Wanting What You Can't Have

Chapter 14

"Now Peyton, sweetheart is that anyone to talk to your first love." Julian said, as he walked closer to the couple.

"What are you doing here?" Peyton said, as she moved in front of me. Like she was trying to protect me.

"What can't a guy drop by in see his ex-girlfriend?" He said, giving her a wink.

"How in the hell did you even know where I was?"

"Because, people back in New York talk, I heard you moved to some small pathetic town in North Carolina, I was driving up state, and decdied what the hell, I'm going to check out this guy I hear that you were very happy and so in love. I had to come check out the poor loser who actually wants you."

"Don't talk to her li...

"Luke, it's okay, please let me handle it." Peyton said,

I just step back clearly confused to what the hell was going on here. The guy who treated her like piece of meat and drugged her best friend, and raped her best friend was standing here in front of us. putting her down and she actually tells me it's okay, What the hell?

"Yeah, Luke, mind you own damn business."

"Look, why don't you just go back to where ever you came from and, leave me and, my girl alone." I said, surprise Peyton didn't interrupt me this time.

"Your girl, huh? " He smiled, as his eyes raked over, Peyton's body. "Yeah she has nice body, doesn't she?" he smirked,

I was getting pissed by the second now. Especially as I watched him check her out.

"Gorgeous legs, nice ass, flat stomach, small breast, not that I'm complaining, they fit right in your mouth. Peyton loves getting her breast sucked, Did you know that?" He said, looking right at me.

"What do you want?" I asked, as I pulled Peyton back behind me. I wanted to be the one to protecting her.

"Oh, I sorry man, I guess you guys haven't gone that far. " He said, still smiling and I wanted nothing more than to knock that damn smile off his face.

"Julian, leave!"

"You know Lukie, you can tell her you love her till your blue and the face or blue somewhere else" He laughed. "She will never let you and her pants, she is a fucking tease. Always has been, she clams she wants to be married and all that jazz before she gives herself to someone, But it sure didn't take her long to jump in the sake with the next guy, hell her best friends boyfriend took her virginity. That ashamed don't you think Lukie."

"She was hurt because her boyfriend, cheated on her and drugged her best friend then raped her. I know all about what happen. Peyton told me everything,"

"Well, good for you Peyt, Always doing the honest thing huh?"

"Come Luke, I want to go home." Peyton said, as she turn around, Looking at me with tears in her eyes. She looked like she was about to break down. And I wasn't to sure why. I had a feeling Julian knew something I didn't and Peyton didn't want me to fine out.

"Yeah sure." I wrapped my arm around her in started to walk towards the car. We both ignored Julian.

"I bet she didn't tell you everything." Julian yelled, "Did you babe? Hell, I didn't know tell Josh told me. "

"What is he talking about?" I asked, as we climbed in the car.

"I don't know, please let get out of here." She was crying now and biting her lip.

"Peyton, you kn...

"Lucas can you please take me home, please." She cried.

"Yeah, I'm sorry."

As we drove down the road towards her house, she continue to cry, as I continue to wondered what the hell happen. We pull into her drive way and I turn off the car. We sat in silent for a while. I wanted to question her again on what Julian was talking about, but I didn't want to push her. I figure she would tell me when she is ready. That was one thing I learned about her over the past months. You never push her to talk till she is ready.

"I'm sorry tonight got ruined." I said, as I reached over for her hand.

"It's not your fault." She whispered, as she wiped a few tears away with one hand. She was tightly holding my other hand.

"Peyton, baby, you know you can tell me anything right?" I said, as I pulled her closer to me.

"I know" she whispered, "I just, I need time Lucas, I can't do this right now, " she looked up at me. "I do, love you, I do,"

"I love you to." I said, as I kissed her. "I'm so in love with you."

"I should get inside."

"Yeah, I guess." I said, kinda disappointed that she didn't trust me enough to tell me what Julian was talking about. "You going to be okay?"

"Yeah, I just need some sleep." she smiled, but I could tell it was fake, that's how well I knew her. "Lucas, tonight was prefect, the best date of my life. Thank you so much."

"Your welcome, and we will have plenty more great dates, I promise."

"I hope so." she then lean in giving me a sweet innocence kiss, that I quickly deepen. A few seconds later, we pull apart. "I love you." I whispered again, I had to tell her just one more time before, our night came to a close.

"I love you to," She said, as she quickly kissed me again. Then opened her door, "I'll call you in the morning, "

"I'll be waiting."

"Goodnight Lucas."

"Goodnight baby,"

She smiled one more time at me, then slowly walked into her house. I sat there for a while, wondering what to do, Do I go fine Julian and beat the living hell out of him, till he tells me what it is that he knows, that is tearing my girl apart? Or do I let it go till she is able to tell me?

Peyton's Pov

I was thankful mom and dad were in bed when I walked in the house. I didn't need them to see me crying, I slowly walked up to my room. Close the door, turn on the lamp and, the radio, keeping it low, so I didn't wake them. Then pulled out my phone,

"Hey girl"

"Hey,"

"Peyton, whats wrong?"

I smiled a little, Haley could always tell when something was wrong, that's why she is my best friend. "Something happen tonight,"

"What? Did Lucas do something, Cause I swear to god I'l...

"Haley, It wasn't Lucas," I took a deep breath. "Someone who shouldn't be here in Tree Hill, is here"

"What?" she asked, completely confused. "Who?"

"Julian?"

She was quite for a moment. "Julian...Juli, as in Julian Baker,"

"Yeah"

"Why? what does he want?"

"I don't know, but somehow he found me tonight while, I was on my date with Lucas,"

"What did Lucas do?"

"Nothing really, I mean he told him to leave me alone, he was getting upset, but he didn't hit him or anything, like he probably wanted to. I think he is just as confused, as I was. Wondering why he is really here. and all"

"Where are you now?" Haley said.

"I'm at home, I convinced Lucas to bring me home early. Haley Julian knows."

"Julian knows what?"

"Julian knows everything, I don't know how. but he knows."

"Did he tell Lucas?"

"No, not yet, but I'm pretty sure that's why he's here. I don't know why, this has nothing to do with him. What happen was between Josh and me. I can't believe Josh would tell Julian." I was crying again.

"Me either, So what are you going to do?"

"I guess I have to tell Lucas, huh?" I asked, her in shaken voice, "I don't want to lose him Haley, I love him." I cried hard.

"I know, honey, but he does deserve to know the truth, from you not Julian." Haley said, in her concern voice. "Look, how about you ask Lucas to come to New York with you for Christmas break, and you tell him here. Don't worry about Julian, I'm calling Chris right now, once Chris finds out that Julian is causing you problems again, he will have someone take care of him."

"Okay, I will asks Lucas in the morning, thanks Haley. I love ya."

"I love ya to girl, and remember Lucas loves you to, And Peyton what you did is forgive able, Lucas would understand."

"I know, goodnight Haley"

"night Peyt,"

I hung up the phone and climbed into bed, I laid there staring at the ceiling, Wondering if Haley was right, could Lucas really forgive me for what I did? Till this day I still have trouble forgiving myself. I messed up my life by making this choice.