write another chapter. It's not great because as I said before I lost all my work but I tried. There will be some more exciting chapters soon.

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Bella POV

Soulmate?

What the hell does that mean?

Two souls recognising each other...love at first sight...that kind of thing just doesn't exist.

I couldn't have heard her right...yeah that's it...but then again what sounds like soulmate? Hmmm.

Great now i'm actually trying to think of words that rhyme with soulmate...yeah, cause that's what's important right now.

I figured I should probably voice some of my thoughts, the less crazy thoughts of course.

I focussed my eyes on the goddess in front of me and what I saw broke my heart. The look on my face probably made her think I was rejecting her whereas in actuality I was just confused. Her eyes held unshed tears and she was looking anywhere but me.

I squeezed her hand that still held mine, "Rose I...I'm not sure what I'm supposed to say. I mean...soulmate. It sounds like something that exists in only the movies. I never thought of it existing in real life, that you could actually meet a person and realise they were the love of your life from one look."

She didn't turn her head, she look like she hadn't heard a word I had said, "Rose please look at me. It's just so overwhelming, to have someone say something like this to you. How can you be so sure?"

She finally turned her head so I could see her beautiful face, her golden orbs still filled with unshed tears.

"I just know, Bella. You are my soulmate, from the moment I met you, from the moment I saw you across that cafeteria I had an inkling. I have never met someone so beautiful, passionate and..."

She was interrupted by laughter, one that I recognised and what sound like clapping. I heard a low growl erupt from Rosalie's chest but brushed it off...I was used to wierd around her now.

I turned and came face to face with...

"Hannah." I whispered.

"Surprised to see me? Yeah well I sitting in my best friends house, who just died if you remember, when I realised it had been over an hour and you still hadn't showed up. So naturally I started to worry so I borrowed my mom's car and drove here expecting to find you crying over your mom's headstone when instead I find you hand in hand with this skank who is talking about soulmates."

She motioned to Rose when she said 'skank' and even though I knew she had every right to be upset I was a second away from slapping her for calling her that. "This is just priceless it really is. Soulmates, really? You know Rose, "She focussed her attention to Rose now, "You didn't have to make up such bullshit, you could have just asked her to open her legs for you, I'm sure she would have happily obliged."

This time a loud growl erupted from beside me, "How dare you talk about Bella that way, about me that way. My feelings towards Bella are very real and very strong." Rose explained, I could feel her emotions running off her.

Hannah started to laugh again and that was when I decided I had had enough. "Hannah, listen I told you a few week ago that I had no romantic feelings towards Rose and I believed it at the time. I believed that you and I would last forever and so I fought so hard to make the feelings that began to develop, disappear. I love you Hannah, I do, but my feelings for Rose are just as strong, maybe stronger. I'm so sorry this had to happen, you have no idea how sorry I am." By now both Hannah and I were crying. She had lost her anger and was now staring into my eyes with a heart breaking expression.

I walked up to her so I was now within reach. I just wanted to wrap my arms around her, she was still my first love, I still loved her and I would do anything to take this pain away.

"Bells you can't do this to me. You told me you didn't like her like that, you promised." She fell to her knees, wrapping her arms around her waist. I couldn't stand it anymore so I knelt down and gathered her in my arms. She buried her face into my neck, "I love you Bells, please don't leave me."

I held her tighter. How can this be happening? Love isn't supposed to be like this. I love Hannah so much yet I know that if I let Rose go I will regret it for the rest of my life. I don't think I could ever be friends with her and I think we both know that these so called non dates were obviously going to be just that, dates. On the other hand I don't think I had the strength to let Hannah go. Seeing her just now made my heart shatter and I knew now even though I have chosen Rose, Hannah would always have to be part of my life. She was my best friend and first love.

Talking of Rose...

I turned my head to see that she was standing in the same spot as before, still as a statue. Our eyes met and I could see the love in them but also the worry. She thought I had chosen Hannah...

Just then Hannah pulled away and looked to me with watery eyes.

"Bella...please." She stared into my eyes for about ten seconds and then shook her head and once again buried her face in my neck. I heard her take a deep breath and then she pulled away and stood up. I mimicked her actions and stood before her wondering what she was thinking. She wiped her tears away and gave me a small smile.

"Bella, I know you love me, I can see it in your eyes and I love you too. I know that you tried as well to fight your feelings but I think I always knew unconsciously that you had feelings for her. I just denied it, tried to convince myself that you didn't. When you look at her it's so obvious how you feel, I'm stupid really to think I could ignore it and so are you."

To say I was shocked at the end of Hannah's speech was an understatement. Was she just going to let me go after all this time? It's not that I wanted her to be upset and hurt but if it was the other way around I would have probably punched Rosalie by now in the very least.

But then she said something that made all of this make sense, something which made me realise that I actually would be doing the same thing as her if our positions were switched.

"I just want you to be happy, even if its not with me." She stated.

"Hannah...I just don't understand. I mean I know you want me to be happy but if the positions were switched I think it would take more than an hour to let you go." I expressed my confusion.

She shook her head, "What's the point in getting angry when I know it won't do any good. It hurts, yes but you love her."

"I love you too." I stated.

"You love her more."

"..." I couldn't reply to that because lying now would do no good.

She then looked to Rose and glared, "If you hurt her I swear to God I will hunt you down and kick your ass from here to Florida."

Rose just nodded, mouth agape. I think she was as shocked as I was to see her so understanding about the whole situation.

"I should go." Hannah said as she began to turn to walk back to her car.

I grabbed her hand and pulled her into me, holding her tightly and she did the same. If I had known the last time I held her, kissed her, would be our last I would have mentally saved the picture. After a few minutes we pulled away from each other, reluctantly and she leaned in until her lips connected with mine. It was a goodbye kiss as far as our relationship went but you could also feel the love poured into it. She pulled back, tears in both of our eyes and our foreheads touching.

"I'll always love you Bells."

"I'll always love you too."

She kissed my forehead chastely and ran off in the direction of her car.

I couldn't hold in my tears any longer and let them fall freely down my face. I felt Rose hovering behind me and when I looked at her I saw the love, guilt and sorrow in her eyes. I could tell she wanted to comfort me but thought better of it. I was glad for that, I felt bad enough as it was without being held by the girl who had come between Hannah and I.

I faced her fully. "I'm gonna go..." I whispered but before I could turn around she grabbed my arm.

"What?" She asked, she look afraid. "Please, Bella..."

"I just need some time to think. Don't worry, you can't keep me away for too long." I smiled through my tears. I held the hand that she had been holding my arm with, brought it up to my lips and kissed each of her knuckles. She smiled at this and nodded.

I took one last look at my mother's grave stone and walked off to my car thinking about how much had happened since I sat down in front of it and told Rose of my most painful day.

Rose POV

As I watched the love of my life walk off I couldn't help but think about how good of a person Hannah was. I didn't want to hurt her, I didn't want Bella to be the one to hurt her. She didn't deserve any more pain in her life. The kiss they just shared, even though my inner monster was screaming out to rip Hannah's head off, I knew it had to happen. The love they shared was clearly strong, the way Hannah looked at Bella and vice versa showed me that if I hadn't come along they would be together for a very long time, maybe even forever. If Bella had stayed with Hannah she would have had the perfect life. She would be able to get married, adopt some children, or even have her own and grow old together. With me she won't be able to do any of them things except for marriage, unless of course she chose to become one of us, then we would get the forever part.

I hunted on my way back home and when I returned I saw Alice and Esme standing on the doorway.

Alice must have seen what happened. As soon as I reached them, Esme had me engulfed in a warm hug. I relaxed into it, comforted by the motherly love that wrapped around me.

"How are you feeling dear?" Esme asked, eyes full of love and worry.

I nodded, "I'm doing okay, I just feel so guilty." She walked me into the house and we sat in the lounge area, Alice followed behind.

"Hannah told Bella to be happy so she basically gave her to me and told me if I hurt her, she would in her words 'kick my ass from here to Florida'." We all laughed at this but I took her words seriously, I would never intentionally hurt Bella.

"So you two can be together now." Alice announced, happily.

I gave her a small smile, "I hope so but I'm not going to rush her. Even though she isn't with Hannah anymore I know it's going to take time for her to enter into a new relationship. You could tell that she still loved Hannah, she's very upset. She told me she had to think for a while." I explained.

Alice's face fell slightly but she still kept a smile on her face, Esme nodded and gave me another hug. When she pulled back she said, "Well even though it will take some time, she will be in your arms soon."

I smiled at this. This was the only thing keeping me going, the fact that when everything settled down and Bella forgave herself, she would soon be in my arms...and I didn't plan on letting her go.

Alice's face glazed over into a vision then, so Esme and I sat patiently for her to return to us. After a few minutes she gasped and looked to me frantically.

"What is it Alice?" Esme asked calmly.

"It showed Bella, on a beach talking with a girl but then it switched to just Bella and a guy. He looked angry, he was yelling at her. She looked scared Rose, you better go, she might be in trouble." Alice said.

"What beach Alice?" I asked quickly.

She went back into her vision, probably to search for any signs as to where the beach was.

"Alice!" I was getting frustrated, Bella could get hurt. I shuddered at the thought and pushed it from my mind.

She came out of the vision once again and said only two words, "La Push."

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